Konbanwa~~
Mum woke me at 8am
I didnt mind as I knew we were off out and i was having a cup of tea today :)
so we left the house at 9am
i didnt have much for breakfast just fruit
we went round a few shops
i got some joggers which are lilac never have lilac ones before
some thermal leggings reduced to £2.20
a pyjama set with bunnies on ^^
some socks that were reduced
a bread board to burn when my pyrography set comes
some herbal tea, and some white chocolate & raspberry coffee for jack im gonna surprise him with on monday morning which should cheer him up
we went to a different shop for underwear
i tried on 8 bras and only 2 fit, like seriously how depressing my life that I can't fill A-cups
that shop used to do AA-cup and i used to be able to get what I wanted but theyve stopped doing that size for some reason, like every other shop, so i had to try and fill out an A-cup -____-
Jo was not blessed with a chest or cleavage
but I got two and theyre cute and lacy so i cant complain they were also reduced to £8 ^^
we went for a brew in a victorian cafe which is amazing
does spectacular cakes but luckily there wasnt any cakes id actually eat
so i wasnt tempted
we both had english breakfast tea, with real tea leaves
i had 3 small cups and had sugar and milk in them
i really enjoyed them
and i didnt suffer for it ether!
we called in a super market on the way back
mum let me choose what ever i wanted
i picked up a pork shoulder as i wanted to attempt pulled pork
we came home it was 1pm i was starving
so i had the last of the soup then made
*banana biscuits
*put the pulled pork on
* pan fried turkey stakes for my up coming breakfasts
i was done in
i tidied up as well and did a few other jobs
finally laying out on the sofa
mum later on dyed my hair
my hair in now reddy ginger
i like it :)
so we've spent the day together really which has made a change
i could tell my dad didnt like the fact that i had mums attention today
hes been under her feet all day as he cant entertain himself
so hes got on both our nerves
im gonna do some drawing tonight, got my physio exercises to do and i might have a run through a dance im trying to learn
tomorrow im seeing mia in the morning which will be nice
havent actually seen her this year
i have a soup to make for the up coming week as well
i took photos of the terrariums i made at work
the staff love em
Evening~~
I made it through the week!
I felt achy from yoga this morning
but Oz made me feel better by sitting on my knee whilst I had breakfast
cheers me up my lad
I felt drugged up at school again
and again took til about 11:30am to feel semi-better
its really frustrating
jack has suggested i eat breakfast then wait a bit then take my meds
whereas now im taking them with my breakfast
so i will try that tomorrow
school was dull
i just wasnt in the mood for it
wasnt in the mood to prep lessons
i helped luke with his display board which will look good once its done
i got all my jobs done too
i was just knackered when id finished
i got home and it was still light! first time in a long time has that happened
and i was tempted to go for a walk
but instead of getting Oz out i just fell asleep on the sofa till dinner -___-
not what i wanted to do at all but shows how exhausted my body is
after dinner i went for a walk with mum as i ached and had been asleep so
i knew it would be hard for me to sleep tonight if i didnt do anything
i will shower now and sit with my lad
tomorrow me and mum are going to the city centre for some shopping
mainly underwear shopping cus some of my bras aint comfy no more
then might do some drawing when i come back
sunday im seeing mia which will be nice
not seeing jack as 9-6 sat and sun he's got first aid training for scouts
the nerd
so i wrote his weekend off
he said i could stay saturday night but i asked him what the point would be
and finally
my terrarium!! complete with sleeping squirtle
i planted 3 cacti and it has glow in the dark stones
seems to be doing well on my windowsill
Konbanwa~~
Yesterday was school
It went alright
I was quite tired throughout the day tho
I did some painting which is coming along
after school i went to jack's
we literally did nothing
apart from him telling me "Jo dont fall asleep"
i was just curled up in pyjamas and dressing gown on his bed. dead
so tired
he cooked me a safe meal which was nice just wasnt a lot of it
so i was hungry but i didnt say anything
he sat watching Love Island with Theo...such a toxic vile program
I said "im off to bed but you stay watching this im fine"
theo was like "you going to bed already? you not watching this?"
i said "no way am i watching it. and im tired"
he said "it makes you feel so much better about yourself"
im sure it does as the people on that show are utter trash
so i was in bed, warm with Flump at 9:30pm
i went to sleep and kinda stirred when jack came to bed like an hour or so later
then fell asleep again
it was nice having a bit of company getting ready for school
it was hard pouring out cereal for jack and making him a cup of tea
i didnt have a lot for breakfast
so my tablets hit me hard i felt so drugged up
a few people at work asked if i was ok cus i looked spaced
took me til about 11:30am to actually function
i got screwed over by 2 teachers by writing up the wrong lessons -___-
so i did a lot of running around today and 2 hours of washing up
i was ready to come home
fell asleep with Oz when I got in
mum woke me and we went yoga
first yoga session for us this year
i walked in and mum said "shall we go here?" pointing to mats
i said "yeah i know my place" which is the front in front of karen...
karen without looking up from her phone said "good, in front of me where i can see you"...
it was hard work but felt good to do it
its annoyed my joints a bit so im unsure how i will sleep tonight
but we shall see
tomorrow it is friday~
woo friday!
and my day doesnt look too bad
i have some seeds that came in the post im gonna try and plant
might dance after school or something
do something i enjoy anyway
not seeing jack this weekend
hes got two full days of first air training for scouts
hes not looking forward to it
rather him than me anyway
lets get friday done
Evening
I did my physio exercises last night
the chore that they are
and ive had to increase them
one really hurts my back tho
i woke up at 1am then 3am and finally to my alarm
had back ache in the morning from exercises
Oz wanted my fuss this morning which was nice
normally he's half asleep >.>
school was slow if im honest and i struggled with my energy levels
everything felt sluggish and an effort
but i got there and got it all done
i had no idea what to do for the afternoon tho as i didnt want a too energetic job
so i ended up painting
painted an A2 plant cell for Luke he loved it
said it was too good for his display and hes gonna put it on Etsy
to me i thought it was bog standard and easy like anyone could have done it
but they all assured me that wasnt the case
got a animal cell to do next
i came home and had a brew with Oz and the sows
truffle doesnt sit still shes running around the sofa it stresses Oz out
he growled in the end like "ive had enough now" XD
we took the girls away
its truffle shes hyper 24/7
i went on my laptop looking at pyrography kits
as i think i want to have a go burning stuff so i ordered one cus its something else to try
i have one but its only 25W its rubbish! it was given to me so i cant complain but it is crap
this one heats up to 400c and is 60W
then i sorted out stuff for school
mainly food if im honest
cus woo food -____- id murder for a cup of tea
like actual murder
and im gonna sleep over at jack's tomorrow so i needed to sort food out for tomorrow and thursday and other stuff to take to his
glad im going over to his it breaks the week up a bit
it just messes up with when im doing my physio exercises but mum said to have a break as ive done them religiously whats one day
so i might just do that
ive worked hard lately damn it
i havent done any exercise tonight tho
my body is shattered so im unsure what to do
i was gonna see mia and walt for a walk but its pouring down so we didnt bother
so yeah tomorrow is school and staying at jack's
he wants me to go with him to get his passport photo done :/
dont see why but hey whatever
here is some hair bows i made last week when i was sick at home
Evening
I did a little dancing last night
started a new dance, one i have wanted to do for ages
I did my nails too, simple dots really
I slept alright and needed my alarm
god knows what time i would have woken up naturally
i was really gone
but i was tired
I got to school
feeling a bit anxious but it was just because i didnt want to feel unwell
and was unsure how the day would go
turns out it went fine
i kept needing breaks and jack kept telling me to sit
its definitely louder with me there tho XD
i got all my stuff done too even tho i feel it took me a long time
i kept eating through out the day as well
at the end of the day i did a bit of painting as Luke wants a cell display doing
so im painting an animal cell and a plant cell hes already pleased with it ^^
He also saw a picture of my terrarium and loved it
we share a love of plants
speaking of which I got my plant in the post today!!!
mum sent me this photo and it made me so happy
he eats flies and we have loads of small flies in the prep room for some reason
i cant wait to take him in tomorrow :3
i got home and sat with Oz, fell asleep i woke up to him licking my nose ><
bless him he wanted to go home i think
so i took him home and did some research on japan
got stuff ready for school tomorrow
i struggled with food
im struggling in general as its a very limiting diet so im eating the same things over and over to the point were i cant bring myself to eat any more of certain foods like coconut and sweet potato its so repetitive.
i am bored of this diet and want a cup of tea!
i have my physio exercises to do tonight
ive noticed my hips dont crack as much so maybe something is working
but it is a chore doing them i have to say
tomorrow is school
about it really
Evening~~~
So yesterday
I got up and cleaned Ozwald out
did half hour of yoga
made some biscuits (totally winged the recipe)
took mum to her appointment
all before 11am ;)
i had my physio exercises to do >.>
then i showered and got ready to see jack
jack who had been out drinking 7% cider in a pub til 1am....
so he didnt even wake til 1pm
he said he was gonna put the soup on in the slow cooker at 12pm
but i said to him on friday "you wont even be ready for 3pm"
he seemed to think otherwise
but turned out i was right
he went out for food with his friends and said at 3:15 i could come over -___-
at 3:40pm he was still cutting veg up to go in the slow cooker
i knew looking at it that it wouldnt be ready for dinner
but i thought 'dont say anything let him learn'
so before i even went over he had been tesco for the vegetables
when i got there he said he needed to go again for something
so i went with him
we came back and starting planning our japan journey
i could feel my stomach chewing on its self so i said i needed food
it was 6:40pm
he went to check the soup
it was not cooked, which i knew it wouldnt be
he said we needed to go get something else for dinner
he said he'd go himself but i came with him even tho i wasnt feeling good
i said to him "this is why i cant rely on you, i can rely on you at work because thats you doing your job but outside of things i cant rely on you as things dont happen or happen right"
i could tell my words hit home
he said he was gonna try harder
i could tell and feel he was kinda upset with himself
so we went for the 2nd time or in jack's case, 3rd time, to tesco
picked up a soup which was bland as
but it was safe for me
i was so tired and went to bed
i slept pretty well to say i was at jack's
i woke up once as my knee cap had popped a bit and the pain....
i could have screamed
so i had to very carefully move it and make sure it was comfy
its his crap bed it doesnt support me
it popped back in fully when i walked up the stairs in the morning
we had breakfast and i grabbed a shower
then we went for a walk
then we went tesco
i kid you not tesco again
because he realised he didnt have any cereal
and i said "this is again the whole thing of me being able to rely on you, whats wrong with doing a quick check of what you have in before you go to the shops. sometimes im gonna be sick jack and not able to organise you and pick up the pieces"
he said he'd try better and that hes lucky to have me
honestly
we got back to flat and i knew i had to leave at i had food to make for the rest of the week
joys of this diet
i asked him what he was gonna do today
he said "play pokemon"
i said "you could look for driving schools instead of spending the whole day on pokemon, you waste a lot of life on games"
he said "this is true and also doable"
but i doubt he has bothered to look at japan or driving
i got home and put the soup on to make
made some more biscuits just from the top of my head
then i sat with Ozwald and mum
sorted my wardrobe out and kicked a lot for charity
sorted out stuff for work tomorrow
had dinner
then my brother was helping me sort my photoshop out
and thats it
that was my weekend
id like to do ether drawing or dancing tonight
and my nails
not done my nails this year!
here is vulpix
a plush my cousin gave to me this christmas
she apparently had a tacky flower on her forehead and my cousin ripped it off, creating a rather large hole. my cousin tried to patch it up with fabric but said she couldnt do it
and would i repair it and put a blue lolita bow on her forehead
so here is before the box, i didnt take a picture of the hole
and here is after
think i did a decent job it was not easy as there wasnt much fabric to work with
but i liked the challenge
school tomorrow -___-
anxious
quite anxious actually
think im worrying about getting through the day
Evening
I slept pretty well apart from waking up at 5am needing to get rid of my stomach contents -__-
not how i wanted to start my day
and my stomach hurt from then and i knew i was up soon i went on my laptop for a bit
then got into my normal school routine
i had breakfast and straight away felt like someone had scissor kicked me to the gut
i had to the drive like that, semi-bent over
i got to school and really didnt feel good
i ended up walking into the school and going straight to the staffroom, had a cold drink of water and a sit down.
who walks in, just who walks in...the sodding nurse!! out off the 200+ staff there the nurse walks in. i couldnt believe it. she asked me how i was
then head of biology came in and saw me. great >.>
she asked if i wanted to walk up stairs with her to science
i did. i wanted to get there! i went to grab my bag but she took it for me
they do look after me and i think know how stubborn i am
as jack said "most people take the week of to recover Jo"
nope i aint giving up. my life has been one big fight. i can keep fighting
i somehow got through the day
god knows how
i felt sick and my stomach felt kicked all the way til lunch
the day went slow too just cus i think i was so drained
but got it done
i looked at my term - spring term
not good for Jo
bacteria + dissections....
bacteria stresses me out as i dont have a lot of confidence in it
dissections are a faff and mess
not good. i didnt dare look at the other years as that is just A-level
i got home and had a quick drink and piece of meat
and went out for my first massage of the year
it was nice and i survived it too as i wasnt sure how id feel after it
good tho i feel much more fluid
i came home and showered, had dinner then laid with a face sheet on
my skin isnt feeling too bad
im making a real effort with it
anyway thats first week back done
feels like 2 weeks but cus im on the diet and ive felt crap
i think i cam slowly getting better tho
Kyou wa kinyoubi da you, ashita wa shuumatsu ne~
what shall i do with my weekend i wonder?
id like to dance
tomorrow morning im gonna make up my own pancake recipe
wish me luck
i have a few photos to take also
i have managed to keep in zero food today
all passed straight through me
i can actually tell areas im losing weight in :/
