OUR HOUSE 1ST ANNIVERSARY!

 Evening

I made it into bed at 8:45pm and woke up at 11pm to find Jack beside me. I had chronic aches so I got up with him, had a biscuit and pain killers. I woke up at 6:45am with such a dry mouth I could barely shut my mouth so I had no choice but to get up T^T

Before going over to see mum at 11am I had

cleaned Oz out

Cleaned the bathroom top to bottom

done some admin work

done the shopping list

30mins of painting

put some of the stuff away mum had brought over of mine

I was knackered!

I went over to mums for a cup of tea and a sow sit which was nice. We talked about various things and I saw dad for 2mins then went home for my lunch at 12:45pm

I had lunch then went to bed til 3:45pm as I just needed to rest my body

When I woke up I had fruit loaf and tea with jack then I continued with putting my stuff away. I got it all done and then did dinner

after dinner I went on just dance for 35mins with weights attached to my arms and legs

my god my arms were burning! I was still managing to get my usual scores. I was doing really well and sweating buckets I enjoyed it but Jack told me to maybe call it quits and brought me the inhaler ^^; thats how much I got into it XD

I had a bath and now I am just with my two boys in my living room

I said thank you to mum for housing us a year ago. I cant believe we have had the house a year! so much has changed in it. It certainly feels like home now. I am happy here. I wasnt happy when I first moved in here but I am now. We have made it a home and I hope we are happy here many more years to come~

tomorrow

got food shop, soup to cook and meat to cook as well

I have got to do some revision whether I like it or not! i might plant some grass seeds maybe. Who knows I might have time to do some of my painting

I am gonna have some hot chocolate now whilst watching anime, then paint my nails and go bed. Jack says he will watch anime with me but he might go game late by himself which is fine. I just literally cant stay up my eyes get too heavy

I hope I sleep today, I have had A LOT of pain killers today I hope it makes me sleep....

this week has finished me off

 Evening

despite sleeping well last night (got up for the 1am wee of course) I woke up feeling knackered. What a great start to my day. I felt exhausted. Its just work. Working and looking after myself and the house is sheer shattering. 

We got to work and I swear I spent more time on my mat on the floor than I did working today. So frustrating and boring but I was just exhausted and rubbing my eyes, yawning. I felt like I weighed twice as much. I couldnt wait for the day to finish.

Once we finished up I got home, drank a quick brew and shoved fruit loaf down me and went for a walk with mum. Even tho I felt done in I thought I would do my exercise and see her. I didnt have so much of a rush today as Jack didnt have gaming so there was no rush to get him showered and fed for 6:30pm. Instead he has decided to game with harvey and theo tonight so thats fine. Mum needed the walk she just ranted and ranted. She had kept a lot in.

She had also been busy by bringing over shed loads of my stuff today what was left in my old bedroom.

she did so well. I now have  A LOT  of stuff to go through and sort.....sweet jesus

I did dinner, then had a bath. The whole time I got home Oz was inside bless him. I just took him home at 8pm. I was sat with him whilst he snored in a tube

I am gonna go to bed in a minute yes its only 8:15pm but my god I am done. my eyes feel like theyre drooping to my mouth

I have wrote this weekend off tho

free time for Jo is a no go

I am seeing mum at 11am tomorrow for a brew and sow sit then coming home for lunch

I have revision to do

sort out my stuff or some of it

admin work

usual chores

plant grass seeds

yup no time for me~

I might have a look at next weekend if I can have free time

ahhh free time I remember that TT^TT

so yeah tomorrow will be rest and crap basically cus I have no life! I work, die, and do chores~ 

but its an anniversary tomorrow

we would have had the house 1 whole year!

made almost £20

 evening

I did sleep better last night, I was in bed for 9:15pm, I had back ache but did manage to get to sleep and got up for the 1am wee~

I did feel tired this morning, just tired from work and being in pain I guess. Does get to me at times

Jack keeps me going

We got to school and Julia was still upset about her brother passing away on monday night and told us shes taking a week off school. She doesnt care if its paid or not but shes going up to her parents house to support them as her 90 year old father has not taken the passing of his son well. We said this is all fine and we will cover her next week. Poor Julia tho its not nice seeing her so upset....Next week is gonna be tough....

I didnt have a lot of practicals today luckily so I was able to play catch up and not run myself to the floor

However I did have my biology lesson today and that was quite hard going. It was quite mathy and I suck at maths. I felt done in after that lesson. I did get all the work done. I had to pick my chin up off the floor as I saw the last thing put on the board.....test next week....seriously!!? another test!? sweet jesus I gotta get revising T^T Life is cruel

We came home and mummy was kind enough to give me a portion of the spag bol she made for her dinner tonight as I had forgotten to get leftovers  out my freezer. I probably could have tried the defrost setting on the microwave but she said my brother wasnt in for dinner anyway so there was a portion going. Just good timing and stuff really. She sat with us and Oz who couldnt play out due to the rain so hes been in for 4 hours straight XD Im gonna go take him home in a min

mum left and we had dinner

I did yoga with Oz, he wasnt invited but he felt he needed to come nudge me, lick me and hop under me. Its bunny yoga at its finest. I dont mind and its cute. He did a few stretches round me almost like he was joining it was very cute

I had a bath and made hot to soak my back that just constantly aches

now im gonna take Oz home and we will watch anime and go bed

tomorrow is school and thank god its friday!

I totalled up how much I have made on Redbubble since joining. and its almost £20! twenty quid from posting up art that would otherwise sit in a folder on my laptop! My most popular print is this one the ninetails

https://www.redbubble.com/i/art-print/Ninetails-by-LunatiqueDesign/36443561.1G4ZT

im surprised how much ive made

Up til midnight on a school night damn it

 Evening

So last night, like every night, I stick to a schedule so I know what time I need to be in the bath/shower so Jack has enough to wash too. Sit down and watch an episode of anime and be in bed for 9pm give or take 10mins. However I did not factor in that Jack was gonna spend half an hour on the toilet. I swear he is just there reading his phone >.> 

anyway by time he came out the shower and got dressed and stuff it was 9:05. So I got ready for bed and he was like "dont wanna watch anime?" I said "I get stressed if I am late to bed then I dont sleep, I didnt know you were gonna spend so long on the toilet. Its too late now its already gone 9pm it will be almost 10 by the time were both in bed"

so we went to bed like that. I struggled to get off. I think I fell asleep for half hour, got up for a wee at 10:45pm and then that was it. I was in pain with my back - still - and I ended up getting up for pain killers and I could tell things werent good. So i went to wake Jack up as he always tells me to wake him if I can't sleep so I did but it was such a challenge. He sleeps worryingly deep.

we were up til after midnight. I felt sick with taking over double my pain killers. I ate fruit loaf and we both had a hot chocolate. I still struggled to sleep but because of how much medication I took I did sleep deep...I woke up feeling a bit hungover. Overdoses always makes me feel hungover. I had a bad headache and felt sick.

I still went to school despite just wanting to sleep instead of getting up at 6am to put our stew on T^T

School wasn't too bad but Jack was a bit flat today for some reason. Im guessing hes tired but yeah he said he just felt flat and couldnt be bothered with the day which all isnt like him. I said to him to maybe have a drink after work as hes not had a drink since halloween party so almost 2 weeks ago

I got my day done, practicals worked well and I was able to do some painting

Julia was upset tho this morning, her brother had died in the night she said she hadnt slept a wink as she knew from the nurses it was gonna be that night. Bless her. I was so surprised she came in.

We came home and Jack made me a tea and he had a double whisky.....ok Jack you do what you need to do ^^; wasnt expecting him to have it as we got through the door XD but it did relax him he said

we did dinner and I slept for half hour after dinner. We actually didnt have Oz in after it went dark as I had soon discovered I hadnt locked his side door up today so he has been playing in garage all day = Oz hasnt eaten all day. He can get back into his cage he just chooses not to >.> So I put him home to eat. I got him out after my work out and made Jack sit with him for some bunny therapy now I am with him. So hes only had an hour of our time today and I feel a bit bad. I will have him in longer tomorrow as I have missed him to be honest. But I knew he would be constantly hungry. Hes happy bun anyway

its 8:25pm and Jack is out the shower. So we have time for anime today!

tomorrow is school

I really need to ring for an eye test too ><

goodies at work ^^

 Evening

I didnt sleep well last night. Got up for not one, but two wees!! T^T whats wrong with me!?

So I felt tired this morning and felt sick as well. Not a great start to my day

also very scatter brained and got distracted easily

However, a lot happened in my morning

I had the report come through from my meeting on friday, I sent it chris who then took everything off my desk to get to my computer and put my desktop thing on the floor and gave me a new monitor. I later found out it was going to be his monitor...he said "you have the best monitor in the school"...I felt bad but then I knew he would only buy himself another one, if not better XD

He also went through the different settings on the computer and I can change the colour of my screen with a free software its amazing. But I will need to take it off if I am using photoshop etc. But its really handy for those of us with dyslexia I was impressed! 

I was also sent through my voucher for my free eye test and glasses

I was struggling today tho so Jack broke down my jobs for me and stuff. I was just very all over the place mentally and stuff.

I got the day done, 10mins before leaving I checked my emails to see there was an email saying my foot stool is in reception!! Its amazing!!! It rocks and you can adjust it, but the fact it rocks means i can keep moving whilst sitting, something I like to do. I am so happy with it. Kinda want one for home now! So I feel like I have had goodies today at work, all for being a spaz XD

we got home and saw mum for a cup of tea and she brought over my parcels and documents I need to do more of my ADHD form >.> 

We did dinner, then after dinner we prepped food for tomorrow as its stew day tomorrow so we do that before school. 

I did a work out then had a bath, its gotten to 9pm and Jack has just come out the bath >.> not sure I want to watch anime - given the time. So I might just get ready for bed. Im so tired and I didnt sleep well. Going to bed late makes me stressed about sleeping then I dont sleep well. Which is what happened last night and it was only 9:20pm when I was in bed!!! we would probably get into to bed 9:45pm if we watch anime

wanna go bed 

tomorrow is school and I dont think I have any practicals again!

gives me time to catch up with myself~

just another busy monday

 Evening

I managed to be in bed for 9pm ^^ I slept pretty well but got up for the traditional  wee

I felt fine about school when I was home, but the closer we got to the school gates the more my anxiety built until I felt sick....

My morning was pretty busy to be honest

and I was struggling to cope with noise, like any little noise - a key board, coughing, talking, high heels. It was like my hearing had been tuned up to high sensitive. I didnt even have a headache. it was making not able to think. I was getting stressed out and Jack suggested I put my headphones on which actually made things better

i got my email about the assessment and it was all in green! so thoughtful, ive never had an email in green.

i was quite done in after work, we came home and had fruit loaf and tea

we brought oz in at 5pm and just put him home and its almost 9pm

he had a good time inside and i discovered he had made a mess of bottom so we had that clear up bless him

tomorrow is school

actually started some painted O:

 Evening

I didnt sleep too bad~ I managed to put Oz home at 9pm as the fireworks had died down a lot. So once he was in bed I did my nails then went to bed myself

I got up for a wee at 11:30pm and found Jack reading his phone, I took some pain killers as I had bad back ache - which I have had since friday - and went back to sleep

I woke up at 7am....7 again!!! But its still a good amount of sleep so I can't complain too much

i had breakfast by myself again, I went to get my clothes from the bedroom but when I walked in, Jack woke up so I had company from 8am XD

I didnt really want to do my shopping but got on with it, and cus we couldnt get witch hazel from there we had to drive to boots, wait 15mins for the shop to open, find the witch hazel and get the hell outta there. I was really annoyed as it was wasting MY time buying witch hazel for school. But its all going down on my time sheet~ I will soon amount those hours up. 

We got home and unpacked and had a tea cake and brew with Oz. Oz again hasnt played out much today. Not sure why. I think its bothering him having work men on the roof of the neighbour behind us. Its unsettling him.

We did my soup and I cooked my meat for the week. had lunch then I went to bed for an hour, I didnt want to but was tired. When Jack came in to me I thought it was only 10mins later but he was like "no youve had your hour" wow, where did that go? So I got up and did some actual ART yes art! I forgot what art was. I started painting my canvas, its going ok. i mean I have no idea what the purpose of this canvas is but Jack said it doesnt need a purpose if I enjoyed it.

We did a walk together which was nice then came in for a cup of tea and then did some more painting, did the dinner, then after dinner I had a bath right away as Jack is gaming with the guys at 7pm so I wanted him ready for then. I did some more painting, also brought Mia a christmas present online so that is a good result. I was struggling what to do for her.

Now it's 7:45pm and I am unsure what to do really, im too tired to do much. My painting is too wet to do any more. Got to have Oz inside. I would like to be in bed for 9pm. I can go to bed whenever as Jack is gaming. 

since 3pm my body has been shaky, I thought it was cus I was hungry. So I ate fruit loaf with my brew and didnt feel any better. I felt sick and thought id feel better for dinner but no. I soon accepted what it is....anxiety. I feel sick and shaky with anxiety...what I am anxious about god knows!!! Its very frustrating being anxious and not knowing what your anxious about >.> I think its because of school as what else could it be!? I told Jack and stuff and he said he would get me through the day. I know he will. I just hate this feeling. So I plan on taking a lot of medication tonight to zonk me out so I dont have to be up all night with thoughts....

tomorrow is school anyway