Sore face

 Evening

I couldnt sleep again last night I had to get up for pain killers. My mind was busy and I had stomach ache so I stayed up til 12:30 and came to bed. I slept through til 8am

We got up and and did our usual sunday shop

came home and unpacked, did laundry and had a brew 

Jack helped me with my soup god it made 9 portions I have never seen that soup pot so full....I couldnt fit everything in as the liquid was starting to come over XD 

I cleaned the bathroom also

Jack put the handles on my drawers and put them in place for me! finally I can have my craft room back! put when we pulled back the dust sheets it revealed that some paint had bled through and on to the carpet....our new expensive carpet.....

I started sweating and felt sick

Jack told me not to worry

I did have some Vanish carpet cleaned so sprayed it to death and had lunch

after lunch I went to assess and clean the carpet. Luckily out of all the colours used it was the least offensive as it was a light cream not the red or dark pink luckily! I started scrubbing and it did in fact come off! Much to my relief. My god we were lucky there

I went to lay on my bed for a bit and by a bit it ended up being 2 hour as I just felt exhausted and didnt really want to do anything - again

I did get up and Jack motivated me into going for a walk, which I was glad about in a way as I needed air, needed  to some exercise. So a good walk was welcomed

I had a shower when I came home as I have not stopped sweating all day and felt quite gross. Jack said I looked gross too XD

I was happy tho as I found some derma barrier cream in my skin care stocks. As I dont think I reported this on my diary but last week or so I started using a retinol cream for my face. I am not new to retinol or new to that brand. It smelt quite strong of chemical or alcohol I couldnt decide. But used it for a good week. And I had a big break out, dry patches and my skin was just in a bad way. Couldnt work out what I had done wrong then I worked out - I used that cream I hadnt tried before. 

Clearly doesnt agree with my skin. I have binned it. Usually I give products a second chance but this has really hurt my skin and I actually dont fancy using it again. So I have been trying rehydrate and heal my skin and it is a slow process. But finding this barrier cream today will give everything a massive boost.

The cream that wasnt good was Glamfox retinol + collagen 

my saviour is Skin+lab derma barrier cream

I use other products too but yeah

not good and probably wont use anything else by glamfox. I had tried one their products before and that was ok, nothing special. But staying away now.

You know your skin is bad when people feel the need to point it out >.> 

I made some biscuits and did the dinner

it kept raining on and off and we checked on Oz to make sure he wasnt just sitting in it and he was in his cage. Later when it rained for the 3rd time I thought I would go see where he was. In his cage. But wet? so when has he been out!? we've been sat in front of the patio we would have seen him! hes such a pudding hes probably been sat in a ball by the side of the house or something. Hes soaked anyway so I have brought him in to dry off. Hes in early but thats fine. I can do my own stuff later on.

I was gonna do tara a birthday card. I was gonna draw 30 bunnies as its her 30th

challenge!

Might be able to start it we shall see

tomorrow

mum has the day off so has asked to see me but we havent decided on what to do yet. I hope I sleep tonight tho.

Just a bit flat

 Evening

Despite Jack staying up late to game I did sleep but I was also drugged up~

I kinda sensed him coming to bed at midnight but not fully waking

I did wake up later for a wee but fell asleep again ^^

I got up at 8am

Jack helped me wash my hair before my hair cut

I went to have my hair cut and had a good inch cut off my hair and my fringe thinned out

So I felt better for a good trim, but just being 'social' in those 20mins was an ask for me

I got to mum's and put my happy face on for her

I stayed there 90 mins and had a brew and didnt have to do anything with the guineas! mum said they were happy eating their morning salad XD

I came home for lunch and brought back a package from mum's Jacks new jeans had arrived. Both brand new and including P&P cost me £10.19 well the tags on the jeans said £35 each!!! he tried them on and said they we comfy ^^ and they look good too~

We had lunch and then I went to clean Oz out, then I went to bed, I got up for fruit loaf and went to lay on my bed I just felt flat, I didnt want to do anything or talk to anyone I just wanted to be alone and not think

Jack found me at 4pm and made me a brew and brought Oz in for me

it did cheer me up a bit but I said I couldnt be arsed with anything or to make dinner

but somehow I picked myself up, did 20mins of yoga with Oz then had a shower and did dinner which was nice actually. I wanted to eat dinner in my pyjamas 

I managed to varnish my drawers so theyre done once theyre dry~

Then I went to do some art but was really wasnt feeling it so I found the diamond painting tara got me for my birthday and started doing more of that in the living room, Jack played beside on his switch hooked to the TV playing pokemon unite with Theo

Now I am gonna get Oz in as I think theyre finishing up soon anyway and its  going dark

I just havent felt myself all day. No spark in Jo today

but it might be back tomorrow. I hope. Hate days like these

tomorrow

food shop in the morning, bathroom to clean and art to hopefully do

absolutely spoiled from Japan

 Evening~

I went to bed with Jack at 11pm after watching the last episode of Inuyasha Final Act!!

I was happy with the ending actually. Felt the end of an era for me as I watched Inuyasha as a teenager now its done. But I know there is Yashahime to watch yet. I shall wait for it to come out on dvd

But I could not sleep, my mind was racing, luckily it was not food thoughts it was just a busy mind really so at midnight I got up for an hour and had pain killers etc and then I fell asleep for the night

Jack was up before me tho this morning

I suggested we go for a walk as my mum said she could come garden in the afternoon, she was baking this morning. So we walked for 1 hour 45 mins.....woah

I was dead....my muscles hurt from my exercises yesterday so I was glad I had got my exercise done for the day but walking that much with sore muscles was kinda hard but it was nice we havent done that walk in a long while. We came in and it was lunch time really

the door went and a big parcel came for me so that was very well timed, literally only a minute after got in. It was addressed to me from Miho in Japan!! she said it could be up to 3 weeks and it was only like a week!

I ate lunch and waited for mum to come, mum and Jack went outside to garden. I died on my bed I felt lazy doing so but I knew realistically I was of no help to anyone in my state.....

When I got up I made a tea for all 3 of us and tried some of the baked goods mum brought over but I didnt like them as she had used the rhubarb from my garden. I dont like rhubarb but wondered if it was one of those baked goods you cant taste the fruit in. wrong. one bite which I had to spit out. taste and texture was gross. I apologised to mum. the baked goods were intended for Jack but I wanted to try ><

I opened up my parcel and OH MY GOD she has sent me loads!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! over 20 items. I was shocked. It was like christmas. It never ended and all japanese and cute. I had been spoiled I was so happy!!! Her husband has sent Jack a little toy katana and Miho has made me a Molcar which I was secretly hoping for but I didnt want to pressure her into making me one but she had! mum leapt out her seat, took the molcar and loved it. She loves it little face and cheeks. I never saw it again. Mum has taken it home and put it on her guinea pig shrine apparently XD Im not surprised but it makes her happy, I can see it and know its safe. I have no clue where I am going to put the rest tho! like jesus there is a lot of stuff!!! I am so grateful. I am currently still trying to gather stuff to send to her. I plan on packing up the same box her stuff came in. I will fill that box! Its her 30th in November so as long as I have sent it by then I am good~

I rested for a bit then made my biscuits, did the dinner. After dinner I had a bath then I varnished my drawers, but the draw cases which are finished under my desk ready to receive each draw! Then I got Oz in and tried to sort through some of the stuff! he was very nosy checking it all out. I have put about half away I will do the rest another time

Im gonna look at garden ideas and then watch anime with Jack, as we have finished Inuyasha we are going to start Noragami! Need something with a bit of comedy in it. watching too many serious animes lately! 

then Jack will continue to game through the evening, I said he could. He decided against going out with the IT department today. he said he wasnt really in the mood. 

Tomorrow

got my hair cut at 10am, thank god as my fringe is so long and heavy! part of me is tempted to get the hair lobbed off and have a bob as I still cant tie it up due to pain but then I think "ive grown all this its taken me years" plus my friends will probably get married next year so I feel id want nice long hair for that.

then I will pop into mums for a cup of tea and then come home and varnish my drawers again, clean Oz out, do some drawing. Got stuff to do. Didnt get any drawing today anyway! Oz and his none stop gardening~

Hisuian Growlithe

 Evening~~~

I actually slept well last night, did get up for a wee at 1:30am but actually drifted back off to sleep! I got up before Jack and got Oz up too ^^

We had breakfast then Jack went outside to garden with Oz who is so damn cute, he thinks hes helping by chewing the weeds where Jack is working and stepping where he's working, nudging him as well. Its very sweet and I know Jack enjoys the company

I worked on my Hisuian Growlithe picture which I did get done, pokemon pics dont take long and I just whipped this one up. I did him as a shiny X3

Its ok gave me something different to draw for a change

Mum came over for a brew about 11:15am and stayed til midday

we had lunch then I went to lay on my bed for an hour 

I got up and varnished my drawers and did bits online, did a 45min 3mile 600+ calorie workout then got Ozwald in and had a brew with Jack and Oz then I had a bath 

we went to Harvey's for takeaway

the guys had burgers and fries, then ordered waffle for after. I had the free ice cream that comes with Jack's waffle ^^ he lets me take some of his waffle's toppings and put it in the ice cream and I love it as its just enough to keep me happy and not upset my stomach and hopefully my mind

I did a big work out in hopes that my mind wont be too mental on the ice cream front

I told Theo where I am starting to get muscle definition on my legs he said that part is my quads! so thats what it is called. He says I am doing well and other legs muscles will develop once the quads are more defined :3 Jo will be hench! XD I actually dont want to be muscly I want to be lean~

The guys did a lot of talk about warhammer which bored the pants off me but theyre wanting to start their own game together but god knows when they will actually start it. So they were character building and yeah it was boring. But apart from that I enjoyed it

we even left at 9pm which I was glad of as I was aching and wanted my pain killers and Ozwald

so now we are inside with the chunk 

we will watch anime after we have put Oz to bed

I want to watch the final episode of Inuyasha final act without interruptions! 

tomorrow

unsure what I am doing as of yet, need to speak to Jack about what he wants to do

he gardened this morning then had the rest of the day off as his body is aching and I am not bloody surprised! 

I can always work on something

I hope I sleep well again tonight :3

and today was another negative covid test~

another negative test and new growlithe

 Evening

I managed to get off to sleep ok~

woke up at 1:30am for a wee and I felt like I had been ran over, I hurt massively so I had to get up for pain killers and wait for them to kick in so I was up for an hour then I climbed into bed in my dressing gown. Woke up at 8:45am to an empty bed, and empty house....Jack?

He was outside gardening....I said morning and youve not even had morning coffee, turns out he had had coffee and breakfast and I had slept through it. Thats the thing if I have drugs in the night I get knocked out, the house could be on fire I wouldnt know. So he was just cracking on with gardening with Oz 

I felt rough as, so I said I didnt want to go out and it was cloudy and Jack just wanted to garden. So we didnt go out today we just stayed home. I spent my morning doing chores and putting my chinese hot pot on which i havent done before but wanted to test myself to make chinese food. I dont really like chinese food but wanted to try making it. 

I made lunch for Jack and I kept going out to him and Ozwald

we had lunch and I went to bed after taking a different pain killer which usually works but makes me zombie like. But I had had enough so I took it. I slept for an hour and woke up to the sound of my mums voice shouting oz outside as she had arrived with the girls. She had come to do some gardening with Jack so those two were outside gardening. Kills me that I cant help but I have been banned from helping as it is doing to much damage and pain to me

so I was just in my craft room varnishing my drawers.

we had a brew and mum left us, we had dinner which was actually a success! I had made a very chinese tasting hot pot! I didnt like it but Jack did. It will feed us on friday

I txt harvey and told him about our covid scare and how each test we've done has been negative and can we still go over for takeaway tomorrow as I want ice cream damn it, I said we could eat outside and hes fine about us going over. Cus jack was worrying that we shouldnt or harvey wouldnt want us over so i just thought to get it over with and actually explain and ask. SO yeh tomorrow is ice cream for Jo~

We had a bath then Jack went to game by himself, friends asked him to play but he just wanted to be alone which I found a bit odd as he usually prefers to play with others.

as for me I have been drawing the Hisui Growlithe as we watched the pokemon game announcement today together, we didnt watch it live as we did forget! but we watched it and I decided I wanted to do some art work for it! I hope it turns out ok

tomorrow

Jack has said he is gardening in the morning, then hes playing with a friend online in the afternoon as its rare for them to game then we are going over to Harvey's in the evening for takeaway ^^

I will probably be varnishing and drawing T^T

I just want a decent night's sleep!!!!!!!!!!!! might go do some yoga now as I havent done any exercise and feel a right slob I dont want my head telling me how fat and lazy I am at midnight

Covid Scare

 Evening

Last night we had a phone call from Jack's mum at 8pm, informing us that we hadn't got to go over to look after the cat and rabbit for the next 3 days as they were no longer going away. They were no longer going away as Jack's sister has just done a test and shes positive for covid.....the same sister I shared a sofa with just hours previously....great >.> I mean she seemed totally fine, she cleared her thought once but she was fine. She had just been informed by a friend of hers that she had covid so she did a test to see if she too was positive and she was. But I felt bad for Jack's youngest sister as it was her birthday and had 3 friends over, I hope nothing was passed on. Not only that but the day before the family had been down to birmingham to see Jack's nan.....shes vaccinated but still, I bet it was on Jack's mum mind.

So I rang my mum explaining I had been sat a metre away from Jack's sister but both me and Jack had sat next to the window which was open and not actually in personal contact with any family member. Personally I think we're ok. But Jack says to test ourselves for the next few days which is fine I am on board with doing that. Mum says not worry she isnt too bothered XD  I am sure we are ok but that has been the closest we've knowingly been to covid! 

Could not sleep last night. When we got into bed I noticed there was a massive black spider on the ceiling so Jack got out of bed and went to get the hover, whilst doing so the spider started dangling above me T^T I shouted for Jack to hurry and he did get it in time XD

I ached so so bad. It was painful everywhere. It feels like growing pains combined with aches from not working to doing an assault course in one day. EVERYTHING HURT

So I got up for pain killers and a cookie and just chilled out for a bit til 1am and slept on top on the bed in my dressing gown, woke up in the night as my legs were cold and I climbed into bed in the dressing gown, truly a Jo burrito XD

We both woke up at like 9am and I felt like road kill, was rather happy I hadnt got to go over to Jack's family's house. I did some drawing this morning managed to crack on and get the outline and eyes done :) its looking cute~

Jack spent the morning outside with Oz gardening, I kept going out to check on them but I couldnt face gardening, I really wanted to and I hated my body more for not allowing me to do what I wanted. But I kept going out and I made Jack lunch too which he was grateful of

we had lunch and I practically ran to  bed, as I was so damn tired and in pain

we did a covid test before lunch and all was well~

Jack woke me when I asked him to - our usual routine XD I went and did some more drawing and stuff online

Jack was gaming with Theo, mum came over at 4pm and we had a brew and I showed her the garden she was very impressed with how  much we have done. I told her I dont think we are ready for plants yet and she agreed, I think we have got to change the garden round a bit first before we start putting plants in.

I did dinner and then after dinner Jack went to do some more gardening bless him, I kept him company for a bit then did 40min of exercise which was mainly weights and strength work but it still made  my body scream in protest with aches and such. So I poured a hot bath that I ended up needing help getting out of as I was shaky and dizzy and rather pink! took me a while to recover from that, Jack had the bath after me put poured cold water in it XD

Now we are just inside with Oz who is tired from all the gardening as he is always there helping us 

tomorrow not sure what sure what we are doing, we may go out for the day or just stay home and garden etc. Depends on weather and on how achy we are! Mum says she will call round at some point

crippled but got another tree up XD

 Evening

So last night I was feeling vulnerable to my thoughts, Jack was gaming and I didnt want to bother him again so I went outside to Oz and I rang my mum for half hour whilst fussing Ozwald outside. It was good to talk to her, held back the tears a few times. Just very fragile yeseterday

I stayed out a further 15mins with Oz, I couldnt have him in as he had been playing where we had been digging up the earth therefor he had paws caked with mud, there was no way I was bringing him in! 

So I put him home with his treat, came inside and literally 5mins later tears flowed steadily down my face. I didnt want to be alone so I went to get Jack who immediately left his game with Harvey and Theo when he saw I was upset. He cuddled me on the sofa and we sat watching Inuyasha with hot chocolate

I was ok but got to bed and tears flowed again. Honestly poor Jack had a wet shirt by the end of it!

I was laying there worrying about the night, thinking id just take more pain killers - not normally an issue I just blank my feelings and get on with it, whereas last night I was hating the fact I was on medication, needing medication, hating my life etc

He cuddled me and we kinda drifted off to sleep like that

I woke up at 1am for a wee but slept from there

We had an easy morning and set off at 9:30am to Jack's mum's for his sisters birthday

I drove, got stressed due to road closers so therefor I had no idea where the hell I was going!!! But we got there and I was aching like mad. I ache big style from pulling that tree up yesterday T^T

We stayed for almost 3 hours, we had tea and cake and his sister really liked the card I did for her and her present of korean snacks - which was my idea ^^

We came home for lunch then I went to lay down for an hour as I felt like crying I was in that much pain. When I woke up I went outside to help Jack. we have cleared more land. I went to the centre of our garden where there is a tree stump long long dead and some plants and a hella lot of weeds. I got the tree stump up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it took minutes as well much to my surprise as I thought it would have mega roots. It is dead but has the circumference of a dinner plate so I was pleased with that. Jack told me to stop at this point

I am now struggling to bend up and down and my muscles and joints hurt. I have truly overdone it ^^; I should leave these things alone but I want to help Jack and I want to do the garden ><

We came in and I ran a very hot bath, felt dizzy XD but it was good and then I sat with the massager and did some what revive me. 

I did the dinner which was a slightly different pasta dish.

Then I had a quick 10mins on the bed, got up and did some more on my digital drawing

getting there.

I wanted to varnish my drawers but its still wet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ugh

Tomorrow

for the next 3 days we have got to go to Jack's mum's to go let the rabbits out and feed the cat whilst theyre away so that will be a bit of chore but we've tried to think of things to do

so tomorrow we were gonna go for a 7mile walk round Jack's mum's but its not a good forecast so that may be wednesday and tomorrow we just do the shops round his mum's. We shall see.