Konbanwa
I hardly slept last night
ughhh
fell asleep around 10pm
woke up at 11:30pm.. what the hell!?
so annoying as I was left awake til 2am
to wake up at 4am
god i was shattered this morning
i think the whole night consisted of thoughts of Alice and how
Millie is gonna cope without her
When I got up at 7:30am I noticed how damn frosty and cold it was this morning!
we had ice!! lots of it
After I had fussed Minniekins who seemed in good spirits
I went outside to take photos of Oz in the frost
cute huh
I found it a lil weird this morning that he hung round the graves all morning...
like he knew alice was there
he doesnt usually hang round there as theres nothing to eat there XD
In the morning I went on just dance and had a shower
I cleaned out millie and alices cage then cleaned Oz's out
and seeing as millie wasnt using the outdoor hutch anymore
i was able to have a sort out of stuff in the shed
basically corning off all of Oz's hot spots as to where I cant get him
so now i have much easier access of grabbing him
much to his annoyance! he was looking for ways to get through my barriers!!
i found out he has badly chewed one of my parents outdoor chairs..
the fabric looks like rats has been at it..
woops
I had a bit of lunch and went out to shops with mum just to pick up odds and sods
then we went for a half hour walk on the park i sometimes run round
it was nice cus even tho it was only 4c the sun was really out and
it seemed a shame to miss out on it
we got back and i tried to thaw out on the sofa
i had a hot drink
mums friend came over to give her her birthday present so i left them to it
and went on my laptop
mia had asked if i would book manchester for us
so ive done that now~
now just gonna have dinner then probably draw
ive come up with an idea and i think it will look cute for valentines day
not that ive drawn it for that purpose
but its gonna be of the pokemon Cacnea giving the Digimon Palmon a flower :3
tomorrow not sure what im doing yet
me and mum might go out for cake who knows
Evening
what a crappy day today has been
I woke up after a bad night and I heard mum had just brought
the girls in so I shouted down to her
and all I got back was "Alice isnt right!!"
So I came downstairs blurry eyed
and mum was in tears
she put alice on the floor and alice could barely move
it was like she was drunk or had had a stroke or something
i felt sick and i cried
millie stuck by alice's side all morning
we put out millie's beloved spinach like we do every day
and alice didnt move, millie pinched 2 leaves but decided to remain by alice's side
I said to mum we would get ready to go out and be outside the vet's doors
for when it opens at 9am
so thats what we did and we got millie with us too
we had no idea what was up with alice
she was totally fine yesterday
but today seeing her unable to walk and we could see she was tensing in pain
we got to the vets and they saw us to make sure alice was stable
then we had to wait to see a vet
the vet didnt seem to know what was wrong
he felt alice and checked her over
alice was in pain and discomfort its awful seeing her like that
the vet said said she could have possibly fractured a leg or a pelvis or have kidney stones
or have something else internally going off
he gave her 2 injections
an anti-inflammatory and a strong pain relief
we were there an hour
we got home and we settled her in her cage and gave them salad
mum went to work
and i did some dancing and had a shower and fell asleep
we kept checking on alice
at 4pm we got her out as we noticed she had not moved all day and millie has remained by her side all day too, so we got her out to see how she was doing
and she couldnt walk, her back leg was at an odd angle
we felt sick at the sight
cus it wasnt right and knew it probably wasnt fixable
so i rang the vets up and they said to bring alice down at 4:45pm for a top of pain relief and maybe syringe feed her food and get her booked in for an xray in the morning
so we put millie home which was hard to do as she was glued to alice
and licking alice's ear - something they never do
and we took alice down
a nurse saw us again and we said how unhappy and unwell alice truly was
and that we think putting her to sleep would be the kindest thing to do
as an xray isnt gonna cure her and who's to say that whatever they do discover will be curable?
she will be put through more pain and yeah we dont want to put her through more hours of pain of her trying to get herself comfy and sitting in a ball
she looked like she had given up
she wasnt even stressed when it came to even being at the vets
it was like she was in a coma or something
horrible
so then we had to wait for a vet to do the dreadful putting to sleep treatment
once again we were at the vets an hour
and came away with alice wrapped in a towel
horrid
i cant believe how quickly she has been taken from us
she was fine yesterday
we hadnt changed her food or dropped or hurt her
she was fine
and today seeing her like that was like a different pig
in the space of a month we've lost 2 pigs
poor millie - our most social and loving pig - is by herself now
when we came home my dad came home like 5 mins later
we got to work as a family
mum prepared dinner
my brother got pinks's old indoor cage from the loft
my dad buried alice in the garden with the other piggies
i set to work on making pinks's cage homely for millie
we had decided that since millie is a single pig and its winter that we would house her indoors
so we can give her more company and she will be warmer too
so poor Oz is alone in that shed!
millie has received lots of fuss from us and she seems alright in her new home too
i just cant believe the day i really cant
i loved alice
she was such a spaced out guinea pig living in her own world and was very lazy
she was also my mum's 25th wedding anniversary present
mum loved her and its mum's birthday on saturday T^T
poor alice, what an awful way to go after living the life of luxury
she will be sadly missed
mia had rang me, i didnt get time to tell her about alice
as it didnt seem as important as she was telling me her grandma is in critical care
in the hospital and doctors dont think she will pull through
so i hope mia gets through that tonight
not sure what im doing tomorrow
not thought
my head is messed up today cant think on anything
i made sure to see Ozwald tho
he loved his pigs and i hope he will keep millie company
here's photos of dear alice
Evening~~
Didn't sleep too well but whats new!
I got up and didnt feel too rough today to say I had slept crap
So I did my pets as usual then I did the 30 min zumba routine
i was sweaty~~~~
so I showered
and I missed a call from the school so I rang them back and basically
they said it was fine for me to come and work today
and to be in at 1pm
So I went on my laptop this morning and tried to design
a business card for my dad as he needs a new one
then I got ready for school and had lunch
I left for school
I was a lil nervous but not overly so
maybe its my antidepressants as they work with anxiety and social anxiety
I had to wait for the head technician to fetch me - Jack
he took me to get rid of my coat and bag
He gave me a sciencey talk then he got me doing a few things
he took me round the labs collecting in equipment then we got equipment ready
it was good and he was so good with me
i felt totally at ease and could actually be myself in the workplace!
it was just us two and i found out im a year older than he is
so being of a similar age helps too
i joked around a lot and he joked back
it was fun actually
didnt even feel like work!
Jack imparted the news that the guy who got the 6 hours on a friday
has turned the job down...
do I want it?
YEAH!
so i've got all the hours for the posted job
so thats monday afternoon's and all day friday ^^
i was grateful and Jack gave me a polo shirt to wear for friday
i was quite worn out but i think its cus i didnt stop for 3 hours and also the nerves
he said to me "you're suppose to come out with weird stuff after youve signed your contract"
XD yeah i was my usual weird self i guess
he also said "i've given you a key to the chemical cupboard - not sure thats wise" XD
he's learning
so yeah it was good fun actually
got tonnes to learn sheer tonnes!
but its work til easter :D
im happy ive got somewhere good and it feels so much more better than being a teaching assistant and it pays the same!
I came home and had a brew with mum
my brother had designed my dad a business card so I havent got to do that now
i felt kinda bad talking about how much i enjoyed my job in front of my brother
considering he's still trying for a job
i hope he gets something soon
I sat with Ozwald
then came on my laptop
and about to have a look for inspiration on what to draw next!
tomorrow got no other plans apart from seeing mia in the evening
we should be booking manchester
we were originally going friday
but looks like i have work now on fridays
or shall i tell school i need that day off?
or shall i just work
probably just work
mia worked last year when we went manchester we had to go on saturday
ill talk to her
But yeah Im a Science Technician I guess
til I sign the paper work anyway XD
Evening~~
Didnt sleep great I woke up a fair bit
when I woke up at 7:45am I didnt want to get up
my bed was warm and the room was cold
the house was cold
but I knew Ozwald needed letting out for a wee so I got up
I felt flat today
like physically and mentally flat
just couldnt find the strength to do anything
i was originally going for a run but i ached and it was cold out
i just knew it would make my aching much worse so i didnt go
instead i read in bed keeping warm
I got up and did 30mins of yoga
i designed nails i hope to do tonight
heart themed~
and i didnt get out of my pajamas til 2pm!
just could not be arsed with the day
when it did get to 2pm I got up and dressed
and i danced for an hour
man i was dripping wet
i did 25mins on wii dance then the rest jpop
my speaker wasnt playing loud enough for my liking tho
felt the need to blast music but the speaker is old XD
after i went for a shower
mum came home so i had a brew with her
then i went on my laptop and started doing more of
my ninetail and kyubimon picture
got a bit further then i sat with Ozwald
continuing on with my drawing i finally got it finished!
here it is~
Its not too bad
took longer cus i gave it a background
not sure what i will draw next tho
after dinner i uploaded a load of my doodles onto Redbubble
under my Lunatiquedesign profile
as i had forgotten to upload stuff on there
not that i expect i will sell anything but at least it has the chance on there
saved to my laptop doesnt do anything
need to share my work
tomorrow not sure what im doing
depends if there school have sorted the paper work and i can go in
i hope i can but if not i know it will be next monday
but fingers crossed i can go in tomorrow
if not i will entertain myself someway
CouCou~~
I woke up plenty last night
and didnt want to get up when I woke up at 7:30am
but I knew Ozwald needed letting out so I went out and did that
I did 30mins of yoga
then I went and did pretty much the same routine as last saturday
shops with mum, a walk on the same park a drink in the same cafe
i had white hot chocolate it was alright but i found it tasted
more of hot milk than chocolate
we walked back to the car
it was cold today
sun hasnt been out its been bleak all day ><
I was so cold when I got home
i laid in my bed reading for some time as I was just numb and wasnt warming up
ive looked pale all day which has been pointed out by both my mum and brother
"why you so white?"
i just say "i havent drained any victims lately"
i got up when everyone left the house
and did some dancing for 30mins
i played a few Buono! dances, ones i havent danced to in years really
the dances I first learned and learned with mia
i was so shocked how much i could remember it was like being
on auto-pilot or something it was amazing and i enjoyed it
i was sweating afterwards so went for a shower
afterwards mum and dad came in so i had a brew with mum
then sat with Oz
mum had brought another rabbit garden ornament for Oz
i put it on the sofa for him to sniff
and he was so cautious round it then nudged it loads with his nose
then came to the safety of my lap and didnt return to the bunny XD
after Oz i got the girls in and sat with them
millie always gives me licks :3
My parents popped out again so I went on just dance
i did different dances but didnt like that many
unlocked "bad romance video choreography"
so its the song "bad romance" but the choreography from the music video
IT IS HARD
like solid hard man i have no clue who can dance like that
but because i cant learn it in my traditional method of rewinding like i do on youtube i have no idea how id learn it, im guessing it could even be on youtube but im not fussed about learning a dance that difficult. it is very hard and ive never danced a dance like it
so i think i will leave that one XD it was good to watch tho
i envy people who can dance that well i wish i could
i truly wish i was a great dancer but then id have the pressure to make a career of it
dancing careers are hard to get into which is why ive never pursued it
that and im not that great
what i learn is basic compared to what is out there
bad romance proved that XD
I went on my laptop for a bit then
got a little bit of drawing done
must say ive been putting my drawing off the past few days as ive gotten to a point i know id find troublesome to complete but ive made a start
then i had to make dinner for my family
i sat and ate it with them watching Early Doors
just doing my diary then its sit with Oz and bed!
looking forward to bed~
next saturday is my mummy's birthday :3
tomorrow I am unsure what to do really
nothing I need and no where I need to go
tempted to go for a run if it isnt freezing
Konbanwa~~
I slept crap
I was tired when I got up
mum took me to school and the head technician spoke to me
he was happy i took the post ^^
i told him he has to have patience with me XD
i handed in documents and not sure if i start monday or not
someone will let me know they said
its nice that we're a similar age i feel relaxed round him
and he said he'd train me ^^
i left school with mum and we called in the super market (again) for bits
then got home
we had a quick turn around and headed out to swimming
ahhhh the pool was so warm
i mean its a 25min drive there and we pick to go to that pool and not
a pool 5 mins away simply because its warm and has a free Jacuzzi!
so i like going there
i found it hard to look at myself in my one piece
i had thoughts about being fat and horrible looking
and we swam for half hour then sat in Jacuzzi then got ready to come home
i had lunch and went bed
i was exhausted for some reason just done in
i got up and sat with Ozwald with a brew
then i went on my laptop briefly
went on just dance i managed to get 5 stars on another dance ^^
then i helped mum with a dinner we've never cooked before
katsu chicken with rice
cant say i liked it
it was curry basically and yeah wasnt my thing and its given me bad stomach ache
i never cope well with digesting beef and spicy food
theyre 2 things i just cant stomach
its 8 out of 10 cats does countdown tonight
last week i didnt bother watching it
as i was too tired and not in the mood for tv but im hoping
to watch it tonight
its been like 2c past two days
very chilly
its the weekend tomorrow
and i have no clue what to do!
Konbanwa~~
I managed to sleep pretty well last night
only waking once and then waking up at 6am
so ive been awake since 6am
I could not sleep as I knew I would be up at 7am anyway
and didnt want to be late for my interview!
I got ready to go and tried to look as healthy
and mature as possible ><
I was starting to feel nervous
i allowed 45mins for a 20min journey
and its a good job I did as traffic was awful
but I got there with 10mins to spare luckily
I was interviewed with 2 other people
an asian guy who looked about 50
and then a student who was actually a student at the school
so he was only 17
we were an odd 3
I was spoken to in the group by the head teacher and dept head
that was fine and stuff
then we were taken to labs by the head science technician
where we had an activity to do
we had to set up an experient
i was totally out my depth as we never had this equipment in my school
my school didnt have a 6th form so we didnt have high end equipment
and what we did use for experiments was basic to say the least
so i had never seen stuff like that before
but winged it
then a written task about chemicals which once again i struggled with
but we had an answer booklet
we did these 2 tasks separately but in the same lab so i could see how the other two were doing
then we had a break
we got a tour of the school which is very nice and modern
then we sat talking to the head technician and 2 other technicians
then he left us and we waited to be called in one by one to be interviewed
i was 2nd to be interviewed
i was interviewed by 4 members of staff. some head legal woman, dept head, head of science, head technician so it was intense but i tried my best i made them laugh a few times
then i went home
all in all that interview lasted almost 3 hours
biggest interview ever
i was soooooooo drained when i came home
honestly i was dead
i had a lot of food and sugar to pick me up
i didnt want to go out and miss the phone call from the school
they rang at 3:30pm
basically the position was for part time - 9 hours per week
they had offered it to the asian guy as he had 15 years of being a lab tecnician
but he cant do one of the days so would I like 3 hours per week?
YES! course I would
its guaranteed money and a foot in the door
they said more hours would be made available after easter too
and it would be good experience for me and that they liked me and hoped id take the position.
yep yep yep
im doing it!
so I will be doing 3 hours on Monday afternoons
its not much but the hourly rate is what I get as teaching assistant
and it wont stress me out with me starting working so little
they said if i could get some documents over to them tomorrow
then hopefully i could actually start on this monday!!!
that would be amazing
its such an achievement even if it is just 3 hours a week
im cool with that im more than happy theyre giving me a chance
so im gonna take stuff tomorrow to them
mum was dead pleased for me
brother said well done, dad never looks impressed he looked more interested in his mail than my job but no pleasing him
i had cake after to celebrate XD
and let Oz lick the crumbs off the plate X3
I went on just dance and managed to get 5 stars ^^
then I had yoga which was good karen didnt work us to the bone luckily
tomorrow im going school to do the documents
then im hopefully going swimming with mummy~
so yeah im pleased
worth the 3 hour interview XD
here are this week's nails~
