finished pokemon painting

Evening

Couldnt sleep I was hot and achy so I didnt go to sleep til 1am
then annoyingly woke up at 7am >.>
I went to see Oz in the garden and made a fuss of him, which is how I start my mornings lately
i called him over for a treat and he was excited he almost didnt run in a straight line XD

I went for a walk by myself this morning, did a fair walk
and I saw a baby wild bunny, I must have been within 3 metres of it!
so cute i could see its nose twitching and its chest rising, i just stood silently watching it. I love bunnies even the wild ones X3 rare you see them. 
I came back and sat for a bit then I did 30mins of dancing and jesus I was sweaty
it was quite gross XD So I showered
then I had a brew with mum and Oz
then we had lunch and i went to bed
i ached like really ached, dancing made joints crack but didnt help with pain
and i fell asleep for almost 3 hours...I was so warm and comfy which is rare for me
so I just remained, i probably wont sleep tonight but all well

I got up and painted and I got my picture finished! my pokemon are done!
the brush jack got me wasnt as amazing as I thought it was going to be
but it still got the outlining done i guess
i have photographed it and i will upload it soon
not sure what my next piece in my sketchbook will be!
I know i have plenty of digital art to be getting on with tho ><

tomorrow not sure what i will do
probably exercise and digital art as i havent got anything more to do right now

meat madness

Evening

I am home once again~

Saturday morning I danced for half hour then showered and got ready to see jack
i picked him up and i drove us to a country park
he had kindly brought drinks and biscuits X3 i didnt even ask him to
so that was a pleasant walk 
then we went back to his place and made lunch which was soup
he showed me the 'meat madness' that had stricken both him and theo in tesco the day before, basically we were gonna have a 'bbq' on saturday and take the leftovers sunday for a picnic. there wasnt actually a bbq as there isnt anywhere to do one so it was all done on the grill
but my dear god, there was so much meat....i said "you do realise its just the 3 of us right?"
they were like "it was the meat madness jo"
i just shook my head in disbelief 
we passed the day and eventually it came round to cooking some meat
we had all sorts really and i was full, but those two of course ate much more than me

sunday
i had slept pretty well despite having a dream about my dad being meaner than usual to me
we got up and had breakfast and i did 30mins of yoga, jack didnt do anything XD
i had a shower, then we went for a short walk
it was day of the picnic with harvey and more meat needed to be cooked...
i let them get on with it and just laid on jack's bed
i heard harvey arrive and he waited on the balcony - taking the 2m distance seriously 
i sat and talked to him on the living room floor, i respected his need to distance 
i told him how much meat those two had....harvey and i both said they had eyes bigger than their stomachs, and we were right! despite how much they put away in the park they couldnt finish it all in fact there was loads left!
we sat on 2 different blankets, harvey on one away from us
it was really nice actually as the sun came out and we got quite hot actually
i fell asleep but made sure to cover my skin up
harvey who burns under a 50W light bulb was already turning pink, jack's face was a little pink too and theo looked fine but i asked him to move the blanket half in the sun half in the shade
as i could see jack wasnt liking the sun much
we sat out til 5pm it was really nice
and we saw others having the same idea as us - social distancing picnic
its nice seeing other humans as a few weeks ago it was a ghost town
we went back to the flat and harvey's mum picked him up
jack and theo both said they were full and didnt want dinner so i said to jack we didnt have to eat anything cus i was full too.
he had his online gaming at 8pm and i sat drawing on my laptop, i finished the girl in mangastudio5 shse just needs photoshoping now

i also did the outline on another picture
theo was gaming online with harvey so i talked to them occasionally 
i left jack to it
then at 9:30pm i said "i might rob a sausage or something"
i got the meat out the fridge and despite theo saying he wasnt gonna eat, he rose out his seat as the meat madness over took him again XD he ate a lot!
i wasnt sure if to do jack any food if he even wanted any food so i put it away
he finished at 10pm and he got the meat out and ate XD honestly they are fiends for meat
i sat drawing til almost 11pm cus jack went from online gaming to pokemon
and i couldnt be doing with that
the amount of gaming and game talk that has gone off as of late is just relentless and only so much i can take, i took myself off to bed
jack later joined me and i had my head on his chest, i smelt him and said "i can smell meat" but he hadnt cooked or eaten in his pajamas so i said "have you literally got the meat sweats!?" XD
i slept well having dreams of being in a fight with someone who was drugging me and hurting me, action packed dream to say the least! i woke up at 9am
took me 25mins to get jack out of bed....

we had breakfast and i had a bath which was really nice
then we went for a walk just the two of us at midday and brought a cold drink and sat and drank that near the canal, it was so hot we were sweating
we walked by a shop and it was open...and another saying it was opening tomorrow
so its a good sign that slowly places are opening once again
we got back and i cooked lunch which was noodle broth it was good~
theo announced he was going back to the park for another sun bath
i was hoping jack wouldnt want to join as i knew id die out there in that heat and funny enough jack felt the same! his nose was a bit pinky red from yesterday but other than that he has come away good and i dont think he'd be as lucky second time round

i came home at 5pm and saw my bunny
had a few licks off him and i spent time outside with him
but i will sit with him shortly hopefully it wont be too hot for him

tomorrow not sure what im doing
i got my new paintbrush from jack so i can do my painting now so i will probably sit and do that
i have digital drawing to do
and i will probably exercise
not seeing jack til monday now anyway as we might be going into school together

pokemon painting so far

Evening

took me til like 1am to actually get to sleep
and what a horrific dream i had 0.0
i dreamed i was married off to some guy, then pregnant
then sat in a bath tub giving birth to a dead child
awful awful dream
couldnt wait to wake up!

This morning I went for a long walk by myself
then I came back and somehow managed 30mins of dance
it was an effort tho i have to say, just felt too worn out to dance
mum made soup so that was nice to have for lunch
i have eaten loads today just been really hungry for some reason

I worked on my painting
this is it so far

it pretty much just needs outlining
but my new paintbrush hasnt come yet
so im not sure if i will just get impatient and use my thin brush XD
jack likes it tho he says it looks really good
i have enjoyed doing it but theres not much skill with this painting
it wasnt challenging in the slightest 
hopefully should look good when it is done
im gonna take it jack's tomorrow

i laid in my bed, i laid on the sofa
just needed rest and chill out time today
i tried to read and play my switch but nothing was cutting it i just simply needed to switch off, so laying down it was really :/ 

i havent done any dance practice tonight as im just too mentally worn out

tomorrow tho i am going to jack's
probably in the morning once again
then coming back monday evening
its another sodding bank holiday this weekend
so i wanted to stay out the way

Day2 painting pokemon

Yo~

I got to sleep around midnight
it was so damn hot -_____-
I got up at 8am
i had a dream i was playing dodgeball, and playing it well XD
mum was going out this morning

so i went for a longer walk by myself
then i came home, feeling rather done in so i rested but then did 40 mins of dancing
i found it hard work but after 15mins i loosened up and enjoyed it
then i had a much needed shower i was wet through

I spent my day painting XD
been enjoying it
at 3pm i stopped to watch killing eve on iplayer as i always miss it due to being a jack's
must say out of the 5 episodes so far ive only enjoyed 2 of them
not my best season but something to watch
then i went back to painting
i havent sat with Oz today which feels weird
but its been hot and also he's chosen to sit in the shade and in the bushes today
and i think if hes happy and cool i will leave him as i only make him hot by bringing him into the house, last night he flopped out on the sofa instead of sitting on my knee as it was just too warm for him but i know he still likes coming in for a bit of fuss and its  his routine
we got a letter from the vets today saying Oz was due his jabs - which i knew
but it said 'if he is well then could you postpone it due to the corona virus' - which i was planning on
no way am i taking him at the moment unless he was sick
i will wait til i can be in the room with him
besides he is totally fine its just his annual jabs and annual check up
and i know he is fine and i will get him jabbed up when everything has settled down

i did 15mins of dance practice in my room
i wanted to do more but i would have just died of the heat if i continued
and i can not be arsed with another shower

i got an email saying my school is open to year 10 8th June
but no word as to when i am personally back
but small steps

gonna do my nails tonight and have a hot chocolate ^^

tomorrow probably just a repeat of today
exercise and painting~

started pokemon painting

Evening

Slept like crap didnt sleep til gone 1am
i was up overdosing and eating cereal woo
i slept after that tho til 7:30am

this morning mum went shopping
so i cleaned out girls and Oz
then my brother helped me wash my girls and they were really well behaved
theyre all fluffy and soft now

i did 45mins of yoga
then i fell asleep on my bed for a bit
went for a short walk with mum
cus it was like 27c today, it was roasting and little breeze
im shattered constantly and i think it is just hay fever
i came back and showered and had lunch

since then i have pretty much spent my entire day painting!
really zoned out doing it whilst listening to my ipod its been really nice actually 
i got really far as well im pleased with it
i mean there isnt much skill behind the painting or drawing but it has given me something to do

i played my switch and had dinner
then sat outside with Oz as it was more bearable temperature
i was gonna do some dance practice but its so hot upstairs
i still might try just 10 mins tho

tomorrow
probably just exercise in the morning then painting
mum is out in the morning so i will just please myself exercise wise

tilly finished her meds

Konbanwa

It was nice to be back in my own bed last night
took me til about midnight to sleep but once i was asleep i slept til 7am
then napped til 8am 

I went for a walk with mum this morning
i really couldnt be bothered
i was just worn out for some reason
im thinking its maybe hayfever thats making me feel so drained
theres soooo many seeds flying in the air right now!
but i managed a walk
i came back and did 15mins of dance half heartily
then showered
then i dusted my bedroom cus it was ready for dust after making that jacket
it had kicked up quite a bit dust and fluff from that blanket!

I spoke to mia on the phone for over an hour
god my joints and muscles afterwards hurt!
it was good to speak to her tho
she seems to be doing alright 

then i started to plan out my pokemon painting
i spent hours drawing it all out and i have finished the rough sketch
i  can start painting it now
theres many hours of work there but it should look good when its actually finished
and should keep me quiet

i helped mum with the dinner 
then i did 25mins of dance practice in my room after dinner
i was learning a hard fast one and i have managed like 30seconds 
so hard to take in and get right but i was in mood for a challenge

tilly finished her medication today
she seems totally fine thank god
we will give the sows a bath tomorrow

tomorrow probably exercises if it isnt too tiring
and painting!
tonight might draw a rough outline for the picture for the dish washer at work 

Chibi cakes

Evening

My tillie is doing really well
almost like there was nothing wrong with her....
but im glad shes doing well ^^

Saturday morning I went over to Jack's
I was reunited with both jack and flump ^^
we made a soup for lunch
then we did a big walk with theo
we played switchs
at pizza
and that night I slept really well
had a dream that i was back at my high school 
it was empty until i got to my form room which had a class in and my form teacher
thats when i flew into a rage and i could blast people with a force of wind by thrusting my palm out, safe to say that the room was covered in blood and guts when i was finished
i was being chased so flew out the window and was casually hopping from roof top to roof top
yup ether im disturbed or watched too much anime XD

sunday morning 
we did a work out together which was mainly yoga for me and weights for jack
we did a walk
we baked cookies
played switches
then his friends gave him a call at 4pm on Zoom
i was laid out on the rug in front of the patio door which was open and letting in a lovely breeze and hot sun, and hot sun on my joints is amazing
so i laid and laid, they were only talking about politics for some reason anyway
then i got up and talked to them for a bit
then i made dinner which was chopped roasted veg and chicken, jack played his switch and didnt help much but i was fine as i kinda wanted to it as he seems to always cook for me
then he had his gaming and theo was gaming online with harvey
so i was very much just left to it
which i was fine about and it allowed me to finish of the picture i have done for the fridge at work:

cute huh
it got to 9:30pm and i was aching and had enough
i decided to grab my phone, ipod, jacks flat keys and i went for a walk round the city centre by myself at 9:30pm it was odd being out so late and no one around
i got back at 10:10pm
usually jack is done for 10pm but he wasnt
it was 10:40pm by time he had finished
bit annoying
i couldnt sleep as id gone past the stage of being tired
got to sleep around 1am

we woke up to the sound of jacks alarm at 8:30am
i got up and had a shower
we had a meeting online at 9:30am
it was good to see everyone from science 
and people were asking if jack was treating me right XD
it only lasted 10/15 mins and was pointless as nothing was said but i guess its about staying in touch and i actually havent attended a single meeting yet so it did me good to show my face

all day from the moment i got up i have felt sick and really really anxious
like im gonna sit an exam or have a panic attack like my throat feels tight and everything
jack says i was ringing my hands a lot
dont know what the problem even is
i cant work it out
annoying tho
feels like i havent had my medication but i know i have

jack got showered and we went round the city
popped into wilkos and tesco
we brought the cutlery i wanted for our house - its rainbow! how cool is that ^^
jack paid for it as he says ive been buying loads of stuff for the house which is true but only cus he already has a shed load of stuff
we talked on the walk and i said i felt fed up last night, sometimes i think he talks too much about gaming or does/plays too much games
it can feel relentless at times like if hes not playing it hes talking about it
and sometimes its a bit much
i said i didnt know if it was me being tuned into it or if it was him
and he confessed he knows he does too much gaming or says to himself "ok i gotta shut up now"
i think cus i dont talk about my interests really as i think no one is interested why bore them
but he doesnt think the same as me XD
i dont mind him gaming but playing pokemon go whilst we're having breakfast can be a pee take
but i know a lot of his 'habits' are from him living how he likes, he usually does all this cus im not there so its hard to stop you doing these things in front of someone when youre so used to doing them. he says he will try harder but i told him theres no need, just sometimes its grating XD

we came back and had lunch
then i had a massive sleep i probably wont sleep tonight but i am shattered
we had tea and cookies 

i got a message from mum saying my new plush had arrived - my replacement flump
i havent told jack, he just knows that i plan to replace flump in the future
so i said to jack i would take flump home and bring something else to his
little does he know its a great big bunny X3
i will photograph it :D  

when i got home i went straight to Oz as i know he really misses me
i got lots of licks
and im gonna go now and sit with him and fuss his little face
he does miss me a lot and i feel guilty but i have to live my life sometimes
but mum always keeps him in routine and provides plenty of love ^^

tomorrow i might start a pokemon painting ive been wanting to do
and theo and jack gave me ideas for it too