Yahallo~
I didn't sleep too badly
dreamed about pokemon that I had little pokemon
and there was giant ones wanting to knock out my pokemon
so i was trying to scoop them up to run with them
i had to swim and jump and all sorts
This morning i started making a kinda neck scarf that i was
inspired by in a shop
then I went out to a few shops with my parents
i popped in a pet shop for a new wicker tube for pinks
aww they had baby bunnies and guineas they were cute
i just wanted to go home to mine and give em a good fussing X3
I decided to clean mine and mum's jewelry random i know
but i was in the mood to do it
i painted my nails kitty styled
theyre ok i guess
later on i went over next door to see helina
and give her her birthday present and card~
she was pleased with them ^^
we talked about our mental health as we're on the same anti-depressiant now
she has a blood pressure and pulse measure machine
so i watched hers first, hers was high i was surprised
i knew mine would be low and it was
with 72 beats per minute when the average for my age is 100+
but im not arsed
we walked to the shops she wanted a drink
then we parted ways
i came home danced
and went for shower to cool off
since then ive read and played pokemon
and looked online for a watch
both my watches had died and luckily dad had some batteries
and was able to change them for me
but i still wouldnt mind a better watch than my 99p ones ><
but they work i guess
tomorrow is bank holiday
how i hate bank holidays -____-
Otsukaresama Deshita~~
I slept through the night again
such a good feeling~~ :3
This morning I had Karen my yoga teacher picking me up
at 11:45am so I had time to take my time with getting ready
Since we were doing super hero theme I got to dress up
I went for a kitty theme
My overall outfit :3
I used Suzuki Airi's neko make-up as inspiration
as I wanted to be a cute kitty :3
Whereas online all i kept finding was sexy kitty make-up -_____-
We arrived and I helped heave things over to the art gallery
yes it all happened at an art gallery called 'the art exchange'
there was other super hero activites going on such as face painting
so kids were dressed up in costumes with their faces painted too
it was lovely to see
We set up the mats and talked me through what she would be doing
over the 45min session
kids slowly came in, some parents stayed to do it with them
we had 11 kids in total
i was on the opposite side of the room to karen on my own mat
i had to do everything with them which was fine
only down sides was, the gallery was very echoy i have to say i struggled
to understand karen a few times
also it was hot. very hot. we were both sweating
I think the kids enjoyed it tho, none of them were naughty or back chatted
behaviour could have been better but they were fine to be honest
just kids being kids
afterwards karen drove me home in her death mobile
seriously her driving scared me i was quite surprised actually
her car was a dump too, yeah i guess you learn something new about people all the time
i dont let my car get in that state and i also dont drive like i intent to bash my car
she doesnt even lock it -_____-
she said and i quote "id rather them just take the stuff than smash the window in"
I got home and showered
got my lunch which was at 3pm
but i havent been hungry anyway lately so i was fine
then i went to bed shattered
since then i have been cosy with my pets
made dinner for my family
we sat down together infront of the TV watching 'Man Down'
a comedy series we've just started watching god it is cringing
everyone in that town are nutters
tomorrow i might do some sewing
and im seeing helina as today is her 25th birthday
so i wanna give her present and stuff :)
i sold a few things on ebay as well today ^^ made £18.19
oh and i found this stuck to my bedroom door
curtsy of my dad and brother -________________-
XD
Evening~
I slept through the night ^^
But I felt a bit tired and crippled from yoga ><
I spent my morning doing my loveball poke'ball
I managed to get it done through out the day
Cute isn't it?
My new pin cushion and I managed to recycle all of the
stuffing from my previous pin cushion :D
I re-photographed tara's pokeb'ball as I wasnt happy with the photo
Me and mum went asda
We both got some make-up to try ^^
and I got a new soup bowl as my mum broke mine
thats the second one shes broke
this one was only £2 so not the end of the world should she break it again XD
I fell asleep as im feeling quite crap with withdrawal symptoms
i didnt want to get up ether
I knew we were having a BBQ tonight I wasnt in the mood for
and I didnt want to cook ether
dad started it then a neighbour came over for dad so i was left with
cooking it >.> i was not impressed at all just the mood im in at the moment
then he back and practically told me to finish it
but because dad had started it and not me it put me out really and the meat ended
up looking like charcoal which peed me off big style
i was not in the mood for burn stomach and arms, stinging smokey eyes and my fresh
clothes stinking of fire >.>
all of those i got
i came in the house and phone rang it was the woman about the garage sale
found out it isnt happening on the park its happening in your actual garage
so you can sod that, that annoyed me in a way
i bitterly ate dinner, i couldnt even taste it
i feel so so very frustrated and i know its the medication cus im not like this at all
so ive locked my self in my room and gonna exercise
try and beat it out of me then have a cool shower
maybe a hot choc afterwards that might just do me
tomorrow my yoga teacher is picking me up at 11:30am
ive got my kitty outfit out ready
gonna do some cute kitty make-up
god knows how it will go or if i'll be of any use!
Good Evening~
I slept again last night ^^
But I felt tired, dizzy and slugish I think the withdrawal symptoms
have arrived. Yesterday I felt a lil dizzy so i thought it was brewing
I watched 2 episodes of anime this morning
something I havent done in a long time - sit and watch anime
i havent watched anime in a while and if i do its usually on in the background kinda thing
I watched lovelive sunshine and another youkai anime
gonna watch both series :3
Here is tara's poke'ball pin cushion
Im so impressed with it that ive decided I want one too
my pin cushion is one lynn randomly gave to me its a weird triangle shaped hen
made from scraps ive had it ages its fine but the thing that does bother me
is that it doesnt stand up right and if it tips over it tends to roll as well
the amount of times ive chased it round and picked up
so i thought "sod it im having a flat pokeball also!"
But to make mine different Im doing a 'love ball' which is pink instead of red basically
I played pokemon for a bit
and read, finished another book series
reading one about werewolves - again XD
I rang up to inquire about the sale going on at the local park
but the lady wasnt in and will ring me tomorrow apparently
i missed her ringing me back today as i was at yoga -____-
but hopefully i will be able to secure a spot to sell my junk
Me and mum went off to yoga
i was in the car and my boob itched i said to mum
"feels like something is biting my boob"
mum "maybe you have a guinea hair down there or a piece of sawdust from them"
"it feels like a red ant, like something biting me"
so I had a good look round
and something caught my eye
a red ant.....just like i thought it was! excellent guess
the bloody thing bit me twice!!!! so i killed it by trying to get it out
then threw it out the car window
pervy ant
Yoga was good, hot, but good
and karen spoke to me about saturday
im helping out with children's 'super hero yoga'
karen is dressing up and gonna pick me up i asked if i could dress up too
she said yes, so i spent my yoga class plotting outfits XD
tomorrow i want to make my pokeball
and not sure after that actually ^^"
today ive had a doss day and i dont want to repeat that
Evening all~
I slept through the night even though it was one heck
of a stuffy hot night!
I think it's because I'm not taking my anto-depressiants anymore
well only a tiny dosage anyway
I swear they were giving me actual depression!
This morning mum woke me at 8:30am
I was in the swimming pool at 9:45am ><
It was quite quiet this week which was nice
what wasnt nice was getting out the pool, showering with my
face towards the shower, 2 old men walking behind me and I heard
"she's slim isn't she" there was no one else around so Im guessing it was
me who he was staring and commenting about
-________-
I got leered at by 2 old men
seriously ewwwww
but I managed my 22 lengths this week ^^
I got home and had my morning brew :D I had worked for it damn it
then I started sewing a poke'ball plush that im gonna give to tara
for xmas with pins in it and use it as a pin cushion
After lunch me and mum went to a clothes shop
I didnt need anything but picked up a tunic top in the sales for £4
I have noticed that pinafores are in fashion at the moment
i already had quite a few i think theyre cute and you can easily
dress them up or down
i didnt know they were in fashion
jozu is ahead of the fashion XD
Im never arsed what's in fashion, it changes so much, i just wear what i like
speaking of which
Ta-Da~~~
Basically my mum and dad have these really old photos in their bedroom
of me and my brother from when we were infants
so the photos are old, the frames are old and it all looks dated
mum likes the photos but would like them re-newing
so she brought a frame last week and me and my brother were tasked to
producing a new photo together
I kept mentioning it to him over the week but i sensed he wasnt keen to
do it i know he doesnt like his photo taken
but we had to do this for mum as she does so much for us
as the weather was good we decided to do it
so we went up to the woods - were me and mia usually walk
took a few photos using trees and fields as backgrounds
they came out well, then we went to a park with willow trees
i thought they would look good but the lighting wasnt in our favour
so we stuck with the first lot in the woods we took
my brother will edit the photo
im looking forward to seeing it
mum liked my outfit and hair style, she told me to look sweet
my brother was in his usual t-shirt and jeans :)
I came back I was sweating so was my brother
i dived in the shower to freshen up and cool off
that was at 5pm since then ive been in my pajamas ^^
I finished the pokeball and photographed it
i'll upload it soon
tomorrow i have a few jobs to do mainly getting through to the doctors
i tried to get through to them over the period of an hour
then they were off for lunch
ridiculous
good job im not dying!
Evening~
I slept~~ Ah it felt good to have slept ^^ I think I was so shattered
maybe as well it could be due to me weening myself off the awful meds
It has been hot today!
This morning I finished my Pusheen hoodie
looks cute~
I photographed it
Then the sailor top I did the other week I unpicked the red bit
so all thats left is that sailor collar then I added white ribbon
so its basically a white t-shirt with a strip of blue ribbon
looks much better i have to say, and i think i will wear it for school too
I made myself pasta for lunch today
I played on pokemon my charmander evolved
I havent heard from mia so i dont know how far she is
I had a look online for teaching assistant jobs
I applied for a few and within the hour of applying one rang me up
but it was agency work i hadnt realized i had applied for agency work
thats not what i want, i dont want to be going to school to school treated
as a supply and as an outcast i want to know the staff and children and work
as a team
so i spoke to mum about it all she said to finish college first
im getting ahead of myself she doesnt want me to over load myself and make myself
sick, she said no one is rushing me out the door to get a job
shes right, i just wish i was healthy so i could do things that are easy for 'normal' people
i will get there tho
I went for a short walk in the heat
as theres gonna be a tabletop/jumble sale on the park 2mins from me on 25th sept
its never happened before and its only £5 for a table
so I went down to see the poster and wrote the details down
i'll give em a call tomorrow i think im gonna do it
shift some crud
I took a photo of my shelves
they have improved and filled out since i first put them up
mainly filled up with new figures
but they look good and im proud of this little corner of my room
im thinking of making tara a poke'ball pin cushion for christmas as she's getting
into sewing now :3 or i may make a donut im not sure yet
tomorrow I have swimming
I may apply for a few more schools and not sure after that!
Evening all~
*sigh* I got 3 hours sleep last night
I was shattered and up at 7:45am
I went to the doctors and I finally got my medication switched
So I have got to ween myself off my current anti-depressiants
and start up my new ones, the doctor said I could feel like Im not
getting any treatment for a month but I said that it cant be any worse
than how im feeling currently
I went to the post office to post the ebay bits
I think i've made about £5/£6 not a lot but I guess its better than nothing
and shifted some crud
Came home and had my guineas out whilst having my morning brew
and I sat and read, reading the last book of this 5 book series
best end well >.>
Mum gave to me a grey hoodie she brought recently
I didnt turn it down, a hoodie is a hoodie and im always wearing em
seeing as it was grey i decided to alter it based on the cat Pusheen~
I have almost finished it, its kawaii for sure
Here is my Macaroon I made over the weekend
its on my bag I hope it stays on after the effort I went to!
when i started I made a mini one to test it out
i tried to do a whip cream style but it failed but i know now why it failed
but i didnt like it so on the final one i just did normal filling
After lunch I fell asleep my eyes were stinging and i was shattered
so after 1 hour I got up and went to a few shops with mum
mainly charity shops but didnt get anything
we went to a cafe
i had hot chocolate and we shared a cake :D
it was good and sweet~
got home and continued with my hoodie
gonna recap my dances and have a shower
and may do some drawing later
mum and dad will be watching new series of ripper street tonight
i for one can not stand that program
too what i call 'ye old english' i cant understand a bleeding word
theyre saying and its soooo violent
not what i wanna see before i go to bed
so i'll sit in my room with tiffin tonight
he will be out of his little routine doing that bless him
