Otsukarare~
Jeez I can not tell you how wiped out I am right now
I didnt sleep great and got up at 7:15am
I arrived at school at 8;30am, I didnt have time to see my pets T^T
but mum was home this morning to take care of them :D
It was christmas activity day at the school a whole school day
of switching from classroom to classroom making different christmasy things
I was with the year 6 teacher as usual and shes very kind to me, she too has suffered
a fatigue illness in the past so shes very aware and thoughtful to me
anyway the classes all mixed up and our classroom was doing calenders
i was pleased about this for two reasons
1. it was something not christmasy
2. our classroom didnt have christmas music playing!!!! (she couldnt get it working)
so it didnt feel so in your face unlike other classrooms
so i was helping kids draw their calender designs all amazed at my drawing skills X3
i get asked a lot "how old are you" im 23 "what!? you look like 17!" yeah i get that a lot ^^"
or I get asked "why are you here?" I want to be a teaching assistant "yay so are you working in our classroom? can you sit with us?" I got told I was the youngest member of staff there :3
It was lunch time and I came home for some warm food
and a lay down for 20mins then i went straight back I had both the teacher and mum asking
"your sure your ok to go back?"
no not really but I needed to see if I could handle a whole day and how my body will suffer the next day for it.
so I worked til 3:30pm and was quite shattered to say the least
the teacher thanked me for the help
I came home mum had made cookies and made me a tea
so i sat had that with her and went to bed and woke up at 6pm
at dinner, saw pets now im off to yoga
i can tell im not gonna be on top form in yoga im too exhausted
and i would have not gone but its the last session of 2015 and I dont wanna miss it!!
I got great news today the teacher I work with - who I later found out to be
assistant head 0.0 said that I welcome to come and do my placement at the school!!!
I HAVE A PLACEMENT FOR NEXT YEAR!!!
I am soooooo happy about this as its local and a lovely school
and I know loads of members of staff so im really please
I feel things are starting to slot together so bring on 2016!
I painted my nails last night
swirl hearts my first attempt ><
Yo~~~
I was a usual morning this morning
after everyone had left me home alone I went to the shops
by myself. I hadnt realized til today at how little I go out by myself
Im always with someone, so to go by myself felt a lil odd.
I just went a brought 3 storage boxes nothing special and some milk
but on the way home I called in at the parlor me and mum sometimes go to
have our eyelashes tinted. And I booked & paid for her to have her nails
done for her bday in January :D
she is gonna love that X3
Got home and started putting the storage boxes to work
my parents complain - and rightly so - that i take up their wardrobe space
which i do ><
so 2 boxes has fabric in and 1 box has all my cosplay in it
it looks much neater i have to say
then I was having an early lunch as I had a college interview to attend
I dressed smart casual wearing my fox jumper I got the other week X3
I arrived at the college and wasnt kept waiting long until a lady came to see me
she was nice and was surprised at home much I had already sorted out for
myself like a school placement and DBS check
she has said i got a place and the course starts in February and its a year long...
i was all happy and grateful for a place but i had got it in my mind that i would be done
and dusted both courses by 2016 but its not the case i could be in education til 2017
so when i got home i had a lil cry about being far behind my friends, not having an income
and all my friends are saving for houses. i wont be able to go college, school and keep a job down
but mums soon brought me out one of the cracks i can fall into and told me how well i was
doing and that i had sorted it all out by myself and such
i know shes right and its just me expecting more of myself and putting pressure on myself
so im ok about it all and i will just get it all done.
after everything today and being upset i fell asleep for an hour woops ><
tomorrow will be my first FULL day at school i havent done a full day before.
its the christmas activity day so its gonna be all hands on decks!
i can leave when i like but i want to see how well i can/cant cope
and i will find out whether i have placement there for definite for next year!
lil nervous in case i cant stay there as its a lovely school.
id like to paint my nails tonight if i can :)
Evening~
I'm sick to death of suffering with my stomach
I had a year of this in 2009 i cant believe I had stomach
issues for a year. the last 4 weeks have done my head in!
I slept kinda ok dreaming about vampire/demon thing after to me
Today I got up and did some jobs, I cleared out the cupboard of
fabric its now tidy and arranged, tomorrow im gonna get some storage boxes
for it all :3
I rang my old school for exam board information
I rang the doctors to find my thyroid is normal.....damn...so i have no idea whats up
with my damn stomach. I dont know what to do actually :/
I sat and did my drawing and finished it! my adoptables are totally finished!
i will unveil them on friday~
I did some dancing and got a dance recorded for tomorrow~
I had lunch and went for a walk
put the pets outside who werent happy to go out it was a lil wet
but they need airing XD
My brother has gone out for the night with his girlfriend
to her work's christmas due. its on a boat! food and drink! then theyre going
back to a hotel, alright for some huh
so whilst he's been out I wrapped his pressie
I went over to granny's with mum and tiffin
i let tiffin have a hop round her house X3 we just put up her xmas
tree, so it looks homely
granny has her decs up before us!!! >.>
got some dancing to do but stomach hurts =.=
tomorrow I have got my interview at college
nervous doki doki ><
Konbanwa~
I woke up with such a dry mouth this morning =.= it wasnt pleasant
and for the first time in a long time. i was the first one up!!
which feels kinda werid actually as usually dad is up with drinks
and putting lights on and stuff
In the morning i brought lily and pinky up to mum in bed
she was happy to receive them XD
after i did my pet sitting and had 2 breakfasts' (been mega hungry)
i went for a 30min walk i felt better getting out for some fresh air
then ive been doing some drawing im so close to finishing now
then for my next picture im gonna draw a geisha
ive never drawn one before
i phoned lynn, and im gonna pop over to her's in the morning
as her husband is unwell and she doesnt want to leave him which is fair enough
i want to see her xmas decorations too :D
it meant i had to wrap her pressies so i sat and did that with tiffin
i also wrapped karens as well
lynn's
karen's
done a lil dancing but ive had stomach ache so ive mainly
been scrunched in a ball in front of my laptop
im so ringing up doctors tomorrow to find out my blood results
i wanna know whats up with me >.>
so tomorrow it's lynn's and probably finishing my drawing :)
Good Evening~
Last night I had a right good laugh with my famil
all over a lemon..
we had had a fish dinner and all had a quarter or lemon each
i had used mine and blown my nose on tissues so when i finished my dinner
i put my lemon and tissues in the plate i walked to the bathroom with my bowl
thinking "the tissues can go down the toilet instead of bin"
mum and dad thought i was flushing my food away XD but yeah i grabbed the tissues
and plop....i forgot the lemon was also in them. so now theres a floating lemon
my parents were still eating so i didnt want to walk through saying
"theres a lemon in the toilet!"
so i flushed it and thought it would have gone down without any trouble
and then i kinda forgot about it ^^" thinking it had gone anyway
later on me and mum were watching TV and my dad got up for the toilet
we heard him come out and say "well the toilet isnt any fresher and its still there"
a massive grin plastered my face i was trying to keep a laugh in
my mum was like "what is he going on about"
i told her what i think it could be. bearing in mind i had flushed the toilet my dad
came through and said "whats with the floating lemon?" i burst out laughing so loud
i couldnt hold it in anymore i had tears coming down my face
we were cracking jokes about it i couldnt breathe
only this family would find it funny in the end i think dad got it out XD
i woke up this morning feeling crippled i think i did too much
yesterday. so i took easy today it was pouring down with rain the whole
day so ive not missed much.
so ive been drawing and cleaning pets out and dying of stomach ache
i ended up falling asleep on my bed i ached so much and my stomach hurt
when i woke up i felt much better ^^
so yeah a dull day really i havent done much at all
i have finished the girl, well finished colouring her in and started on the boy
i have called them Linx and Trix ~
Oha~~
I slept really bad last night, typical the day i wake up early and need
sleep that i dont sleep well >.>
In one dream I was being strangled by a huge man and when i woke up
i had both my hands on my collar bones 0.o
Anyway so I got up early and dressed for school ^^
i remembered to take my medication this time XD
I filled in a form at the school and handed over my ID and stuff as they
know I should be there more often.
I went through to the year 6 teacher who was with the head mistress
so i was glad i got to see her too, I talked to a few other staff members
it was lovely how they remembered me ^^
the lesson started and i was sat with a group of girls who needed a lil help
one girl in particular, just reminds me of mia, how much she struggled when
we were at school together bless her.
They were working out a WARM UP maths question, god i was so bad!
i sat thinking "what the hell!? theyre only like 10 years old how they gonna know this!?"
some did get it but not many
the question is:
what two numbers added together make the sum of 9 but times together make the product 14
0.0
i worked it out to be 2 + 7 as add em together is 9 and times together is 14
so i had a personal victory dance in my head
but next question was the same but 36 and 288. i felt like the dragons on dragon's den
"i'm out!"
i had no bloody chance. makes me think i need to scratch my skills up....
then it was computer time and i went to help a girl but i was no better myself...
i didnt think they'd have the latest windows software jeez it looks so strange to what i have!
then they have new microsoft too!!!! i have mircosoft 2003 so yeah its much different and i prefer 2003 version much more simple. but i picked up quickly enough
assembly came and i took a breather, then it was break time
afterwards they marked a paper they had sat done in the week. and answers the group
i sat with had given i would have let them have but the teacher says no 0.0
why split hairs i know what they mean XD my mum says its a good job im not an examiner haha
then they played a game whilst i went to talk to the head teacher
I told her that as off january i need to be in a school 12 hours a week and that if i could do more hours at this school. she wasnt sure but said she will get back to me next week. she wants me at the school so i was happy to hear that ^^ and next week im going to school on wednesday instead
of friday as friday they're singing carols in the church *shudders* i used to hate doing that!
so wednesday is CHRISTMAS ACTIVITY DAY!! I used to love that at school it was so fun getting to make stuff for a whole school day! so she said they need all the help they can get and i can stay the whole day too if i wanted to!
came home and had warm lunch to thaw me out
went to a few shops with mum, got a new long sleeve top for work from charity shop
its in the wash but i will photograph it
came home again and relaxed with pets
heres my nails which a lot of kids noticed
i had to take my bunny nails off T^T
tomorrow its the weekend~
Evening all~
I slept pretty bad last night each time i woke up cus of pain
which i put down to yoga - it was hard work
i woke up starving, like feeling hollow inside, it felt like my stomach
was digesting it's self >.>
In the end i woke up at 9am to and empty house T^T
i had little time to get pigs out tiffin out and get ready and have breakfast all before
my blood test at 10:10am
mum came back from work and picked me up for doctors
i didnt want to go T^T i ended up waiting til 10:20
all the time my heart rate increasing.
then my nurse came round the corner. i was doing so well
i layed down and let he get on with it, the needle killed for some reason
and i think cus i winced i started to panic and there for not a drop of blood came out!!!!!!!!!!!!
i was like "oh damn it!!!!" cus i know that means she has to go in again T^T i hate my life
this time i focuses on breathing and she got the job done, i didnt faint!!!!! yes yes!!!
but i was incredibly hot and sweating, i tried to sit up 3 times each time i almost
passed out, so i had to lay there a lil bit but i was dying to get out of the nurse's room
so she could see the rest of her patients in the end there was a seat in the hall and i managed to
walk to it, the nurse and mum had an arm each, god i must have looked like walking wounded
the nurse is sooo good to me tho, i put on my notes that im only to be booked in with
her no questions asked - cus getting that appt the receptionists were arsey with me >.>
i couldnt thank he enough shes lovely. so when i got home i made her a card
and posted it to the doctors - it was closed
here it is~ i hope she liked it
i sat with pets and things, but after the morning i had i felt drained
so i went to bed for 2 hours =.= damn it i was suppose to rest :/
then ive just been online, sorting out a few sewing bits and i wrapped my brother's
girlfriend's birthday present from us. its a brooch
neatness makes me happy XD
tomorrow I am at work exp :D i can not wait im dead excited ^^
oh i got an interview through for my college course i think its 13th january :)
