Afternoon
I couldn't sleep i ached far too much
so i went downstairs and ended up taking 3 types of pain relief
i ended up waking up every 90 mins throughout the night
im shattered!!
and fed up
This morning I did half hour of yoga
followed by half hour of dancing
then showered
then i sat with Oz for half hour as i wont see him tonight
Today marks the day Millie turns 4!!!
My milliekins is another year older
i love her so damn much
i know you shouldnt have favourites but shes been my favourite guinea
and i hope i have her for many more years to come
i took a couple of photos of her this morning
she looks beautiful as always! <3
Im just about to get ready and go to Jack's
im staying over tonight
not sure what we're doing tho
tomorrow is my dad's birthday and im all sorted for it
mum said she will bake cakes tomorrow~
wonder how i will sleep tonight
feels good to get away from my bed tho i have to say
Evening~~
and once again I was up at 1am and had an hour out of bed
and woke up at 4am again
its like stuck on repeat past 3 days
sick of it i truly am
anyway this morning
i did 40 straight minutes of dancing
some jpop and yosakoi my god i even had sweat going in my ears i worked that hard
i was just a puddle XD
it was good tho~
then i went on my laptop for a bit but nothing interested me on here
so i sat and had a brew with Oz then cut his claws as they were in dire need of being cut!
i didnt bother with lunch
so my stomach has been bearable today
i did go to sleep as my eyes were stinging me they were so tired
i didnt want to get up when i woke up but the thought of knowing id be stuck in that bed come tonight had me more than leaping out of the confines of the bed
i wrapped my dad's birthday present and wrote his card
didnt bother making him a card cus he doesnt appreciate it anyway
i went out with mum for a brew
and we picked up dad's birthday present from mum - a stone bird bath
i had the job of humping the bugger
god it weighs a tonne my arms ache!!
mum wouldnt have managed doing that errand by herself
the brew was good tho
we came back and i decided id put off my chrono crusade picture long enough
and i knuckled down and got it finished!
took a few hours but we got there!
guess it looks alright
not sure what i will draw next but im sure something will come to mind
today i have drawn out some easter nails and im gonna do em tonight
as my nails, to say i havent been at work, have chipped really bad!
so yeah easter nails tonight
hopefully theyll turn out ok
i kept forgetting to photograph my last two nail arts!
tomorrow i will probably exercise and take a photo of my beloved soul mate millie
as its her 4th birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
minnikins!!!
so il do a nice little photo for her
and then im sleeping over at jack's as he will be home alone
so glad to have some company tomorrow night
and to just escape my bed to be honest
my prison
wonder how tonight's sleep will go
Evening~
fell asleep around 12 to wake up at 1am
life is cruel -____-
i went downstairs for an hour
so sick of entertaining this whole not sleeping business
i woke up at 4:30am as well
and then 7:50am
i had an easy morning in my pajamas
i did do half hour of yoga tho
then went in the shower and had lunch
which was a mistake as its given me stomach ache all day
at 1:30pm i went to see jack
we went and brought convention tickets!
yup were going! believe its 4th may were going
hes never been to a convention so it should be good
then we went for a walk around the park in the town centre
i havent been round it since i was a child
so it was good to see
and its right next door to jack's old high school
so he was much more familiar with it than me
we went back to his as it looked like rain
it actually hailed today as well
we talked with Theo til he went out to the gym
then we sat and had a brew
and talked
i think i freaked him out a bit as i told him i dont have all my emotions which he knows as he's met Eko who has a good portion of my emotions but i think it hit him a bit when i said i dont have sympathy, empathy
yeah it hit mum hard as well
cant help it
im not proud of it
and yeah it bothers and scares me
as ive watched enough people to 'copy' these emotions or reactions
he said it was a bit psychopathic
but that i was still me and yeah. maybe i shouldnt have told him
i got home and had dinner
and then i decided to google the psychopath test as i know there is such a test
and 'normal' people score 0-5
i scored 17....
at least i know i can do well on tests XD
yeah its a little sickening i guess but then it doesnt actually bother me
im me and thats all there is to it
i told jack ive taken up yosakoi again
and he wants me to sleep over on tuesday
i said maybe by then id have a yosakoi finished and show him
he seems up for even trying it himself
so we shall see
i feel tomorrow i got to work hard at my dance practice!!!
dont want to show myself up ><
i have been putting off showing him tho i have to say
i guess i worry what he will think
as i know im not great at dancing i just enjoy it
i do wish i could dance better but yeah, i know improvement is slow when you only teach yourself, still i know i got to show him one day ><
ordered a new screen protector for my phone as i dropped mine this week (never drop my technology) and it scratched it up pretty bad
the one and only time i drop something and it scratches but i guess thats what the protector is for.
so tomorrow i am drawing and dancing
thats as much as i have planned so far
lets bring on another night of not sleeping
and another day time of stomach ache
woo go jo!
Evening
I got up at 1am but I went back to bed at 1:45am
was not in the mood to stay up
besides it was so damn cold!
i then woke up at 6am to find we had frost!
I cleaned my pets out this morning
then washed my hair ready for my hair cut
i was so quick at the hair dressers like 10mins!
and i can confirm i can see once again!!
my god its good to be able to see and not have hair
constantly in my vision
i came home and i actually just crawled up in bed
i just felt the need to be warm
and i read but i actually nodded off
i woke up to find mum had made me a salad for my lunch
it was really good
but gave me bad stomach ache
so thats it now i think im done with lunch
its not worth the sodding hassle
i did some dancing
more specifically yosakoi!
yup started that up again
i went through a dance i learned in the summer and i got to the end in half hour
i was shocked at how much i retained
it was fun and i forgot how fun yosakoi dancing is
i went for a shower as i got myself rather hot
i went back to bed
i just couldnt think and my body felt so heavy
i had fought the fatigue like all day and week
and i knew i was due a recovery period so i just laid in my bed for like 2 hours
then i got up and did some food
after food i went for a walk at 6:30pm down by the river by myself
it was nice but much colder than i thought it was gonna be!
ive just got in really and doing a bit more of chrono, i will watch some anime and sit with Oz and hopefully grab some sleep tonight
i must say these nights are becoming tedious im sick of entertaining them
tomorrow believe im seeing jack
think we're gonna get convention tickets
how far i am with chrono
i should have done a lot more on it today but had zero concentration or patience for it
Evening~
I was up at 1:30am feeling sick and achy
i went to bed near 4am
i was doing my usual - pain killers, cereal, tens machine
but i also did half hour of yoga
did feel weird not going yoga this week
i had so much pain killers in the night that they zonked me out
and i didnt wake til 9am
i got up and had breakfast and then danced
the half hour went quickly actually
then showered and went on my laptop as i had a lot of catching up to do!
i ordered some stuff online
a blusher - as Jo always needs colour on her very pale face
a fan - as i need one to do this yosakoi dance
a yosakoi kimono- about died when i found it and so cheap too! had to be brought!
im gonna wear it when doing yosakoi ^^
i didnt bother with lunch as its not worth the stress and im not hungry anyway
i went to bed for an hour i was shattered mentally and physically
when i woke up me and mum went for a brew at a garden centre as they do nice tea
we were gonna have cake but decided to be good
i came back and then mum forgot we needed stuff from super market so we went back out
then i came home and ate cereal in front of a dvd for 15mins
then had dinner and watched some anime
thats been my day really
ive tried doing a bit more digital work but havent gotten that far
so ready for bed i just hope i can sleep
tomorrow hair cut!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am more than ready to have a cut as i cant see for this fringe
its getting a good hacking!!!
i forgot to show yesterday
ed brought be another anime figure
which some would see as a nice gesture but look...
another busty babe
im sure he gets them me for a laugh
i laughed at it and said "look at the seduction pose" XD
he didnt need to get me anything tho
its 8pm and i havent heard from jack all day :/
Evening~
Didn't sleep great
woke up at 3am thinking it was much later than it was
when i saw it was only 3am i groaned and got up
i felt sick and achy
i went to bed around 4ish
but couldnt sleep that well
and i woke up at 7am and napped til 8:30am when mum woke me
she said i was groaning in my sleep
i was probably aching in my sleep >.>
i did some dancing this morning
getting further with cross road
the ending is within reach!
its such a good feeling to be able to finish a dance
but i found theres a new Yosakoi dance out!!!! *0*
must learn!!!!! love yosakoi!!!
anyway i got myself ready this morning to see Ed
and did a few jobs like book myself in for a massage for a couple of weeks time
and then just laid there til he arrived
didnt bother with lunch as it only gives me stomach ache
and i couldnt be doing with it
ed arrived and we had a cup of tea together
he also annoyed me so i annoyed him back
and he gave me plenty of cuddles ^^
i dont think we will ever lose the bond we have
although i do call him a perv at times XD
and the stuff he comes out with makes me laugh
typical male humour
never fails to make me laugh
but sometimes i feel unsure why he still sees me
ive known him 7 years and i have watched him mature in that time
whereas i feel like ive stayed as the same childish idiot in a way
we laid on my bed where i almost fell asleep
dangerous for me to lay down when i dont sleep at night as i literally just go
im gone in minutes
but mum came home and i got up
then me and ed went to a pirate mini golf one ive been to before
i totally won
he kept hitting it out i was like "its not hockey you know!"
it was fun
and then we went for something to eat at a pub on the way home
he had lamb i had chicken
then we came and had a few play fights at home
then he left
it was good to see him as god only knows the next time we can meet up
i am well and truly shattered tho
i had my room to tidy after he left
as i had to sew 6 badges on his uniform which he said would have cost him £23!!!! rip off or what!! and my bed was a mess so i changed it
im gonna have a shower now
sit with Oz and go bed
tomorrow i am doing bugger all and pleasing no one!!!
so worn out!!
but its good ^^
jack knew i was seeing ed today but wasnt mad or jealous :)
but sadly i cant see him til sunday ><
Evening~
I got about 5 hours sleep
got up in the night cus god i ached
this morning I rang up pain clinic
ive been put on a waiting list for an appointment
could take some time...great
i did some dancing and went for a shower
went to shops with mum
went chemist for drugs XD
came home got ready to go out
had lunch went out
got to jack's and i brought with me strawberries and chocolate
and the sweets i brought for him
we started walking to the board game cafe and he said
"i have board games at home cant we play those and eat strawberries?"
so yeah i gave in we turned round
we played draughts which i lost at surprise surprise
then we ate strawberries
we got through a whole box and a whole bar of white chocolate
it sent me up the wall
literally had a sugar rush
and he saw it...he couldnt stop laughing he thought it was great
i felt sick at first then the sugar rush hit, couldnt keep still
i had full circulation in my body and could even feel my heart beat
both of which never happen with me im like a corpse
eventually it wore down
and i kept warm in his bed but i did smell of him afterwards
left his and came in, ate then rushed straight out again
was only home half hour
went to tara's
sat and talked with her and laughed with her
listening to her confess im her best friend and that when she gets married she'd like me as a bridesmaid *0* but thats if she has a UK wedding as shes tempted to get it done abroad but we shall see. James has a long blow torch outside and i said "i want a go" he was burning weeds
he didnt let me have ago. strange hes let me have a go with an axe and sledge hammer but has drawn the line at fire XD
i left and came home and showered as i felt dirty after being out and on the go all day
so its 9pm and ive come on my laptop for my diary
now im gonna sit with Oz wind down and do my nails
not sure what tomorrow will bring
im so damn tired
i have no idea how i keep going all day and give everyone my best energy
