had a good pamper this weekend~

 Evening

yesterday was a write off. It was a bad health day. I felt like death

really did not feel well and wasnt up to anything. I managed food shop and that was it. I did pretty much nothing all day it was a total waste of a day. I didnt exercise as I literally couldnt. I did give myself a bit of a pamper. I did face pack, face sheet, bleach eyebrows, dyed eyelashes.

I was up til gone midnight last night as my stomach just wasnt happy. My stomach is having so many issues as of late. Think its my inhaler as it says it can do that it is still making me a bit shaky and giving my palpitations.

I woke up at 8am and found Jack and Oz in the lounge together. I was dreaming about being a vampire. Think its cus of playing Disgaea - the main character is a vampire. Oh speaking of my switch I won on ebay last night for £28.37 brand new Pokemon Shield. I have got sword but I need something to play after Disgaea and I fancy playing that. I chose pokemon from the pokedex today for my party and gave the list to Jack for him to catch/hatch for me XD

I didnt do a great deal this morning just had a rough morning really. Boy was I pale....

I think the whole stomach isnt helping how I feel

I cooked my meat for the week. We had lunch then I did a 10min work out before mum came over to dye my hair ^^ it was good to see her and now my hair looks much better just did it the usual blondy brown to freshen it up. You cant really tell but it makes it shiny and bouncy. 

I did a 10min weight work out, some drawing, made biscuits, did the dinner. I had omelette, sausage and beans and I did my Jack a full English X3 He loved it, very much his kinda meal that.

I have a shower and done my exercise, which feels weird doing all that in the afternoon! 

So I guess I can just sit and do art til anime? Oz is just loafing. I might need to go water the garden as Jack put plants in and it hasnt rained this weekend despite what it forecast. Weather peeps know nothing as per usual.

tomorrow

school

ugh

its been so nice having that extra day off~~

mum says she will come have lunch with me

my hair wouldnt have been washed since 2pm so I am hoping it doesnt look like a greasy chip but I could always wash my fringe in the morning and tie my hair up. See how it is

then I might actually get some painting done as I havent been able to do any cus Jack is round the house. I would like to replace some current art work up in my hallway but I havent got any ideas as of yet for it. Mum put the cacti canvas up this weekend in her kitchen ^^

I cant remember if I ever uploaded photos of Jack's sisters bunnies but here is skyla and thumper

up from 2:55am

 Evening

Its only 4:40pm but I wanna get this outta the way

I played on my switch til 9:30pm but I was so tired. I didnt know when Jack came to bed

Last night I woke up at 2:55am as my stomach was not happy. I sat on the toilet but nothing happened - just pain. I was then sat in a ball on the sofa with the hot bag on my stomach listening to explosions happening in my intestines. God knows what was going off in there. My own WW3 I think. It was not pleasant. But because I was up for so long, I got hungry and had pain killers too, before I knew it I was no longer able to sleep - I did try going back to bed but I was just too awake by this point. So I got up and did some drawing. Got Oz in at 7am and woke Jack up at 8am. He said he went to bed at midnight.

This morning I cleaned my Oz out, cleaned his poos from the lounge, inside and out the garage. Jesus Oz theyre sodding everywhere >.> 

At 9:45am we went for a walk down the river. Which lead to a little forest trail too. It was soooooo quiet you could hear everything! It was really nice and enough of a walk without making me feel shattered.

We came back and had a cup of tea. Then we went outside with ozwald, I kept Jack company whilst he sorted a few bits in the garden. Oz was so interested!

We did lunch and had it with Oz, then I died with stomach pains. I laid on the bed with my hot bag and actually fell asleep an hour. I woke up and decided what nail art I wanna do tonight, I cleaned the bathroom and made biscuits. 

Going to start dinner soon~ Think Jack might garden a bit after dinner. It got really warm today but its cooling down now. 

Im gonna do my nails tonight and do a hair pack. 

Tomorrow

is weekly shop and bit of food prep and a work out. Think thats about all I gotta do. I have been for a walk today so Im not gonna work out. Body needs a bit of a rest. I am also quite tired now!!! Need actual sleep. I have no idea whats going off with my stomach lately tho.

glad its 3 day weekend

 Evening

I couldnt be bothered with this yesterday

yesterday was a long day, my stomach was off before school and it made me feel drained for hours after. Jack was late coming home, mum came to see me around 4ish for a brew. 

Today it was another morning of dying on the toilet. Maybe I've been more stressed than I thought I was, there has been more things happening lately, more stresses I didnt need.

I couldnt be bothered with school, wasnt in the mood for the pointless practicals and looking happy for people and talking to people nicely

I just about got through school. I was exhausted. I came home and mum came over with the girls. We had lunch then she gardened. Oz helped - of course he did. I talked to mum and I watered the gardened I also did odd things round the house. She had a cup of tea and left at 3. I then sat with my laptop then eventually started my next drawing. Starting is always the hardest part with me. I procrastinate so much but on day 4 of putting off I finally made a start XD

Jack came home and I did the dinner. then did a work out and had a bath, he hasnt got gaming tonight but is playing with Theo online instead. He did ask me and I said he could. So ether way I spend friday nights by myself I guess. Im never up to much in the evenings so I always say to him if he gets a better offer than me he should go. I am with Oz, he can keep me company

tomorrow

its a bank holiday weekend woop. It means you get an extra day off but also means everywhere busy! as saturday looks the best day weather wise, we said we might go for a walk down the river then we have bits and pieces to do. We may go for a walk and go for cake and have a picnic outside

Shiny Slush Puppy Haunter

 Evening

Forgot to do my diary til late last night so I left it

But yesterday I hadnt slept that great so all day I couldnt think straight. I had to get up and stuff cus I was aching and stressing about work. The day actually went fine. I came home and started on outlining my painting and making a card for Jack's nan who is having an operation on thursday.

I woke up drenched in sweat. Jesus. I had to peal my pyjama bottoms off to go for a wee when I woke up. It was bad. I had dreamed about my dead aunty. God knows why. Never think about the woman. So I felt grim this morning I have to say.

School was ok really nothing special. It feels to good to be getting bacteria out the way I have to say. Slowly classes are getting ticked off. Bacteria is growing too. I have done a good job!

I came home to find mummy gardening. She had done so much she is like an actual machine. we need to pull our weight with gardening this weekend! 

She said Oz was really helping her, scurring the mud and eating weeds and sitting on her spade. She says its such lovely company. He is lovely. He kept checking on the girls as mum had put them in my garden pen. I finished the card for Jack's Nan, I think she will like it. I finished my painting to which mum said she would like it X3 thats fine. I had no plans for it and wasnt that fussed about it really. so she can have it next time I see her.

I did a few jobs this afternoon and had a half hour nap on the bed as I was so drained. Jack was home late again. Yesterday he was late as he popped in a shop and got chatting to someone he knew there. Tonight he just did badly with buses. I had brought him some fake grass for his warhammer models as I surprise. Just cus I thought they looked cute and I want to show I support his hobby even tho I have no clue about it!

After dinner I did yet another work out. Then had a bath. Not sure if I will do any drawing or not. I did finish my Haunter picture the other day. Its quite funky. I had found out shiny Haunter has a blue tongue and it reminded me of when you had Slush Puppy as a kid and it turned your tongue blue so I did a Haunter holding a Slush Puppy. Random I know!

tomorrow is school and it looks like it could be a quieter day - do I dare say??

Mum isnt coming over cus shes got an appointment. So it will be a long afternoon by myself but thats fine it will give me time to work on Jack's birthday painting. He will be late home AGAIN tomorrow as science department is getting together 3:45pm to have tea and cake to say goodbye to a science teacher - a chemist - so hes going to that. Im not as I will be long gone by that point!

massive anxiety before monday morning work

 Evening

I slept pretty well last night and woke up 10mins before my alarm so I laid there a little bit then cuddled Jack to wake him up. He says its a great way to be woken up ^^

My anxiety was through the roof this morning

good god

I had to get rid of my stomach content so I was stuck on the toilet just before leaving the house which made us 20mins late for work :( I was dying and sat with hot bag on my stomach on the drive in.

At school I was shaking and felt sick. Amazing what school does to me!

I was stressed out as the door keeping my bacteria in, the battery had gone on the automatic door lock. Meaning I couldnt get in. Meaning I couldnt get on with my day and start growing new bacteria. I didnt need all this and was on the verge of tears.

head of science came in and asked how stuff was going. I said "its horrendous as Im trying to fit 8 hours in 4 hours" he just said "well I have a meeting with Jack in a minute so Ill talk to him" hes not bothered.

I ended up being to talked to by a lot of people today. Time I couldnt afford to give to people but i gave it and ended up not being able to finish all my tasks today. I think I would have got them done if not for the huge delay in getting into the room. Julia had tried the door several times throughout the morning as its next to her prep room. She managed to get in by fluke and gave me a ring so I went up for my bacteria! the door has been fixed but it just offset my whole morning. It was good to see people.

I came home

exhausted

my mum came over to have lunch, she had brought us yet more garden plants and my parcels. We sat and had lunch with Ozwald. I seem to have all my meals with that loaf.

I tried to not go to bed but I felt so drained. I hadnt had the best starts to the day what with anxiety. Then stressing and rushing at work. I think I just had nothing more to give. So I was in bed for 90mins. I got up and did a bit of painting but I didnt feel very productive with my time off. But I have to accept I am poorly and I will get days like this and this why I am part time. I cant think of as not being productive enough I need to think of it as rest my body clearly needs.

I started the dinner as it would take 40mins to cook and I knew Jack would be home shortly

dinner was good and after dinner I did a 20min work out another grow with jo. It was enough. Jack told me not to push myself so I didnt do a 30min one just 20min but yeah it was enough

I had a bath now doing my diary.

Might do some drawing not sure yet

probably watch anime and switch in bed

tomorrow is school and yet more bacteria -____________________-

Jack's warhammer pics

 Evening

I was so shattered yesterday

I was in bed at 8:45pm, Jack was gaming online with Chris and friends

I fell asleep at 10pm after playing on my switch an hour.

I woke up at midnight to feel eyes on me. It was Jack coming to bed. I had fallen asleep in my usual position on my side of the bed. How the hell did I end up facing the other way totally sprawled out like Id been hit by a car!? so Jack could actually get into the bed XD he said he came in, realised what position I was in, and gonna go sleep on the sofa. But I had woke up. So I let him into bed.

I then woke up 45mins later and yeah, couldnt get off again. I was up til almost 2. I had pain killers and a biscuit. 

I woke up at 7:45am. I was shattered but needed to get up. Jack made me breakfast which was fruit loaf XD It was good ^^ been having yogurt and cereal for a while now.

We had a lazy morning with Ozwald then we went and did our food shop we were like ninjas! 

We got back and had a brew then I prepped meat and made biscuits.

we had lunch on time then after lunch we both went to do painting!

I painted a picture of flowers and cacti its still not finished. Jack did warhammer painting. He finished one person the other day and I offered to take photos and edit them a bit as Jack sucks at taking photos and he took me up on the offer

I  did some digital drawing.  then did the dinner. I then did a 40min work out. I feel like I have done a good work out. I have been eating so much chocolate from easter each day. So doing a work out doesnt make me feel 100% guilty for eating bad foods. I had a bath and now just sitting with a sheet mask on whilst I do my diary. 

I might get round to doing some more digital drawing before bed.

Once Jack is out the bath we will watch anime and go bed to play on switchs. 

I might need to water the garden as well actually :/ 

tomorrow

is school T^T soon comes round doesnt it. I will be able to see if my bacteria has grown or not. I still have bacteria work to do as well. I cant tell you how many hours it takes me. Mum says she will see me for lunch.

Didn't do my CV but Jack did his

 Evening

Jack came to bed at 10:45pm. But didnt matter all that much as I was enjoying playing on my switch. I slept through the night and woke up at 7:30am

I had a slow morning as I was bit like death from reflex. However I seem to be coping much better this time round on my new inhaler.

I cleaned Oz out and was about to wash my face when mummy pulled up out front!

she had bought us a couple of cheap garden plants and some flowers for me ^^ she stayed and had a cup of tea with us then left

Jack went upstairs to do his CV I did go to start mine but word was playing up and wouldnt save so I gave up and I havent found a job I want to apply to anyway. Jack said he would type mine up sometime.

We had lunch then I laid on my bed an hour

I think I would have wasted my day but Jack said we would go for a walk but I didnt want to take him away from his CV. He said fresh air would be good

We did a good walk and I was exhausted. I was glad I did it and meant I didnt need to do any exercise later on. We had a cup of tea then Jack went to finish his CV and apply for the job.

I rang my brother, cleaned the bathroom and did the dinner. Then I watered the garden with Oz. I could see he was hungry so I bought him in for food as I knew he would just savage plants >.> hes so happy hes just ate, drank, and flopped on plush pad. What a life.

I had a bath, Jack is in the  bath then hes going to play online board games with Chris and crew. They couldnt meet up this time so everyone said to play online

so friday and saturday night I am alone

i can cope

I will do my nails later and play on my switch in bed

tomorrow

got food shop then a lot of food cooking to do!