Evening!
i slept pretty well ^^
i went to bed at 9:45pm
I wanted to finished watching big fat quiz of the year
but I couldnt keep my eyes open
thinking i pretty much slept through to 8am
about time is all i can say!
I got up and went for a run
i could not be bothered by any means
and it was a big effort but i got it done
then i showered and did some reading on my bed
i had lunch which was a left over sponge, i heated it up with jam
it was so good
then i wrapped myself up on my bed and read
i was just exhausted i think from running and medication
eventually i got up and i did some drawing
ive drawn it all out now and ive started painting it
hopefully wont take too long but no rush and i wasnt to take my time with it
helped mum with the dinner
sat with ozwald
did a tiny bit of slow dancing in my room
but just so tired
mum says i look drained
might do some more painting in a bit
tomorrow im gonna make some biscuits for mias evening
i hope i can go out somewhere with mum just for a bit
then im going over to mias at 7pm
so i might have to have a power nap in the day to boost myself before i go
here are this weeks nails
10 different designs~
Evening~
Last night I took my brother to a party at 7:45pm
I said Id pick him up so I waited and waited for him to text or ring
he didnt
got to 12:30am and I heard someone dropping him off
I was so tired and dead but relieved that I hadnt got to go out the house
so I drifted off to sleep
didnt sleep great and woke up at 8am
I got in the shower and got ready to see mia for her 27th birthday
i made the effort and put a bit of make up on
I saw her at 10am
i was so tired tho and these antidepressants arent helping with how im feeling
we sat and had a brew and rob made her breakfast so i sat with them whilst they ate that
then we went through to the living room were she opened all her gifts
its like watching a child each year XD makes me laugh
she loved my presents which i was happy about
i got her the sakura figure and drew her a picture
she got some lovely things
i stayed til 12 as she wanted to pop out before family came over
she told me i can go over to join family and friends on friday
and then she said shes having a new years eve party about 5mins from her at a friends house
and that i could come if i wanted to
i feel i have to go but i will see
parties arent my thing but if you always turn it down you never get invited again so yeah
i will try show my face
i will go on friday for sure
i came home and had some lunch then went to bed
i was so mentally and physically exhausted
when i got up i realised i was home alone so with little motivation i got up
and blasted my music out and danced for 35mins
i was rather hot and sweaty afterwards
it felt good to try tho
i did a little bit of drawing
helped mum with the dinner which was amazing it was pasta
and we had left over sponge and custard it was effing brilliant loved it
only got a bit of stomach ache too
then i sat in a ball and read to pass the stomach ache
then did 30mins of yoga
just so tired and the days and evenings feel long just cus im knackered
and cant be bothered to do anything i dont have the focus or energy
but i keep trying to do bits
tomorrow i have no plans
so god knows how i will pass the day
just spend it in bed hopefully XD
Merry Christmas~~!
I remembered at 7:30pm yesterday that I hadnt been chemist to pick
up my medication -____- so I had to go out in the cold and do that
thank god they were still open
I went to bed at 9pm shattered and woke up at 11pm, why?
then from there just a rough night of tossing and turning
I was desperate to get out of my bed but the house was soooooo cold
that i knew it would probably only make my aches worse
so i stood it out in bed
woke up at 7am to the sound of my brother going out the house
he was off to take photos of derby city centre what with it being deserted
then i woke up at 8::45am and decided I best get up
it truly felt like christmas in our house -_____-
everyone eats the same breakfast, every one has the same morning routine
yeah just another day of the week in our house
i felt rough as anything
i got my A3 sketchbook out and began to do some drawing but didnt get far
as everyone decided they wanted to open presents at 12
so that took us an hour which was nice
and heres what I got this year I only take photos for my diary's sake
Traditionally me and my brother open each others first each year
he brought me an alice in wonderland tea cup from Whittards which is too good to use and so is on my windowsill
cute huh it even has a clock inside!
Tara gave me a scarf, soap, pokemon figures, face pack and a peter rabbit cross stitch
Mia gave me hot chocolate from Whittards which is always a winner but was packaged beautifully in a Whittards box which I have never seen done before, she also brought me sleep soapy stuff which I thought was thoughtful as she knows I dont sleep well it was also wrapped up in like a bunny scarf
Karen gave me a rabbit ornament, nail varnish and bunny candles not that i will want to use the bunny candles!
from mum well my parents i got a new dressing gown, a car smelly, lights to attach to my shoes when im running, next Natsume's book of friends manga, last in the series of Murakami book im currently reading, fluffy bunny socks. I was happy with the lights as i hadnt asked for them and wondered where you got them from as ive never seen them before, the Murakami book i kept saying to mum i need the 3rd one but kept forgetting to buy it, i only have 100 pages left of the 2nd book
so yeah a good christmas
and everyone seemed to like what i gave them
my brother LOVED the signed Rick and Morty comic I gave to him
he wants it up on his wall which surprised me and he said i did a good job of framing it too
he was well impressed ^^
after presents we had lunch i made salad for a change
then my parents went for a walk so i did some dancing which was hard work but good for 25mins then i did 20 mins of yoga but ive pulled a muscles cus i moved funny
i sat for a bit as my parents came home then i forced myself for a 45min walk
afterwards i sat and had a brew with Ozwald
then it was pretty much dinner time
we had a massive dinner
and i ate it all
i cant remember the last time i ate so much i was almost sick
but it was so good, mum had taken so much love into making it, and it was christmas dinner so i didnt want to waste it
i laid in pain on the sofa for a while afterwards
then sat with my brother and mum in the hall with the pigs
then it was sponge and custard which was effing brilliant
then i took my brother to a house party at 7:45pm
i said id pick him up as i dont sleep anyway so im expecting a wake up txt possibly phone call from him in the night but alwell
so yeah not very christmassy but never is in our house
its very similar to a sunday here
but still its how my family functions and it is just us so you make the best of it and im grateful for what we have
tomorrow is mia's birthday so i plan to see her in the morning!
dont know what i'll do rest of the day probably exercise and continue with the drawing im doing
merry christmas all~
its all done with for another year
yeahhhhh!
It's almost christmas!
Meaning all of this hype is almost over
its been building up since September and its almost finally over
then it will be "sale this" "sale that" and "join the gym"
same crap every year
although I saw an advert that confused me on TV last night
"January sales starts Boxing day"....well thats boxing day sales then surely
cus January doesnt start 26th december
load of crap
I slept really poorly
honestly I dont think I got much sleep at all and didnt wake til 8am
I felt rough when I woke up and couldnt face taking anymore medication
mum says shes noticed I zone out a lot she says i look like a zombie
and she says my eyes look strange as well like im on something
yeah gotta be medication but I didnt realise I zone out
It was frosty this morning and I went outside to take photos of Ozwald
i got a lil cold in my dressing gown but i enjoyed it
i will share them sometime
I did some jpop dancing this morning whilst mum made the cake for tomorrow
cant beat the traditional sponge and custard in this house
and when I finished dancing the bowl was ready for my to lick out ^^ best bit
then I went for a shower~
afterwards I went for a walk with mum
which I found hard work as I was tired but I got it done
we came in and had soup which was good
then I went to sleep
i just couldnt function with new medication and lack of sleep
when i got up I realised I was home alone
so i recorded a dance
it took sooooo much effort to get up and do it but i felt i wanted to try
and i did it luckily it was only a short dance
then i did some more dancing but i was getting sloppy because i was so tired
but i like to be able to blast my music out when no one else is home
makes dancing 10x better with loud music
then i sat with my Ozwald with a brew
he enjoys his sits
honestly he will sit there forever more
its only like 6pm and im struggling to know what to do
its hard when your tired and feel so fog brained
im not getting on with anything and its annoying me!
were about to sit down and have pizza but my brother has gone out on his BMX
dont envy him as my god it is cold tonight!
I did my nails last night
did 10 different designs~
i will upload a photo
tomorrow is christmas
im looking forward to the food actually
but as for how im gonna spend the day i am unsure
as what is there to do on christmas day when its just the usual 4 of you?
it can be a lil dull to be honest but i do try my best with it all
and i hope im able to enjoy the day and not too much of a corpse
i hope everyone likes what i have brought them this year
i drew this to celebrate christmas
its the girl from Lets go Eevee
Merry Christmas Eve Eve~
I didn't sleep well as once again I felt ill in the night
I did however manage to stay in my bed all night
I woke up at 8am too so bonus!
Mum kindly dyed my hair this morning
I now have brown hair
mum says i match the bread board and the kitchen units XD
its fresher and softer
I havent dyed it in months
I cleaned my room which didnt take too long
I like it clean for christmas
Mia phoned me to have a rant XD
I designed some christmas nails which I would like to do tonight
As it never stopped raining til like 5pm today I danced inside
despite feeling rotten I pushed myself to do something
I felt better for doing something
then I sat with my Ozwald
I did a bit of sewing, that robin thats been sat in my floor
ive just got a lot of hand sewing to do on it tomorrow
and that was my day really
tonight is new Cats does Countdown Christmas so im looking forward to seeing that
tomorrow is christmas eve
I dont have any plans tho
probably finish off the robin, go for a walk
ive been meaning to do some drawing but cant find the will to get going with it
maybe cus i feel so off
not looking forward to another night of feeling poorly
here is the Kruidnoten I made yesterday
traditionally theyre suppose to be like round disks but i chose to shape them~
Evening~~
My god did I feel sick in the night
it was awful
I woke up plenty
but I stayed in my bed all night which is something
I got up at 7am to let Oz out then I crawled back in my warm bed til 7:30am
I felt pretty rotten all day
its these new antidepressants theyre horrid
Im trying to stick with them
I fell asleep for an hour this morning I just wasnt well
I made some Kruidnoten which my Dutch friends has taught me how to make
so i was glad i did something productive with my morning
its become a yearly tradition to make these biscuits
I had massage at 12 for an hour
it about crippled me, nice but yeah it did hurt a bit
and i felt sick afterwards
i was so cold afterwards as well
so i came in and showered then mum had warmed me some soup ^^
I didnt do much after lunch i just felt dead not to mention my stomach was off
but i managed to go for a walk with my parents
asi hadnt done any exercise and felt i could tolerate it better if i had company
but i forget how dull it is walking with dad,, jesus
we came back and I had a brew with Oz
then I laid round
its been a bit dull for me if im honest just cus i feel so rotten
im not good at sitting round
I didnt clean my room
but I will do it tomorrow
ive also got the robin to stitch which is still on my floor ready to be made -____-
Here is Millie and Alice's christmas photo this year
cute arent they
just very lazy critters
my parents have gone to a neighbour's for a drink
not that ether of them wanted to go
so i can watch what i like on tv tonight
and i was gonna play on the wii but im too corpse like
im gonna attempt yoga tho
Evening
what do you know, another day were Ive been awake since 4am!
im so damn tired
i felt proper sick in the night i thought i was gonna chuck up at one point
but its new medication which hasnt been that nice but could be worse
I got up this morning at 7am and did my pet duties
went food shopping with mum before it got mental out there
we were in the shop for 8:45am it was quiet cus everyone was dropping
their kids off at school, when we left it was getting busy cus people had
dropped kids off to school
so it was a good job done
i had a shower and waited for mum to do the lamb stew for tonight
then we went for a walk
it was a bit bleak to say the least
we left there and went to a cafe
were i had a hot chocolate and shared a bit of caramel shortcake with mum
that was my lunch XD
we came home
i changed my bed and laid on fresh bed
then went to mias were i stayed there from 2pm til 5pm
we exchanged presents and had a catch up
i came home and did some yoga
i was so damn cold from mia's house tho
her house is cold so it made me ache big style
couldnt wait to warm up so i had another hot chocolate
had dinner and had to wait almost an hour for the burning feeling in my stomach to pass
i havent done much else today
tomorrow is the christmas park run and mum did it last year
and was gonna go this year but everywhere is like water logged so shes not going
and nether am i cus i wont enjoy it
i do have a massage booked for midday which i can not wait for
its an hour long so i hope i can walk afterwards
ive got biscuits to make tomorrow and my room wants a dust over the weekend
i like a tidy room before christmas~
not got anything else planned
might watch a film in the evening as my parents have been invited over to a neighbour's house for a drink which they dont want to go but they are going so i might watch an anime film downstairs as i never did watch the girl who leapt through time ><
Oz's christmas photo this year
god it was hard to photograph him as he wouldnt keep still!!!
cute tho
