Just exhausted on my first week back

 Evening

Last night both me and Jack did yoga! It was a first, and it went well we did a good half hour. Jack actually did really well. His body cracked a lot like it was protesting XD

We had baths and then watched Inuyasha together and went to bed, I didnt take a sleeping tablet but I was out like a light. I was tired.

I could have easy gone back to sleep after my alarm this morning but school awaits

I struggled to get Oz, I made him jump and he ran behind my cabinet in the garage so I couldnt get him. I put my shoes on and as we were leaving I thought I would check where he is and if he was in the same place then I would have to leave him and txt mum to ask her to collect him in a bit but he has stepped out of it so I scooped him up and took him mum's. Bunny is more stress than its worth! 

School was difficult on me. As once again my pain killers did nothing all day. So I am cold and in pain and it took such a toll on my body. I think I slept for half hour in the corner I just couldnt function. I felt awful that I had done that but I guess its that or go home for the entire day. 

The whole day I was tired tho I had a few people say I looked tired, cus I was!

I managed to get a fair bit done tho but not as much as I liked and it stressed me out but Jack is there to calm me down and lift my spirits.

We collected Oz from mum as I didnt want to stay or have her over as I couldnt be bothered to speak. So we got home, I had a lot of pain relief, a sweet cup of tea and laid out in the warm sun on my picnic blanket. I had Oz hopping on it a few times X3 

We did dinner which didnt take a lot of doing then I laid on the sofa conked out really jack had to wake me otherwise I wouldnt sleep tonight >< I am now inside with my Oz who looks as tired as I do

I will do a few exercises when he is home but not much as I am not up to it!

Tomorrow

is friday and thank bloody god! I have a lot to do tho as Julia is going to a funereal so shes not in, we are covering for her, I am also having ago at another A-level practical but its with Luke so theres no pressure XD

Jo did science!

 Evening

I did 30mins of exercise then went for a bath, Jack had the bath after me and we were in bed for 10;30, I slept well again as I was knackered

we got up work and dropped Oz off who didnt want to go to mum's and sounds like he hasnt done much ether at mums!

I was anxious I admit. I was worrying about looking stupid in front of head of biology and Julia's daughter. I saw Julia and asked how her daughter was and she said she was nervous.

I prepped the lesson, Jack gave me a bit of support and then I had other lessons to prep

After break came my root tip practical. I let the class in and went up to Julia's daughter and asked her if she was ok she replied "nervous" I said "me too!"

I had to let her get on with it and follow instructions myself as shes assessed on following instructions, I didnt want her to lose marks because of me. I was sweating and nervous as head of biology was on the other side of the desk watching us T^T although I know mine counted for nothing, I just didnt wanna look stupid.

However I was very successful!!!! There's like a 10% chance of seeing Mitosis in action and I caught it in action! Head of biology was very pleased and asked me to take a photo of what I had done, so here is my root tip Mitosis~

I was so relieved and pleased with myself too ^^ Julia's daughter hadnt been as successful so she used my microscope slide 

I packed up and came downstairs for a tea and a snack and Jack was very proud ^^

I got the rest of the day done and at the end of the day I went to ask Head of Science if I could do my biology GCSE and he was totally supportive but said to not bite off more than I could chew. He said I was doing well with managing things and doesnt want me getting stressed and poorly. I told him not to worry, teachers had told me I could pass it in a year however I feel I could do this but it would come at a price of being stressed and poorly and probably not at work much! So I will pace myself with this and there is no rush ether. But it's nice I can grow, better myself and be supported ^^

I came back to mum's rather exhausted, pain killers once again havent worked so I took an extra one which has taken the edge off. We had a brew with mum and collected Oz then we went for a walk once we had got changed at home. 

Got home and microwaved our leftovers, after dinner I cooked my turkey for tomorrow and now this evening me and Jack are gonna do some yoga together! We have never done this, but jack's muscles are so tight from sitting for long periods of time and hunching that I feel he needs some help and stretching. Then its bath time and Oz and anime and yeah

Also his new earrings have all come today so I can see what those look like in him.

Tomorrow us just another day at school really

Oh yes and I booked my blood test for 12 may ><

Got practicals to do tomorrow

 Evening

I did an easy 30mins last night of exercise then enjoyed my bath, Jack came off his PC early for me as I wanted an early night, I was quite done in. I slept through the night til my alarm also ^^

This morning, the magpie came for Oz again! But we were quicker acting this time so scared it off before it could peck Oz, it had already started to chase Oz off tho. I went to fuss Ozwald and he gave me licks to say he was ok but he actually didnt move so I bought him inside. I was dying on toilet for a bit this morning, I had stomach ache last night and felt my stomach was twice the size, this morning I died and it looked like I had digested nothing from yesterday -_____- I ended up making us a bit late actually.

School was ok, just did a lot of tedious tasks. The school was slightly warmer than yesterday, that doesnt mean the boiler is fixed tho it is still cold and I was still sat next to the fan heater, but my toes and fingers werent stinging today.

I told head of biology that I want to do my biology qualifications and she was really pleased about that. I just need to run it by head of science and then maybe I can start my qualifications in september :) 

She also spoke to me about a few practicals she wants me to have a go at to see if I can get them to work. Also Julia's daughter is doing a practical tomorrow as she missed it months ago, so she is doing a catch up practical, as she is the only one doing it and feels like it would be some what intense to do it one on one with head of biology, Julia has asked that I do it with her. This is good practice for me too. So I have that to prep and do tomorrow! I am somewhat nervous as I feel it will highlight just how crap I am at science. So I feel quite nervous! 

I got home to find mum in my garden with the pigs and Oz which was quite nice and then me and mum sat on my picnic blanket whilst jack drank his tea inside in the peace and quiet XD

She delivered my parcels which was nice of her and then went home with girls who enjoyed their play time on the grass X3

We did dinner which was a bit of a chore as its just hard work doing that dinner but thats the last time I have got to cook til saturday!

Food gave me stomach ache and almost 2 hours later I am still suffering. Proper pains in my stomach. Gods sake man its so unfair. And my pain killers have done nothing all day I may as well have not taken them. So I have been in pain all day and suffered in the morning with my stomach and this evening. Not fair at all

I bought Oz in for some fuss but hes laying out like hes had a hard day when mum has told me hes laid out under the cherry blossom tree all day >.> what a life

I will attempt some form of exercise but nothing much then enjoy my bath, Jack is having the bath after me as he isnt gaming with anyone tonight.

Tomorrow is just school really, I am nervous about doing that practical right in front of head of biology. I am even nervous about prepping it even tho I know what I am doing! I just worry about looking dumb in front of her.

Back to school for the last term

 Konbanwa~

So last night I just did an easy 30mins of exercise, hardly exerted myself really

Had a bath after epilating my legs, my god the hair....XD

Once I was out the bath I went to see jack as it was 9:15pm and I was wondering what time he was finishing up with harvey and theo as I did not want to be left alone to stew with my thoughts. He happily came off for me tho and we had hot chocolate ^^

I slept pretty well, we were in bed for 10pm much to my relief and I did sleep ok, I was quite surprised! I had taken a sleeping tablet so I suppose that helped

We dropped Oz off this morning and went to work

work wasnt too bad actually, like on the whole, just not too bad. I had 1 practical and that was ok. So I cant complain too much. I had just started to flag around 2:30pm but made it through the day!

We collected Oz as mum was going out for a walk with her friends so didnt have time for us but that was fine as I was tired, hungry and need of pain killers so I was kinda glad to get home.

We got home and laid the picnic blanket out and sat outside with Oz having a cup of tea which did help chill me out a bit. 

We did dinner and I put washing on, and washing away. Got some stuff ready for school tomorrow, chosen my exercises for tonight which I think I will do the same 3 as yesterday which totals up to half an hour which is enough right now.

Jack is currently outside grooming Oz as he has started shedding so I asked Jack to do it as hes better at it than me in a way as Oz seems to sit for him and let him do it rather than me!

I will then sit with Oz, put him to bed, do exercises and have a bath. Think Jack is gaming with harvey for a bit tonight.

My anxiety was quite bad this morning felt a bit like I could be sick. Like I was gonna sit an exam or something. I am hoping I won't be as bad tomorrow. I did cope at school but felt like if something was to go wrong then I wouldnt be able to handle it kinda thing. Yeah just a bit fragile of mind I guess. But hopefully tomorrow I will ok tomorrow~

Oz was attacked and school tomorrow

 Evening

I stuck by my promise to jack and only did 30 mins of exercise last night, had a nice bath and watched inuyasha with jack~

I couldnt sleep tho, was worrying a bit about school to be honest and that kept me up til gone midnight T^T I woke up at 6am but managed to sleep a little til 7:20am when I couldnt hold the wee any longer and my god it was massive XD

We had an easy morning and I sat with a face sheet on and had the massager on my legs it was nice :)

we went food shopping at 9:30am, I had died on the toilet before we came out tho...I swear to god it best not be nerves that is doing my stomach. These last 2 weeks my stomach has been quite good to be honest. I am really hoping I dont go back to stomach upset this week as it means that its the stress of school that is doing me. Not that i have stressful job, but i think its cus i survive of adrenaline to get me through the day and that is draining my system and pumping me with hormones. I just find the school day hard to get through a lot of the time.

we got back and unpacked, had a brew. I cleaned the bathroom whilst jack prepped my soup, i got my soup on and went to clean Oz out. Jack was hoovering when I came in so I didnt want to ask him to stop to blend my soup as he usually does for me so I did it myself. Well i got soup down my top, splashed it all up the tiles above the cooker, over the bread board and to  cap it off I broke it!!! my god. I told jack not to enter the kitchen til i had cleared up as he had cleaned it all the other day...all his hard work. yeah i make mess...

I had my fish soup and then after I let my stomach settle as its a bit fragile today

we went to wilkos as we wanted a mouse trap, my dad gave me one out his shed last night but it is one that kills and both me and jack cant bare to kill it. We took the trap to shut dad up but we had no intention of killing it. So we bought a humane one that catches it. We got a few other bits nothing exciting. but we walked through a park on our way home

we had a brew when we came in and put the trap out

I then got my picnic blanket and sat outside, Jack joined me 15mins later and then oz decided to join us XD we then came in to do some dinner. I havent been on the right planet all day, i think my mind is else where namely worrying about school pointlessly. So i started doing tomorrow's dinner! so now we have fish marinating in our fridge XD im sure it will be ok for tomorrow tho. I got on with tonights dinner which went well and jack was happy.

After dinner I looked on ebay for new piercings for jack as he never buys them i always do and i get bored of looking at the same old ones so i bought him some fresh ones. He left to go play with harvey and theo! he is no longer doing his sunday night raids! I am glad as he sounds happier ^^

I was then looking for footless tights for me for work, watching Oz outside when a magpie camee into the garden and started attacking Oz!!!! I got out my seat thinking Oz would chase it off but he kept hopping away, the magpie was wary but kept going after him!! I started yelling Oz's name running to get out the house, I watched Oz got pecked twice on his back!!! my poor baby!!! I scooped him up and found jack had ran from his PC hearing me shout Oz and was stroking him in my arms and said to bring him in, then Jack cuddle my side and Oz put a paw on each of our chests like he wanted both of us. I have since given him treats on the lounge floor, he relaxed and laid out then the magpie flew into the garden, Oz jumped up and was listening to the magpie! how the hell did he know the magpie was there!? so I calmed him down and fussed him. Bless him! hes only been attacked once and that was by molly when truffle and tillie were babies she was protecting them! But he is ok we couldnt see anything up with him. But he has gone to bed with 2 pieces of popcorn tonight instead of 1 X3

Mum sent me photos of places shes been putting her 6 molcar plush/keychains -____- XD honestly, she says I have a plush problem! They are cute tho X3 I have put mine on my keychain for the garage

Im about to get my stuff ready for school tomorrow >< I am ok, I like my job I want to be able to get on with my job without this pointless, irrational anxiety!! But it is the last term before summer holidays! I can do this, my next holiday is June 1st for a week~

I am taking a herbal sleeping tablet tonight, might treat myself to a hot chocolate too ^^

so tomorrow is school, we will be back into the routine of dropping Oz off in the morning and stuff. Should all be ok, i just struggle with working 8 hours

dad's birthday of grumpiness

 Evening~~

I managed an hour of exercise last night and was quite done in, Jack did finish gaming at 10:30pm then we watched inuyasha, I struggled to sleep tho. Took me til after midnight. Then I woke up at 6am...kept waking up til 7am as I knew my alarm was due to go off but once I saw Jack was up I managed to stay in bed til 7:30am but I was aching and needed pain killers. I was just so tired!!!

Jack went for his driving lesson, his first one of 2021 cus of lockdown. He left at 8am, I got ready and stripped the bedding and put it in the wash just my normal house stuff that has to be done and by 9am I had set off for a walk to the post office for a parcel I had missed. I came back and my mum had rang me as I left my phone at home cus I hate taking it. She was ringing to say that despite it being dad's birthday he was in a bad mood and had a bad day at work. However he didnt even need to go to work so I had no sympathy for him just sympathy for mum.

Jack came home at 10am and we had a cup of tea together then I went to bed for a catch up sleep that took me til lunchtime XD we had lunch and then I washed my car for the first time at my own house! jack helped me set up the hose pipe and helped me put it away. He was off paying bills on his computer. Then he was happy as his new power supply had arrived for his PC he just a bit apprehensive about fitting it.

We sat outside on my picnic blanket! first time we have used it, its friggin massive! like takes up half our lawn! it was lovely weather and Oz enjoyed the company of course.

We then went to mum's at 4pm, to find dad not home....I was like "where is he?" mum who looked rather peed off saying "he popped out to drop some keys off he said he would be 20 mins, hes been gone 2 hours. Wish I hadnt bothered. Ive got ready a BBQ and made a cake" I felt sorry for her cus yeah she did not look happy. However everyone cheered up eventually - basically when everyone apart from me had had a drink did people start to relax.

I cooked the BBQ which was so tasty - different flavoured meat for me basically XD

I ate a fair bit just to keep me quiet. As everyone was having cake afterwards T^T 

We ate outside and me and jack sat on the picnic blanket, Oz wasnt that fussed about us he was more interested in the guineas and the plants. 

Dad appreciated my gift. Thank god as he is so hard to buy for. We left at 7pm and came home with Oz who is tired and laying out on the floor right now.

I will take him to bed in a minute

jack is gaming with theo and maybe harvey soon too. Then he will have  the bath after me and we will watch Inuaysha and go bed. We did start watching fruits basket today for our lunch time viewing.

Mum gave me 3 breakfasts worth of leftover BBQ meat :D :D :D 

tomorrow

chore day and shopping day really

The wooper and mouse

 Konbanwa~~

I managed 1 hour of exercises last night but they weren't hard. No cardio or anything. We had digimon the movie on whilst I did it. Then I had a rather hot bath. Jo's face was red ><

It took me til gone midnight to get to sleep tho, then for a change I didnt wake up at 6am!! I slept through til 8am ^^ which was nice, however I then needed to get over to mum's in case my lighting came. But at 8:10am she txt me to say they had arrived!! I was very lucky indeed as it meant I know longer had a rushy morning. 

Chris txt to say he was gonna come over to fix Jack's computer. So I decided to go to mum's as it was gonna be nerd talk, then Jack potentially gaming with Theo in the afternoon then dungeon and dragons tonight. So basically - a long day by myself. I would go to mum's for company. I took my lunch over ^^

I sat in the kitchen drawing on my laptop whilst she made her soup then I helped her with tomorrows BBQ meat. We sat with the girls, had lunch and yeah it was nice. A parcel came for my brother which I knew what it was - he had ordered all 6 of the Piu Piu Molcars!! theyre plush key chains but too big to be key chains theyre freaking huge and very cute so I video called him asking if we could open them and he said we could so we did a live unboxing XD Luckily my big ball shelves came too so I had 2 rather big boxes to fit in my car! I came home at 1pm as mum was seeing a friend. I had been over 3 hours which was nice and mum appreciates the time with me :) make the most of it whilst I am off.

I came back and Jack was about to start the mowing of our lawn. First time we have cut it as we moved in during winter. He did well but needs to cut the sides by hand with sheers yet >.> I kept Oz inside with me incase he wasnt sure on the noise of the lawn mower. He wasnt too bad actually. Then Jack helped me get my lights and shelves out my big boxes and we turned the boxes into massive tunnels for Oz and put them into the garage which he likes. However when we did this we found the mouse!!! it was in the corner of a shelf! it had climbed up the lawnmower handles and onto a shelf where Oz's food is (fresh unopened bags) and nibbled the corner and helped it's self! So we have had take everything indoors now which is a pain as its storing it all.

I had a sleep as my body needed it which is very frustrating. Feel like theres something wrong with me lately with how much I want to sleep!

We had dinner which was leftover stew and tasty. Then I was just on the internet whilst Jack showered. When he came out the shower I made him hang up the wooper painting! its gone with the other art work I have done for him on his study wall :) He loves it.

Im just with Oz now, I have exercises to do. Jack is gaming til late tonight cus some people werent on till late :/ He did ask me tho.

Tomorrow

I need to go post office to collect a missed parcel, dont think its anything exciting not compared to the Molcars! I might walk to the post office if the weather is ok in the morning.

Not sure what I will do rest of the day but it is my dad's birthday so we have been invited to go over for a BBQ as whatelse is there to do really. I think my mum said I might be cooking it but she will let me know. I dont mind ether way.

Anyway here is the wooper~