Konbanwa~~
It's christmas eve!
It's finally come and this time tomorrow christmas will be over and done with for another year, which is my favourite part of the year as its the longest time possible before christmas!
as you might guess im not a christmay person
raised in a family who also dont rate christmas
I know I should be grateful I have a family to spend it with which many people dont have and I am grateful jeez im grateful of my family and friends each and every day but i HATE the way christmas is pushed on everyone and so commercialised.
anyway usually christmas feels like 2 days in this house it goes by sooooo slowly
but I have been told that I can escape to adam's house if I want to :D
such lovely words and they have no idea how happy I will be to break my day up like that.
and also I get to see adam of course
but just to get out the house will be a true treat! the bonuses to having a boyfriend!
Anyway today
I didn't sleep well and woke up at 9:15am
I had a shower
and we let the pigs meet and greet on the sofa
millie and maisie followed each other and made cute piggie noises alice stood still the entire time...what is going through her head i have no clue shes a strange one at times
then I got ready to go see adam
he had asked for my Ozwald to come up
so i grabbed him and he was very well behaved and kept running up the stairs to adam's room he likes going under adam's wardrobe and draws XD
then we took him home and mum had just finished making the sponge cake for tomorrow so I got to lick out the bowl :D well happy about that!! then me and adam went for a walk
i am shattered all of today but knew I had to keep going and wasnt allowed to sleep as Id like to sleep tonight!
then we went to adam's house
I painted his mum's nails the same design i did for my nails
she loved them
we talked and we had a lite dinner then they had 80s i think it was music it was bloody awful anyway and i was just laughing through it really
anything to keep myself awake as i when i closed my eyes i could have dropped off
at 9pm which is a bit later than i usually leave his house i came home
we had exchanged presents and his parents had given me 2 presents :D
I had a shower when I got in I was sweaty from having a jumper on all day
and then I got Ozwald out for a fuss and told him its christmas tomorrow and he can have his pressie
tomorrow its obviously christmas, which next to valentines day, is my worst holiday of the year
i will just want to get the day over and done with!
But I hope all my family and friends have a lovely time and like what I brought/made them for christmas im sure I will hear about it all anyway
see how my day goes tomorrow!
Evening~
I didn't sleep well and I'll tell you why
I couldnt get off to start with but then I must have been scratching in my sleep
as my sleepy brain woke me telling me something is wet on my hands
I turned my lamp on and discovered that I had been scratching my nose
and my nail had caught just inside the top of my left nostril
my god did it bleed. I had blood all on my hands it made two tissues worth of blood
it was just a scratch!!! I then proceeded to look at my brand new rabbit bedding
there was blood on that too....-____- what a night it was only 11:50pm
I got up and went to clean my bedding and waiting til I'd stopped bleeding
by this point I felt quite nauseated as I dont cope well with seeing a lot of my blood
I got up at 7:45am and got my pets out
then cleaned out 3 hutches I could not be arsed I was so tired but I did it
things have to be done I put my ipod in and got on with it.
I cut my nails filed them and took my christmas nails off
then I went to make some Kruidnoton!
It's a festive biscuit they have in the Netherlands and Anouk and Nienke taught me how to make them last year and I thought Id do them again this year and they turned out great!
ive put some aside to take to adam's house tomorrow
made almost 40 I believe
Then me and mum took millie alice maisie to the bathroom for their first 'meet and greet' session
and it went well actually no one was being aggressive so its a good start
I had some lunch as I felt quite sick from my antibiotics theyre really upsetting my stomach this time round. its another thing to deal with. Then I went to bed as I was aching
woke up 2 hours later not feeling that much better
but I did get up and go for a half walk
Mum and dad came in and me and mum did another meet and greet session
its going well but we feel like alice is ready to start something up
millie isnt arsed and maisie just trots round the bathroom XD
we will keep at it tho
I had dinner and now I have Oz in my room hes just sleeping under my bed
Yesterday evening I was at Mia's she made me curry
which was ok but I dont think my stomach appreciated it very much
we talked and talked and laughed, swapped presents. She gave me a guinea pig christmas card
Rob came home with pizza he happily ate whilst me and mia talked
rob had brought her christmasy flowers which was really sweet of him
i had a lot of fun with mia then came home and got Oz out
Next time I see mia will be tuesday when she turns 26!
Tomorrow it's christmas eve!!
I just want to get christmas over and done with to be honest
but I get to see adam tomorrow! It's been quite strange not seeing him on a saturday
Im not sure what we're doing tomorrow tho and I think I will see him after lunch as I want him to have a lay in after two 13 hour shifts. Im staying for dinner at his
he was on about that him and his parents for the last few years have gone for a drink at the pub on xmas eve which i have been invited to but im dreading as its gonna be mega busy and noisy
see how the day goes
Evening~
I had to get up for the stupid doctors
didnt want to get up
My appointment was at 8:40 the doctor walks in at 8:50
ridiculous
he gave me some more anti-biotics without examining me
told me it cancels out my contraception would have been nice to have known
that last week he said i should have been told, good job im not like a rabbit!
Drove straight to adam's house
his mum was home alone
she told me what steve thought to my present and the squirrel card
she then gave me 4 squirrel candles someone at work had given her
she told me to wrap them up and put from the squirrel crew again like i did the birthday card
steve turned up from taking adam to work hes doing a 13 hour shift today
we set off for the cheese place
i got dad £5 worth of blue cheese as it seemed enough as no one else in the house eats it
then they took me to a cafe and treated me to cake and hot chocolate this was at 10:30am
what a great way to spend the morning
felt a bit awful that i was doing this whilst adam was at work
they said I was welcome to have dinner on christmas eve :D
then they drove me back to theirs they offered lunch but i knew mum wanted to go out
so i left them came home and went out with mum
who was in a bad mood i came from having a lovely time to a stressy mother >.>
she said it was me!
we went pets at home then to a model shop for something train related for adam
jeez the guy was a total nerd and i wanted to tell him to shut up or ask him "have you ever kissed a girl?" but thought better of it
nerd
and fusty shop
we got what we needed
came home and mum told me to go bed as she said i was in a bad mood
was not >.>
she just wanted rid of me XD
she wanted to palm me off on adam yesterday and she'd only been home 2 minutes XD
im not that bad XD
I woke up 2 hours later as mia rang me up asking if i had some clothing studs I could have
random but yeah sure
I spend my afternoon in a world of my own and wrapping adam's present from the train shop - its a gift from my parents to him kinda thing. I also wrapped the squirrel candles
Now im showered and off to Mia's house who is making me a curry!
i have never eaten curry before as its not allowed in my house XD no one likes it
and ive never tried it, I love thai curry tho
we will swap christmas pressies too
tomorrow adam is doing a 15 hour shift
he wont finish til 2am! thats bar work for you
so I am gonna do some baking and god knows what else
probably sleep
here's Millie and Alice's xmas photo!
Evening~~~
I slept like a log practically
I did my pet duties and by 9:45am I was back in bed
asleep until 12pm XD
it wasnt happening I just felt so exhausted I think my body knew I could
rest and just stopped feeding me adrenaline to live off
I got up and was able to put my pets outside for a while
I managed to change my bed, I am going to attempt to sleep in my bed
under my duvet instead of on top of it with a blanket which is what ive been doing the last two months due to being uncomfortable but I want to try
I didnt wash my car I was too tired
I ate lunch by myself as adam was having trouble as work so he was running late and didnt get over til 2:30pm but it was fine as it gave me time to recover
he came over and he wanted a play fight but i was tired and didnt put up much of a fight
he got Oz inside and we fussed his little face for half hour
adam had brought me a christmas card which opens in the most strangest fashions
must take a photo of it
we went on my bed and talked about games and christmas then it was time for yoga really
yoga was good Karen did her traditional 12 days of christmas yoga
its like a dance routine and I didnt screw up once i enjoyed it :D
but the yoga class its self was hard
she gave everyone the option of picking a balance they liked which we did then we had to do one we dont like I asked "is chair posture a balance?"
she said "yeah do that"
so I did and it ALWAYS HURTS I HATE IT but I started doing it
and she came behind me and made me go further into the position making it feel like id never stand again she did it twice and i killed. I told her I hated her sometimes
she walked off saying "chair posture isnt really a balance"
i could have thrown something at her >.>
during the end of yoga she said "lets do chair posture" and looked at me
I glared daggers at her and she watched me do the position and said it was much improved.
i was dead after yoga
got home and I made pasta for mum and myself
which was alright
had pasta so much this week im sick of it
mia txt to say come over for dinner tomorrow were having pasta
great....
but it will be good to see her :D
tomorrow morning at 8:40am I have doctors as I think I need some more antibiotics
then im going straight to adams house and im going with his parents to go get some stilton cheese from a stilton cheese shop for my dad for xmas thats his gift from me
then im coming home and going to a train model shop with mum to see if she can find adam anything from there for xmas
3 jobs to do tomorrow and see mia
busy busy again -_____-
my Pinks's christmas photo this year
Otsukarare deshita~~
I got up this morning feeling quite rough
i really need to see a doctor and get myself sorted
I was in two minds whether to go school or not
but I went I faced the day some how
i dont understand how I can be strong at times like this week recently
then in absolute pieces falling into depression another time
I got to school on time
and they did some play/work for half hour then the local vicar came to do
some carol singing with the whole school and personally if I can get out of
that kinda crap I will. So I asked the teacher if she would like me to put up
her new space display
and luckily she trusted me with that :D I was well happy about that
I never get to do wall displays
So I set to work backing the wall in black and I got some silver type paper which behaved a lot like tin foil so I crinkled it up and bordered the black then I flicked bits of white and yellow paint on the black for the 'stars' it was all going well until a child left in my care (wouldnt do carol singing apparently) she was struggling to go for a number 2 then messed herself so I had to fetch another TA to come help cus no way was I helping there!
break time for the children I called them one by one to do a questionnaire
I got the whole class done so that was yet another job I got ticked off for them this week
they couldnt believe how much they were getting done its cus they have an extra pair of hands that actually wants to work! and boy do I work
we called them in for the popcorn machine that had been lent to us by the vicar and well you can imagine how excited and giddy the kids got over that
lunch time and the staff room was freezing this rather large TA in a jumper was wrapping presents and wanted 2 windows wide open everyone came in saying 'its freezing' but she never shut it i couldnt wait to go back to class just cus i knew it would be warmer there
i stood outside on lunch time duty
then me and TA spent the rest of the afternoon mouth blowing up 60 balloons I did 40
then tying ribbon round them
then I helped put away the old stuff from near the new space display
done that was my day done
i was about dead on my feet but some how kept going
They all thanked me for their help and got some hugs and 'im going to miss you' and it all felt heart felt and honest, I could tell they appreciated everything I had done for them
as my god these 7 days I have worked my socks off!
I got home and went straight for a shower to warm up and relax
got into my pajamas ^^ i have officially finished work this year and its a good feeling
I can start thinking about christmas
I actually finished all my wrapping including mia's birthday present
i have actually finished it all
I took a photo of Adam and his parent's presents randomly
I just need to give out now~
I am exhausted but I did rest sitting with the girls then Oz helped me wrap
so I have unwound with my pets but I find it hard to sit still
tomorrow I was going to do my wrapping but seeing as thats done I might
wash my car it is filthy as the roads are filthy
Adam is going to come see me after his shift :D then I have yoga later on
Evening~
I got up for school feeling pretty crappy
Im on my last day of antibiotics and I have feeling I need more than just 5 days
not impressed.
So I got ready for school but I had awful stomach ache that kept me in the toilet
that made me 5mins late so I arrived at school 2 mins late
couldnt be helped.
School was alright, this time of year tends to be easier
they had a bit of a play and I got the remaining crafts done
then we went into the hall and they sang songs to someone playing the piano
then it was lunch after lunch they watched a winter film
i was charged with printing out their christmas photos, trimming them, laminating them, trimming them once again then sticking them outside the classroom door for sale to the parents
i had done a good job, but i enjoyed the job as I got to sit down for an hour in the peace and quiet!
it was pretty much home time at this point and the teachers had a meeting so i left early
thank god as I was ready to drop
my shoulders, shoulder blades, collar bone, neck and lungs ache
this is a new thing today and i have no idea why i ache in these areas
but it hurts and im worrying about sleeping tonight with all that pain
im shattered and think i will go to bed at 8:30pm
last night i was so happy to crawl into my bed
I got home and had Oz in my room with me
(this is my home screen picture on my phone)
he was very giddy and excited then calmed down and had almost an hour of me fussing him whilst i had make- up tutorials playing in the background
since then sat with my girls and stuff
dad thinks he may have a new car for me which isnt the 4x4 XD
It's adam's dad's 60th birthday today
they were going for a meal at the pub down the road were me and adam re-met
i bet its gonna be busy and noisy and im glad im not going as awful as that sounds
i cant cope with anything else
adam said his dad loved my drawing of the blackbird and he laughed at the squirrel card
i so won points there and apparently im in for it XD
Tomorrow I have school
im hoping I can go for my last day
I managed the get that Angerme song :D
some kind soul had put it on youtube *0*
Evening~~
I so did not want to get up this morning
but I woke up at 6:30am to the sound of a dog in distress like it was really
squealing i hated to think what had caused its upset
I was hoping that hadnt set up the rest of my day ><
I got to school with 2 minutes to spare
my morning was pretty easy as we watched key stage 2 do their dress rehearsal of their christmas play which was ok I guess im not into children's plays or plays for that matter
then we had 'christmas craft morning' basically split up all the school into groups and they sat and did 1 activity for an hour I was with a 2 TAs 1 of which I like shes very down to earth and I just had to help 1 particular child make a christmas card. that was it.
then it was lunch
lunch I was a lil peeved at as I only got 25mins break
as we were short staffed and i have the donkey work to do as usual
i had to stand outside on the remaining time of my lunch break to open the gate so parents could drop of nursery children. pointless. i could have just left the gate open! which is what they usually do!!!
so I lost those minutes.
afternoon was just play then I read a story to the class for the 2nd time i quite like reading stories as i like to be fun and act the characters out instead of reading it in a monotone way
home time and i was allowed to leave half hour early which i think ive earned considering i dont get any breaks or a full lunch time.
so i got home at the time i would have suppose to have finished school
perfect
I had Oz out he was really giddy in my room
then as I hadnt felt my feet since 7:45am this morning I decided to get a bowl of warm water and place my feet in which stung like hell at first but they soon tingled and relaxed
genius idea if I dont say so myself
i put in some relaxing salts too
oh my 14 face mask sheets arrived today XD
14 bloody hell XD
I got a lot of comments about my nails today
my christmas nails this year,
Me and adam think the snow man one looks a bit psychotic XD
but adam's mum loves them and wants them for herself X3
so she will be getting them saturday
i cant believe this time next week christmas will be almost finally over for another year :D
tomorrow it's school again
not sure what kinda day it will be
it is also adam's dad's 60th birthday
I have wrapped his present in pink wrapping paper with pink ribbon and a yellow bow!!!!
I have also brought a card with a squirrel on it and wrote it from the squirrel X3
it will be brilliant that I will be winning points over him and I wont even be there!!!
Im really in love with a song I can't have
how cruel is that -_____-
Angerme's Kimi dake janai sa...friends
