Evening~
I slept a lil better and my throat felt better today also
which is probably why i wasnt tossing and turning trying to get comfy on it
I got ready for school and left on time
And I got there EARLY!!! oh my god I was early!
What's with that I went same way at the same time
traffic varies so much
My day began really with getting the children ready for their christmas play in front of their parents
i was at the back of the stage doing the music and I did a good I think. the kids did well too
got them dressed and it was lunch time!
after lunch we let them loose outside thank god and I got all the jobs the TA and Teacher wanted me to get done. I didnt stop. so from 6:45am I dont stop til 12 for half hour then I keep going til I arrive home at 4+ its a very tiring day very tiring
i felt a bit off come 2pm my throat began to swell again and i felt ready to collapse but I was going to see the day through. I did and got to leave half hour early which made traffic not too bad
school want me back next week monday to wednesday
I got home and saw Ozwald
I watched an episode of vampire diaries as I only have 1 more episode to watch then Ive finished the seasons 1-3 boxset tara lent me. Im gonna watch it later tonight
I got presents ready for tomorrow, cards to post which meant writing a few cards.
looked at cosmetics and i put cosmetics not make-up because its stuff to better my skin not to look pretty in, my lips are sore and im trying different lip cares but none seem to fix my issue of dryness
so i may order a few things to help my skin, now that i will have earned a lil money
tomorrow the christmas decorations are going up by me
if i dont do it then no one else will and nothing will go up
so its all up to me Ganbare!
then I have Karen for massage and to give her a xmas present
and ether before or after karen's house im going to tara's were i will swap our presents in her greenhouse as we cant meet up but i'll be near her house so i can swap them and give her back the vampire diaries dvds too!!! then I will crash the rest of the day as ive earned it damn it
i hope my glands are ok but theyre so swollen in my neck and my face is puffy it hurts to swallow and i have a headache, thought it was getting better. i will get karen on the case tomorrow
here are some £1.19 pens I ordered for when I draw my black line art dreams or thoughts
cute and simple, i've put one in mia's xmas present!
Evening
My neck felt so swollen last night
and it gets painful to swallow
doesnt feel like theres enough room for everything in my neck
but it must just be my glands are swollen and get worst at night and in the morning
I've had enough but it is getting better
I got up for school and instead of not finishing my breakfast and tea
i stayed that extra 5mins and finished it all
as I knew i would be in traffic ether way so might as well have my breakfast
and yup I was right another hour it took me to get there its mad
such a waste of life, time, fuel
I apologised to the staff for my lateness
i told them later it was great leaving earlier and that id like to leave early again XD
i told them as I was no longer going away with adam and his parents next week that i would be free to work next week with them also they were happy about this
My day consisted of quite a bit of craft work which i was happy about
id like to do some display work as well if i can that would be amazing
they are very nice to me the staff are and we have a good relationship going
feels like ive been there longer than just 2 days anyway
i wasnt feeling good late morning i was starting to shake so i ate a chocolate wafer bar
then a TA came in with home made cake!! talk about being saved
i was so greatful for it
we did have a fire drill in the sleet
i was frozen as youre not allowed to grab coats -____-
i took the kids for their flu vaccinations also i get trusted to do a fair bit to be honest
it was their christmas dinner but i didnt eat with in the hall with the kids and staff
i needed the quietness of the staff room
home time i was able to leave early so it only took me 30mins to get home woo
but i am counting down the days i have left there
i love the school and the kids its just the place is so far away
i got home and had a hot chocolate and saw my pets
mum has been on pet duty thank god
tomorrow I am at the school once again
and im trusted to do the songs on the player for the play to the parents!
i have been using the new eye shadows i got in the post the other week
oranges and yellows and ive wanted to try Witch's Pouch make-up for ages now
and the quality is fantastic, the other stuff is a free face pack, lip oil which im not that impressed with
Evening
Boy did I feel rough this morning
I didn't want to get up but I rang the agency to say I was gonna go school
my neck felt swollen and my mouth was layered with a green tinged saliva
thats sick and not normal and thick.
gross gross gross
i got ready to get to school I didnt have time to see my pets this morning
but I knew mum was going to let them play out
I woke up at 6:50am I left at 7:40am
The traffic
my god the traffic D:
I was shocked and was expecting there to be a horrific crash or accident
but no nothing
what should take 25mins took an hour
seriously a whole stinking hour this morning in my car
what a ball ache
I got there 15mins late which I wasnt happy about
but a few other members of staff were late also due to the heavy traffic
but no one knew what the hold up was!
I got settled into my role
I helped them with their school christmas play dress rehearsal
i was in charge of the CD player
theyre performing to the parents on thursday but theyre not ready if you ask me
but still for 4-5 year olds they tried
at lunch i didnt have to go outside as no one was allowed out due to the ice
i was finally able to have a brew which i didnt enjoy again
my first brew of the day too
the afternoon went by pretty quickly just doing mundane TA stuff really
and I was set to leave at 4pm but at 3:30pm they had a staff meeting and told me
i may as well go home
i was so glad i was dead on my feet
and it made so much difference to leave at that time as i got home in 25mins!
came in and saw my bunny i had him in my room
my screen protector for my phone had arrived so my brother kindly fitted it for me and in the process broke my very crappy phone case so he said "here, an early christmas present"
it was a phone case! i was well happy with it its so pretty so i thought id photograph it and my new phone just for my diary's sake really when i look back in 10 years time XD
im pleased with the design tho and its easier to use than a stupid flip case
i plan on drawing tonight which is what i did last night
but it's adam picture and its gonna take some doing
i need to get it done on time!
i finished the background yesterday i just got to finish the people.
tomorrow I have got school once again
i swear it best not take an hour again
Evening
I woke up after a cruddy night's sleep at 6:50am
I had to call the agency and tell them that I wouldnt be attending school
I was too sick and dead and fell back to sleep for a hour
did my pet duty including holding maisy X3 then went for a shower
which I handled better than last night
i have felt better today I have eaten more, my sweating has decreased
my headache is less painful and so is my throat
so fingers crossed i can got to school tomorrow!
the agency said not to worry as a lot of schools were off due to snow
I went back to sleep and woke up for lunch
after lunch I started doing a bit of present wrapping
then adam came over and kept me company for 3 hours
we sat round and fussed the pets that was it
i wasnt up to doing anything else really
he walked home as i wasnt gonna drive him
since then i havent done much
me and mum decided that im gonna put xmas decorations up on friday
so then i can put the presents under the tree
they get harder to store when youve wrapped them
maybe i might do some drawing later
or yoga as well
i havent been outside the house since saturday afternoon
tomorrow i hope i can go school i really do
these are my nails from last week i picked random colours and designs
then i realized the colours id chosen are like the printer ink colours XD
Evening~
Not a happy bunny
I got 3 hours sleep last night
i was awake for so many hours:
shivering, aching like crazy, sweating, shaking, felt like i was gonna be sick, splitting headache
it was the worst night i've had in a long while.
I did sleep the last few hours and i woke up looking white as the snow outside
so I got up as I thought Oz would like to see snow for the first time
I managed to take some photos of him
he's cute isn't he
and he got soaked by the snow but he was still happy and dashing through the snow
i had no idea how quick he can truly be
I did my pig duties whilst feeling like road kill
i sat with Maisy too shes so sweet
we've all fallen pretty hard for that little piglet.
mum did me some toast which i managed
i went to bed then for about 4 hours....Adam rang me to see if i was ok
I told him whats up
so he told me to rest and not to see him
i was disapointed but i was in no state to be fun
i lounged around the house really and on my bed trying to regulate my temperature
just what has gone wrong!?
all i can think about is work this week, will i be able to go?
i really want to go
i didnt eat a lot of dinner or lunch for that matter
to which dad couldnt help but have a dig about but mum stuck up for me
i had to have a shower which i was dreading as i knew id be warmer than the water
and i hated every minute of it ive never had the shower on that hot before actually
i got all my stuff ready to go school tomorrow
praying i can go
just feel utterly awful
this was me only yesterday
just what has happened!? how long will i be like this!?
Evening~~
I slept pretty well but thats due to how shattered I was
think I only woke up once to turn round ^^
not that I felt much better for waking up at 8am
But I got up we got pinks out for a trot in the hall then the girls
cleaned them out and Oz then we brought Maisy in for the bath
I had prepared myself in an old t-shirt in case she felt the need to jump up and wet me
but to say she'd never had a bath before she was sooooo good!
she could have squeaked or bit but no she just calmly looked round
we were very quiet and gentle with her
we brought her on a towel on mum's lap and mum brushed her and I cut her
we salvaged was fur we could but 2 out of the 3 dreadlocks had to be cut off
the other brushed out
but my god the colour of the water was grim and the amount of fur she lost through
brushing was unreal! But she never complained and just sat nicely
we wondered if it was maybe a relief for her to have her fur and skin sorted
so now she's looking and smelly beautiful I decided to photograph her!
Isn't she a cutie!! She is a lil under weight
and here she is having her first cuddle with me this afternoon!
she was very hard to photograph as she just dived for any dark spots she could see
shes terrified and its hard to watch but she will get there
its a good start that shes so lovely natured. If she was biting and stuff i would worry about pairing her up with my two babies. it's all looking good so far
anyway after she was bathed I left her in the hall with the heating on, plenty of things to hide under and her food and then i went to adams
i told him to be ready to go out as i wasnt taking off my winter gear to have to put it all back on again
we got lunch i had turkey and apple sauce on a cob
we ate at his house and then i spoke to his parents
if im honest i was bored and restless at his house and he felt like he was distant with me despite sitting next to me. he didnt play when i tried to play with him, he was on his phone and all in all i wondered why i had bothered coming up to see him
even more so when we cant see each other all of next week man >.>
so at 2pm I'd had enough and come home
i wasnt going to waste my afternoon
I came back and Maisy was still in the hall way so i picked her up, photographed her and had a good long cuddle with her which I have been wanting to have! After I put her back down in the hall and grabbed my ipod and went for a walk
which was cold but i felt too restless to spend the rest of the day in the house
when i got in i went to bed for an hour
Got up and made my dinner which was spectacularly crap but then i wasnt in the mood for food or to prepare food. i dont feel good one side of my throat hurts and i feel off
i better not be coming down with anything.
not sure what i'll do to pass my evening
tomorrow should be seeing adam but not staying for dinner at its too late and exhausting when i have work the following morning. I have no clue what we're doing during the day tho i know im doing his mum's nails. but its hard to know what to do as it predicts snow.
Evening~~
I didn't sleep too bad
I got up and got all ready to go in the snow
yup snow AGAIN! it wasnt much to be honest
but it still makes people drive extra slow so I allowed for more time
and i forgot to take my medication!
I arrived at the school was a lovely school and the staff were lovely
wasnt many young staff i'll say that much which i prefer
not a fan of young staff sometimes
i like seasoned experienced staff cus I find theyre the best to learn from
I was in the youngest class which had two children in with special needs but no TA to have one to one with so it all hands on deck
never thought id have to tell a child to stop licking the windows but hey-ho
by 11:30am the teacher asked me if i was busy next week as she'd like to book me for the next two weeks! I could not believe it that that soon I had made a good impression
the receptionist said "you must be doing something right"
i must be!
the staff even told me they'd had a lot of staff off this term sick so they'd obviously had other agency staff in so they could have easily have had someone previously but they chose to have me again after just 3 hours! made me happy as i havent been in a school for a few weeks and i was worried id get out of touch with the profession
i only got half hour for lunch as the other half had to go to us doing play ground duty
jesus i was frozen
and my dinner made me feel sick - too much left over pasta
I didnt finish til 4pm -___- the class left at 3:15pm i think
so I tidied up and help put up the christmas tree
and talked about guinea pigs with a fellow guinea pig TA owner ^^
I felt awful i really did feel unwell and had the 40min journey home to face
i came home to an empty house which is rare
i dived in the shower and my feet stung from the hot water it reminded me that i hadnt felt my feet in quite some time it would seem!
i got my pajamas on
walked down stairs and realized i hadnt had this morning's medication
no wonder i felt so terrible! problem solved
When I checked what post had arrived
it was a wedding invitation!! I've never been personally invited to a wedding before
I have attended a wedding when I was 12 as it was my baby sitter's wedding but she had invited the 4 of use really. To have my name on a wedding invitation made me happy
I can't believe Im going to a wedding and after party
it's a friend i've known since I started primary school so 21 years
he's always always been kind to me and we went to secondary school too
but didnt share any classes like we did in primary school as he was smarter than me XD
he's getting married! I am happy for him but I had no idea it was happening
he's kinda one of those friends you dont talk to very often which is another reason for my surprise at the invite! But i'm going it's April 14th
April 2nd is mine and adam's 1st anniversary so be a loved up month
I have nothing to wear but I can suss that
and it says I can bring someone too~ be adam probably but I have to wonder if Mia was invited
she too was close to him in primary school but went to a different secondary school to him.
something to look forward to
I facebooked him a message today to say thank you ^^
tomorrow I am bathing dear Maisy who has been out on the grass today
for what could be the first time ever for her
and im sad I missed it but mum did it whilst I was working ><
she took the half hour well and even tried some grass!
bless her
so tomorrow shes having a bath, a brush and a trim.
Its going to be probably traumatic for her but its one of those necessary evils im afraid
she will benefit from it
mum says hair is coming off her in chunks which shows her skin and coat are unhealthy
so she NEEDS this
best of luck for the 3 of us!
then I will see adam
suppose to snow this weekend
I drew a picture of my 'rape dream' i didnt want to draw it as its awful but i thought the psychologist would like to see what he's in for when i meet him next year ^^
me being pinned down and then just before i am officially raped I always wake up
thank god
