Evening
ahhh been up since 5am and i didnt sleep well
so damn tired
woke up and 5am and pain was far too much that i had to get up
and eventually got ready for my first day of school
staff were in, no students
we had assembly first just a hall full of staff
its a bit unreal how many members of staff there are
it was killing me sitting there, killing me
jack whispered in my ears "just leave for the toilet and have a long stretch"
but i was determined not to draw attention to myself
so i stayed put
we got free tea and biscuits X3
then more stuff in the hall
and then when support staff i.e. me could leave, i did
we got free lunch i has pasta
and from the moment of finishing my dinner at 12:30 i had crippling stomach ache
so we start this again
all i could think about was going home to the toilet -___-
i finished a display and did a few jobs
talked to staff about their holidays
we had a department meeting
and that was about it really
noticed for next week's science lessons, maggots are needed...
i just looked at it and thought "im back"
i left as soon as i could
got home and ran to the toilet
and i was like it after my tea too
just struggling to eat and digest for the last week or so but not sure
if its just a side effect of coming off pain killers
pain killers im sorely missing
my god do i ache
and i ache after walking 11k yesterday
all in all Jo is knackered
i was suppose to see tara after work
but all ive done is been curled up in a ball
im so tired and achy
i just wanted to shut the world out
ive had enough!
and its only monday! my god man
how am i gonna make it through the week!?
tomorrow should be fairly relaxed as only year 7 (first years) are in school
so nothing is needed
just hope its not a boring day
here is a painting i did for a friend
its cute huh~~
i enjoy painting and enjoying doing stuff for people
Evening
I took a sleeping tablet last night
one minute it was 10pm next it was 8:30am
did not feel like it had been that long it felt like 5mins id shut my eyes for
so yeah id slept!
I got ready this morning
as i was seeing jack and his friends
got to his at 12pm
we fetched lunch
i hadnt seen theo yet he hadnt emerged from his bedroom as he has his woman over
harvey turned up
eventually theo and his woman came up stairs i said hello to her as i hadnt met her before
she seems nice enough
just must be weird for her being greeted by people 10 years younger than her XD
we went to a park and met james
we walked and had lunch by a lake in the sun
it was really fun and good actually
then we walked
and walked
and walked
my pain was rocketing until i told them sod it im getting a tea and sitting
and then i was going home
i could tell jack was getting a bit tense seeing me in pain
and he kept apologising saying he didnt think we were walking this far
my god the pain
i just about made it back
i went on jack's bed for 15-20mins got up and went home
we'd walked 11 kilometres
i came back and had a shower and got as comfy as i could
and took a load of pain killers
i hurt now
but thats my life i pay for enjoying myself
and i have enjoyed myself
it was a good summer and good way to finish the summer too
i left jack to game with theo and finish his cigar with him
all stuff i didnt want to be apart of
im seeing him tomorrow at work anyway
ah yes i have work tomorrow
but whereas i usually do 8am - 4pm
im doing 8:30 - 3pm
so not as bad really and free lunch too
im wearing non-uni too, jack and julia are going in uniform but sod that
its insec day therefore im making the most of it!
joggers and tshirt
then i might be seeing tara and giving her the ponyta painting for her birthday present
her birthday is 11th so i hope i can see her even for an hour
here is an eye shadow i got
im on my old laptop but could have used my new one
i will blog hopefully on my new one
only been on it i think 5 mins XD
anyway thats summer 2019 over~~
Konbanwa~~
i finished Kyoukai no Kanata
it was alright but the last 2 episodes were weird i have to say and hard to follow
So yesterday I went into work
julia and jack were there
i mainly sat by myself in an air conditioned room
it was soooooo cold my skin was freezing
jack was like "you can turn it off you know"
i said "i know cus i was the one who turned it on"
just wanted to feel cold at work for a change
i got a fair amount done as i was by myself listening to my ipod
i saw luke he was in too i told him id probably feel anxious n my first day back
he said "it will be chill we'll get through it"
monday doesnt look too bad as its a slightly shorter day, no students and free lunch
me and jack went to his family's house where we fed the bunnies and cat
it was good to see his pets theyre so damn cute those bunnies
and the cat took a treat from my hand i felt her sand paper tongue
from there we went to his house
we had pizza and stuff and went for a walk
and.....we got my laptop!!
yup i picked it up and prayed everything was alright with it
this morning was hard to motivate jack out of bed
that guy sleeps like the dead
i for one couldnt stay there any longer so i left him and came back later
my hips killed from sleeping in that bed
id also had disturbing dreams to say the least
i stabbed a rat with a pen i felt it pierce its squishy warm body
i also dreamed another dream of finding a dead body
it had been in water so it was bloated, the eyes had been removed and sockets sewn up crudely, it had bites marks on its body and the mouth had been melted to blend in with its face
disturbing
god knows where i get this stuff from as i dont view or read anything horror related
i woke jack up 40mins later he asked for 5 more mins but i was like
"jack i gave you 40 more minutes"
he was like "oh sorry, really? ill get up" and eventually he did
i was so knackered this morning tho
and he said it was like id withdrawn from life
without knowing i was curled up on his bed cuddling his snorlax plush staring into space
i do it at home but i guess its not a normal scene for him
he'll get used to it
i left his after lunch
we couldnt go out til he'd had a delivery
so i was a lil bored and i wanted my own space if im honest
i just needed alone time
so i came home to an empty house
and i went to bed i was dead
i got up and spoke with my brother
we opened my laptop packaging together
its soooo nice and new looking
my current one looks well old XD its like double the thickness of the new one
i then sat with oz outside with a brew and went for a walk
had a shower and made food
been drawing since then
my brother has taken my laptop into his room to sort it out
no point in me doing it
i havent even seen it on yet XD
got loads of time to go on it really
tonight i plan on taking a sleeping tablet
need to get into sleeping
tomorrow think im meeting up with jack and his friends
here is a face acid i got from korea
it has great reviews for having the max allowance of acid korea will sell in a skin product
it says to use once a week and to moisturise afterwards
my god
it has stripped my skin off
its strong stuff and my face is sore!!! i will be careful in using it in the future
i did moisturise but this was days ago and its still sore and flaking!
Evening~~
Once again didnt sleep all that great
I did some dancing this morning
but my god hayfever has been bad today so i was literally wheezing so I stopped
then had a shower and got ready to meet jack
mum's foot was swollen and bruised today
i felt bad for leaving her but she told me not to stay in just for her
i met jack and we walked round the shops a bit
i picked up a really cut silver lizard earring for when my ears are ready
for a change of earring, theyre small and thin so should look good on the end lobe piercing
i got a new mascara and that was it
we went for food at a noodle place it was good actually and we got so much in such a small box we did fortune cookies too
jack's said "dont hold back and make that big step"
mine was "meeting up with old friends leads to new adventures"
i said "ive been trying to see my friends for weeks!!"
jack said "hmm maybe its saying i should propose to you, what do you think?"
i said "thats suicide thats what i think, its a life sentence jack, think about that"
we went back to his flat
and we used his tarot cards for a reading
i got a really positive reading
my question was "can i hack this academic year?"
my reading said how i have a lot to learn but its all in my favours and will go well~
i said to theo "you ask the cards a question"
he said "im not sure what to ask really, i cant think of anything appropriate"
i said "what do you mean appropriate?"
he said "come on Jo where do you think my mind wanders?"
i said "oh come on theo just ask it"
he said "will i have a three-some by the end of the year?"
i burst out laughing
guys are so gross but funny XD
i left jack's at 3:30pm as he already had plans to play D&D tonight
such a nerd
i didnt mind as i got to go back to see if mum was alright
i spoke to the doctor today
hes reduced my pain killers and said its best if i can get off them all together as they have long term effects. thats two medications ive taken for 8+ years that have long term effects
never told that when you first go on them
so im even more determined to be rid of them
but it has to be done slowly he said
yeah yeah i know >.>
i got home and sat with Oz and mum
my brother phoned from work and said he'd look at laptops with me in the evening
so that was nice of him
and thats what we did when he came in
i showed him the one i liked that was like £750 down from £999
he said it was good and would certainly do me
so i sorted out the money and i ordered it
luckily jack lives a 2min walk from the store so i can pick it up after 5pm tomorrow~~
ive actually ordered a laptop
ive actually spent that much money
sickening
but theo said he'd ordered a new laptop last night and hes paid of £1200 so i kinda wondered what i was worrying over especially as he said his old one cost £850 and is 8 years old
mine is 9 years old and i paid £450
i guess im just not used to spending money
my brother said to me "jo you spend like three quid on clothes, i spent £8 at mcdonalds the other day, treat yourself, youve earned it and it will feel so much nicer when youre on it"
i know hes right
should be good
hes prepared to put the time in and put the software on that i want ^^
what would i do without him at times
i made tara a birthday card
as i might see her soon and id like to make sure she has her birthday present
tomorrow
i am going to the doctors at 8:30am to pick up a prescription for pain killers
then im going straight to work
where i shall spend a lot of my day there -____-
me jack and julia are going in to just get bits ready really for monday
then im going to jack's family's house to feed the bunnies - the bunnies are cute
then were going to his and gonna get my laptop then were having pizza and watching an anime film together, its just us two as theo is going home so it should be nice and room on the sofa ^^
not sure what i will do saturday i know i will come home at some point
i drew this for jack the other night as a surprise
only took an hour or so
he thought it was really good :3
soon i will be blogging on my new laptop!
tempted to go for a walk tonight
might take a sleeping tablet too
get me into the rhythm of sleeping again before school
Konbanwa~~
Didnt sleep great
couldnt get off and then at 12:30 i felt quite sick
so got up for a hot chocolate
then I woke up at 3:30 for a bit
then I woke up at 6am feeling like id been ran over so i had to get up
so i started my day at 6am! i shouldnt be starting at that ungodly hour
til monday damn it!!
I did half hour of yoga to help matters
watched an episode of anime
This morning I did a bit of dancing
I was gonna go back to bed once id dosed myself up on pain killers
but I had to take mummy to the hospital to have an injection in her foot
she said the needle was 3" long 0.0
she asked me if i wanted to go in the room with her but knowing she was having a needle
and that she was tense as it was i said id wait in the waiting room
knowing me id pass out -___- and i want prepared to add to her stress levels
she came out pretty well
but since she's come home she literally cant put any weight on it
so shes like hopping/limping
so i have been mums legs today
i have only let her get up for use of the toilet
everything else i have done for her
so i have been on pig duty~~
i finished a drawing i did for jack as a lil surprise for him
i cleaned my bedroom - something i wanted to do just before i went back to school
i took some more pretty photos
more normal this time round huh
strange how sometimes i cant bare to look at myself and sometimes its just bearable
its been cooler today thank god
and even rained :/
i cooked dinner we had pasta
it was nothing amazing but mum was grateful of it
not sure what i will do tonight
might draw, watch anime or walk
i did want to walk but it keeps raining!
i got my face acid in the post so i might have a go with that tonight 0.0
tomorrow think im seeing jack
Yo~ho~
I actually slept pretty well last night
i came to bed and realised just how stifling the upstairs was...
i came downstairs and asked if i could have the fan from the kitchen
oh my god what a difference 0.0
i never have a fan usually as i worry the noise will keep me awake
god it saved my butt last night
i dont think i could have slept without it
i tried to dance this morning but god it was hot
i was starting to feel unwell so i stopped after 20 mins
i was dripping
truly grateful for a shower
i didnt much for a while it was just too hot to be honest
but i think after today its cooling down again
pets are hot we put the fan on them too cool them down
i did a bit of photography today
just messing around really but its something i was in the mood to do
so here we have my creation XD
look gothic
and look nothing like how i usually do huh
tomorrow i have to take my mum to go have an injection in her foot
she wont be able to walk on her foot all day
so i am being mother tomorrow
but all shes making me do is get her drinks and make the dinner
so not a hard ask really
i think im gonna clean my room and make tara a birthday card
thats two jobs id like to do tomorrow
i may even play with photos again :3
Evening
its sooooo hot
like stupidly hot
yesterday was too hot for everyone involved i think XD
today tho was quite nice
i hadnt fallen asleep until 3am and got up at 8am so i was quite tired
but me and jack were gonna go out today so i was determined to see the day through
we were off to sherwood pines which is basically a stones throw from sherwood forest
minus all the robin hood rubbish
so i picked him up at 10am and we got there just before 11am
we went for an hours walk around the forest which was nice
then we grabbed the picnic blanket and our food and sat under some trees
eating lunch
we lazed around too i was about falling asleep i was so tired
then he had an ice cream and i had a tea
we came back to my house i wanted to check on Oz
as he had upset tummy this morning but i think its due to the heat to be honest
but he seemed fine
then jack looked at my laptop basically what spec it is
and we went to his house and walked to the shops
i had a look at laptops but didnt see anything really
my laptop is getting on a bit but i'll be sad to part with it
but i know its something that looms on the horizon - a new laptop
i dont want mine to die and be left with nothing
i got home and had dinner and a much much needed shower
then read manga outside in the garden
to say i walked in woods and wore SP 50+ i have caught the sun a bit ><
my skin tans so damn easily
i dont burn i just tan some would be envious of this trait
but ive gotten used to being white and pale looking XD
then i had a brief look online at laptops
but if im honest
i need help -____- im out my depth
i sent a few i liked to jack and hes taking a look
cus quite frankly it all means sod all to me
tomorrow not sure how i will spend the day yet
think its suppose to be warm again
this is my last week off work as well!! D:
god i best sleep tonight
but its sooo hot in my bedroom its not looking good
and im in pain >.>
but in a months time i could be off pain killers
