attack of ant 2022

 Evening

Man I could no way sleep last night. I hurt, I was hot, I could not get comfortable at all.

I went back to bed at 1:30am but still took me til past 2am to sleep

I just wanted to get the day done when i woke up for work

School was warm -______- so humid and hot its awful. Luckily I leave before the peak of the heat of the prep room. I did the jobs Jack asked of me, I briefly saw Lizi and I didnt get to do my display stuff. Well I got a lil bit of it done but not as much as I had in mind T^T

I came home and had lunch with mummy, whilst talking to mum after my food I noticed a flying ant in the living room, then an ant. I didnt think much of it as I knew it was flying ant day yesterday.

Last year we suffered a terrible thing. Upon flying ant day - when ants flee the nest, we discovered how many little holes were on the outside of our house, we had loads of ants pouring into our lounge. It was like something out of a horror movie. We did not want to experience such horror again so we filled the wall holes in a month or two ago

but today I decided to just look behind my sofa - where they all came in from last year

and much to my horror I discovered, the same thing was happening

mum said I was like a woman possessed XD i moved the sofa out the way and grabbed the hoover and was sucking up as many ants per second I could

I asked mum to go outside to see what we were faced with. Turns out the ants have dug through were the house and floor meets, and then crawled up the inside of the wall and coming out of a hole behind the radiator. Mum went to put ant powder down, I was spraying the ants I was sucking them up. Mum kindly emptied my hoover outside as it was full of live ants -______- its was horrible.

My face was flushed I was dripping with sweat, dripping. I felt itchy and hot, I hurt my back being on my hands and feet hoovering ants and being tense as hell.

I was so grateful of mum being there for back up 

She asked once that horror was over (after a boiled the kettle on creeps) if she should go

as originally i wanted to catch up with my sleep but I said to her the was no way I could sleep after that I was too wired to sleep

she stayed til 2:30pm then i did a workout and then laid in cold bath for 30mins and just chilled the hell out.

I got out the bath and jack came home, he went in the bath which I think he was grateful for

i filled him in with my afternoon, we said this summer holiday we will removed the radiator off the wall and patch up holes this side of the wall rather than the outside.

I can not go through that a 3rd time.

we had dinner and I trimmed Oz's fur on his tummy it was very cute and he just let me do it bless him.

I wrote out the shopping list, watered the garden really well

got to choose my pokemon I want to play on pearl with so Jack can catch them for me. I have got to write down what I want to do in the holidays and do 10mins of hobby time

where has the time gone today??

Not sure what we will do later as its so hot the lounge, the school behind us are having their summer BBQ so all we can hear is that. Ive been listening to their bouncy castle fan pump things droning since 3pm. ugh

tomorrow

I will clean Oz out, then mum is picking me up at 9:30am so I can go over to her house and play Sow Salon, the girls want a hair cut as its hot. Their claws may want doing too. Mum has baked a cake so I am more than happy to go over XD

I then want to dust my house as its really bothering me now, I need to clean the bathroom and do a food shop. Basically there will be zero Jo Time tomorrow but Sunday should be better, i hope

just no more ants, please

few health things

 Evening

I sat and busied myself last night, I started a bit of digital drawing. I sat down and I started thinking about my summer holidays, my summer holidays that are starting this month. A wave of anxiety just came over me. I had to cuddle Jack whilst he gamed, he offered to leave his gaming but I said I would be fine and went to play on my switch in bed

I actually slept alright last night considering Jack wasn't in bed with me, I could hear him nerding out upstairs tho. 

The alarm went off and I thought "screw it Im sleeping" I think Jack could tell I wasnt getting up as usually im up as soon as the alarm goes off. I made sure he was up all I said to him was "bring Oz in, leave him and put the wheelbin out" XD That was the last of him. I mean I think he kissed my head before he left but Im not sure if I dreamed that XD

I got up in time for work but the extra hour in bed was appreciated

I was greeted by my loaf who was in the living room alone

I got ready and got on with some work. It was all art work so it was a nice morning. I laid out display paper on my kitchen floor (needed a large flat area) and drew out metre long tree roots for a display. Looks quite good up to now but what the teacher wants to put on it is only gonna ruin it T^T shes dead happy with these free resources she found online and wants up. Theyre crap and are an insult to design.

Once I had finished my work I took a break on my bed for half hour to get me out the work mindset and then mum came for lunch she was with me for a while and I said I really wanted to get out. I didnt feel like crap, I didnt feel it would do me much good to be left alone all day really, I just wanted to go out!

So mummy took me down to The Range, she got a few bits and I got stuff for Oz, a lamp for Jack as hes been wanting one to use for warhammer painting for a while now, I also got canvases which is what I went for and a few paints~

She then dropped me off home and that was enough for me. I had been out but not killed myself off. We literally went in for what we needed and didnt browse the entire shop. So happy I finally got new canvases I have 2 ideas I wanna paint. I brought 4 canvases

I chilled out with a brew and Oz then unpacked my stuff

I then decided to do some exercise, I managed 30mins and my god I was so sweaty afterwards just simply cus its so damn hot! I didnt shower cus I was having korean noodles for dinner in  a hot living room so I would sweat. 

Jack came home and I was finally reunited with him ^^ I did him a pizza and I had my noodles, I had sweat droplets coming off my arms like actually dripping. Wow man I sweated

We talked a bit after dinner and then I went for a much needed bath

Now I need to do my 10min of hobby time. Its 7:15pm so I have the time.

Tomorrow 

school and its friday so last day of the week, I hope to put my display stuff up which I did today

I had an awful text message through today - from my GP surgery 

along the lines of 'further studies have shown that people taking Pregabalin are twice as likely to suffer birth defects if pregnant. If pregnant or trying to be pregnant please contact your GP. Please continue to use your prescribed contraception'

now if i was pregnant, how F'ing scary would that text be!? that text could have caused a breakdown for some poor woman out there. I feel that should have been a telephone call, if by the receptionist even if the doctor is too busy to call, you know?

this is the second time this has happened to me where a medication has had further tests and found out even worse side effects. The first time was with Morphine (which I was prescribed at 19) I was on it for 7 years and they found out it takes years off your life/limits your life span. Yeah I had come off by the time these studies were released but I wouldnt have gone on it if I knew that!!!

Ive also got an appointment through to see a psychiatric nurse, on Tuesday. Shes actually mum's friend and has given me some of her time to talk to me about ADHD/Autism and help me fill in the ADHD/Autism form I had to get from the GP. Thats happening Tuesday morning.

my increase in antidepressant is killing my skin I have eczema on my wrists and lips and its so sore no matter what I try put on it TT^TT 

getting display stuff done

 Evening

I was up til midnight with Jack, cus I was in a lot pain. I was so tired of it all

this morning at school, I worked hard~ I was working hard on my displays, I got a lot done. But ended up pushing myself and not really taking breaks ^^; yup, my bad

It was hurting to walk by the end of my shift. It  was a good shift as it was mainly art and got to talk to a science teacher about the baby hamster she bought at the weekend she was asking for advise

I just wanted it XD

Jack walked me to the car as I decided to take some display stuff home with me as I am going to work from home tomorrow as my legs hurt and I dont want to ruin my weekend for the sake of going to work

but it feels good to be getting displays finally ticked off

I came home and got Oz in, mum was late coming over but that was fine. She bought me some chicken which I cut up and put in the slow cooker. It such a relief to not deal with mouldy chicken. Last night I had a candle lit then an incense stick cus I could smell the chicken.

We had lunch then mummy left so I could go bed. I slept for 45mins. I needed longer but I was aching. I got up and did a few jobs, then had a brew then did 50mins of yoga, during which I was sexually harassed by that bunny. Yeesh >.> 

I had a bath as I was sweating, its really humid the sun isnt out but the humidity is strong

Jack came home and im gonna serve dinner when hes out the bath, I totally forgot he had gaming with his brother! so I will be by myself tonight which is fine. I need to make the effort to do some digital work. 10min of hobby time will be digital art, I have an idea what I will draw its just if I can actually draw it!

tomorrow

I am working from home and then mummy is coming for lunch, Jack will be home late as hes doing warhammer club after school

I hope I can sleep tonight

off chicken

 Evening

To say how much I ached last night, I did in fact sleep. I woke up at 1am for a wee and got back to sleep I dreamed of having granny in my old bedroom and I was showing her some of my clothes and just talking to her. Ahhhh what I would give to be able to see and talk to my granny again

This morning I didnt feel like total utter death which was nice

School was ok it was a bit dull at times, I didnt work my ass off in the slightest. I kept getting distracted and just was not in the mood to work XD but I did whatever Jack asked of me. It was so humid in that prep room tho I have to say.

I came home to find mum and Oz in the living room which was nice. We had lunch together and then she left me at 1:30pm, I went to collapse on my bed. In the end i thought "sod it I cant sleep" over an hour had passed...I had clearly been to sleep and not realised it! how does that even happen!?

So I got up and went on my laptop to look at jobs but nothing came to mind and I watched youtube videos. Jack came home and we did dinner which took like 2mins ^^ then we went to cut up stuff for curry tomorrow morning but when I opened the chicken that was still in date by 3 days...the smell....it turned my stomach and some bits had gone a light green. Yup not nice. I felt sick. So mum is going food shopping tomorrow I rang to ask her for some chicken. Sometimes I have stuff in the freezer as back up but typically I dont this time! But the smell of off chicken is so bad its been a long time since I have smelt that unpleasant smell....might go light my candle

We're about to have the final doughnott from yesterday I cant wait

then I will do a work out, bath, maybe water my garden and yeah chill out and go bed

tomorrow is just school and seeing mummy after school

made a crime scene

 Evening

I couldnt sleep last night, I hurt too much to sleep -____- i didnt wake Jack up as I didnt want him to be tired for his job interview. So I was up, by myself, til 1am. I was shattered

I managed to grab some sleep but no where near enough

We both went to school but Jack left me in the car park to go get the tram to the city centre

I went into school

I made a little crime scene in the corridor which I quite enjoyed doing actually. It was creative and made a change for me. took me 90mins too. I had a cup of tea with Julia but god Julia told me her life story I feel. She did not stop talking for an hour. And when youre shattered its hard to pay attention and look interested. I just wanted sleep I was fighting to stay awake. 

I made some fake vomit for class and tested it and that was my morning to be honest

I left for home and Jack said he had finished his interview by this point

we got home within half hour of one another and had lunch and Jack bought us a Doughnott each. We shared one after lunch we are gonna share another after dinner

I went straight to bed for almost 2 hours. I was so damn tired. It was near 4pm when I woke up!

we had a brew and then I sent jack to go order new pokemon games I want to get mine before they sell out!!!

We will have dinner which wont take much cooking as I have cooked most of it already

then I might go on just dance or do a grow with jo not sure yet, then bath and stuff

just wanted to get my diary done out the way whilst i am waiting round to do dinner

oh and Jack didnt get that job, he said someone else was farrrrrr more qualified than him for the job he was disappointed as he said the school looked amazing to work at and even kept a bearded dragon. Bless him, back to the drawing board. I need to start making an effort to look for a new job, i can maybe face it now? i am not sure to be honest.

tomorrow

is school, we have the year 8s i believe today but i cant remember what we're doing with them. hopefully nothing too stressful. 

i just hope i sleep tonight i am so low with it all

no Jack at school tomorrow

 Evening

I hadnt slept that well, I think I did manage to sleep even tho jack wasnt in bed but I just kept waking up so much -____- felt shattered this morning. Sick of feeling so energyless and dead

jack went out to cut the grass and I stayed inside with Oz this was all after breakfast

We went to B&M and TK at around 10:15am we picked up boring house hold stuff but also a few different sweet treats to try. We also got the final pot for the garden from TK my god theyre so much cheaper in there than garden centres and much more unique too. I dont know why more people dont go there. 

We came back and I was exhausted. Like I had ran a marathon and we had only been out 45mins

I had a brew and recovered enough to cook a load of meat for my lunches for the week and a couple of dinners. I had lunch then I went out to plant the plant in the last pot. The corner of the garden is such a feature now, we love it! I fished out the giant pumpkin out the garage too I always said we would have as a garden ornament. Much to jack's dismay XD

I also cleaned the washer. You're suppose to do it every 6months and I think its been since christmas we last did it so not bad at all! You have to take the tray out and clean in, clean the door rim, put stuff in the draw and let it to a 60c wash. Then I cleaned all outside and such. Yeah nice and clean. Sadly the first thing to go in next is Oz's toilet blanket XD my lovely clean washer full of orange carrot weewee XD

I did some painting but couldnt really get into it so I went to water the whole garden and all the house plants. I bought Oz in for fuss but he just wanted loaf in loaf lair 

I made a cake and did the dinner. We finished 2nd season of welcome to the demon school. It has been a brilliant series and I was sad we finished it but it left to be continued so we googled to find out season 3 is out in october!!! best news ever

then did a work out after dinner for half hour, it was one I had done before but it had about killed me off, I just dont have the energy today for some reason. 

I had a nice bath and did a facial and a facial massage. now just doing my diary then we will watch RWBY and play pokemon in bed. I still havent finished the league I forgot how drawn out it is at the end of sword and shield. Its nice its different but yeah I keep thinking "its about to end" but doesnt

tomorrow

bit of a different one tomorrow

its school for me but its an interview for Jack at another school to be a biology technician. So hes coming in the car with me but leaving me at school to go catch the tram into the city centre as the school hes going to is directly in the city centre and the tram stops outside it. His interview is at 8:50am. With any luck we will be home same sorta time

the other difference tomorrow is...no lessons! its 'enrichment week' at our school so all students are off timetable and depending on the year group it depends on what they are doing. Tomorrow we have the youngest year group doing our annual 'murder mystery' a teacher gets murdered.  So I have been asked (like every year) to 'set the scene' I get to put up crime scene tape across doors and create a little scene like where a body was found so I need to draw out a body on the floor. I hope I am allowed to do blood splats XD but I have permission to enjoy myself with it and Jack isnt there to make sure I dont make mess XD should be good. He said he also did  my job sheet ready for me to find monday morning (as I wasnt in on friday to see it) and he says its not much its basically display and murder mystery stuff. Its always odd when jack isnt in tho. 

I hope his interview goes ok.

Oz had such a good night

 Evening

So last night we had a Mon-a-Thon!!

I laid out the picnic blanket and cushions on the floor, I lit candles, shut the curtains, put Pokemon Lucario and the mystery of Mew, we played pokemon doing the pokemon league. We had Ozwald in the whole time and he was soooooooo happy. Honestly he loved being in. He was running on the blanket loads as he loves the sound of his feet on the blanket. I also gave him lots of fuss. Jack fussed him too but he always comes for fuss from me more than Jack so I ended up not finishing Shield just cus my bunny needed a lot of love. It was a good night, we ate sweet treats. Oz went to bed at 9:40!!! Thats so late for him bless him. He also conned us out of treats. Bet he thought it was his birthday or something yesterday. Spoilt bun

I went to bed and continued on pokemon, I took extra pain killers when I turned my switch off as I really wanted sleep. It was like 10:30pm when I fell asleep

I woke up at 2am for a wee but got back off to sleep! finally waking at 8am!! yay ^^

Felt like I had actually slept too

This morning I gave Oz lots of fuss then I cleaned him out

I then cleaned the bathroom, washed my face and got dressed and then did some painting

I died on the toilet massively, god it hasnt been that bad for a while

we had lunch then I went to bed for an hour but didnt really sleep as I was aching!

I got up and painted

had a brew and then we went to do food shop and got fuel. I called in at my parents for 5mins to see my brothers new bike hes so excited about. 

We came home and I died on the sofa, I was exhausted but needed to do dinner

I did dinner, had stomach ache after dinner which I still have 90mins after my dinner. Why must I suffer T^T

I then marinated meat that I am cooking tomorrow

Jack has gone off to game with Chris and friends. To play online board games

I would like to do exercise and paint my nails. I found a growwithjo thats an hour long of walking burning off like 500 calories. As Jack isnt around to see me exercise I could get away with doing an hour of exercise! but can do I even do an hour!? probably not XD so exercise, bath, nails. bed!

tomorrow

just got cooking to do really and some painting would be good