Evening~~~
Ah I have been pampered by girly products~
I hardly slept at all last night I have no idea what was up
apart from my stomach giving me jip
So I was shattered this morning
just wanna damn sleep ><
I got up and cleaned the girls out whilst mum was out
at her park run
I was already and dressed by 10 i had skipped breakfast cus i didnt
want stomach ache
at 10:15am I went over to adam's as he was actually awake and up at that time!
So I have been over at his til 4pm
We sat around, his parents came back from a different park run
so I talked to them but I didnt get chance to do his mum's nails
as she was going back out after her shower
i plan on painting my nails tonight actually
He took me too his room I kinda thought we were gonna play
on pokemon or he was gonna thrash me at darts
but it seems he had other ideas as i was soon pushed down on his bed
and he would let me escape him and eventually cuddled me tightly
we stayed on his bed for a long while
i didnt mind cus i was able to relax my tired self
I went home at 4pm
i didnt do a lot really
i ate dinner separately to my family as they were having take away pizza and that stuff is pure toxic to my stomach at the moment
so they went out for a beer and to pick pizza up
i danced to my hearts content ^^
i even tried some old morning musume songs i havent danced to for years and i was surprised at just how much i could remember! it was fun and I finished another c-ute song too~
Then I hopped into the shower
were i tried a self heating hair pack
then when i came out i tried a foot softener not that my feet or hair is in bad condition
i just like trying things makes me feel like a girl haha
see what my hair looks like dry
speaking of hair i was very pleased with my hair this morning
but it doesnt look that good on photos
i did try to capture my hair but failed i guess!
Tomorrow I believe Im seeing adam and were going to a new mini golf with his parents and then his parents have asked if i wanna stay for dinner and i dont wanna turn em down but theyre having meat and im trying to avoid meat as much as i can cus it aways gives me stomach ache
today at adams i just had jam toast for lunch whilst he ate a really nice lunch from the deli we usual frequent on a saturday T^T
Evening~~
I slept a lil better but right now im shattered!
I got up for school I dared to put a lil more make-up on than
i had over the last week as it was cooler
so no sweat or hay fever or lower amounts anyway!
Got school and I did my reading with a year 4 child
then went to year 2 to find a different lady giving a talk to the class
and on every table were artefacts - not what i expected!
So i sat and listened about her drone on about Brazil
god she went on and on the kids did amazing job of sitting there
then they got to play with the artefacts and some were instruments -______-
I could wait for lunch time!
I managed to swap my play ground duty as the grass had just been cut that morning
and i was cold!
Mum picked me up for lunch
i had cereals cus damn it i wanted em!
i got changed into something warmer as i was just fed up of being cold
After lunch I went to year 4 were I was doing paper mache to help make props
for the end of year play
but i knew the new children for septemeber were coming for a play afternoon
that meant mia's nephew luke would be there!
i went and spotted him i said hello to him he kept looking at me like he knew me
but wasnt sure
then I saw sophie and george - his parents and mia's sister
i talked to them as sophie went to the school as a child so she was asking who was still there
the afternoon well last hour of the day went to year 2 doing their play afternoon
so that was easy
easy day just a bit slow
came home and sat on my laptop looking at converse
as i have sad news that my grey tartan converse have a hole in!!! D:
im so gutted
i put them on this morning and spotted the hole so i need some new ones!!
i couldnt find any i liked online which were in decent condition and right colour for work
they have lasted me over a year and i brought them second hand for £15
so they have done amazingly but i really really like them!!!
i shall keep my eyes pealed for a new pair!
Then I sat watching make-up tutorials and other crap really
After dinner ive been in a crippled ball
god i have bad stomach ache almost like dinner was poison
i thought i was getting somewhere with food!!!!
Tomorrow I am seeing adam he's asked for me to come over earlier
than the usual 11-12am he wants me over at 10am
im not doing anything so i might as well i guess
i brought this online i found it by chance really
its a hot pack for you're hair basically
it was £1.90 and i wanted to give it a test out really
see what it does to my hair!
Evening~~
It was cooler today ^^
I woke up at 1am, 3am, 5am and then mum woke me at 8am
I was so tired when I got up
i just wanted to go back to bed!
I lazed round on my morning off
I sat and sorted some stuff on my laptop
i tried to record a dance but my body was so tired and sluggish
it just wasnt working to say the least
I had lunch and then I had a massage at Karen's
jeez its been ages since ive seen her! her house move is still happening
we talked about all sorts she always asks about adam
i told her im getting there im just still insecure and not confident about certain things
she said "you're not frightened of sex are you?"
errrr "yes.." ><
she talked to me about that, and that was not a conversation i thought id be having today!
but i suppose its good to talk about these things
more so when im so unsure and such a novice haha
I got home and curled up on the sofa and drifted in and out of sleep for an hour or so
then got stuff ready for school tomorrow
I had yoga and that was really enjoyable actually
it was slow so we didnt sweat like crazy
tomorrow is school /;
I ordered some more make up some of it canmake
looking for products that are softer on my skin
here's a sparkly eye shadow i got last week :3
Evening~
Ahhhh atsui ne
another hot day
and most of us british ether complain its too hot or we simply cant cope with the heat
Ive been awake since 5am
I got up ready for school
once again not wearing much make-up as i hate the feeling of make-up
on my skin when its hot
i wore plenty of pokemon accessories ;)
I got to school
and people commented on my outfit even tho it was a £2 top and £1 jeggings!
i can be stylish on the cheap ;)
So the morning started with p.e. and i thought its a bit daft doing p.e. in the heat
but as it was the morning the sun wasnt at its strongest but the kids still got warm
then it was music
then lunch really
mum picked me up for lunch
after lunch we did a tiny bit of work but in the end the teacher put a cartoon on and we got ready for another session of p.e. yep another p.e. session but this time at the end of the day in the blistering heat. it was a stupid idea i felt
the kids were dripping then had the task of getting changed afterwards!!!!
stupid
they were very hot and bothered and so was i and i didnt do the lesson!
I came home and showered straight away cus got i needed it!
then i had a brew and just fell asleep really
i was just tired and couldnt fight it off
since then i havent done much at all cus it 7pm when i awoke and did my dinner
the pets are all outside now its cooler but theyre all laying down whilst eating the grass
tomorrow i have got karen at 1:30pm for a half hour massage and yoga and sleep
easy day tomorrow really thank god :)
My brother showed me his interview on the BBC news the other week
cant believe he's been on tv twice!! and BBC no less!
dont know what he will do now for 1/3 of the year he now has off uni
i can tell im getting side affects from being on a stronger dose of anti-depressiants
im getting dry skin but also i keep feeling bit out of it a bit detached from the world and my surroundings or i'll have a random burst of good mood and energy almost like a sugar rush.
dont know if this dose is gonna suit me. but we'll see
my nails for this week, thought it looked easy it was tricky and im not pleased with em
wore my new glasses today i like em ^^
didnt see mia or tara today after school cus it was too bloody hot
Evening
ahh thank god today has been far more bearable
its been cloudy all the day, its still warm but not like it has been
I woke up at 6:30am and thought "screw that"
and managed to go back to sleep and woke up at 9:10am
much better, it was my day off damn it!!
I didn't do much at all in the morning
think i just read really didnt even go on my laptop
i rang to make a doctors appt for my anti-depressiants
the receptionist said "i have you down as being due your smear test"
I said "don't worry about that honestly, i'll book in another time"
"are you sure you can get both appts the same day"
"yep yep its fine"
"we're gonna keep reminding you"
i felt like saying "look love, nothing has ever been up there and nothing is gonna go up there, you goti it?" but of course i didnt XD
My brother rang me to ask me to go upstairs
listen out the window and to hang up when i could hear his car's music
it had to be done and it is amusing
turns out i can hear it 0.2 miles away from the house!!!
its stupidly loud
when he pulls up the drive way the floor upstairs rattles
I had a brew with mum then we went to the shops
cus my sunglasses had broken yesterday i mean my brother had fixed them but i didnt know how long theyd stay fixed for an i did need to some proper UV protective ones
so I walked in TK MAXX and tried on a pair which both me and mum liked, i tried on two more and didnt like em so went with the first pair i mean theres was loads to choose from but im not arsed about sunglasses cus i never ever look right in them they dont suit me
mia on the other hand looks amazing in them every time!
Then I got a new watch cus mine from claires is slowly breaking well the strap is anyway
so i picked this up for £6 it was reduced my glasses were £12.99 which is pretty good
we walked round the shop and picked up bits and pieces
then we went BandM bargins then home
I had lunch then went over to adam's house
as it was cooler today we were actually able to touch each other without sweating!
so we lazed on his bed and he cuddled me and stuff its nice being so close with him
and i feel much more relaxed and confident
it was soon time to leave sadly
i came home to fish pasta i love it!
today has been a good day off actually
feels like ive had time to relax and time for myself
i feel like my days off lately ive just kept going and going and not having time for myself
so i had a lay in
hot chocolate + cake for breakfast
honey on toast + cake for lunch
fish pasta for dinner
result~
Tomorrow Im going school
and they want me friday and next week too~
Evening
and it's another hot evening at that!
and talk about a high pollen count too!!
jeez my hay fever has been murder
I got up for school I had slept relatively well actually
i hardly put any make-up on at all knowing id only get
hot and itchy eyes too
Got to school full of hay fever
my morning was filled with english and maths really
bit dull but what can you do
the child i care for has been hot, bothered, tired and mardy all day
joy!
i couldnt complain too much tho as we had the coolest classroom
in the school as its the last one to hit the sun
I came home for lunch thank god
then mum took me back again i really didnt want to go
hay fever makes me so damn tired
after lunch we did a bit of work on our beans how far they'd grown
then it was p.e. if you can believe that
the children were only allowed 15mins outside at lunch due to the heat
but they thought an hour of p.e. was alright?
anyway it started in the hall which was red hot
then we went on the field which has no shade
the child i work with wanted nothing to do with p.e.
it wasnt fair on her group and cus i couldnt resist ether
i took her place and played rounders
and got hot~
My brother met me after school which was a nice surprise
we cycled home together
as soon as i got home i went in a cold shower
cus god i needed it
followed up with pajamas
since then just lazed around
and then fell asleep on the sofa for an hour
tomorrow not sure whats happening
usually i see adam but he's working
and i think its suppose to be hot once again /:
my nails from a previous week
Atsui ne!!
my god its hot!!!
31c! we're not built for the heat here in england
there no AC in regular homes just businesses and shops
I didn't sleep brilliantly just cus it was so bleedin warm
i got up and i went and had breakfast outside
Oz paid more attention to mum than me
speaking of Oz
last night on the decking outside he knocked over dad's wine glass
then went to drink up what he could!!!!!!!!
There's nothing he wont say no to!
I had a shower this morning cus it was so warm and i already felt a mess
then I sat and did some cross stitching
then got ready for adam's
We were suppose to be going to crazy golf
but we agreed it was too hot as theres no shade there at all
so youre open to the sun
instead we went to a home store to get adam some stuff for his room
which was quite funny really
we got there and it was just so warm everywhere
luckily the shop was cool enough
we managed to get him 2 duvet sets and a new blind and new curtains
so yeah that will all look different and nice im sure
we had lunch and i was so tired hot and and drained
my hayfever is officially in affect as well so thats another thing to put up with!
we lazed around after lunch
then we laid on his bed and even tho it was warm he still wanted to cuddle me
and told me we could have a sleep over then talked about said sleep over
later we had a game of triominoes
adam once the first game
i won the second
we beat his parents XD
then it was time for me to go home for dinner really
since then i havent done anything cus its so damn hot!!
tomorrow i have got bloody school
god its gonna be bloody roasting i know it is
so im not looking forward to it
feel like its gonna be a slow mo day
here's my nails i did this week
quick easy dots cus i didnt have much time
