got my sick note so I have the rest of the week to recover

 Evening

So last night I went to bed being able to breathe better. Not feeling like there was a weight on my chest and having a collapsed lung. And I slept! through the night no less! That hasnt happened in a while

so when the alarm went on this morning I did decide to have a normal morning and eat breakfast with Jack as I havent done that for a couple of weeks nearly. So that was nice and I did feel better like I was on the mend.

Jack left for work and I did some painting, the whole time having the same burning tummy ache I had last night. I fussed my Ozwald and Im not sure what else I did but 10:30am I had a sleep for an hour as I was feeling tired and I wanted to be able to walk over to mums to have lunch with her

I woke up at 11:30am and felt so dead. I had hit the wall. I told her I wasnt able to walk over to her. I had an early lunch and ended up sleeping for 3 and a half hours....just could not wake up no matter how hard I fought to wake up. so that was my day T^T

Jack came home and he planted new heathers in the garden on the new rockery and that looks better now. We did dinner which was easy enough to do then after dinner we prepped tomorrows slow cooker stew. Were having Korean noodles tomorrow! 

I really should do some yoga so I dont get stiff and tight but my energy in on the floor right now. I might try after my bath maybe? I will see how I feel. Right now I cant even be bothered to wash myself. 

But the doctor has done me a sick note so I have the rest of the week off to recover which I am so grateful of.

Jack is stressed and busy at work and I feel so sorry for him as I am not there to literally do my job but I also told him he needs to stop sayin yes to people and make them aware were a technician down and to back off and get school to hire agency staff to cover like they would for a teacher. makes me sick.

tomorrow

got the korean noodles to put on in the morning, see mum and lunch, do some painting. About as fun as it gets for me!

Booked a holiday! first one in 3 years!

 Evening~

i couldnt sleep last night. Exact repeat of the previous night - aches and burning stomach. I was up til 1:30am, I did some painting, yoga, went on my laptop. I actually dont know how I passed the time to be honest. 

I climbed into bed and next thing I knew I hit the alarm and passed out again. Jack woke me to say he was leaving for school. i think I murmured something but certainly didnt open my eyes - needed more sleep it would seem!

next thing I knew I was waking at 10:30am. My god! 10:30am!!! I must have needed the sleep. But 9 hours is what the Jo needs~

so I went straight through to Oz who had been left 3 hours by himself in the living room! bless him. Jack hadnt expected me to wake so late. but Oz was fine. He has food and drink and a toilet area, hes fine. He gave me lots of fuss. I fussed him back

I did a bit of painting, I saw mummy at lunch time. She told me I needed to ring the doctors and request a sick note....so I did that. If I get a sick note I will be off school for the entire week! I go to one wedding and end up having 2 weeks off work.

After mum went I did a bit of painting, I looked at clothes for Jack as my Jack is a tramp. He needs clothes and expects them to appear in his wardrobe I think. So I gave him the choice of dragging him round stores paying full retail price or letting me loose online. He chose the online option, good lad. So I spent £70 of his money on 6 items of clothes which is pretty decent. Of course some of them are pokemon tshirts as this is Jack.

The next big spending was a holiday! Jack had told me to wait to the start of October but balls to that I wanna go away. I moved my reflex appointment so we could go first week of the holidays. So I had look round and one place was reduced from £145 to £129 for 2 nights and its at a spa! so we might get treatment there we will have to see whats on offer. You also get a bath in the room as well. It seemed nice and modern. The usual place I stay in Matlock is £120 and its small and run down. So for £9 more we get a better place.

I txted Jack at work saying I have booked a holiday and he said he was excited ^^ I am going on what would be my Granny's birthday. So I think day one we will go round the waterfall place I love, do Matlock and then day two rent a bike and cycle round Carsington water which is a lake really. I havent been there for years and Jack has never been so it will be nice for him ^^

we havent been away together for 3 years. we've only been away once together too cus you, covid.

excited ^^ mum has agreed to have Oz for us. So I wont have to worry about him. She has a spare hutch.

I did a bit of yoga after all that internet searching.

I felt I had had the most productive day in over week.

I did a dinner which was easy but VERY tasty we both loved it and said we could have had it again there and now XD

Jack came home and after dinner we laid on the sofa and told each other our days. I felt bad not getting up with him in the morning but I needed sleep.

He missed me at work T^T

I miss being with him.

But today I actually feel..............improvement!!! actual improvement. Like how I did last thursday. I think I am actually on the mend. Never thought this day would come!

tomorrow

sadly tomorrow will be a long day for me as mummy cant come and see me so I will by myself til jack comes in from work. I have nothing planned as I am obviously off sick still >.>

ate pasta for the first time in over a year

 Evening

I am STILL poorly TT^TT just what the hell man >.>

I was up til midnight unable to sleep due to aches and a burning stomach I just could not get comfy with. So yeah I was up doing a few things really until I felt I could maybe sleep

However I was having a nightmare in the morning, I knew Jack was up and kept coming in to see if I would wake but I couldnt wake up I was praying he would wake me but no he kept leaving the room so I had to remain in my nightmare!

eventually he woke me at 8:50am and said "im going to my mums soon"

nooooo! I wanna go!

i looked mega rough this morning, couldnt wake up and felt drugged and hungover with a splitting headache. I told him I wanted to go. He let me have breakfast and drugs to see if I would pick up but realistically, I was going no where T^T I missed out!! I was so annoyed. Kinda glad I didnt go tho as I had to die on the toilet.

I txt my mum and she said she was just nipping out by her self a.k.a without dad so she would pop by. She came in for a brew and I asked her if she would the same route I did yesterday with me. So we did that. On the walk she said "yeah you're not going tomorrow. You will also ring up the doctors for a doctors note" 0.0" well thats me told! Guess I must have looked bad walking. 

shes right tho, its just I had it in my head I would go back to school no matter what tomorrow T^T

I am just frustrated by it all you know? gone on for 7 whole days now

she left and Jack came home as I was cooking my lunch meat

we had lunch, Jack made me lunch he made me 2 wraps which was nice of him and what I felt like but my stomach afterwards just was so painful, my brother phoned. I then did a tiny bit of painting then at some point just passed out on my bed. 

I woke up knowing I needed to spend a lot of time in that kitchen ><

I enlisted Jack's help as I needed help to get it all done

I made a cake

made meatballs with a 1kg of mince and then made it into a pasta dinner. pasta

pasta, I have not had pasta for over a year. I went massively off it. I tried dried pasta (obviously cooked) and couldnt bare the texture. How did I used to eat so much of the stuff!? so matt suggested I give fresh pasta a go. So jack bought fresh pasta yesterday. My first time trying fresh pasta.

I was able to eat it. But if I am honest I did not enjoy it. it did nothing for me. Like mush in my mouth. I have no missed pasta. I have tried bread and that doesnt do anything for me. Like I have gone off some carbs. weirdly. its ever since a did that diet last year. food hasnt been the same to me. i spent two hours in that kitchen and i dont feel I got a lot of that. Jack enjoyed it and appreciated it as hes a normal person and enjoys pasta. I said to him i will not be doing that dinner again. way too faffy for little return. we are having the rest of the meatballs on wraps tomorrow for dinner so at least tomorrows dinner will be easy! cus today killed me off!!!

I had a bath and a massive pamper in the bath and out the bath. Hoping to try make myself feel better. feel human -______- I wanna be better. I am so over this now. 

I now feel rough. I am tired and cant wait for my bed. so done

we've given Oz plenty of fuss today he loves having us both around. Hes so sweet. he's 60 in bunny years bless him.

tomorrow~

well tomorrow I should be in school! so Jack will be there, covering for me T^T

he will have warhammer after school so he will be late home but he has the car so he will be home quicker than normal at least. Mum said she will come see me :)

please please let me feel better tomorrow

i hope I sleep tomorrow too

Just been so poorly but wasn't covid

 Evening

I honestly had no energy to sit and do this

i    have    been    so     poorly

But its been quite a weird virus

I had no voice but not coughing

I felt like I had a head cold but no snot

I had a bad headache and could not think straight at all

I was struggling to breathe like someone was sitting on my chest - I have been using my inhaler A LOT

I have been EXHAUSTED - no energy and walking from one end of my house to the other left me feeling tired and out of breath

I have never had a virus like it.

I of course did covid test and I was fine. 

I didnt make a single day of school this week! just was so poorly

strange thing was, Thursday I actually felt better, not 100% but certainly better. To the point where I thought about going into school on friday but decided I would be stupid to go in and just to take the week off to recover. And it was a good thing I was thinking this as Friday I was really poorly. It was like I had caught a new virus. So strange. 

where did that improvement go!? so unfair. 

Because I havent been able to breathe properly I havent been able to sleep properly as laying down made it harder to breathe so I was up all hours of the night, catching up on my sleep during the day. I have been all over the place with sleep and meals! 

I have been SSOOOOOO bored. I literally cant do anything due to exhaustion and fog brain. So I ether sleep or play Okami or watch youtube or look at clothes online. Thats it. Thats been my week

jack on the other hand, has been stressed out at work due to Ofsted, he had a funereal to go yesterday to which he had to drive somewhere totally new and stuff. He has had a full on week. He slept for 3 hour today during the day which is not like him but all week he has been saying hes tired. 

Hes also had me to help out a bit more cus of me being poorly and also covering for me at work.

the week has been seriously crap

I thought id be able to enjoy my weekend

ha no

I couldnt go food shopping today cus I couldnt drive or walk so Jack went alone AGAIN bless him. 2 saturdays on the go. 

I have managed a 15min walk today to the end of the street and back. It felt SO good to get out the house but also tired me out massively. My legs now ache from that tiny walk

I have been yoga during the week if I got some energy, just so I wasnt tight and stiff cus it wont do my fibro any good. Having to exercise when youre tired and cant breathe is like some sick form of torture. 

I am hoping I am back on monday. I cant take anymore of this!!!

Tomorrow, its jack's mum's birthday and he is popping over in the morning, I am hoping to be there too but depends on how I am. I can not believe I havent kicked this virus. My immune system is crap. like a slug. Mum has kept me company, bought me new pyjamas and pure orange juice. shes been so good to me, even bought the girls a couple of times to cheer me up

I hope I can at least enjoy some of my sunday before I go back to school

I suffer enough damn it >.>

Jo poorly, I hate having no voice

 Evening

I did not sleep well. I was aching A LOT, sweating, cold. Yeah just generally not well. I felt shattered in the morning. I woke up at 5:30am as I needed a drink, it hurt to swallow. I stayed up then and woke Jack up for school.

Considering I had NO VOICE I decided not to go today. My head felt like it just contained tumble weeds. So I didnt work from home ether. I had the day off sick. I hated not having a voice. It took everything I had to whisper >.>

Jack left for school, I texted mum to say I would be home today and that I was going back to bed. Slept well for 2 hours. Like the dead.

I did literally nothing all day. Nothing

I was capable of nothing

I couldnt think, I was tired walking round my house, I was a useless mess. I hated it

Mum kindly came to see me and lunch and brought the girls to cheer me up too.

I wrote my shopping list for saturday, early, but it was all I felt I was up to.

I took all my plants outside and watered them with feed and let them enjoy the sun. I also inspected them to see if any were ready for repotting and two are! That was as energetic as it got today

I did do 30mins of yoga just gentle stretching and I went to lay on my bed for an hour afterwards. Today sucked

mum came over later and bought us cakes she had made

Jack came home and we prepped the stew and I did dinner. I did a different dinner than planned as I needed something plain. still gave me bad tummy ache >.>

today has felt like one big punishment

but its not covid. I did do a test at 6:15am and I was fine. not even a faint line.

my INKBOX tattoo has arrived! it looks soooo good! I am so excited to put it on. However i need to not sweat for 6 hours after I put it on. And at the moment my temperature has gone mad, I am cold then hot then sweaty. So unfortunately it has arrived at the wrong time, I will have to wait til I am better before I apply it TT^TT another kick in the teeth

I still feel like complete crap so I have said I need tomorrow off too. life is not fair

however OFSTED are in school tomorrow so I will be kinda glad to skip that as it makes the teacher SO stressed. Theyre in thursday too and I hope to be back by then but at least I am missing 1 day of it.

god knows how I will pass tomorrow. Maybe feel up to painting??

I'll be doing a covid test in the morning~

 Evening

I still slept last night. Jesus. How much can I sleep lately!? I must say tho I didnt turn off my switch til almost 11pm cus I was determined to get those stray beads XD think I am like 90/100?

I woke up at 9am Jack had been up 2 hours!

This morning, Jack was suppose to be at mum's at 9am. However he had really upset tummy so didnt go in case he had a virus as he doesnt want his nan to get it. So I had him home

I went for a walk with mummy at 10am, went to hers and sat with the girls, trimmed truffs then my brother dropped me off home

I had lunch then I sat doing more stray beads. I felt so tired and wondered why I was punishing myself and at 2:30pm went to bed for an hour. When I woke up I cuddled hammington for half hour

had a brew with my jack and was starting to feel a bit crappy. Like my nose and throat are burning as if I have water up my nose. Its horrible

and as the evening has gone on I feel poorly. I swear the one time I go out and socialise and I get sick. I am gonna do a covid test in the morning cus i have symptoms

If I am honest I am secretly hoping its covid so I can have 10 days off work at it doesnt clock up time off sick youve had off cus its covid! but yeah we shall see. Jack says if I am poorly then I dont go school even if its not covid. He is right. I guess.

I drew a bit on my canvas and ordered some gold leaf. never worked with gold leaf and I would like to try it. 

gonna paint my nails tonight and die quietly in bed.....after more stray bead hunting

dont wanna go school tomorrow, had 5 days away from that awful place!!

oh also I havent seen a single second of queenie's funereal. 

like in a 48 coma here

 Evening

I didnt think I would sleep last night after the sheer amount I had slept through the day.  But after playing okami til 10pm I slept. I woke up at like 9am too....dear god. Jack had been up for 2 hours with Oz and was worried if I was gonna wake! XD

I got stomach ache after my breakfast cus I just do now.

We did go out to B&M and TK MAX in the morning as we wanted a few bits from B&M and I wanted to look round TK for halloween stuff but sadly there was next to nothing left of halloween stuff as  they had made way for christmas T^T we havent even had halloween yet! heck it aint even october!!!! so that was a bit depressing. We did get stuff, I was happy with nail varnish and plant pots~

We came back. I was dead. Honestly dead. I had to cook my lunchtime meat tho. So I got on with that. After lunch I didnt bother going to sleep as I couldnt bare to spend any more time in my bed! however, I am so tired now that I feel I should have just got on with it and gone to bed >.> I did manage - somehow - to clean the bathroom 

Then, as I had little mental capacity, I was on okami on the sofa looking for the stray beads. I have decided to do that saga....foolish XD 

I then looked at shelving on Wayfair. The ones i wanted tho Jack said are far too big >.> so I need to rethink. 

I did the dinner which was very nice. Korean spices which were actually making me cough cus it burnt my throat and made my nose run. Jack on the other hand had no such issues....damn him.

I havent done any exercise since thursday. I still dont feel up to an awful lot. However I need to do something. I was gonna do yoga but I dont feel up to it. So I have suggested to Jack that we do a short walk, come home and put Oz to bed then have a bath and maybe get him to massage my back and just watch anime and play switches in bed. 

tomorrow

Jack's mum rang him today and said theyre going to birmingham for his nan's birthday tomorrow and we're invited. I do not have the ability to do that in my current state. Jack said he would go and I am glad hes going. Its important to see grandparents. But he regretted saying he would go after he foundd out the day would be watching the queen's funereal....poor poor jack. 

so I will be home alone but mum says she will come try see me as she wants to hear about the wedding. I would like to do some damn painting. I am hoping come tomorrow I will be less corpse-like

I can not believe how much I have slept tho since the wedding. I feel I could spend 24 hours asleep.