hedgehog and finished school

 Evening

I couldnt sleep

surprise surprise

I was just lying awake. So I got up and did some drawing. My drawing is going quite well actually. As I sat in the lounge my patio light went on. I gasped as I couldnt believe what I was seeing at 12:30am

a hedgehog!!!! In my garden!!! I couldnt believe it. I went outside to look at it. It was big! reminds me of guinea pigs. I put out a cherry tomato and mushroom in a panic as I just wanted to feed it. It was late I was tired and not thinking. Safe to say it didnt eat them.

we are unsure where it is living tho. As our garden is secure - cus of Oz

however there is a small gap under our gate which I have seen Mr. Rat use on occasion so did it use that? or the big pile of wood we've had on the patio for months and months, is it living in there? it would make a good home actually. I need a thermal camera. If it is using the gate to the outside world, I dont know where it would actually live. I have meal worms for the birds and I am gonna leave some for the hedgehog tonight. I hope it keeps coming

I went back to bed at 1am. Shattered.

so today was the last day of the school term. We broke up for summer holidays now

I HATED my day it was hot and humid in the school, i was shattered and my body felt incredibly heavy. I felt like a slave. Just constantly doing crap for teachers. It went on and on and time passed so slowly. I could have cried everything felt like a huge effort, i was tired and working in hot and humid places. Hell. Couldnt wait to finish. as soon as it hit 1pm I was out the door

I got home, scoffed fruit loaf and went to bed.

I managed to get an hours sleep but felt no better, it was just good to have the escapism

I had tea and did dinner and yeah I havent done anything. I am mentally and physically exhausted. I just need rest and actual sleep. I didnt exercise as I literally couldnt move my heavy body so I had a nice hot soak. 

I might try doing some digital drawing

perks of my day - a doughnut, someone gave me a colouring book, someone gave me a bouquet of sunflowers, cards of thank yous. so that was all nice

it is nice knowing that school is bloody over with. My only concerns is I struggle to structure my days and I am a bit anxious about wasting my holidays. I also worry about going back in august as I wont want to go back.

tomorrow morning i will put the stew on then me and jack are going for an ice cream as a finishing school treat 

Last day of school tomorrow, it can't come quick enough

 Konbanwa

Despite having an early night, being in bed at 8:30pm I still didnt sleep T^T

I turned my switch off at 9:15pm as I couldnt keep my eyes open much longer, but Jack also turned his off, he can fall asleep much quicker than me so I tend to turn mine off first and try fall asleep before him as I normally find it hard to sleep if he is sleeping. And yes he fell asleep instantly. I on the other hand just couldnt sleep, I just laid there and laid there with a 1000 thoughts through my head. I got up and took pain killers as I was hurting by now. 

I went back to bed around 11:30/midnight, climbed back into bed and heard Jack say, rather venomously "fat face twat" I looked at him cus I thought "did he say that to make me laugh??" but he said it was such venom that I didnt think it was a joke, then i thought "he saying that to me?" no, he was just asleep XD

he was moving a lot in his sleep, biting on teeth, snoring and yeah could have smothered him. I woke up at 5:50am and got up as I knew if I fell asleep and woke up to my alarm 20mins later - id be peed off. I didnt want to start my day annoyed. Monday mornings are annoying in their existence as it is

I woke Jack up and asked him what he had been dreaming of, he said at some point head of science was in his dream which was probably why he was raging off in his sleep >.> I dreamed of granny and showing my bridesmaid dress to her~

so today we had 2 people come in to school to be interviewed for the other half of my job. As it happened, both were from Hong Kong. what were the odds! both were guys. One was like middle age one looked anywhere between 25-39, I couldnt judge his age.  i kinda struggled with their accent a bit as they have only been in the country for a year and knew no engish before they came. That amazed me. They spoke so well for only being in a country 12 months and having to just learn a language that late in life. I havent really spoken to a chinese speaking person before so I am not used to the accent but I will get there. the older guy was much more sciencey than the other and so he got the job.

I got home and rested a bit with Oz who couldnt wait to lick my face and give me affection, hes such a lovely bun <3 mum came for lunch and bought Oz's little lunch box to which he took his piece of apple out of it its very cute. Mum left in a hurry as it began to rain and she had left the girls outside. I went to bed and woke up 2 hours later....yeah I was shattered.

I got up and had a brew with Oz and then decided to do some Just Dance and I stayed on there for 35 straight minutes. I was dripping but I enjoyed myself. Jack came home, I had a shower then he did. I was too hot for a bath. We had dinner now its hobby time I guess.

I will do some digital drawing i think.

Tomorrow

its the last day of school!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh my god yaus!!!!! Thank god, finally. It felt like this day would never come!!

So we start normal time but finish at 1pm then we're done~~~ so I am staying an hour later so me and Jack can go home together. 

forgot and couldnt be arsed

 Evening

Well first I genuinely forgot to do my diary then I kinda just couldnt be bothered!

Basically friday had school, Jack had gaming, I had the girls, I had reflex

Saturday, went food shopping, had girls to play with ^^ Jack was out from 2pm til 12:30am with Chris and friends to go to a boardgame cafe, pizza and drinks

Today mum came to collect her girls, Ive done some art, we went for a walk

I have been DEAD all weekend from reflex as that is what reflex does to me. But Charlotte told me that people still came to her in 42c no one cancelled!! I couldnt bare for anyone to touch me in that heat why would you want a massage, Id feel sick!

I feel like I have been by myself a lot lately but thats fine I have had years by myself keeping myself entertained. I am glad Jack has a life and goes out.

I enjoyed having the sows they are no trouble and I think Oz enjoyed having them.

Gonna do dinner, have a bath and an early night. I am so tired. I havent had a nap all weekend and Jack woke me at 12:30am as I heard him round the house. 

tomorrow is school

sodding school

like every other school has bloody broke up for summer but not my skanky school

we have 1 and a half pointless days of kids just watching films in class no doubt. Actually I know thats not the case as teachers have actually got to teach theyre not allowed to stick a film on. Skanky school. The last days of the year at my old school were a complete doss!!! 

dont wanna go

we survived, return of the double baggage

 Evening

Did anyone in the UK sleep last night? I have double bags! woo my double under eye bags are back!! It has been such a long time since I slept through the night that my insomnia look is back~ yup I have 2 bags under my eyes, if I look down I can see them!

Anyway last night

It did not cool down, it was 30c with humidity. I would have killed for an AC. It was depressing doing all my skin care and it was HOT. The liquid was hot and this morning the liquid was warm so I have put them in the fridge to reset

so we went to bed but I was very much feeling 'whats the point' Jack some how managed to get off to sleep. How!? I of course didnt. I was moving constantly as I was aching but also the bed felt 1000c were I was laying on it so I kept moving to a new position for 'cooler' bed sheets. 

I heard it begin to rain and within the first 2 minutes I could SMELL the rain. It was beautiful.

I got up, took more pain relief, and sat with the back door open, on the inner porch step and listened to the rain, had warm breeze on my face and looked at art on instagram. shortly, the rain stopped T^T it was very short lived, 30mins most. So I went back to sleep and did manage to get some sleep but it wasnt great

the alarm went off and I about through it out my window. I was so done with life. Jack got up and opened everywhere up. We unfortunately can only have our bedroom windows open at night as we live in a bungalow and so, we dont wanna get robbed if we leave the other windows open as it would be easy I think. so the house gets HOT. I eventually got up. I felt sick, achy and just done. I was gonna just sack the day off and have the day off due to heat exhaustion but its more hassle that its worth so I decided to work from home.

I had a shower as soon as Jack left as I felt GRIM. It did wake me up a bit too. I did feel better for it. I could feel everywhere warming up again. I had Oz in with me whilst I worked from home. I drew this today for work for a  display but didnt finish it til this afternoon as I didnt work solidly for 4 hours this morning. Mum came over for a brew at 11am. She was telling me about how they didnt cope ether yesterday. I told her that Jack got in the car at 4:00pm yesterday and the car said 47c and his sun glasses were melting.

I had lunch and went to bed for an hour. I had felt sickly all morning and generally rough so I thought some sleep would help. I woke up an hour later and was sweaty, it had warmed up >.> I felt like crap, literally no better for some sleep.

I finished the picture for work

I saw Jack briefly, he came home, went toilet, got changed and went back out for the science evening out. It was an escape room and mexican food. so I havent really seen him today I hope hes having a nice time and isnt too late home

I had my dinner, I tried making thai curry differently and it was ok a bit more citrusy that usual

I managed a 30min weight work out which felt like an achievement to do, had my 2nd shower of the day and now I am sat with the face sheet on which has been in the fridge with my skin care. I have made another 'ice cream' to have later as I have earned it as Jack is out for food tonight

I have got a lot done today tho I think to make up for yesterdays long day of hellish nothingness

so I did laundry, made the girls cage up for their stay this weekend, washed up twice (jack wont be in to wash up, made a curry, worked out, made jack's lunch for tomorrow. Just felt much more productive. I might even wrap Jack's present tonight as well if I am in the mood.

I am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo grateful it is cooler this evening and may even RAIN tonight

tomorrow 

its school, mum and Jack have both said to me separately that if I still feel rough tomorrow to not go into school but I shall see. 

42c.....T^T

 Evening

Did anyone in the UK sleep last night? probably if you have fitted AC in your bedroom but for 99% of us we suffered and hoped a fan would solve our heat issues. It did not. My god it was hot when we went to bed. We woke up loads and when the alarm went off I had so much sweat on my whole head it was like my hair was wet from shower

I didnt feel great this morning, I felt sickly, headachy and shivery. shivery...how? it was 25c at 6:30am Jack said I might have a bit of head stroke so he made a gross medicine drink that replenishes your sugars and salts. He made me promise id drink it as in the moment I think I would have bought it up

He left for work, I was instantly worried about him. He text me to say the prep room was already 32c. Sweet jesus.

I did eventually pick up once I had that drink and something more to eat, I did have spend some quality time on the toilet. Yeah I think I did have heat stroke. My body is very fragile.

I got a bit of work done but loads. It was hot and my brain felt like fried eggs. Jack told me not me not to worry as no one was doing much at school. 

During school apparently kids were sent home saying they felt unwell. no one should have been in school. it reached 42c today. Jack said the car was 47c when he got in it at 4pm

Mum came over, I gave her the option of coming, she had lunch which was nice then she left around 1ish

usually I would have a sleep around then and I was planning on catching up on sleep I had missed out on during the hot night however, the heat ramped up. I did not know what to do with myself, going from floor to floor trying to find a cooler spot but none such existed 

there was a breeze outside that literally blew warm air

I have done my best for Oz, I even sheered him a bit more and fetched him grasses and plants, fridge water, I have put some of his blankets in the freezer and I will see if he wants them later. hes only just started panting and its not hard panting. I literally can not do more for the bun, short of dunking him in cold water which would kill him. 

I hope he will be ok tho he does worry me

mum has tried her best for the girls too bless them, she sent me photos and they look like dead pigs

I finished a painting last night which was a nice little victory. I dont think I will do anything tonight as its too hot, my head hurts and so does Jack's 

told him we should sack tomorrow off if we both feel crap cus we wont sleep again today will we.

i feel so let down by school, they try and get as much out of you for nothing. we have not been looked after at all.

Its suppose to rain tomorrow, i feel like I will be raining tears of relief when it does

makes me wonder if the weather has killed anyone off during this week

No one wanted to be there

 Evening

I managed to get some sleep last night. Weirdly we both woke up for 2 wees but didnt notice one another getting up in the night. I didnt want to get up for school

So this morning my anxiety was through the roof like I was gonna be having a blood test or something. I was a wreck in the car - poor Jack driving. I was anxious about how hot school was gonna be and it making me feel unwell. I didnt want to feel unwell or get heat stroke.

We walked into the prep room 7:45am    28c

Yup

It was hot and quickly reached 30c and that was after we have opened up the windows and put the fans on. No one wanted to be in school today, unless youre the head teacher and you have a big room to yourself with AC. The kids didnt wanna learn, teachers didnt wanna teach. We had emails from parents refusing to send their children in.

The whole day was pointless. 

I had a headache and felt sick but it was just the constant humid heat.

I got my jobs and Jack suggested I take work home for tomorrow and work from home

I got home and my first priority was to open up the windows and bring my lad in to see if he was ok. He was ok actually and I have been giving him fridge water, carrot and apple today. Along with going out in the heat to pick him greens. He is well looked after and the curtains are drawn so sun cant get him. Hes just been flopping round the lounge but at least hes safe. Mum  has been doing her best for girls also

Mum came to see me for lunch then she left me and I went to sleep for almost 2 hours, i didnt do much once i was up as it was too hot to focus on anything. It is 38c or something crazy. I had a cold bath and made sure I was out before my hot Jack got home and aw bless him he did look warm. I put stuff on his skin to calm it down. Last night watching RWBY i massaged his hands and feet for him

I might try do some painting later, I just keep feeling sick and headachy but I dont wanna waste my whole day.

tomorrow

guess i am working from home. its suppose to be like 40c tomorrow. at least jack will have the car and I can keep Oz safe all day.

its gonna be a rough couple of days

 Evening

It's hot 

need I say more

Tomorrow its gonna be like 40c so more like 50c in the prep room. We will die. I am concerned about keeping my bunny cool. He is my priority and so far I have been totally on it in keeping him cool and hydrated. It's gonna be 25c at 5am in the morning....ouch....

so yeah I just gotta get on with it then come home to care for Oz. I hope my Jack copes when the sun hits the prep room TT^TT my poor Jack....

suppose to rain all day wednesday. we will all be wishing for wednesday to come

wish me luck