setting the fire alarm off for the second time

 Konbanwa~

I wanted to get on with my evening and do my exercises but ended up dying on the toilet for half hour last night which felt so unfair. So i didnt finish my exercises and climb in the bath til 9:20pm!! well late but jack was playing with harvey and theo til 10pm anyway so i couldnt have gone to bed any earlier any how.

I was so tired last night, but for whatever reason it took me til 11pm to get to sleep then I had a rather disturbing and deep dream. I dreamed of two young east european guys that went round killing or hurting people with a hammer and a rusted blade. They got their mother involved in the murdering and thats when my alarm went off but took me a few seconds to wake up enough to shut it off whereas usually i hit it in the first second - im quick

I didnt die on toilet this morning which was nice, I was able to bring Oz in for 20mins and have breakfast with him, normally i sit inside and watch him in the garden but I felt like eating with him and I had gained time. We dropped him off and went school

School was quiet for me. But it was cold. It was a cold morning and school didnt have the heating on. It makes me feel unwell after a while and I was on the floor in a ball. Jack found a small fan heater so put that on in the office, made me tea and it did revive me. But it leaves me feeling drained for a while

Jack wasnt too stressed this morning which surprised me after yesterdays explosives - that he is still waiting to hear from. However...He needed to train the 2 trainee teacher on 'thermite' I havent ever personally seen thermite as I missed it in my first few months doing the job, the next year we went to do it we went into lock down so this year I wanted to see it. For those who dont know what the thermite is about its basically a fire work that makes a small molten metal sludge ball at the end.

so we went into an empty lab and got to work. It was me julia, jack and 2 trainees. Jack set it up and talked us through it. I can tell he loves it >.> such a nerd. One trainee asked "does this set the fire alarm off?" He said "no no it doesnt usually". He then stuck two unlit sparklers in the powder and said "once this is lit you need to move away, fast. It can happen and spark fast. Who wants to do it?" I shot my hand up saying "ill do it!!" then turned to see if the other 3 wanted a go but no one wanted to do it! Julia was like "youre fearless Jo" I said "nah im just naive" so I went to the chemicals. One trainee started to record on the science camera so we had a video version. I went to light the sparklers using camping stove burner thing (bunsens we not behaving) and then briskly walked away.

we watched the chemical reaction take place. It was like having a fire work in the classroom/lab. I can see why we had to be 4 metres away. It finished reacting and we walked over to go look at the molten metal it had left behind and thats when the fire alarm went off -_____- second time we have gone to record a practical and the alarm has gone off. So someone is coming out on thursday to look at them as they shouldnt keep going off like that. However it was a really nice sunny day so no one complained too much at us. 

I got the day done some how and then we went to pick Oz up, he was sat with truffle on the sofa with us ^^ mum and jack had a brew but I didnt want one. I forgot to have one when I came home too! >< 

I came home and Jack let Oz into the garden. I went to put Jack's pizza in the oven and then warm my stew through. We had dinner and Jack cleared up, I sat outside with Oz in the sun. Then just been on my laptop. Going to go sort stuff out for tomorrow then I will do my exercises. I plan on starting a new exercise challenge on friday. I was gonna change it anyway but choly ting brought a new video out yesterday which works well for but I havent actually seen how much is involved yet! might be crazy hard yet!

tomorrow is school, but also a special day for me and Oz

tomorrow is our 4 year anniversary!!!

dealing with explosives

 Evening

I did my 2 exercise videos last night, had a bath and just as I came out the bath and finished moisturising, jack  appeared from his study, so that was good timing. He finished early so therefor we got to go bed to early! I had managed to wind down by treating my face and hair then did my nails. Which didnt come out as well as I liked but theyre better than nothing

I slept well but getting up felt very much like sunday morning, it felt like I had missed a day of my weekend somehow. Couldnt believe it was monday already --_____--

But got on with the day. Mum reported that Oz was fine, we both missed him this morning i have to say

Hes just such a part of our routine ^^

School was quiet for me. I didnt have a rushed busy day but I did keep myself busy. I recorded a practical with a trainie teacher. I did a recording last week too with Luke. Feel like camera woman. I got printing done for after easter - i will probably be given more printing to do tho! I assisted jack with writing down the chemical 'wish list' then towards the end of the day an A-level practical was happening. It involves serious chemicals. They were told how to dispose of the chemicals but some bright spark literally poured it all into one jug, effectively making an explosive. Jack panicked at the news. Had to ring our chemical hot line basically that provides chemical support for all the UK high schools and college. They were like 'yeah you need to ring chemical disposal ASAP' so jack did. We need to have this lovely little bundle professionally disposed as we cant dispose of it ourselves due to its explosive nature. This is a service we have got to pay for and it wont be cheap....They said they will collect it in the week. Cant be that dangerous if theyre not coming ASAP. but jack bottled it up, sealed it, and put it in a fume cupboard. but he was MASSIVELY stressed. Like I stayed well out the way.

I drove us home as I knew his mind was else where.

I collected Oz and brought him home to the garden to chill out as he was a bit stressed. by the time we made tea and got dressed he had calmed down and i brought him inside whilst we had tea, so he could destress Jack. 

I made jack a good dinner and he did chill out. Hes playing with theo and harvey now. So im glad to have some ME time alone. I have been tense for hours I feel.

I ordered some nail varnish online as I want a few colours, and I have a brand of nail varnish that i like the colours the it peels my nails, so i must bin them really.

Tonight I will do my 2 exercise videos. Then bath then inuyasha, the usual

Oz is snoring in front of me so I will take him home to bed >.> hard day Oz?

Tomorrow just school. 3 days to go!

My Bunny Door

 Evening

I managed 3 exercise videos last night, had my bath and had a hot chocolate! made with water not milk but I enjoyed it ^^

I slept ok and needed my alarm for shopping as clocks went forward today so we lost an hour of sleep >.>

we got up and went food shopping

As soon as  I came home mia was setting off so I didnt  have long but got everything packed away

Me and mia went for a dog walk that last 90mins simply cus the dogs wouldnt stop sniffing everything and eating every stick, barking at other dogs. Makes me glad that I can go for a walk without a dog. Would never have a dog. But it was good to see her and have a catch up.

I came in and had a tea then did my soup, whilst it cooked I cleaned Oz out who still finds it just as amusing as he did on day one. Here is his garage door that I use every day to get to him~

It was a chipped white door with a silver rusted handle now look, I love it

I came in and had my soup as I needed warming through, then I went to bed. I just had nothing more to give to be quite honest! I was done. But even after my sleep I cant say i felt any better for it. Much to my disappointment. I got Oz in the booted him outside to do the bathroom. Then I rounded him back up to take over to mum's. Dad and my brother were taking the hutches out the shed. So Oz was investing the shed as it might as well have been a brand new shed how much he was checking it out....

I had a brew with mum then spoke to mum and dad about the carpet. Dad doesnt think we should have expensive carpet. He worries we will get sick of it, and says our doors will need planing off as the carpets wont go under them. Luckily he had ordered a planer today XD think he saw the problem coming! 

I came home without Oz, mum is having him tonight to save me time in the morning but I will miss him. I told jack what my dad says. But jack wants to go ahead and have expensive carpets and says hes used a planer before and will do the door. He took it all so well. Like were talking more work and expense here but he wants to do it?....very odd behaviour for jack. I said Im happy for whatever as whatever we do i need help with. Some doors dont go smoothly over our carpets now so whatever we have the doors will have to made shorter.

we did the dinner which was nice. Usually when its our fish and chips night I cook salmon and sweet potato but i complained to jack that salmon is getting boring so I found smoked haddock today and it was really good, jack enjoyed it.

He cleared up and I got stuff ready for school. I also looked at nail designs as I plan to do my usual sunday night pamper, so hair oil, hair mask, face mask, nails. I have more time to do it without Oz too. So thats my night once my exercises are over. Must say I can not be arsed! I was gonna do 3 videos but I did a walk so I will just do 2 videos I think. Need to get through school no point in killing myself off before the week start!

Tomorrow is school, not staying at mums after school I need to get back and do my meatballs, so I will collect Oz and come straight home. School should be quiet

reached 5kg mark!

 Evening

I managed 3 exercise videos last night and had a bath which was really nice, I then put a face sheet on, laid on the floor with the massagers doing my calves. It was good. and thats how Jack found me XD

He had the bath after me then we watched inuyasha and went to bed at 11pm

I slept well cus I was dead! But I woke up at 6am then just before 8am. I decided to weigh myself, I thought I hadnt lost anything but I had just got my numbers wrong. I had in fact lost almost a kilogram in a week. But I am not surprised with how much I have been to the toilet this week. So i probably wont be able to keep the weight off, it will be back next week! but it did mean I had reached the 5kg mark! so in my diet so far I have lost 5.2kg in 2 months. Im happy with that. I do look and feel so much better my tummy is a lot flatter and toned and my legs aint so flabby.  I got ready and went to mum's for 9:15am I walked over and it was so chilly!

she made me a cup of tea and we sat with the girls on our laps. The men were out the house so it was just us two and I think mum appreciated that. We just sat and chatted really. I left at 10:40am as the carpet lady was coming at 11am

I got back and she did come at 11am

she brought so many samples!!! we talked together whilst she measured our house. We want almost the whole house doing. It is cheaper to do it all the same colour - to have it all off the same roll. So we are gonna do that as its flooring, we're not that arsed. But ours looks gross and the underlay has totally gone so theres no padding to it anymore. Its just hard cheap carpet.

Me and jack chose the most expensive of everything! he was happy to go with it. It worked out the same price to have the whole house done with premium than to have different colours in each room with lower quality. the underlay we have gone expensive too as it preserves the carpet. She is going to do us a quote and get back to us. she talked to us about our porch as I said Id like it redoing and she said shes happy to do it but our floor where it meets the wall isnt 90c its like curved and thats why our current crappy carpet doesnt sit flush with the wall. she said if we chisel it away and make it 90c she will happily do it. so we chose flooring for that just in case we can actual chisel our concrete floor. job for the easter holidays! we  booked to have our carpet june 2nd I believe. but see what the quote comes back at yet.

I had lunch as soon as she left as I was hungry! then I had a sleep as my body was just tired.

I woke up and was hungry and tired. i had nothing in the house tho. we went out to B&M and got a few bits, i got some nuts. We went B&Q and got garage paint. I went with light bluey purple as I think it will look good with the design in mind. but also the bedroom above has grey curtains with stars on it which will look good with it all, the bedroom next to it - my craft room - will have blue walls so it will all look good together

we came home and i snacked on my nuts then did dinner as i was hungry

dinner poisoned me, i was in a ball with stomach pain for half hour

now I am back with Oz, before dinner he came in and got food outta us now hes frisking me again for sodding treats and food! its pure harassment! I brought a couple of skin care things online

I will do my exercises shortly as well then have a bath. not sure what I will do afterwards as I will have to wait for Jack to finish with harvey and theo. He asked me to talk to them but I might be too tired for that by then.

tomorrow

I am doing our weekly shop then coming back and unpacking, hopefully getting done for 10am for when Mia comes over and we go for a dog walk, just hope the weather isnt as cold.

then I will come back and make my fish soup for the week, clean Oz out whilst it cooks, then have soup for lunch. Clean the bathroom. Then at 4pm I am going over to mum's with Oz to have a brew with her and maybe the pigs. I will leave Oz with her then, saves me a job monday morning. then dinner I guess

Just 4 more days to go

 Evening

Last night Jack finished at 9pm with harvey and theo which I was rather glad about as I felt like I squinting just to keep my eyes open, so we watched inuyasha and went to bed. We were in bed for 9:45pm I told jack to leave me alone, I was comfy so I didnt want to be touched and I had nothing else to give so I didnt want to talk or listen. Did not take long for me to fall asleep. The alarm was needed. I'd had a horrible dream that I had gone to have the covid vaccine, I am dreading that needle. Just cus I keep seeing people around me have it and are quite poorly for a day or two. I hate needles and I hate being more poorly than I am now! But I know realistically its the lesser of two evils....

School was very quiet for me. I got all my work done, all my printing and I managed to read a chapter of my body book too :)

Mum sent a nice picture of Oz playing outside next to the girls. I must take some photos off my phone but I have been using my laptop downstairs for 2 weeks now, my cables are all upstairs at my desk. My desk that must be collecting dust now! 

She said she had made too many cookies (no such thing) and that she has some for Jack. She said "im sorry so ill give you some strawberries!". I offered to come collect Oz but she said she hadnt been out the house today so she wanted to come over for a change of scenery.

We finished school and a science teacher gave us cake from his birthday. i said I was on a diet so didnt take any. So jack has been given birthday cake and home made cookies today >.> 

We got home to find mum had just arrived, we had tea with her and Ozwald. I had my strawberries.

for dinner it was left over stew thank god as I was too tired to do anything. Mum said I looked a bit pale. After food I fell asleep on the sofa, with Oz in the room >< Jack had gone to game but i think I was only napping for half hour. Jack is playing dungeons and dragons online but says he should be done 9pm. I died on the toilet whilst Oz was alone and he was on the computer.  Dont know what had upset my stomach now, honestly this diet doesnt feel worth it at times!

Mum had brought her scales over, i usually use on a saturday or sunday morning but i thought i might not have chance for my 'weekly weigh in' time so she let me borrow them. I was suppose to be going for a walk with mia tomorrow morning but she forgot i have the carpet lady coming and arranged something else so shes coming over on sunday. So tomorrow i will go to mums - typically she needn't have brought the scales - and then come home at 11am for the carpet lady. Have lunch and do whatever really. I havent actually planned my weekend! Sunday I will see mia in the morning then do my chores I guess. Hopefully I will get some rest time over the weekend. I need it.

Only 4 more school days to go before we break up for 2 weeks for easter~ 

Bit stressed in new carrying case

 Evening

I managed 2 chloe ting videos last night and had a good bath afterwards, it was just the perfect temperature somehow. Jack had it after me and enjoyed it too. We watched Inuyasha and went to bed. I was so done. The alarm was much needed XD

This morning Oz travelled in his new carrying case, he was abit stressed in it and was scurrying the sides. but its because it was new he will get use to it. I had put it in the living room for him to play with yesterday but he wasnt interested. So I tried to show it him but he wasnt arsed >.>

I had died on the toilet that morning ether which was nice! I kept food in for a change!

I have still been peeing a fair bit tho today.

School for me was better as I didnt feel as drained as I had done all week. I mean i still didnt feel 100% by far but felt better than what I did. I had an easy day. But then everyone kept handing me stuff to print T^T and julia and jack needed a lot printed too so I volunteered to do it as I set the printers going, stay there and just keep taking finished work out every so often and topping it up with paper. I was reading my body book between all that. I had a good lunch. I struggled with the heating being broken -_____- I had my coat on most of the day! Just so damn cold, what with the doors and windows open....

We left on time and jack and julia was grateful I had done all their printing. I had also printed out 29 A3 sheets of paper with an outline of a wolf on it, I plan to selloptape it together and then cut it like a stencil and maybe stencilling it onto my garage door - when I have painted it. Our house directly faces the close/street when you pull into it so it would be good if i could make it look decent. I have the ability to artist I will use this ability!

I went to pick Oz up, jack had a tea with mum but I thought I would wait and have one at home with pain killer as mum didnt have any fruit teas in i like. we only stayed for half hour. Oz was a bit stressed coming home and weed in the carrying case which isnt like him so I had that to quickly clear up as we came home. It was only in the carrying case but I wanted to get it up before it soaked through.

We got on with dinner, I had omelette and chips. mum gave me some chicken she cooked on tuesday so i had that with my dinner, jack had junk food out the freezer. He is playing with Harvey and Theo tonight. I am just with Ozwald, he isnt doing much now hes found all the treats jack hid for him.

i will do my 2 video work outs which is only 30mins but its enough then grab a bath.

Tomorrow is friday. Thank bloody god. Need a break!

New carrying case for Oz

 Evening

I managed 1 exercise video yesterday as its only 10 mins long and requires sitting down. I went for a shower afterwards as I had had enough of being hot so I didnt fancy a hot bath

Me and jack were early sitting down so watched 2 episodes of Inuyasha then went to bed. I would have gone to bed after 1 episode but felt i wouldnt have been able to sleep at 9:15pm

I woke up at 6am needing a wee, as it actually hurt. And my god it went on for ages, made my eyes water XD So then as it was early I pounced on jack and woke him up, he asked for 5 more minutes but i told him we needed to get the stew on anyway so he got up. It was a good job we were up early as my stomach decided to rebel. So 3rd day in a row I am stuck on the toilet dying. I havent digested food properly for 3 days now. Shattered!

We took Oz over to mum's and went to school

School, I just wasnt feeling it again. I could have quite easily have not turned up. I just felt so tired and drained. I couldnt think straight and just wasnt in the mood for it all.

I spent a lot of time on the floor ether resting or reading. Ether way  I dont feel I have pulled my weight but Jack told me not to worry as I had prepped all my lessons. I sat at the end of the day painting. School finished at 1:50pm so teachers could get home to do their online parents evenings. I asked jack if we too finished at 1:50pm but no such luck. However he did let us go home 15mins early as no one was in school.

Mum very kindly brought Oz over and a lot of packages for me! 2 skirts for work and Oz's new carry case. Its too good for that spoiled bunny! But it should be a lot more easier to carry him in it as its more flexible and a bit smaller. I have let him sniff it and put treats in it but he simply stretched inside and grabbed the treats without actually going in it >.>

We had a brew with mum and then mum left so I could serve up my thai stew at like 5pm XD I get earlier with dinner but its because I am hungry and I dont have much to snack on other than fruit.

I sat with the massager after dinner and left the clearing up to jack.

I am now just sitting with Oz, hes happy boy but also quite lazy XD 

I might do a bit of exercising in a bit then have a bath or shower, I shall see how I feel.

I can not believe how much I have peed today. I went for a wee 8 times at work thats like once and hour! and im just the same at home! whats up with me! I would be interested to see how much water i  have shed today especially given that massive wee this morning. I had no idea I could hold so much water. Wonder if I have lost any more weight this week.

Tomorrow is school, same old really. Nothing of interest going off.