On the Cranberry juice

 Evening

We were like a pair of old people last night! I was so looking forward to playing Pokemon in bed. but by 9:20pm we turned the switchs off and went to sleep. We couldnt stop yawning and felt tired. I am sure its that patchouli oil!!! Im not using tonight as I wanna play pokemon. Jack fell asleep instantly. Took me a bit longer but a much better night than yesterday.

I was able to go school today as I didnt feel as bad as yesterday. I woke up to find two big house spiders battling it out in the corner of the room tho....not something you see. Jack managed to hoover one up, the other made a dive for the floor boards. Best not to think what lives under there... 

school was boring. The year 13 and year 11 have left now so there was lots of celebrations going off. 

I received a txt message from doctors saying they wont be giving me any more antibiotics....so just suffer then? I told my mum and she said she would pop in a chemist for me and ask their opinion

I left and came home to find mum putting the girls in the garden

we had lunch together, she had brought me some cranberry juice as she asked the pharmacy does it help or is if a myth? the lady said it does help. Mum also bought me this powder stuff you mix in water to drink for cystitis all it does it help neutralise you wee so its not as acidic and doesnt burn. She also said I gotta drink shed loads to literally flush it out my system. So much more help than doctors. But cranberry juice isnt my kinda thing, but that cystitis stuff is gross!!! I down it holding my nose.

Mum went into the garden for 2 hours. And I joined her. I tidied up the rhubarb plant and I sat with mum keeping her company. It was nice weather  out and I just enjoyed being outside. I got cuddles with the girls before they went home. Oz was helping too it was very cute.

she left and I bought Oz in with me and he sat on plush pad, I had a brew and sat with my laptop and watched videos and looked at recipes for Donburi. I did 15mins of weights which was enough. I ran a bath so I was in the bath when Jack got in. He had it after me and we ate dinner in pyjamas which I always like doing. 

So its 6:45pm and we have the rest of the evening to our selves. Jack has gone to nerd out upstairs and I think I will do ether painting or digital art. I just chose designs for my nails this week which I will do saturday. I also did shopping list. So yeah its hobby time

tomorrow, not got anything on really. I think Jack wants to garden. He might apply for jobs as he didnt get to the next round for that job he interviewed for on weds.

i will have more cranberry juice before bed and another gross drink T^T 

load of help that was

 Evening

did not sleep well at all. So yesterday was fluke I guess

I laid in bed aching but like a poorly ache. It was also stinging down there...

whilst we were trying to get to sleep I whispered "My Fanny is on fire" Jack burst out laughing and then said how unpleasant it must be for me

I got up and was up til 12:30am I just felt like death, my stomach was like an orchestra 

This morning when I woke up I just knew I couldnt cope with the day. I had a banging headache, I was shivering despite it really not being cold (was sweating last night tho) I ached and felt so so tired. Jack asked me to stay off sick but I chose to work from home instead. I couldnt bare another day off.

So this meant Jack would need to drive himself to and from work today for the first time! He was a lil nervous but knew he'd be fine.

He went off to work, I died on toilet then started my work.

I took regular breaks and had my loaf in too. I worked on making notes for the display and also did the title digitally for another display. I feel given how crap I felt, that I got a lot done. I went to bed as soon as I finished lunch and slept for almost 2 hours. I was dead.

I felt better for some sleep tho I have to say

So then I was with my loaf and worked on Jack's painting. I got it finished! I am happy with it and can't wait to show him....all the way on his birthday....in August....

good achievement tho ^^ I can start my next painting. I shall stash the painting away til august

In the end I decided I would ring the doctors as it was becoming clear, no one was gonna ring me. The receptionist said that my 2nd urine test came back fine. I said "I still very much have symptoms" he said "I will leave a note with the doctor and ether you will get a call or txt about further treatment. Might be you get some more antiobiotics" I have been left like this a week. Would have hurt to have just given me some more antibiotics!? Its not nice!! I feel poorly and horrible. So yeah I feel like I have gone through a lot of pointless crap. I still havent heard anything and its 7pm. Looks like I wont here til tomorrow now!!!!! This is gonna be another weekend ruined at this point!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Later on in the afternoon I laid in bed playing on pokemon. I was just so done. Jack was late leaving school as he had stayed behind for warhammer club again....the nerd.

I did dinner when he got home thank god it was easy. jack said I looked like death. I feel it!

I am not exercising today despite eating loads today - being round the house when youre hungry is lethal. My body poorly aches so I dont wanna make it worse and I feel like death. I am gonna have a bath and an early night.

tomorrow

its friday, I best hear from a doctor

I hope to go into school too, I dont enjoy working from home

I SLEPT and Extra plant X3

 Evening

I had my new essential oil diffusing last night next to bed (have it on every night) that mummy brought for me - Patchouli 

and my new house plant in the bedroom - mother in law's tongue

AND I SLEPT

like actual quality DEEP sleep

I can not recall the last time I slept so well. Naturally anyway, not drug induced

It was an amazing experience. I forget what good quality sleep feels like

I think I would have felt a 1000 dollars if it wasnt for the water infection I have right now

I may have only done 30mins of stretches and weights yesterday but upon waking up this morning it felt like I had ran a marathon and not done exercise for 5 years. I HURT

like when youre poorly and everything hurts

something is not right with me

I got to work and rang my mum to tell her about my good nights sleep! She was happy for me. I had messaged her last night saying "isnt thursday karen's birthday, we need therapy cakes"

she said "yes we do!"

so today as she would have more time she made cakes today ^^

I got work out the way it was dull

but coming home with Jack was nice even if it was pouring down with rain!

We had lunch and I went to lay on the bed and Jack got ready for his interview

and as he was on my laptop AND in my craft room, I had little to do! So I lazed around really

mum came over at 3pm which is when jack finished his interview it was perfect timing. She brought cakes she made and we had tea and cakes. Jack told us about the interview. I dont think hes holding his breath but he says it sounds good. He will know on friday whats what.

I did 25mins of yoga and weights then did the dinner on time

after dinner we headed down to TK MAXX as I was gonna go at the weekend anyway, thought might as well get it done whilst we werent doing much then we wouldnt have to go whilst its busy. I wanted weights, nail varnish, and a pot for my new plant!

They didnt have any suitable weights, no nail varnish but I got a pot. It doesnt go with my bedroom very well but only £10 and it fits the plant. 

We got back and I had a bath. As usual I put Epsom salts in the bath water but tonight it ehh kinda stung down there ^^; yeah wasnt a pleasant experience. Something is definitely up down there....I tried googling it today and freaked myself out with too much haha so I left it. I am not worried in the slightest I just want a cure!!! I should know tomorrow whats up.

After my bath I decided to repot my new plant. I had wondered why the plastic pot it was in had gone egg shaped rather than round. Turned out there was like one stem kinda by its self pushing its self out the pot which is why it had gone egg shaped, that was the 'tip' of the egg. So I tried to prize it apart from the others and it came apart easily like it was a separate plant so I potted it in its own pot and potted the rest in the new pot. So yeah I gained a plant! It means I now need another pot XD which is fine I am just happy I have an extra plant X3 I hope they both survive moving into their newer bigger pots. But I feel like I have achieved something today ^^ happy new plants~

going to watch anime - The Misfit of the Demon Academy - I am LOVING it. I will have a hot chocolate too and then play pokemon in bed with my Jack ^^ so proud of Jack doing another interview

wonder if I will sleep again tonight. I will use those essential oils again

tomorrow

school

same old

Sent 2nd Urine Off

 Evening

I didnt sleep that well. I kept waking up. One time Jack was snoring in my face and another time I literally ad his arm pit hair in my face!!!

But before that we were monning in bed doing raids which made a change but i didnt get to level my weak pokemon up. So I will do that tonight.

I felt deathy this morning. struggled to do a urine sample - just couldnt pee!!! I got a few mills and took it over to mums so she could take it doctors when they opened. She said I will here something weds or thurs in the mean time - suffer!

I didnt do the first aid training at school, massive relief. I have done the training before but this would have just been to renew my certificate anyway. Cant say I am arsed. school was a bit boring tho. I just felt so drained and tired. I couldnt wait to go home

I had lunch with Oz and took him home so mum could come pick me up at 1pm to take me garden centre I picked up the plant I wanted!!!!!!!!!!!! they only had 2 left - mother in law's tongue. I wanna buy it a fancy pot from TK MAXX they do lovely pots dead cheap. The pots from garden centre cost a bomb. 

Might water the garden, have a bath and do some drawing or painting maybe 

I feel a bit deathy now its getting on in the day

tomorrow

school but Jack is coming home at lunch with me! He has an interview at 2pme dropped me off and I went to lay on my bed, then did some painting. then I did 30mins of weights and exercise but it about killed me off. I didnt do it to any video I literally did my own thing at my own pace. Jack came home and we prepped stew for tomorrow then did dinner. We started a new anime called New Game! 

not another urine sample T^T

 Evening

So yesterday I completed my 3 day course of antibiotics

I went to bed shattered. I woke up at 2am being woke up by some sort of noise outside. So I got up and had look round the house and looked through the windows, the outdoor lights weren't triggered. So im guessing it was just a cat on the fence or roof. There was nothing anyway. Jack never even stirred...

I woke up at 5am then and didnt really fall back to sleep. I was shattered this morning and almost fell back to sleep which isnt like me on a school day.

We got up and I didnt feel too bad but had anxiety

At school I had plenty to do, Jack went off to his first aid course

I had other issues, it was still hurting me to wee, and it still felt like I needed to go for a wee. So I rang the doctors and told the receptionist whats what. They got in contact with the nurse and then they rang me back relaying the nurse's message.

I need to do another friggin' urine sample. I am annoyed. I was improving on antibiotics why couldnt they give me a few more days instead of a measly 6 tablets!!! My mum kindly picked up another sample bottle for me but i knew I wouldnt be home in time to do a urine sample to get back to the doctors for midday collection. So thats another day of suffering. I need to do a sample in the morning for mum to take to doctors for it to be sent off and properly tested. It hurts to wee, I have a banging headache, it feels like I need to wee and now its starting to feel tender down there. Like the gusset of my joggers - which never bothers me - feels like its rubbing down there. The whole experience is not pleasant. I just want this gone!!!

I got home exhausted, ate lunch with mum and Oz and went bed. Felt no better for an hours sleep, I got up and just sat on my laptop and then did some painting. Basically didnt do a lot I was done in. I got the dinner on so it would be ready for Jack

I have got to first aid training tomorrow 9am - 2:30pm its a long day of concentrating and sitting there. I will be dead. I am not even that bothered about doing the damn training. I dont think I am gonna do it as I am not up to it, its gonna stress me out, I have a headache, very conscious about making 100 toilet visits. So i told Jack Im not gonna do it. I will come home at my usual time. If anyone asks why I am not doing it I will say I have a doctors appointment

I ended up having that bloody house bun in for 6 hours so he was in for 7 hours today >.> its spring!! He should be outside!! I put him outside for 15mins tonight until I got fed up of going out to him constantly telling him off for eating plants that are trying to survive....I ran out of energy for that. Speaking of which i know I can no exercise tonight. I am done. Something is up with me. Im not usually this poorly.

tomorrow

school and might see mum after school for my lunch.

kinda relieved I havent got to sit through that course tomorrow. It was stressing me out.

I just want to be better. My poor mum having to take my urine sample again tho.

Been 'monning'

 Evening

We were playing Pokemon in bed together for a while last night XD It was good actually. We call it 'monning' together. Or just chant Mon Mon Mon XD

I woke up at 6am after a horrible nightmare and in waking up I woke Jack up who says he was half awakw anyway. It was awful. I was then drenched in sweat like I had just got out the bath and hopped into bed. So drenched. I somehow got back off to sleep til 8am. I woke up after dreaming my cake plate had been taken away from me!!! I was so disappointed XD

The inhaler ramped up my anxiety before shopping this morning

but shopping was nice and easy we were very fast as we didnt need much and even had a smaller trolley! We got back and I had fruit loaf and tea and then I cleaned the bathroom which was quite exhausting then I cooked meat for my lunches and for a couple of meals, it makes it easier when all you have to do is reheat some meat! 

We had lunch then I rested on the bed for 45min, I didnt fall asleep as I was just aching far too much it was awful. Didnt know what to do with myself but its just because I have been unable to exercise for a couple of days now. I did manage 15 mins of stretching/yoga and felt a bit better for it. I wasnt sure what to do with myself tho as I felt tired. So me Jack and Oz sat in the lounge together playing pokemon, Oz just loafed but he was happy XD at 3pm I was flagging. Its always the same point of the day where I start to feel unwell. I sat with a brew

then we sat and shaved Ozwald's tummy as unfortunately he had gotten into a bit of a mess again today and we needed to sort him out and trim his fur back so he can clean himself properly. He did sooo well! and we got a good amount of fur and matts out of him. Hes now sulking in the garden. I suppose it is semi-revenge for him savaging the plants >.> Jack is off out to do a bit of gardening whilst I am cooking the dinner. Its just fish and chips and we found a random salmon fillet pair with a seasoning already done today it was a bit more money but Jack said get it as it will save me a job of seasoning the fish. He was right. I am struggling for energy now but luckily everything can just be put in the oven and forgotten about. 

After dinner I will have a nice bath and do a face pack and face sheet~

I brought a new lip stick to try for school tomorrow - praying to every god it doesnt effect my contact dermatitis on my lips >< but I want to try! I also brought a clear mascara for school to try, I thought today I would look for my eye lash curler. Found it, not used it for 3 years at least and had it for almost 10 years, I cleaned it up to only realise the rubber on the curler bit has perished! but its only a Boots curler and years old so I can not buy replacement rubbers for it >.> so I have ordered myself a curler I have wanted for YEARS a Shiseido, theyre expensive but you can always buy replacement rubbers for them and they are used by make up professionals all the time so they must be good?

I have asked Jack if I can have a house plant in the bedroom and he has agreed so I will try get hold of one soon. Its called 'mother in law's tongue' its suppose to purify the air and promote sleep! I have 2 mini cacti in the bedroom but I want an actual house plant!

tomorrow is school

I will try my new lip stick and it might help me look well

dont think I have too much going off at school. However, my Jack is in school but he will be doing a first air course from 9 til 2:30 so I will not see him and will have to hold the fort myself. i hope I dont have to do too much running around -______-

its a UTI

 Evening

I didnt do my diary yesterday as I was poorly

So yesterday I had the task of during a urine sample....its much easier for guys - you dont end up peeing on your hand>.> 

Mum kindly took said urine sample to the doctors at 9am and at 9:15am I had a txt message from the doctors "you do have a UTI a prescription has been sent to the pharmacy for you" Angie is amazing. and how fast was that!? so I rang my mum and she said she would go and collect my prescription for me. A whole 6 tablets XD kid you not, 6 pills! 3 days twice daily. 

I had such a rough morning tho, I not only felt unwell, but upon leaving the house - I had to go toilet. And I could not get off the toilet. I made us so late...I was dying on the toilet there was nothing I could do. We started work at 8am but didnt leave the house til 7:50am.....

when we got to work, Jack said "you really shouldnt have come Jo you look so unwell"

yeah I felt it. But luckily I didnt have shed loads on so I was able to sit and work at my desk most of the morning otherwise I think I would have passed out

My mum came over for lunch then she gardened for a good hour whilst I went to bed as I was like death. At this point it really was hurting me to pee.....

Jack didnt have gaming and I thought we were gonna have a nice evening together and play pokemon shield and sword but....

my dad found us some more rockery stones so Jack went with him to pick those up. Also when it came to playing on pokemon finally, my stomach decided it needed yet MORE quality time on the toilet. Not that anything came of it (think my bowels were literally empty) but all it did was make me do more painful wees! I was seriously hating life by this point and felt terrible. I was too tired and drained to want to start pokemon. I crawled into a ball on the bed and killed demons on Disgaea4

I couldnt sleep tho. I did not know what to do with myself. My body hurt more than normal, my stomach was in horrendous pain and I had a banging headache on the pillow

I was up til 2am feeling like I would welcome death

This morning I didnt feel good but I was determined to get out

we popped out to the range and I got my art supplied ^^ we popped into a cheap supermarket on our way home and at this point I was so done in.

we got home and had a brew 

I cleaned Oz out and that was more exhausting than usual.

It wasnt hurting to wee as bad which was nice tho

After lunch I went to bed for 90mins I got up but didnt know what to do with myself as my head hurt too much to do art, I couldnt exercise but I am no good at allowing myself rest even if my infection riddled body needs it! I felt fat and stressed out

Jack suggested we have a brew and start pokemon. But playing games at 2:30pm!? I cant just waste time so freely like this can I!? I felt so guilty. We played pokemon and had Oz in

I made biscuits and did dinner but that took it out of me.

I am gonna have to accept the fact I can no exercise in this state. I have eaten chocolate and biscuits. I do hate myself and my body right now. Not a lot I can do about all that right now.

I will go for a bath very soon and then we will probably watch anime and play pokemon in bed.

I am hoping I feel better tomorrow

tomorrow is food shop and bathroom clean, also last day of these anti biotics