4th thing i've missed out on damn it

 Konbanwa~~~

I was tired after my work out last night, but stuck to doing just 2 videos, I had a bath and did a full pamper session of body scrub, hair mask, face pack. Yup the bath water was grim! I did galaxy nails too

I fell asleep pretty fast, I woke up 10mins before my alarm and tried to sleep for those few remaining precious minutes but I needed a wee >.> so i got up

We dropped Oz off at mums, when I was taking him from Jack's lap I saw how much fur he left behind, think he is starting to shed his fur. Therefor his new carrying case - when it arrives - will be a godsend as he can travel in that and shed his coat all over my car interior!! Also if he travels with that he has the option of who brings him home - me or mum.

School was ok, it was easy biology wise, and i did go hid out in chris's office a couple of times as he was by himself all day and all week in fact. I did help julia with a massive sorting job it took me like 2 hours which is quite depressing as half the students i know wont look at what i have sorted out to give them. revision material for exams. Id be grateful but hey im 16 and know better XD

I was quite tired and achy tho, my stomach had been off in the morning and it left me with stomach pains and sicky feeling. I did get to have an actual cup of tea tho as someone had baked brownies in science over the weekend and kindly brought them in, so thats the 4th thing ive missed out on in less than a week! sod this im having a tea! which i enjoyed ^^

Mum txt to say she had been over to my house and collected Oz's carrying case and she would bring him over to us! it was really nice of her to do it :D

so when we got home mum arrived about 2 mins later, she sat and had a brew with us. Oz had treats inside whilst we had tea.

Mum left so i could do dinner which was burger and chips. everything hand made of course. jack, who usually cuts up the sweet potato for me was taking an age in the bathroom so i cut it up and banged it in the oven then made the burgers which came out ok. I grilled cheese on top of jack's burger ^^

I let him do all the clearing and washing up I was done I needed a break. I sat with the massagers for 15mins on my back which was nice and needed, then the 15mins on my calves killed me and hurts to walk now!

Jack came sat with me whilst I looked for birthday gifts for my dad which is less than a month away. Think I have sorted now. Then he went to game so I got my Oz out. He has frisked me for every snack and treat going, and is still hungry so I will take him home soon hes been with me an hour now.

Then I will crack on with my exercises I guess. Only doing 2 videos I think tonight but its still a good 30min work out. Don't wanna wear myself out for the rest of the week of work :/

School tomorrow

not got much going off again at school really, its revision mainly so nothing in the way of practicals 

Good thing is Julia made it into work today after her covid jab yesterday so i am sure she will be in tomorrow also :)

mum and dad survived the covid jab

 Evening

I was so done last night, I dont feel like  I was paying much attention to inuyasha I was just ready for my bed! I slept really well and needed my alarm to wake me for the food shop. We got there on time tho and the shop wasnt too bad, its nice to be in and out like ninjas.

On the way home I called in at mum's gave her a hug and handed her some roses for being so brave with her covid vaccination and she looks after Oz she was very happy, then I got back in the car

We came back and unpacked then sat with Oz inside with a brew, hes been in loads today XD

Jack helped me cut stuff up for my soup which I then left bubbling, I went to clean Oz out, he loves being cleaned out X3 I came in and finished my soup then had that with jack for lunch.

After lunch I cleaned the bathroom then we filled out the census thing everyone has got to do, then we went for a good walk. 

I got back and was exhausted, it was 2:45pm and I brought Oz in and had a tea with him. We then had Oz snoring on the floor, Jack played his switch and I fell asleep curled in Jack's dressing gown. And thats where we stayed for an hour! Its like the 3 of us were just done XD

I took Oz home and started to do some dinner, we had fresh salmon and chips like every sunday. But I flavoured it different and it was damn good!

jack cleared up whilst I sat with the massager and then he had a go with it, bloody brilliant.

I got my stuff ready for school tomorrow, new uniform! and new cardigan!!! ^^ 

Currently I have my Ozwald in, he has had so many treats today, so much fuss and a lot of time inside with us but I love spending time with him and just watching him ^^

I was gonna do some drawing or painting today but I ran out of energy hence the sleep earlier! so i am a bit disappointed I didnt get anything creative done today but I got some done yesterday I guess.

I will take Oz home soon and do my work out, promised jack I would only do 2 out the 3 as I am quite tired and we did a good walk.

Then I plan to do face packs and hair packs :D and my nails. I like having a pamper before my grind of work for the week.

tomorrow is work :/

Julia has had her covid vaccination today and she says she feels ok so far but she will let us know how she feels tomorrow if shes coming in, a lot of people have been poorly with it. Luckily my mum and dad seem to be doing ok. Just have sore arms. I really really dont want to go and have it!!! but it will be a way off yet.

so hopefully we have julia tomorrow or me and Jack have quite a bit of chemistry to do!

Got all my jobs at mum's done

 Evening

I did my work out yesterday did all 3 videos which I think takes it to 40mins, i was exhausted and a bit dizzy from it all and so i had a warm bath not a hot one as  i didnt want to push things!

After my bath, jack had the bath and it was quite late by the time we sat down to inuyasha so i was in bed for 11pm, I woke up at 6:30am thinking "god no" then 7:30am thinking "nah"

it got to 8:30am and I got up as I didnt want to waste the day and I was seeing mia at 9;30am, she turned up on time and we went to take the dogs for a walk which was nice as the weather wasnt too bad.  It was good to have a female to talk to as well.

I got back and didnt bother taking my shoes off as I went straight over to mum's

I got there and had an actual cup of tea with her which was amazing

I did my weekly weigh in which I was pleasantly surprised to see I was back at what I was 2 weeks 64.2kg, not complaining as long as its coming off slowly. 

then I got to work!

I cut the guinea's claws and they were all squealing at me even tho i didnt nick any of them. mardy sows today they were.

 I then Did my brother's hair. we are still unable to get a hair cut and my brother's has gotten so long he cant do anything with it. So I took jack's clippers over to the side then i cut and blended the top for him. I have given him a cracking hair cut, it doesnt even look like a home job. mum was impressed and he was grateful

Then I had my lunch which i took over

then I did my mum's nails i did a nice spring design on them for her. she was pleased with them, once they had dried a bit i dyed her eyebrows for her as she had tried the other day and hadnt managed it

Then I finally was able to sew my new uniform! I added lace along the bottom and a small yellow bow on the back, simple and cute~

my massager arrived 30min before I left so I let each of my family have a go they were impressed, mum and my brother want one XD

it was nice to spend time with mum and my brother. They appreciated my hard efforts

i came home and a bit of a rest with jack and Oz

then I went outside with Oz to paint my garage door which I have managed to do! took me 40 mins but looks good i took a photo. i got quite cold in just a t-shirt tho.

I came in to thaw out, we watched an episode of black cat and then I laid on my bed for 40mins as I had exhausted myself. 

I did the dinner, we ate that and then Jack cleaned up whilst I sat, I got Oz out and went on my laptop whilst he had a big wash. I have managed to buy a new carry case for him! its been used once and I got it for £14.30! instead of £30-£40 they seem to be. So thats good ^^ also bought another skirt, its white with cherries on :3 I bought a bralette as well.

Now I am still with Oz an hour later! I will take him home shortly as I need to do my exercises. I can see the start of a 6 pack! Jo is getting stronger and more toned! I am trying and I am still enjoying it but I know I want to tone more or lose more. Not happy yet. But it is nice being able to look in the mirror at myself once again :)

Then I will bath and sit with jack later to watch inuyasha

I have had a productive day today tho :) Jack has done all the chore I have asked of him.

I need to upload photos on to my diary but I keep bringin my laptop downstairs so I can sit with Oz and do my diary.

Tomorrow is chore day

I have the weekly shop to do in the morning, Oz to clean out, soup for the week to make, bathroom to clean. then I have the rest of the day to do as I wish :3

Menopausall? blood test for 9 things

 Evening

I was in bed for 10:30pm, absolutely dead, I also slept like the dead 

before I did my exercises tho, I was stuck on the toilet for 40mins feeling like i was gonna be sick. To be honest I wasnt sure which end it was gonna come out of. I stripped off as I was covered in sweat. 

I couldnt be bothered to get up this morning, still half asleep

We dropped Oz off in his carrying case. His carrying case is 20 years old as it was mum's friends case before I had my first rabbit back in 2005 I am thinking of buying a nicer LITER one as we use it 5 days a week now. Oz's is hard to do up and heavy. but served its purpose as I originally used it just to take my rabbit vets once a year for a vaccination. So I will look for another but they are not cheap!

At work I did some printing in the morning. It was only 8:45am and I had same sensation as last night of going hot and feeling very sick. Like when you get shed loads of saliva in your mouth. I tried to talk myself out of it but then my legs went weak so i rang jack saying "i dont feel well" he came with julia a few seconds later. they helped me back to the prep room. where I tried to recover. it got to 11am and I had done nothing. I couldnt get off the floor as i couldnt raise my blood pressure. My heart was going out of rhythm and i felt dizzy every time i sat up. I was useless.

i started to feel better after lunch. jack had been giving me sitting down tasks but after lunch i was able to stand up and help julia. I soon felt tired again tho. I was very very frustrated

I got home and mum kindly brought Oz round for me :)  I was happy to see my lad

I sat having a cup of tea with mum, she offered not to stay and to go home but shes gone to the trouble of having Oz then bringing him over, i can sit and have a tea with her.

I soon had to go to the doctors tho >.>

last week getting diagnosed by the nurse with asthma, she said she thought i was starting the menopause, so today i went to see the doctor like she told me too. he didnt seem concerned and seemed to think its my mental health....my mental health causes night sweats? load of bull.

however he is testing me for the menopause. I have to come off my pill for 6 weeks tho. as my hormones need to reset. He is testing me for a total of 9 things. thats gonna be a lot of blood ><

not looking to it but hey its 6 weeks away

i came home with Jack and i rang my mum and ranted to her about it. Jack over heard and came to see me when i was off the phone and said "so from what i over heard, i have tonight to bang you then im back on porn am i?" i laughed and told him he is terrible. he said he would be using big boob and big butt porn as i cant provide that....i laughed. he did it on purpose. men are pigs XD

so yeah thats where i am with that!

we had food then I helped do a few things then got Oz in. I need to take him home in a sec and do my exercises. I would like to do some form of exercise even tho i am tired.

tomorrow

ahhh tomorrow a day of doing whatever i like!

however....

my brother wants his hair cut as he says its a mop and cant get it cut for at least another month cus of lock down. my mum wants her eye brows dying and maybe nails done. the sows want their claws clipped. I want to go over and sew lace on my new uniform! do something for myself! but it will be nice to see them. I want to paint the rabbit silhouette on my garage back door. I am also seeing mia at 9:30am for a dog walk! so nice productive day I guess~

shiatsu massager

 Evening

I managed my exercises and was in bed for 9:45pm I was just done!

I slept so deeply and needed my alarm and couldnt seem to wake up, almost fell asleep again. Which isnt like me.

All day I feel like I have had no energy and just plain drained

found work really difficult

but what did make me happy was head of biology brought in this plug in shiatsu massager she got for her back this week for me to have a go with. it was friggin amazing!! i just sat there in a trance and she left it with me today so i used it 3 times. i felt things click on my back and i put it on my claves which hurt and they have hurt since, they must have been tight!

Head of science brought krispy kremes in today, doughnuts for all. all but jo

I missed out on cadbury chocolates on tuesday

chocolate bars on wednesday

doughnuts today!!

life is so damn cruel T^T

head of science said "Jo make sure you grab a doughnut!"

i said "im on a diet, its well skank"

he said "Jo make sure you grab a doughnut, then put it back" >.>

he told us at the end of the day for jack to take my doughnut home, so jack is having it for breakfast.

mum kindly brough Oz over for us as I was so tired. she wasnt gonna stay for a tea but jack insisted, kinda good job as i would have just fell asleep on the bed then i wouldnt have slept tonight.

just so tired

havent done much to be honest, i tried on a 'large' skirt a brought online that came today, i could get it on but it was quite indecent XD the new bra fits but i cant totally fill it T^T

jack used our 2 £5 vouchers head of science gave us the other month to buy a massager from amazon and we got it for £24 in total as there was an offer on too!!! Jo is very happy :D he had a go with it today and was sold, but most of all he saw how happy i was with it XD

gonna do my exercises now

but jack has put his foot down and doesnt want me doing loads

so i compromised and said i would only do 2 out the 3 exercise videos

so i shall start those!

tomorrow is finally friday

feels like it should have been friday today! ><

just another day x 1000

 Evening

I managed the work out again last night, think i did the moves a bit better but still took me a minute to get my head round some of the moves. I had a bath afterwards then Inuyasha then bed.

I slept pretty well again :)

This morning we were a bit late leaving as we had the stew to put on and we hadnt allowed enough time for it basically, I did last week but not this week. Took tired last night XD

School was ok, I was struggling for breath on a few occasions simply from anxiety and tight chest and running around. I used the inhaler a couple of times. I got my 2 practicals done and dusted and I will fully clear them up tomorrow as the last class made such a mess of my equipment i couldnt face clearing it up. I did other bits and pieces like once again cleaning up the prep room, with Jack busy I was able to through out a fair amount of junk. So it is looking better in places.

We left on time and jack drove us home, mum was already home and waiting for us :) we had a cup of tea with her and Oz played in the garden.

Didnt have to do much with dinner apart from cook a yorkshire pudding for jack that was it, clearing up took longer!

Just with my Ozwald who is happy bun bun

I will do my exercises once again and bath and inuyasha and bed, the routine. It is helping me to sleep tho I have to say.

Tomorrow is school, feels like it should be a friday but its only thursday :(

arse ache

 Evening 

I can confirm I have arse ache!

I was in bed for 10pm I was so tired and grateful that we were in bed early. I decided to lay next to jack, usually I lay close to him but last night i was on his side of the bed whilst he played on his switch. When I fall asleep I tend to turn away from jack and go to my side of the bed but not this time, I stayed facing him and on his side! I had literally dropped off in like 2 mins jack said, I was just done I think! but I didnt move away even whilst asleep, so I ended up waking up caked in sweat from being so close to jack, jack had also gotten hot and had next to no room on the bed so didnt sleep well. I said "why did you wake me or push me?" he said "cus waking you isnt good, you ache and stuff and you were cute so i let you sleep"

This morning we dropped my Ozwald off for day care he's had another nice day, mum sent me a photo of Oz on top of the girls run whilst they were in it XD

School was ok, I only had 1 practical and it went well because its probably the most easiest one I ever do for A-level! but i helped out in class anyway. I did a fair amount of cleaning up in the prep room as well cus it was getting messy and getting on my nerves.

I napped on my lunch break tho which was much needed. I sorted out my new mangastudio too.

Came home and got Oz mum had him ready for me to collect she had sat with him on the sofa fussing him for 10mins then passed him to me when I arrived, I appreciate her having him, hes not alone and get fuss and looked after. Instead of being in a cage all day. We didnt call in for a tea cus I needed to get back to do dinner which was hard work, i had windows open, back door open, tshirt on it was only 12c today but doesnt stop me sweating buckets. I had sweat running down my face whilst I ate my dinner. Just grim isnt it. 

We had loads of pots to do after dinner, chores to do as well. God its 7:15pm and not stopped since I walked in the house 3 hours ago. knackered. Just with Oz now inside bless him.

Tomorrow is school and mum is gonna bring Oz over here for when we finish school so i wont need to collect him and she can have a brew here

tonight i plan on doing the same exercises i did yesterday

3 videos totalling up to 40mins and i dont think i did them that well yesterday as i was getting to grips with the moves but got there and developed arse ache very soon after finishing! had arse ache all of today, shows it uses different muscles doesnt it. I want to keep going with it.