Hisuian Growlithe

 Evening~~~

I actually slept well last night, did get up for a wee at 1:30am but actually drifted back off to sleep! I got up before Jack and got Oz up too ^^

We had breakfast then Jack went outside to garden with Oz who is so damn cute, he thinks hes helping by chewing the weeds where Jack is working and stepping where he's working, nudging him as well. Its very sweet and I know Jack enjoys the company

I worked on my Hisuian Growlithe picture which I did get done, pokemon pics dont take long and I just whipped this one up. I did him as a shiny X3

Its ok gave me something different to draw for a change

Mum came over for a brew about 11:15am and stayed til midday

we had lunch then I went to lay on my bed for an hour 

I got up and varnished my drawers and did bits online, did a 45min 3mile 600+ calorie workout then got Ozwald in and had a brew with Jack and Oz then I had a bath 

we went to Harvey's for takeaway

the guys had burgers and fries, then ordered waffle for after. I had the free ice cream that comes with Jack's waffle ^^ he lets me take some of his waffle's toppings and put it in the ice cream and I love it as its just enough to keep me happy and not upset my stomach and hopefully my mind

I did a big work out in hopes that my mind wont be too mental on the ice cream front

I told Theo where I am starting to get muscle definition on my legs he said that part is my quads! so thats what it is called. He says I am doing well and other legs muscles will develop once the quads are more defined :3 Jo will be hench! XD I actually dont want to be muscly I want to be lean~

The guys did a lot of talk about warhammer which bored the pants off me but theyre wanting to start their own game together but god knows when they will actually start it. So they were character building and yeah it was boring. But apart from that I enjoyed it

we even left at 9pm which I was glad of as I was aching and wanted my pain killers and Ozwald

so now we are inside with the chunk 

we will watch anime after we have put Oz to bed

I want to watch the final episode of Inuyasha final act without interruptions! 

tomorrow

unsure what I am doing as of yet, need to speak to Jack about what he wants to do

he gardened this morning then had the rest of the day off as his body is aching and I am not bloody surprised! 

I can always work on something

I hope I sleep well again tonight :3

and today was another negative covid test~

another negative test and new growlithe

 Evening

I managed to get off to sleep ok~

woke up at 1:30am for a wee and I felt like I had been ran over, I hurt massively so I had to get up for pain killers and wait for them to kick in so I was up for an hour then I climbed into bed in my dressing gown. Woke up at 8:45am to an empty bed, and empty house....Jack?

He was outside gardening....I said morning and youve not even had morning coffee, turns out he had had coffee and breakfast and I had slept through it. Thats the thing if I have drugs in the night I get knocked out, the house could be on fire I wouldnt know. So he was just cracking on with gardening with Oz 

I felt rough as, so I said I didnt want to go out and it was cloudy and Jack just wanted to garden. So we didnt go out today we just stayed home. I spent my morning doing chores and putting my chinese hot pot on which i havent done before but wanted to test myself to make chinese food. I dont really like chinese food but wanted to try making it. 

I made lunch for Jack and I kept going out to him and Ozwald

we had lunch and I went to bed after taking a different pain killer which usually works but makes me zombie like. But I had had enough so I took it. I slept for an hour and woke up to the sound of my mums voice shouting oz outside as she had arrived with the girls. She had come to do some gardening with Jack so those two were outside gardening. Kills me that I cant help but I have been banned from helping as it is doing to much damage and pain to me

so I was just in my craft room varnishing my drawers.

we had a brew and mum left us, we had dinner which was actually a success! I had made a very chinese tasting hot pot! I didnt like it but Jack did. It will feed us on friday

I txt harvey and told him about our covid scare and how each test we've done has been negative and can we still go over for takeaway tomorrow as I want ice cream damn it, I said we could eat outside and hes fine about us going over. Cus jack was worrying that we shouldnt or harvey wouldnt want us over so i just thought to get it over with and actually explain and ask. SO yeh tomorrow is ice cream for Jo~

We had a bath then Jack went to game by himself, friends asked him to play but he just wanted to be alone which I found a bit odd as he usually prefers to play with others.

as for me I have been drawing the Hisui Growlithe as we watched the pokemon game announcement today together, we didnt watch it live as we did forget! but we watched it and I decided I wanted to do some art work for it! I hope it turns out ok

tomorrow

Jack has said he is gardening in the morning, then hes playing with a friend online in the afternoon as its rare for them to game then we are going over to Harvey's in the evening for takeaway ^^

I will probably be varnishing and drawing T^T

I just want a decent night's sleep!!!!!!!!!!!! might go do some yoga now as I havent done any exercise and feel a right slob I dont want my head telling me how fat and lazy I am at midnight

Covid Scare

 Evening

Last night we had a phone call from Jack's mum at 8pm, informing us that we hadn't got to go over to look after the cat and rabbit for the next 3 days as they were no longer going away. They were no longer going away as Jack's sister has just done a test and shes positive for covid.....the same sister I shared a sofa with just hours previously....great >.> I mean she seemed totally fine, she cleared her thought once but she was fine. She had just been informed by a friend of hers that she had covid so she did a test to see if she too was positive and she was. But I felt bad for Jack's youngest sister as it was her birthday and had 3 friends over, I hope nothing was passed on. Not only that but the day before the family had been down to birmingham to see Jack's nan.....shes vaccinated but still, I bet it was on Jack's mum mind.

So I rang my mum explaining I had been sat a metre away from Jack's sister but both me and Jack had sat next to the window which was open and not actually in personal contact with any family member. Personally I think we're ok. But Jack says to test ourselves for the next few days which is fine I am on board with doing that. Mum says not worry she isnt too bothered XD  I am sure we are ok but that has been the closest we've knowingly been to covid! 

Could not sleep last night. When we got into bed I noticed there was a massive black spider on the ceiling so Jack got out of bed and went to get the hover, whilst doing so the spider started dangling above me T^T I shouted for Jack to hurry and he did get it in time XD

I ached so so bad. It was painful everywhere. It feels like growing pains combined with aches from not working to doing an assault course in one day. EVERYTHING HURT

So I got up for pain killers and a cookie and just chilled out for a bit til 1am and slept on top on the bed in my dressing gown, woke up in the night as my legs were cold and I climbed into bed in the dressing gown, truly a Jo burrito XD

We both woke up at like 9am and I felt like road kill, was rather happy I hadnt got to go over to Jack's family's house. I did some drawing this morning managed to crack on and get the outline and eyes done :) its looking cute~

Jack spent the morning outside with Oz gardening, I kept going out to check on them but I couldnt face gardening, I really wanted to and I hated my body more for not allowing me to do what I wanted. But I kept going out and I made Jack lunch too which he was grateful of

we had lunch and I practically ran to  bed, as I was so damn tired and in pain

we did a covid test before lunch and all was well~

Jack woke me when I asked him to - our usual routine XD I went and did some more drawing and stuff online

Jack was gaming with Theo, mum came over at 4pm and we had a brew and I showed her the garden she was very impressed with how  much we have done. I told her I dont think we are ready for plants yet and she agreed, I think we have got to change the garden round a bit first before we start putting plants in.

I did dinner and then after dinner Jack went to do some more gardening bless him, I kept him company for a bit then did 40min of exercise which was mainly weights and strength work but it still made  my body scream in protest with aches and such. So I poured a hot bath that I ended up needing help getting out of as I was shaky and dizzy and rather pink! took me a while to recover from that, Jack had the bath after me put poured cold water in it XD

Now we are just inside with Oz who is tired from all the gardening as he is always there helping us 

tomorrow not sure what sure what we are doing, we may go out for the day or just stay home and garden etc. Depends on weather and on how achy we are! Mum says she will call round at some point

crippled but got another tree up XD

 Evening

So last night I was feeling vulnerable to my thoughts, Jack was gaming and I didnt want to bother him again so I went outside to Oz and I rang my mum for half hour whilst fussing Ozwald outside. It was good to talk to her, held back the tears a few times. Just very fragile yeseterday

I stayed out a further 15mins with Oz, I couldnt have him in as he had been playing where we had been digging up the earth therefor he had paws caked with mud, there was no way I was bringing him in! 

So I put him home with his treat, came inside and literally 5mins later tears flowed steadily down my face. I didnt want to be alone so I went to get Jack who immediately left his game with Harvey and Theo when he saw I was upset. He cuddled me on the sofa and we sat watching Inuyasha with hot chocolate

I was ok but got to bed and tears flowed again. Honestly poor Jack had a wet shirt by the end of it!

I was laying there worrying about the night, thinking id just take more pain killers - not normally an issue I just blank my feelings and get on with it, whereas last night I was hating the fact I was on medication, needing medication, hating my life etc

He cuddled me and we kinda drifted off to sleep like that

I woke up at 1am for a wee but slept from there

We had an easy morning and set off at 9:30am to Jack's mum's for his sisters birthday

I drove, got stressed due to road closers so therefor I had no idea where the hell I was going!!! But we got there and I was aching like mad. I ache big style from pulling that tree up yesterday T^T

We stayed for almost 3 hours, we had tea and cake and his sister really liked the card I did for her and her present of korean snacks - which was my idea ^^

We came home for lunch then I went to lay down for an hour as I felt like crying I was in that much pain. When I woke up I went outside to help Jack. we have cleared more land. I went to the centre of our garden where there is a tree stump long long dead and some plants and a hella lot of weeds. I got the tree stump up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it took minutes as well much to my surprise as I thought it would have mega roots. It is dead but has the circumference of a dinner plate so I was pleased with that. Jack told me to stop at this point

I am now struggling to bend up and down and my muscles and joints hurt. I have truly overdone it ^^; I should leave these things alone but I want to help Jack and I want to do the garden ><

We came in and I ran a very hot bath, felt dizzy XD but it was good and then I sat with the massager and did some what revive me. 

I did the dinner which was a slightly different pasta dish.

Then I had a quick 10mins on the bed, got up and did some more on my digital drawing

getting there.

I wanted to varnish my drawers but its still wet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ugh

Tomorrow

for the next 3 days we have got to go to Jack's mum's to go let the rabbits out and feed the cat whilst theyre away so that will be a bit of chore but we've tried to think of things to do

so tomorrow we were gonna go for a 7mile walk round Jack's mum's but its not a good forecast so that may be wednesday and tomorrow we just do the shops round his mum's. We shall see.

stupid thing to do

 Evening

So last night Jack went out, I had my Ozwald in for a good hour then I pretty much went to bed as I had a bad headache, tired and nothing to stay up for really so was in bed for 9:50pm~

I woke up to the sound of Jack coming in which was 2:45am....wow Jack XD I listened for about 5mins to make sure he was ok then fell asleep til 7:30am and needed a wee so I got up. Jack was awake! So I made him his hangover breakfast of marinated bacon with melted cheese on top in bread~ and a coffee, actimel and chocolate covered coffee beans. He was sated. 

He said he hadnt drink that much and didnt feel too bad

I drove us to the supermarket, we got two streets away from the house and I was driving along when a car was doing a turn and decided to pull out onto my road without looking. I got hit....I felt sick. I heard the noise and I thought "my dad is gonna kill me" me and the 17 year old looking driver got out and we assessed damage. My car had received no damage....like nothing had happened. No painted work missing or dent. My heart was hammering and the driver apologised and asked if I was ok. I looked at his car and there was a huge scuff on his car, how did mine receive nothing? I said "its fine" Jack and I both got in the car and drove off. He asked if I was ok. I said my stomach has just flipped, I needed to get away and pretend none of that happened. I didnt think that driver was gonna stop to look tho so I was already swirving into the other side of the road and good job I did as it would have been miles worse. Not sure if I am gonna tell any family members yet tho just one of those stupid things to happen

but going round the supermarket I felt he was more hungover than he was letting on. His stomach was off which is a sign that Jack's body hasnt appreciated the alcohol. So I had my suspicions. He later said "thinking about it, think I had 10 drinks".....yeah that sounds right. Not that Im bothered what or how much he drinks. I let him get on with it. As long as hes safe and having a nice time :)

by 12pm I had done food shop for the week, made biscuits, cleaned the bathroom, made soup for the week my god what a total pro. I got loads done and my soup is better this week too~ I went to bed for an hour after lunch

when I got up Jack was gaming with harvey and theo

I went to go varnish my drawers but realised some of it is still wet!!!!!!!!!!!!  How can it be wet days later. But I did throw a fair bit of paint at it XD

So as I couldnt do that I thought I would go out and do some gardening. I started doing some weeding then saw the tree stump that Jack said wasn't gonna budge or come out

challenge accepted

i spent about 45mins getting that out

I had sweat dripping on the floor from my face

I dug a deep hole and got the tree stump loose and the last root I had to saw off as it goes under our neighbours fence so I didnt want to cause damage. I was so satisfied getting this tree out that I went to get Jack and he was impressed but also concerned. Not sure why he was concerned.

an hour later I felt like I had been hit by a car. I thought

"what have I done?"

"why did I have dig like mad for an hour!?"

"I cant exercise as I feel like death"

"I am fat and cant exercise"

"I wont be able to sleep tonight cus of aches and thoughts"

I started to get worked up....Jack was still gaming and I hugged his legs and hid my tears but I think he knew something was up as I tend to leave him when gaming but I just needed to not be alone with my thoughts. He came straight off his game without even seeing my tears

we went on the sofa and he made everything ok. Told me to go get a warm bath and sit with the massager and just do nothing. That I had done enough exercise today just by digging. So I did feel better, got a bath, sat with massager and I did chill out.

did dinner, had Ozwald in and now just doing my diary. Got to do some digital drawing.

I hope I sleep tonight, my god do I hope I sleep

tomorrow

we are popping over to Jack's mum's in the morning as its his youngest sisters birthday she will be 16 and I said it would be nice to go see her. Then we will come home for lunch and just do whatever. We've said Im not doing any more digging or weeding, only planting and pruning ^^;

Jo is bridesmaid, and Jack's club foot

 Evening

I slept much better, took a sleeping tablet and made Jack wear more than his boxers to bed so he wouldnt be constantly trying to get his temperature right with the duvet >.> so yeah I did sleep a hella lot better!

I woke up at 6am needing a wee but thought "forget it" so when I woke up at 7:45am man did I hafta go!

I went for a walk with Mia at 9:30am which was nice as I havent seen her since her engagement! and the whole 90min walk was about marriage....which was tiring after a bit but I had foreseen such a thing would happen so knew to expect it

I came back exhausted and in need of tea and a biscuit

I sat round and rested for a bit then we had lunch then I dived into bed

Didnt do a great deal when i was up, I cleaned Oz out and did some more digital drawing

Then I had tea and fruit loaf with Jack, but I thought he would need to get over to Harvey's cus of the night out and despite Jack asking on 3 occasions this week "when shall I come over" Harvey didnt know but at 4:45pm he text saying "is 8pm ok?" so I didnt need to have had a bath at 4pm and got dinner ready early..men honestly. cant they organise anything!? and none of them know where theyre going tonight! Its harvey's birthday so I hope he gets first pick.

we had dinner then I went over to my parents house cus if I waited til after I had dropped Jack off (original plan) there would be no time so I did it in reverse order

it was good to see mum and my brother. My dad can never say anything nice or he just sits there monging out. I have no idea why he even sits round us. 

I came back to take Jack to Harveys, he drove and we parked up in a carpark near Harveys as its easy place to swap over drivers. I noticed once Jack had gone he had left his wallet in the door.....so I then drove to Harveys and Jack was about 3 metres away from harveys house. I pipped my horn and did my window and passed his wallet. He didnt even realise he hadnt got it. I said "you ow me, massively" 

he is more trouble than hes worth and I was sure to tell him this also then pulled away XD

I hope he has a nice night. He says hes not gonna drink too much as hes got his trapped nerve back. Did it today whilst gardening. He had it during first lock down were he can move his leg but not pick his foot up so he sounds like he has a club foot. It took about a year for the nerve to heal....so I am gutted the same thing has happened again he seems more chill about it than me. But he has fallen over already once today so he doesnt want to drink a lot and end up tripping over big style

what am I gonna do with him,

I came home and got Oz in, he helped me make Jack's nest for tonight. Jack insists on sleeping on the sofa tonight. So I have made it comfy for him.

Not sure what I will do tonight. its 8:50pm now. Cant say I am fussed about staying up. Got nothing to stay up for. Might try sleep early. got the whole bed to myself~~~

It was confirmed today that I am, indeed, Mia's bridesmaid 

along with her older sister and cousin

Jo is bridesmaid..............massively honoured and anxious XD 

did some gardening, the start of my picture

 Evening

So last night, I could not sleep

I mean I had slept for a while during the day but I did push myself to work out, took extra pain killers before bed. Couldnt sleep as I ached, I was also having 'fat' thoughts. And also.....Jack.....wished for his death during the night. He was just tossing over like every 10mins and snoring, chewing on his teeth and just generally breathing. I was getting so annoyed by it all. I tried coming to bed twice but just wanted to murder him or overdose. 3rd time I went to bed at 2:45am and slept

I had had a biscuit, 2 slices of fruit loaf. I was hungry man. But felt greedy for eating but it had been 7 hours since I last ate anything

Woke up at 8:45am and got up as I knew mum wanted to drop off her heart monitor thing. Did not want to get up and was shocked to see Jack STILL asleep! I left him before I smothered him with a pillow XD

I went with mum around 10am to drop off her heart monitor we were so fast~

came home and had a brew with mummy and Jack I also ate a biscuit as today I have just consumed biscuits and fruit loaf XD doesnt do the fat thoughts any good tho T^T but I gotta have some treats!

the 3 of went outside to do some gardening for a good hour. Man did I ACHE after that

we were just literally weeding. Nothing we can do to the garden or the drive til the sheer amount of weeds have gone. We are getting there. 4 bags have been filled. Like 100 litre bags. A lot of weeds...

the best thing was that mum found a caterpillar I mean I assume it was a caterpillar it was the size and width of my little finger....IT WAS HUGE and stuck to my gardening gloves like velcro, it had some sticky feet! it was black with a white tummy. Maybe it could have been a dragonfly in the making? not sure

Mum went home for lunch and we had hours then I practically ran to bed to sleep. I was shattered and aching. So had an hour in bed then got up and didnt do too much, mainly looked at art on my phone and then had a brew and fruit loaf by myself as Jack was gaming with Theo.

Then at 4pm I decided to do my work out, did an hour of grow with Jo. Sweated so damn much! it was good tho but by 40mins I had had enough just wanted it to end. I could keep going I just didnt want to. But did it. However before I started Jack came downstairs and announced he was gonna do some more weeding....I said "where's theo gone?" he said "still online" I said "wait, youve left gaming to garden?....." he said "well you're working hard I felt like I should do something"

I about fell over is shock. This never happens. He normally games til dinner. I can workout all I want and he wont do anything. So I did find this very odd Jack behaviour to say the least. He was out there the whole hour I worked out. Then I had a bath and he had it after me. We did dinner and then he went to go play dungeons and dragons. I made a start on next week's meal plans and shopping list.

now I should be digitally drawing >< I know I should. Even if I just do a bit its better than nothing I guess.

God I hope I sleep tonight tho T^T I will just launch Jack through a small window, at speed, if he keeps me awake. He says "you should wake me!" Im like "I try! and sometimes you speak so I dont know if youre actually awake or not!!"

tomorrow~

saturday~ not got anything planned

Jack is going out drinking as it is Harvey's 29th Birthday tomorrow, a fellow 92' baby~

So I will be home alone all night but thats fine

we will probably do some gardening in the day I imagine. I said I would see mum when Jack goes out. I will take him over to Harveys

this is how far I am with my first drawing for Mia....not far at all T^T