Konbanwa~
Ahhhhhh tsukareta =.=
Just want to sleep~
Last night yoga was good she worked us hard
and once again I got the "special strap treatment" ><
She says im improving tho, my muscles are starting to support my joints
so im glad its working :)
But theres gonna be no yoga now for 3 whole weeks!!!
shes going away T^T i know everyone needs a holiday tho
I will surely miss my yoga, but i do do some in my own time anyway
This morning before work I changed the strap on my kitty watch
and the strap I made kept coming undone a lot
so this one is made with ribbon and is longer so it can wrap round my wrist~
Today I was at work 10 - 2pm
it went quick again, it was quite fun today and different presenters were
there so it was nice to see people. David had the day off and whilst I thought
Id miss him i actually didnt XD altho he has made my week bearable
we get along so well, his girlfriend is very lucky
we talk about the 3 of us meeting up when summer camp is over :D
2 children fell over in the space of 10 minutes during lunch time
I was first on scene and got sterile wipes at the ready to mop
up their bloody wounds, and there was blood, dripping blood
I didnt even flinch, just wasnt bothered. not feeling sick, nothing
SO WHY CANT I COPE WITH MY OWN BLOOD!!!!! AGGGHHH
What is my head's problem >.>
I was really proud of myself tho ^^
I got home and I usually sleep when I get in
but I was so damn hot >< so I did some dancing whilst no one was home!
and got a dance done for tomorrow! Ive not really studied it so im hoping
its ok for tomorrow, i'll watch and edit it tonight
I have been for a walk with Mia
we talked about Manchester and she told me Rob's cousin Matthew liked me
so im glad I made a good impression~
I weighed myself this morning and i had put on weight
not much but still put on weight none the less
now im not overly concerned but it set off panic alarms off in my head
*sigh* its relentless. So today at lunch I ate half my cob
my head saying "leave the rest you need to lose weight"
so i went with it at first. on the way home i told my head to screw it
and I ate the cob AND when I got home I had a yogurt and a apple
just to wind it up a bit more
thats me not sleeping tonight >.>
I am at work AGAIN tomorrow at 10- 2
its not bad and enjoy it its just nakering me out!
Im off tonight to my grans
Then hopefully yoga depending on how well granny is feeling
shes poorly :(
I had work today which went quick
managed to get a dance done too :D
success!!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h-7qwxK70FI
I drew a picture to go on helina's card
need to make the card tho
and started doing a new picture for another friend's bday!
what do you think of helinas?
got work tomorrow again XD
Good Day~
I painted my nails last night :3
summer fruits~
Today was the day I got my mole removed on my face
I was dead nervous
my appointment was at 10:40 I had let work know that Id be there
at 11ish instead of 10
On the way to the doctors I was nervous and debating in my head "do i really want this?"
But I was determined not to bottle it
The doctors were running 30mins late =.= so i didnt even get seen to til 11:10
there goes me being at work for 11ish out the window >.>
So I texted them to say I had been delayed
When I got called through i could feel my heart pounding
I was determined to be calm and relaxed about it all tho
I got numbing cleaning wipe on the area
followed with the needle to numb the area completely which actually didnt hurt
then he started cutting away and i was doing ok at this point i mean
i was starting to feel sickened by the whole thing
then I felt blood trickle down my neck, alarm and panic bells go off in my head
"MY BLOOD!!" thats when I passed out
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I was sooooooo annoyed at myself
I came to and he had finished and got me water
I felt terrible my clothes were wet with sweat, i was shaking and my ears were ringing
he had stuck a plaster over it, luckily no stitches were needed ^^
He told me to go wait in the waiting room for 30minutes!!
god i was gonna be so late for work
so i sat down a minute feeling terrible and very shaken
I was looking down at the floor, thats when i saw my mum's legs
i looked up and it really was my mum
i gave her a hug and in doing that action a few tears left me
I was just drained and she could see i was pale and shaky
so she walked me to my car which was parked outside a corner shop
she took my purse and brought me a sugar drink and a chocolate bar
just to boost me really and bring me round
she looked at wound and we agreed to change the plaster with the spare
the doctor gave me as the one i had on was bloody and didnt look good
so she got a wipe and cleaned me up for work
she stayed with me til i was feeling better
i cant tell you how grateful i was to her, like my savior
all because she thought she'd pop in and see how was and if id been seen to
i thought the reception had rang up saying id fainted or something XD
but no mum says she has a 6th sense for when her babies are distressed X3
Eventually I got to work, and I still stayed 4 hours like i was scheduled to
and my manager was fine about it all, everyone asked how i got on
i was so embarrassed to say i fainted but what can i do
i just dont cope with my blood
the day went slow, and i dont feel like i did a lot
i didnt play with the kids that much simply because i was short on energy
the morning had truly drained me
now I have a plaster on my face
it should heal ok, he said he left a bit left as it heals better that way
removing the entire thing would cause a nasty scar because of where it is
tomorrow I have work and I am not gonna do myself in as i want
to go to yoga in the evening as last week i was too tired to go ><
I still havent had the chance to record a dance :(
Hiya~
Today I didnt want to get up XD
I was comfy damn it but I knew I had work >.>
Life was so much easier when I had after school clubs to do haha XD
So I arrived at this sports place were we are holding Mad Science this week
but this week is different, we have guests
20 Chinese Students!! Really unexpected and random
we take on children from 4 - 12 years
yet these children are 12 - 16 years, teenagers 0.0
They are here as in China they dont do any practical work
so theyre here to do experiments and to learn english
they had a full week last week of intensive english lessons
So they can speak bits and pieces
When I briefed with what my part was today
I am "to blend with the kids" and sit and help the Chinese
as and I quote "near their age group" >.>
I dont mind and given the choice I would prefer to work with them
as It makes a nice change for me
so today I dressed a lil younger
the Mad Science t-shirt couldnt be helped tho ><
A few people said I look like Im in my teens
now is that a compliment or an insult?
Do I look like a teenager?
I was told to blend in with the teenagers cus of my age
yet David who is also with us all week is the same age as me!!!
how does he not get this treatment!?
Apparently Mary our manager had already said he cant pull of the youth look XD
I suppose its a compliment at least I dont look wrinkly and old
So they day was different for me
the kids were all nice and quite well mannered but their
language skills made things a but tough
i was trying to dumb things down as much as i could for them
I was there 10 - 2pm
i got home and slept, since then i have been reading and been with tiffin
im gonna get some dancing done tonight tho i feel in the mood
tomorrow im having the mole removed on my face!!!!!
Im so nervous im going by myself too
its going to make me an hour late for work so ive changed my hours
im sure i'll be fine well i keep telling myself that
wish me luck!
Good Day Minna~
Today I stayed in my Pajamas allllll day :D
I had a pajama day! I cant remember the last time I did
maybe it was the christmas holidays :/
I feel much better for having a massive rest today
I was desperate to recharge myself for the week to come!
So today I decided to do Mia's picture frame
basically during the convention the Lady who does Naruto's English
dubbed voice was present at the convention and you could get
her autograph, which Mia did, she took her own picture of Naruto
that Rob had printed out for her
So she got it signed and had many heart attacks meeting the woman XD
But she was struggling to find a frame good enough for this keepsake
So I thought "i'll make her one" I brought a cheap £3 frame from Ebay
and started cutting up a Shounen Jump book I've had for years
it has about 5 manga in it, Naruto being one of them
So I cut out then started Paper mâché ;)
What do you think? Im pretty pleased with it I have to say
the picture in the frame is a random one
Typically the manga I had of Naruto was mainly focused on Sakura
so there wasn't many Naruto pictures to be cut out! but I did my best
I can not wait to show her it, Ive told her I've got her a frame and thats it
just so she didnt go out and buy one this weekend
tomorrow I have work 10-2pm, for some reason I read 12-2
thinking "ah its only 2 hours everyday" nope Jozu it's 4 hours each day T^T
but alwell I will get through it Im sure
Im praying that this summer holiday doesnt kill me off
I should treat myself to something when its over!!!
Anyway thats all for now~
Good Evening
I can't tell you how tired I am
seriously, i do not know how I have got through the last 8 days
through sheer determination >.>
It was sooo hard to get up at 7am this morning I just wanted
to say "sod the day" and go back to sleep DX
I didnt have any nightmares, but if its not nightmares waking me
up its the bloody owls round here!!! theyre sooo noisy ><
I must say being tired has a lot of downsides for me
for one it makes my condition 10x harder
but also the thoughts in my head get a lot stronger
i cant stop it, i'll do anything, pay anything, just make it stop
ive had it none stop since ive been in manchester
why why why do i get so many thoughts about what i have eaten
and about how much i have gained and got to lose and how fat i am
ITS DRIVING ME INSANE!!! I literally will be insane one day i can see it
i cant stop it, its relentless and i dont know what to do
i mean what is the difference between thoughts and voices?
i dont consider myself fat so why do i get these "thoughts"
i dont understand and i wish i did
anyway today I had an event at some business park
in fact it was at the business park Helina used to work at
a few months back so that what kinda strange
i arrived on time and Seth was already there
we did 3 30min shows i must say i probably looked like
i must have been hung over or something, i was turning round to yawn
i looked shattered and zombie like
Seth took the lead and i was grateful
he let me play with his huge bubble maker tho which is just amazing
the shows went fine i dont feel like i was needed as such tho
its not like a birthday party or after school club where i can help
out with the kids on hands on work, its just presenting and getting things
ready for Seth, the hydrogen balloon was good tho, we burn it til it explodes
and i actually felt the heat off it today and when our balloon popped
it caused someone's balloon in the audience to pop XD
A lady who worked at the business took a liking to me
she was very eccentric for a lady her age and she asked if i would like to see
the inside of the factory, well i can't say machining is my cup of tea
but how often do you get to see in side a factory so I agreed
and at the end of the day she took me round which was nice of her :)
During the day I decorated 2 cakes for 40p, i took photos i'll show em tomorrow
I did 1 of the cakes for Seth but he doesnt eat cake apparently >.> missing out
so i ate em both
the lady was working on the bouncy castle and said i should go on with her
so i asked Seth "would it embarrass you?" he said "no it will take a lot to embarrass me"
so i hopped on, and after a couple minutes i was out of breath!!!! i couldnt believe it
I used to be well good as a kid on em XD the artist who was paid to paint the day
painted us both on the bouncy castle, i have a photo to show later
the artist was very nice to me actually everyone there was nice :)
its taken me an extra 30mins to do this blog entry as we've just
had a power cut D:
anyway here are the photos from Manchester City on the Sunday
there's not many, I dont felt like we did a lot really
I met Rob's cousin Matthew he was very nice Id like to meet him again
and we ate at a place that only serves burgers, i had a chicken fillet burger
everything came with bacon on it tho, even the chips XD
the table had sweets under the glass top it was amazing!!!! i wanted it!!
I brought a dress, sailor style from this random store, its new and only £8
i about died, my style, new and only £8 and in my size!!! heaven~
look out for that bad boy in my dance covers~
We went round Aflex palace and a cool shop in China Town
I brought a few things, mainly things to do craft with :)
Good Evening~
It's actually a nice day today huh
first time in like a whole week!
I had yet another nightmare
whats up with me, i dont watch violent things or
play violent games or read horrid stories
yet im having violent nightmares
its doing my head quite frankly as i keep waking up from them!!
and they make me sweat and my heart race >.>
anyway today I had work, but not til 11am I had to set off
so I didnt do much in the morning simply because I was
saving my little energy for the day
When I did get to work the kids were on lunch and it gave
me time to get up to speed with what the kids had been doing
and what they were doing for the rest of the day
i helped out as usual and it was rocket building today
a lesson we used to teach but no longer do sadly
so it was nice to revisit it all
on breaks i was made to be goalie >~< goalie is dull
i did really well tho haha
I got to leave a whole hour early today so that was nice
gives me an extra hour to rest today in preparation for tomorrow!
another early start god damn it!! >< got to be there for 9:30am
going to be on stage with Seth apparently
never been on stage and im well looking forward to it
altho Seth said he's gonna make me do more presenting
cant say as tho I want to with him around so i might try
and weasel out of it XD its werid but i dont like doing things in front
of male teachers or seniors just always been like this
im fine with woman it doesnt bother me
anyway more of my manchester photos
these are all the photos I took at convention~
from having photos with my friends to having photos with random people
purely because i like their costume and/or their character
also a photo of the haul of stuff i treated myself to with my christmas money :3
oh and I uploaded a dance today too
a new dance recorded a good week ago!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-mVj21FlHgs&feature=youtu.be
