Vibrator

 Evening

I slept better, I woke up at 1am for a wee and thought I wouldnt be able to sleep again after that but I managed to! I was much relieved when I woke up but I was also very crippled.

I felt tired this morning but kept going. Went for a shower and then did 40mins of yoga which did help to loosen things up a bit. Then I think I pretty much went back to bed for a nap

When I woke up we had lunch then Jack and Dad went to do a tip run as we had about 30 bags full of old bathroom tiles in our garage to get rid off plus all the old bathroom stuff, old tv cabinet as well. I went for a walk with mum which was nice and we popped into the bungalow for a couple of things and also so she could see my bare bathroom, we had a brew together when we got back to her house.

Then I looked at skin care on behalf of my mum as she wanted something for fine lines around her eyes -_____- so I did that for her and talked to her about vibrating massages for the face and that I was thinking of getting one to help with circulation. I am not having acupuncture treatments from nigel right now so my circulation has gotten much worse so I will try anything to improve it. My face stings when I am out in the cold but Jack's or mum's when I walk with them and my nose drips like a tap. So yeah I will try anything. It made me laugh when we were looking at these facial vibrating massage things online, just me and mum, jack walked in and mum said "jo is just ordering me a vibrator" XD

I also ordered a 60litre bin for £70 which is mega expensive for a bin but it is the same brand as mum's Brabantia,  i think thats its name. shes had hers for like 15 years and its still working and robust its a damn sturdy bin and our kitchen bin is driving me scranny, it does not function well for us at all and its even started to get on jack's nerves! so i announced i was buying a bin even if i have to pay for it alone!!

the cheapest one tho was bright red XD so it will look like we have a post box in our kitchen XD

after dinner I convinced jack to ask theo and harvey if they wanted to game online with him tonight as I dont have anything to do with him tonight and it might help him chill out a bit as i can tell he is feeling out of sorts. So he is currently on my bed gaming with theo and harvey :) 

tomorrow

I am gonna go for a walk round here with Mia and her furry children.

Jack will be going to the bungalow to talk to matt for whatever reason and to wait in for the tiles to be delivered. I have told him that matt can be in for that but he seems to want to be at the bungalow tomorrow even tho there will be no electricity or heating. Dad is setting up a generator for matt to use. thank god. so our bathroom can kinda go ahead right now.

After my walk I will be home working on my anime scientists. 

here is how far i am with my hammington picture

Returned back to mummy's

 Evening

So much happened yesterday.

I was at mum's, working from home with Jack. Dad phoned me to say the electricians would be over for a few hours so not to bother going home as we would have no electric or heating. So fair enough kinda thing. We stayed and worked from home. I was still working on my marie curie picture and this is how far I got.

I sent it to the teacher and she loved it ^^

Later on at 5pm we decided to grab Ozwald and go home. To find all our lights off, apart from a lamp on the kitchen with a child....

We walked in and there was just on electrician working with his 7 year old son. He said he couldnt get childcare since he finished school earlier. I said that it was fine, as it was. I did not mind a child in my house. The electrician said he was finishing up, so me and Jack kept the 7 year company. Which was fine and it was all a bit weird. Talking with a child in my house, in the dark. Time was getting on so we went to go see the electrician and he said it wasnt going well.

We had been warned that our house would need a full rewiring due to the wiring and fuse box being so old. We knew this when we brought the house. However we werent planning on fixing this issue til a few months in. As it costs money, as in a few thousands. The electrician couldnt even get the power on as every time he put on the new fuses they kept tripping out due to the electrics being so badly wired. Basically when our house was built, electricians didnt need to qualified...how worrying is that!? so people did anything with wires. We have several potential fire points in our wiring. It worries jack to death, I on the other hand try not to think too much about it. But being stood in my pitch black freezing home at 7pm last night and being told that, the house needs that rewiring NOW made me feel sick. Actually no i didnt feel sick. I felt NUMB. I couldnt feel the coldness of my house despite it being -2c outside and my heating had been off since 9:30am. I rang my mum and told her all this and she told me to just come home, not to get cold and stressed. The electrician said cus he's immigrating next month, he doesnt have any work in this month so he can do it. and felt awful for leaving us like this. So I am glad we have someone to do it for us, however it is going to cost he said at least £2500. and we are in the process of having our bathroom done, which again, is a few thousand T^T

why!?

so we all left the house, me and jack grabbed essentials and took s few bits out the fridge and freezer we wanted to keep but luckily there wasnt much left in there. We took over to mum's pizza out of freezer to eat for dinner and mum kindly cooked them. Oz was stressed he didnt understand what was happening bless him and that he would have to sleep in a different hutch tonight. his face said it all - pure confusion. I wanted him to be happy and not stressed.

I came into the living room where my dad had lit the log fire, i couldnt feel the heat. not cus i was cold but because i was numb. people were asking me if i was ok and i said i was ok. cus i felt nothing. weird how the brain works isnt it. me and jack set up my bedroom like old times XD and sat with Oz to see if he was ok and he had chilled out luckily.

My dad talked to us both about what is happening as the bathroom and electrics is being sorted by his mates so he is more in touch with them than us really. so glad its getting sorted. he seemed ok about it all and said we were in a good place as we can work from home, we have here to stay, we have money. life could be worse. yes it could. i had only moved out 3 weeks ago and now i am homeless, just seems unfair somehow

we went to bed together and god is it cramped in a single bed

at 3:30pm i woke up and felt crippled from being cramped up all night so i went downstairs to sleep but it was no better on there really. I was up at 7am, so managed to sleep from 5-7am.

I didnt do much this morning as I felt and looked like a zombie so I went back to bed.

we did a big a walk and we popped into the bungalow with a list of where we want plug sockets and such as now is the time to get extras fitted. but no one was there...the plasterer had been to do the bathroom but no electrician, despite jack paying him £500 last night up front for materials -_____-

it best get bloody done.

then I have rested today really as I havent been able to do much more

Oz is fine he happy

Jack, Jack is missing his home but said he was grateful for being able to come here. 

Tomorrow no plans really

suppose it depends how well i sleep

nothing we can do towards the house, its all in other people's hands

just cant believe we have nothing. no electric, heating or shower. 

we got the house to a good standard, to now not be able to live in it.

Oz's 4th Birthday

 Evening

I didn't do my diary yesterday, I was just too tired. I had done a lot. Even tho I had worked from home I had done a lot! I had nightmares and didnt sleep well ether. I had to start my day at 7am to go for a shower in a about a 1 degree bathroom. as the tiles and plaster has been ripped off to its left some open holes round the window frame where you can hear and feel cold air coming in. It was -2c outside and the heating had not been on and the radiator is antient in there and does bugger all. I was f'ing freezing when I came out that shower. So cold.

yesterday I managed to source another tv cabinet so we fetched that and it was only £10, it goes really well in the living room, we really like it. Pleased with it.

Today I couldnt face having another shower in such a cold shower. It was -6c outside and the bathroom was no better so me and Jack decided to take mum up on the offer of washing at her house.

So I sod that and went to go see my Birthday boy!!! My Ozwald turns 4 today!!! :D

I am so so so lucky to have him. I love him so much. He is my life. He is my best friend. Very special bunny, he's like a little dog. He follows you, holds on to your leg when you're near him, always wants to see what youre doing, very affectionate. hes even won my family over as my past rabbits havent cared for anyone but me but Oz likes everyone X3 hes lovely. Loves he girls, and his food.

here is this morning on his birthday

I fussed him but he had no time for me it was like he knew it was his birthday, he was full of beans, had so much to do it was very sweet.

we got our stuff ready to go over to mum's

matt turned up and we ordered the stuff we need but it could take up to 14 days to get here :/

i felt sorry for him that i couldnt give him the things he needed to get on with the bathroom. I told him to take the shower out and he said "but that leaves you without a shower for about a week" i said "matt, mum is down the road we are very lucky to have another shower so close and we wont be showering in there as it is freezing." 

so we left matt to remove the sink, radiator, shower. and the tiles surrounding the area

the electrician, despite turning up last night with his son, did not turn up today. i have reported this to dad. luckily we have more days for the electrics to get done now but thats not the point.

we went over to mum's with Oz and dropped him off whilst we went to B&Q for a switch for matt and a glass cutter for work. We dropped the switch off and went to mum's for a shower. such a lovely warm powerful shower *0* i love it. I actually felt clean after that.

We sat with Oz for an hour on the sofa, did a bit of work whilst sitting with him. He went to sleep

Mum came in and fussed the birthday boy and said she would make a cake later ^^

we had lunch whilst mum went for a walk then we continued working, i have started doing a new display for school, a chemistry teacher asked me to do famous chemists/scientists as anime characters so i made a start with Marie Curie I think her name is

made a decent start I would say :D im not used to drawing victorian scientists so i am quite pleased with my work.

we sat with the girls on our knee and went for a walk which made me ache and sapped my strength as the cold just does. the max temp today was 2c >< so cold 

i decorated Oz's cake, its nothing special but its the thought 

we left mum's and came home with Ozwald.

sat down and I looked at nail art and things, jack put the house right a bit as we had cleared the kitchen - once again - for the electrician.

we had dinner which just involved reheating some pasta from tuesday, gotta love easy dinners!

we watched shana, then jack washed up and went to go and do his gaming. I am just doing my diary. Broke off to do some jobs, wash my face, the whole time with oz. now gonna get a piece of oz birthday cake

enjoy it and then do my nails

tomorrow

no matt and no bathroom. we are gonna drop oz off at mums then go collect my medication then come back to mums and shower then work. might stay there til lunch then come home i dont wanna be there all day if i can help it.

Love you Oz

bring me many more years together with you

you are truly one of my greatest gifts in life

here is tonight

please no more nightmares tonight....

DUST

 Evening

i didnt sleep that well

after last night's announcement i was worrying over work and such as I wasnt really sure what would be happening. I got up and had a bit of a mad rush round and told jack we needed to be leaving at 7:20am-7:25am but cus he faffs we got in the car at half past >.> I dropped my Oz off for day care and drove to work.

we got to work to find next to no body in the car park it was strange, we did have the email last night stating we could work from home if we wanted to and i think the majority of staff chose to work from home. I didnt quite appreciate that children are off school til february half term tho...jeez. thats like 7 weeks away really. What are as technicians suppose to do for 7 weeks without lessons!?

I found school hard, long and boring. I took so many breaks as I was just so exhausted but the trouble with taking breaks is that theyre boring and long and make the day more boring and longer. I got through the day and we even left a bit earlier too. I got some of my star wars display up as well. I havent finished it but I have stuff to work on for it.

we went straight to mum's house for a cup of tea and Oz

we had no idea what the state of affairs was with the house as we were suppose to have an electrician over today and matt - our bathroom person. Mum said both of them had gone home. The electrician for whatever didnt finish and left. Matt discovered the true extent of our issue with our bathroom and said it needs plastering - surprise surprise.

so basically it was safe to go home as it was all up and running still, so we went home. I was thinking of doing a walk whilst it was still light out but once I got back to my car i realised how cold it was and didnt bother as i had been cold all day at work. 

once home did i realise how much dust a new bathroom makes...to say i shut all my doors to prevent dust going everywhere. it literally did nothing. dust is EVERYWHERE.  i took a step away and crawled in a ball on the sofa. my god i need to get  a grip. we are so lucky to be having all this done for us and being to afford it and to get it so quickly. a little dust doesnt hurt anyone. but i think it was the fact that it had gone everywhere. in pen pots, on books, in our cutlery draw, everywhere. Jack bless him just got on with it and did about 4 rounds of washing up so we would have stuff to cook and eat with. I told him i was grateful and that was ok I was just tired and stuff seems worse when youre tired

so we had dinner and cleaned our computers, but jack discovered he could join in with online friends so i left him and video called my mum with Oz :)

then I have come on my laptop and managed to negotiate a different tv cabinet! and its even cheaper at only £10. Its a half hour drive but I am gonna go pick it up tomorrow! then I can hide the cables so Oz wont chew them and be electrocuted!  

tomorrow we have no power or heating or wi-fi or toilet!

so were getting up early, showering, going over to mums. Then we will set off in the morning to this place for this cabinet then spending the rest of the day at mum's cus i will be so stressed with noise and dust at home not to mention no heating will make me ache. So we're working from  home but mum's home XD

i do feel less stressed knowing i havent got the whole week to get through at work

we're home for the rest of the week!

going with the red

 Evening

I slept really quite well to say I would be starting back at school in the morning

I got up earlier for school as my dad told me the electrician was coming over so I needed to prep areas also i didnt trust that my dad wouldnt come and take off more tiles from the bathroom with the power chisel which creates no end of dust. So yeah i had a lot to do and I had the gammon to put on as well. But we got out on time and dropped Oz off for rabbit daycare.

Jack drove to school but his driving was really bad to be honest. He just wasnt on form this morning so i was quite on edge. But somehow we got to school in one piece!

There wasnt as many people in school today as it was an insec day and optional if you could work from home but jack was keen to go into work for whatever reason. The people who had turned up turned up for no other reason than the social aspect of work!

if i am honest I did literally nothing today

i finished a picture and started a title put apart from that i didnt do anything

i kept feeling unwell, my heart was going out of rhythm and i felt dizzy and lightheaded and shivering as it was so damn cold in school. Jack and Julia looked after me tho. despite me moaning how damn unfair it all was. but they said i had done well to even come back today. which is true, i probably was being to hard on myself.

mum txted me saying they were off to B&Q tonight to look at tiles, did i want to come? but i said to her "thought you were going tomorrow? also B&Q's tiles looked boring to me" she said "matt thinks your red/purple tile might be too dark but says if you want to go with it then thats fine" so I told jack and he got the tile page up and we both still liked it but noticed they did a few colour variants

green - looked like victorian toilets

blue - too dark and out of stock

yellow - hideous 

white - looked dirty 

so we liked the red, its actually called violet 

we looked at the website and it said as we're in tier 4 that we cant go instore for a tile but can have a sample sent home. we didnt have the luxury of time to have a tile sent to us so jack rang up asking if we could pick up a tile on our way home today and the store said we could!

so we ordered a  red and a white, purely to see the colours really

but today was the only day we would be able to take a tile home and see it in daylight hours as every other day we get home after dark. And things look  so different in different lights. So we left a bit earlier as we wanted these tiles. So we popped off to there. Just seeing them in real life was different to seeing them on the screen as well. We got home and held them to the walls and turned lights on and off, blinds down and all that and we just love the red. We want to go through with it. I want this house to have colour and personality.  I am daring enough to try these things unlike my parents. 

Then we popped over to mum's for a brew and for Oz, i could tell that she did not like our choice of tile XD but its not her taste so i understood. I probably wont like her bland boring taste. I dont want our house looking like a middle age couple lives here already!

Oz had had a great day at bunny day care, been very busy mum says and seen the girls. so he is happy bunny.

we got home and i did 30 mins of yoga and felt better for it and then i made dinner for me and jack which was good. Then i let jack continue hacking at the tiles with the electric chisel. Dad came over and lend a hand whilst I looked for furniture online as I never got that tv cabinet due to the guy not being able to find it in his storage --______-- so i was disappointed to say the least

now I am gonna relax with Ozwald whilst Jack has a shower.

tomorrow, well who knows about tomorrow! as I was suppose to anxiously be at school but Boris Johnson has just announced schools are off :/ so yeah what am I doing!?

returning to school 2021

 Konbanwa~~

I woke up at 7:45am and went to go get Ozwald out, Jack surprised me by getting up with me on his last lay in before school! I did a bit of dancing after breakfast and then had a shower. Dad came round at 9:15am on the dot with his electrician friend who looked over our electrics and was surprised how bad they were XD he has said that him and his son will come and do our electrics tomorrow which is amazing news as it needs doing.

Me and jack then left to do our weekly food shop

the shop was dead it really was, jack drove back

after we unpacked we sealed up a window outside, then made the soup for the week, had lunch, I cleaned Oz as well. Then once we had eaten lunch I grabbed to tools dad had left us and went to go start removing our bathroom tiles. To discover that who ever had done our crappy budge bathroom had literally tiled over the previous 1980 bathroom -____- so we have 2 layers of sodding tiles to get rid of!!! 

I watched jack take over and was doing it stupidly slow, i said "im going for a walk" when I left it started to rain so I called in my parents house and had a massive rant about my bathroom and how long its gonna take. Dad got up, went to work for a power tool and then went to a hardware store for a part for the power tool then he turned up at our house with this power tool taking chunks out these tiles, tiles were flinging everywhere 0.0 sweet baby jesus the mess, and dust T^T so much mess

but jack had a go with the power tool and said it was the manliness he had ever felt XD i could tell he was enjoying himself. He got a fair bit done too. but we had to clear up as jack needed to shower, and have dinner and then go do his online gaming.

I made his lunch for school and I made dinner as I wasnt allowed to take tiles off. Everyone worried about my joints doing such hard work >.> so i thought i would be the useful house wife XD

then I just did some jobs really whilst Jack gamed and of course played with Ozwald who was excited as ever to come inside. 

Jack has finished up early and said we can watch Inuyasha :D something that i thought wouldnt happen so I am gonna go watch that with him and go to bed

tomorrow 

i return to school after a long absense. I am worried I am anxious but yeah i gotta get on with it i guess. i should be ok. Its insec day so no kids in and might not be many staff members in too. non-uniform anyway. it also is the first rabbit daycare for Ozwald. He will need to get into the routine of going over to mum's in the morning for the day. We then need to sort out when me and jack can shower at mums as we wont be able to use or even have a shower here. ahhhh more stress

A new bathroom next week!?

 Evening

So I went to bed by myself last night, it does suck a bit going to bed by myself but i get on with it. I did drop off fairly quickly. But woke up at 3am aching which sucked. I went to get up for pain killers and Jack was somehow awake so he got up with me which was good of him. We weren't up too long and went back to bed. I woke up at 8:20am and got my Ozwald out.

This morning I had breakfast by myself, again

honestly I had more company back at mum's house!

I gave up waiting for jack to wake up so I did some dancing whilst he was still in bed. Its so strange but I struggle to remember some of the dances i have done hundreds of times. But I still had 20mins of dancing which got me sweaty. I had a shower and then Jack woke up, it was 9:50am by this point.

I said to him "we have that bathroom meeting at 10:30am, so you best be functioning by then"

I went on my laptop whilst he sorted himself out. Then we had the bathroom meeting

it was just about an hour and a half long which was an hour too long for my liking. I struggled to sit and was really aching. Not only that my head was very loud as I was getting more and more annoyed with this designer. I had warned Jack that there is a lot of arrogance in the design industry and he is also a salesman. God he must have thought we were real idiots. telling us he was doing us a deal. He then said "we are transparent, theres no pressure, were not like that" however. he asked for the full payment TODAY i said "i need to go away and think about this and also talk it over with jack and my parents" to which he came back with "how long do you need?" rude. he also said "this offer is only available today. no pressure. really? it really got my back up. Thinking i am an idiot.

not only that but our final quote was £7500....what happened to 'most bathrooms are between £5000-£7000' jesus christ. I wasn not paying that! our bathroom is tiny!!! I could understand if we had chosen the top end stuff and had a giant bathroom but thats not the case.

so as soon as the call ended I got up and went for pain killers 

jack who had been fine the whole meeting unlike me who was being a difficult customer, said "I dont think thats too bad, means you can have a bath and we dont have to do anything"

i was almost too shocked for words

yes it meant we didnt have to source a plumper, electrician, tiler etc but £7500!? really!?

how could he be such an idiot!?

i said "no jack just no. That guy was an arse hole thinking he was doing us a favour. makes me actually sick. i am not giving them my business or money"

we had lunch but I felt really wound up by it all.

I grabbed my winter gear and jack was like "where you off to?" i said "just going to see mum" he said "want me to come?" i said "no its fine" i took off. At this point all i wanted was my sanctuary, my single bed. my safety net.

i headed off home and mum was surprised to see me. I told her how livid i was with everything. she agreed about how much salesmen suck and that they are just doing a job but i wasnt gonna pay that. She said "matt is suppose to be coming over to look at our bathroom today" i was like "oh ok then" dad had already said he would give us their appointment with matt. and literally 10mins after mum told me matt was coming did matt turn up. He assessed my parents bathroom and agreed to come look at my bathroom so i got my shoes on once again and came home with my parents and matt.

Jack wasnt expecting any of this, nether was i. so matt talked to me what could be done. and i told him what the guy at wickes had said and matt was like "no thats not possible" cus some stuff we didnt have the right boiler for or our electrics would need to be changed. I told matt what i wanted whilst dad was there and jack and mum sat talking in the living room. jack was a bit stressed out by it all to be honest. Matt said he could do all we wanted. That I needed to give him guidance on what i wanted and to pick tiles. that easy. he would do the rest! whats more is that he is starting on tuesday!!!!! flipping tuesday!!! none of this waiting 16 week business with wickes. and he said to pay when he is finished! 

amazing. hes done mum and dad's upstairs bathroom so i trust him with my house key and such as he is the son of dad's friend. so yeah all a bit strange how it is has worked out.

i have no idea what it is gonna cost us. but matt is trust worthy, anal, OCD, and likes to get things right, hes also available now.

They all left and I went for a walk with mum, in the snow I might add, to go put flowers on granny's grave. I then started to walk home with mum. I told her I have been stressing about school. My heart goes out of the rhythm when I think too much about school. I have also scratched my legs to the point of bleeding and they were doing so well as well T^T

she said "if you need to go to the doctors for more time off Jo then thats what you need to do"

im just scared of being ill again. So I was tearing up a bit.

I got home and didnt bother going through to jack really. I let him come to me. He hasnt done anything all day. I have been sorting everything out. I talked to him about stuff tho and got upset. Its just school I am stressing about really. 

we had dinner and then I cut Jack's hair for him, after my stomach had subsided that it

i said to him "what does it look like if you shave your beard without the guard?" he said "i havent dont that in years, I just look younger" we looked at each other he said "do you want me to do it?" i said "i dont know, im scared! but then it will grow back in days" we also decided cutting his hair and cutting his beard short was a good shout considering we wouldnt have a bathroom for a couple of weeks.

whilst he showered I sat with my Ozwald in the living room

after Oz had 45mins running around I took him home and me and jack looked online at tiles. something that is hard to do but all the tile shops are closed due to us being in tier 4 so some shops are not open. however we did find a tile we both really liked. but it is not a colour we were originally gonna go for! its like purple/red but we both like it! so i emailed it across to matt to see if he thinks were making a mistake or if we can pull this off!

i might do a bit of drawing now then jack says he will watch inuyasha with me, actually spending some time with me! i am honoured. 

tomorrow I am up cus I might do some dancing, shower and then at 9:15am dad is coming over with an electrician to come look at our fuse box as that needs changing before tuesday! our fuse box is 40 years old and isnt safe basically. then me and jack are doing our shop for the week. i havent got anything planned from there. i would be going round tile shops but we cant.

so i will probably find something to keep myself busy with so I am not worrying about school

i cant believe that this time next week we could have a very different looking bathroom!