Evening~
Today I was woken at 8am >.>
Even tho I hadnt slept properly from about 5am
I was shocked to be woken as I thought I was still awake ><
I had a hair cut to attend so I had to get up :/
I rushed to the hair dressers - didnt have time for my morning brew =3=
I arrived with my hair dresser saying she had double booked by mistake
do I mind waiting? I guess not. I could have had that brew damn it!!!
So what is a 15min job took me an hour!!!
But what can you do, she doesnt normally mess up, I'll forgive her XD
I talked about my career choice and she says Im wasted in teaching
Im too creative to sit in a school =.=
Its hard to get into the creative industry tho
So I got home and had my brew!
Then I was trying to design Mia a present
Took me all day to settle on a design!
I did finish off her clay jewelry
so here we have her rings, one cookie and one donut
And just a pair of watermelon earrings
dont think its too bad really and I hope she likes them all
Granny's frame came in the post, the one we had to re-order cus of dad
It took me ages to get it right in the frame
cus I like it nice and shiny ^^
it looks so much better in a frame, like its really highlighted it
So we hung it up under the stairs
using a pre-existing nail we said next time the hall gets decorated to put
a more centralized nail in for it
Me and mum went ok to a few shops
I got dragged round the usual make up shops
I dont mind a flick but mum takes ages XD
We went into Boyes as I have been meaning to get some
foam to recover my bedroom chair
as there is next to no stuffing left in this thing
i feel like im sitting on the bolts!
but thats my fat arse for ya ive probably squished all the stuffing XD
Recovering my seat will be a job this week~
Work rang me and I cant get work until I have this
bloody reference from my college!!!! its very annoying
and they have been trying so hard to get this referance
but ether people dont pick up or they wont speak about me
Dont know what im gonna do there
I have 1 idea and failing that I am gonna do some work experience
at my previous primary school as my mum knows the head teacher
who is my previous year 5 &6 teacher. she got promoted ^^
Im waiting for those god damn Hama beads!
I wanna get started damn it ><
Hopefully they will be here tomorrow!
Im gonna do a lil dancing
but I have yoga tonight and we have been
warned that she is gonna work us hard tonight!!
Fireworks have been kicking off even as i write this
and tomorrow is the 5th
joy
so were gonna get al the pets in for the night
Konbanwa~
I woke up at 8:50am
so I wasnt able to have breakfast with mummy T^T
so I sat with the piglets X3
I wasn't sure what to work on today
seeing as I couldnt continue with my Hama bead work
til my new beads turned up
mum had said a key chain of hers I made is falling to pieces - thats felt for you >.>
So i was having a think what I could make it from
when clay came to mind!
And with that thought came the thought of, when i when to Whitby
I picked up some jewelry making supplies, mainly to make Mia
some jewelry for christmas
So I dug that out and got work finding the tutorials I had once found
and I made her
1 pair of watermelon earrings
1 silver ring with a donut on
1 bronze ring with a cookie on top
I made mum a half watermelon key chain
and the other melons are spare
I was pretty impressed
as it did take all bloody day!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can not believe where my day went!
I still have the donut and mums key chain to finish tho
My beads arrived today all 1000 of em
I was feeling pretty confident with my 1000 beads thinking
if anything I would have to many left over
how wrong I was =.=
I havent been able to finish any of the 4 designs I did yesterday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
All because I didnt have enough white beads!!
out of 1000 you'd think Id have enough right?
But the packet it came in did so not look 1000 but it said it on packet
and I wasnt prepared to sit and count =.=
so in my fury I went upstairs and for a further £1.60 I ordered 1000 WHITE beads!!!
They better come quick is all I can say
I hate having art work lying round my room unfinished >.>
I went food shopping with mum I didnt want to
and I could she didnt want to so I thought we'd grin and bare it together XD
With everything today I forgot to upload my dance
So I will upload it tomorrow ><
sorry for the wait!
Tomorrow I have a hair cut at 9:30am ><
Good Evening~
I woke up at 7:50am! Wow in the hour of 7
I did contemplate going back to sleep
but I had back ache and needed a wee so I got up
I've not felt tremendously good today
It's like my illness likes to pick these random days
just to say"i'm still here you know"
I like to think Im not ill, but I get days that remind me that
yes in fact I still have my illnesses =.=
So with that I dont feel like i got a lot achieved today
I did do some sewing today tho
I fixed my joggers that had a hole in
and I started to work on ed's xmas present
I'm going for a Mario game Screen shot look
So heres the background which is made of felt
Then these two will go on top of the felt
Theres gaps as Im waiting for my beads in the post, ran out of white!
Then I was sat thinking about Tara's xmas present
I came up with many ideas
but eventually I settled for a design I could work with
So I'm going for a pokemon theme
this is the 2 characters going on the front
its Ash/Satoshi and Pikachu from Yellow Version
yes very retro
Then the background will be pokemon fabric I have
which are bedsheets from 1999!
Keeping with the retro them ;)
I did some dancing today to try list my energy levels
but it left me feeling absolutely done in!
I even tried to record a dance for tomorrow
but I was exhausted and kept screwing up so I left it
The fog was coming back in last night
so it was here this morning and it never cleared!
we were fogged over all day
and now it looks so thick its like you could hold it!
so pets have been inside
I hope my beads come tomorrow!!
I texted some friends to ask if they could remember Hama beads
as I used to do it with Helina when we were kids
Mia knows it, my cousin Sarah had some and so did Dom
which surprised me, he had his greatgrandma's funeral today
I hope it went ok for him as his family
Konbanwa~
I went to bed roasting last night
my mum has a thing about central heating >.>
I suppose Id rather be warm than cold
but its hard to get to sleep when your sweating buckets
so i slept with one leg out the covers
i woke up with a very cold leg in the night so wrapped it up
then in the morning there was a mega fog/mist
that didnt go til like 11am!
I decided today to look at my christmas list, begrudgingly
I dont know if it my depression or the fact that there wont
be any grandparents to celebrate this time, but I really dont want
to do christmas this year :/
I have never been a fan of christmas, of course as a child i loved it
but now i feel its something so forced upon you
I give my friends and family things through out the year
cus i dont need a day to give gifts i give em when i want
I like giving people things ^^
I prefer to give than receive
but my yoga teacher taught me last week
"that we have to receive as much as we give
otherwise we are denying others the action of giving"
I had never thought about it that way before
So I got out the box under my bed - my present box
and luckily i had picked a few bits up already
but not a lot but its a start
so I wrote down them, and wrote down who im giving to this year
and what to give them
its a tricky thing, some people are harder than others too
so this morning i was on google a fair bit looking at ideas
ideas to make that is, not to buy :)
i make presents were i can as more love goes into them
than an item in a store
One project im working on involves....Hama beads!!!
yep i still have them from when i was a child!
I think theyre called Perler beads in the States
I was surprised how many beads I had left
so I started my design, which is a Mario one I got online
But sadly I was short on colours like white and red
so I wasnt able to complete the design
So I thought Id look on ebay to see how much beads were
and to my surprise i was able to order 1000 beads for £1.80!!!
Back when I was a kid to buy beads it was £5 for 500 beads!!!
I was shocked so I ordered some, hopefully they will come soon :)
I was planning out another present as well
which I can start sewing tomorrow but it wont take much sewing
I went for a walk, I wasnt in the mood nor could I be arsed
but I went as I want to try and do a walk each day
I did a tiny bit of dancing in the afternoon, but didnt get far
im gonna continue with it in a mo
Here's my wardrobe
this is before
and now
It makes a nice change of scenery :)
Happy Halloween All~
I didn't sleep that well last night
but managed to wake up 8:50am
so I wasn't too late to help out with cleaning the pets out
As tiffin was in need of a full clean, my god he is the most
untidy-est rabbit i have ever known!
Kip would be turning in his grave if he could see the state of his hutch now!
I spent the morning uploading a load of stuff for halloween
as last night you would not believe the mad dash i had
My family decided to order pizza in =.=
I started making my own pizza using granary bread
I had a slice and said to my parents id have another when they come home
i wasnt wanting to eat a lot seeing as i had stuff my face with cake and biscuits - my weakness!
My dad said he'd bring me a pizza home anyway
I protested saying id only waste it
to which my brother's eyes lit up at the prospect of having "extra" pizza >.>
So they went out for a drink and would bring pizza home
I was home alone. the first time all week!
So it one of those "now or never" moments
so I got to work and in an hour I had rehearsed, got dressed up, recorded a dance
and i did that for 2 dances too!
I was sweating like mad!
I was editing the videos whilst putting my outfits away which were
all over my bedroom floor
My family came home with pizza
i was really not looking forward to it
i cant say i enjoy take-away, not in the slightest
but i felt pressurized to eat it
so i ate half, the other half went down my brother's trap
All evening then i thought about food, what i had eaten and how i just
wanted it out of my body. theyre not the ones who has a head saying
at 10pm to starve myself the next day =.=
where does that even come from!? its not normal - i used to think it was
So today I went for a lil walk after i had uploaded my 3 videos
and 3 images on deviant art
the autumn sun was nice
I then had a rest and read
Then Ive been with tiffin sorting out my wardrobe
not it's content but the front panels of it
i wanted to change em so i was flicking through anime mags
I emailed my dad the other night for him to order
the frame for my granny's memorial picture
he is used to ebay and is always buying off it
i had wrote down what size and colour frame needs to be ordered
and what did he do....he just clicked BUY
he didnt even look at the options!
So when it arrived today I was just annoyed at the site of an
8"x6" frame instead of 16"x12" frame
so my brother ordered it again but now i have to wait til next week!!!
useless
anyway i hope everyone enjoyed their halloween
i did nothing for it T^T im so sad as i really really wanted to celebrate it
my friends are all going to halloween parties or down town
and im at home sorting my wardrobe out =.=
i think ive missed something here?
anyway happy halloween
heres my uploads for 2015 Halloween!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OL1cPA9GdeQ
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w2aUQAa6Y68
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=au_gZ7Id0eg
i am so sick of the stupid fireworks
every time they go off i cant help but worry about my pets
Good Evening~
I slept so bad last night!!!!
I kept waking up laying in pain
man one night i actually wanted to sleep and i didnt
so it was 9:30am by the time i awoke
but in a way i was glad i woke late
as it meant less waiting around for the funeral
We all got our selves ready
it was drizzling outside
just before i left the house i started to feel very very nervous
but when i got in the car we were all chatting and joking
so it put me at ease.
my cousins met us in the chapel car park
my uncle and oliver were in a suit and tie!
granted my brother had a shirt on and offered a tie
but the less said about my dad the better
we met up with everyone and waited for granny to arrive
honestly even when she was alive we were waiting around for her XD
It was nice to see my cousins and they were laughing
and joking with me and my brother
then the Hurst showed up
mum started crying at this point i gave her a cuddle
we all were there to support her
so then we walked in after granny i started to feel nervous once again
I saw the vicar from tuesday and the singer/granny's friend came
i recognized her straight away, i had seen her at a vintage fair before!
so i knew she was gonna be good
so luckily we never had to sing!!!! great! granny knew how we all
hated singing, singing songs sorry hymns that none of us knew is cringing
i sat there my heart was going a million miles per hour i couldnt believe
how much it was pounding and how fast! i had mum next to me who was clearly upset
i was keeping it together i was doing so well and concentrating on my breathing
but it was the final bit that made the tears run
it was my eulogy, my words about granny
they made me and mum upset but they were good words and made people laugh
so a good way to finish
everyone came out and talked about the service as you do
me, my brother and cousins stood around and got talked to
by many people we had no idea who they were just have to be polite to em
oliver came up to me and said my eulogy was "ace" he thought it was good ^^
i really needed a wee so i couldnt wait for people to leave
but at least when we came out of the chapel it had stopped raining
we set off home my cousins came along with granny's best friend & her daughter
and an ex-neighbour of grannys
we had cakes, biscuits and cobs
it was nice having a chat with everyone
mainly my cousins ^^
the 3 guests left leaving just family
so my cousins stayed til 4:30pm
it was nice but i was getting tired
the pets hadnt been out since 9am so they were itching to play
in fact upon opening the back door pinky started doing mega squeaks at us
like yelling at us that she wanted to stretch her legs
so even tho it was wet out i put em out and they enjoyed it
so thats it all done and dusted now :)
im glad granny is finally able to be put to rest
i showed my family the memorial picture i did
and they thought it was good :)
Oh I know its random but here's the halloween picture i drew~
Konbanwa
I had an alright night's sleep
apart from having a terrible pain from my belly button
i couldnt shake it off it was stabbing me ><
I ached from yoga too she really worked us
I woke up feeling crippled from yoga
my shoulders and thighs killed
it was indoor play for all pets
tiffin had been let out early by my dad before
the rain had come over
so i was glad he could do his toilet duties outside
that squirrel is annoying all of us tho
but im glad its not going after tiffin like the last one
I went to the flower shop again with mum =.=
3 times in one bloody week
but we're done there now thank god
i continued to work on grannys memorial piece
and i got it done
i didnt need to add to much to it really
we're all pleased with it just got to wait for the
frame to arrive now :)
I did some dancing in my room as i felt like i wanted to
so i thought sod it, i knew everyone was home but
i just wanted to enjoy myself
i tried to record a dance but its not the same in my room
its been annoying as my brother is home 24/7 due to half term
and my mum has been off what with granny and stuff
so i never get time alone and i really wanted to upload
some halloween dances!!!!!
i went to sleep for 2 hours
cus i felt like it
sod it haha
i went over to mia's and had a catch up with her
exchanged manga books and gave each other an anime to watch
we talked for an hour then her boyfriend came over
so us 3 sat and chatted til 8pm then i said id go
i felt in the way, i know i wasnt, but i still wanted mia to have alone time with him
tomorrow we have the delightful funeral =.=
a day i just want to get out the way
really not looking forward to it
but mum had made cakes
every cloud has a silver lining right ;)
