Oz got his vaccinations

 Evening~~

Last night I slept pretty well. I was certainly ready for bed. I thought about setting an alarm but didnt bother, id be up for 8am right?

Woke up at 7:30am but decided to shut my eyes. Next thing I know my door bell is going

"its not that time all ready is it!?"

yup it was my mum at the door at 8:45am

she was like "have you just got out of bed!?" to jack as he opened the door to her XD

mum did us an absolute solid this morning she got Oz in, fussed him, sorted his carrying case out and whisked him off to the vets, leaving us to get out the house for 9:15am

I drove like a mad woman and got us there for dead on my optician appointment at 9:35am

we got there and the woman - who was a massive stuck up cow

said "your appointment was at 9:25am"

i said "no the woman said 9:35am, I have it written down"

she said "9:25am would you like to rebook?"

bitch

so i was 10mins late apparently and despite 2 members of staff standing around - no one could see me. like WTF

I made another appointment. the next one being 26th february

yup seriously

good job I aint blind in it!!!!

we drove out of there and I said to jack "lets go shopping"

i had an hectic morning of running mental round my house, having Oz whisked off to the vets, having a bitch of woman stick her nose up and me and telling me to do one

I went homesense and brought candles - which i was in need of a restock

and I brought my first kettle bell ^^ only 2kg

then we went dunelm for fresh cushion inners for the cushions for the sofa as they are no longer any shape never mind square....

we came home and found Ozwald  in his hutch and brought him in for fuss

i rang mum and she let me know how it all went

he was good boy apart from growling at the vets ^^; he usually licks them! and the vet said due to his age hes prone to crooked back teeth so I need to watch him. She said he showing signs that his teeth could do it but thats just his age nothing I have done

he came outside with me to clean him out and then I had lunch, laid on my bed with my eyes closed next to jack whilst he read for 40mins then I got up. We went for a walk. I had a massive go at jack and we were only 2mins from the house!!!! I had a go at him for saying all these things he says he will do but never does but for games hes like there. I felt awful afterwards, well i felt better but then I felt awful XD think jack was quite taken back by it all. There was no need for it all. I apologised. but didnt feel any better about it all.

he said I had been grumpy all day. I did not realise

maybe it was my morning that had set me off >< 

the walk did me good

I painted a birthday card for mum and painted an earring for jack (an experiment) 

did dinner, had a bath and yeah that was my day really

I am hoping Oz is ok tomorrow after his jab

tomorrow is food shop and cooking 

Ozwald's 5th Birthday!!!

 Evening

So my Jack got into the city centre around 9pm He then said he missed the bus back home by 30seconds and the next bus wasnt until 9:30pm! My poor Jack was out in -2c in the city. I offered to pick him up. I was already in bed by this point but I didnt tell him that. He said it was fine

so I got out of bed and ran a hot bath, not knowing how much hot water would be left, I was also boiling kettles to add to the bath. I climbed back into bed. He got home around 10pm. Went for a warm bath which he was very grateful of and I had put his pyjamas on the radiator too.

He climbed into bed, cuddled me for a minute then fell asleep!!! How unfair T^T but it shows he warm and relaxed. I fell asleep after 11pm.

I got up for school, asked Jack about his evening. He had enjoyed himself and was grateful for everything I did. He said he went to bed warm and content.

we got Ozwald in, jack wished him a happy birthday as my Ozwald turned 5!! hes like 55 in human years so  hes like same age as mum XD hes done so so well. We fussed him a lot, gave him extra carrot! he was a happy bun

school was ok, had a practical which went fine. Prepped another one for monday. Did other jobs and lost all energy. I usually feel better for lunch but today I felt awful. I thought I was coming down with something thats how I felt but I didnt say anything to Jack I just kept to myself.

After school I brought Oz in and mum arrived, she fussed him. We gave him extra carrot >.> and his tube which he loved and mum had baked a cake in his honour and it was really nice, she brought some over for us ^^ so we had that with a cup of tea. Mum left and I did dinner I didnt really want it. I was happy with the tea and cake. Felt very much like eating for the sake of eating you know?

After dinner Jack sod off for his gaming night, I had half hour on the bed as I had nothing to give. I got up and spent 40mins on the lounge floor just fussing Oz. He was so happy and showing me his new tube over and over again ^^; I got LOADS of licks from him. I got quite cold on the floor for that long but he was happy and it was his birthday. I put him home with a treat.

I then cleaned the bathroom, went on just dance for 25mins and had a bath. I came out the bath at 9:50pm which is when Jack came from gaming.

Ive come to do my diary even if it is like 10;15pm. I wanted to write that it was Ozwald's birthday ^^

My Oz tho, I love him so much. hes just a massive massive part of my life. I keep going for him so he can have best life possible. I love his personality and how much he loves Jack. Hes so friendly and loving. He never has moody days hes dead chill. I love him. I dont know what Id do with out him. When days are bad, I hold him and inhale his smell and its the most comforting thing ever. I hope he can celebrate many more birthdays <3 <3

tomorrow

a lot on in the morning!

mum is coming over around 8:45am as shes going to see me then shes taking my Ozwald for his yearly vaccinations. I so want to go but I will be leaving at the same time to go to my own appointment at the opticians. For an eye test as its been some years and work is paying for an eye test. Mum will bring Oz home for me when shes taken him. Sadly due to covid owners cant even go into the vet room with their pets! so I dont feel too bad as I cant hold his paw anyway. I will just be worried about him. I hope he feels ok after his jab as they can get upset tummies sometimes.

we will come home and I bet it will be around lunch time then

I have Oz to clean out but apart from that I MIGHT see some free time....

school night with just me and the lad~

 Evening

I didnt sleep too bad last night actually

but woke up with bags under my eyes and feeling tired. Everyone said I looked tired. Just because its getting towards the end of the week. I need rest and sleep!

I was doing ok at school, I had my lesson too which I understood what was going off, I also managed the questions by myself ^^ I was on it. Despite feeling really out of practice with it all!

I got very cold tho so I needed recovery time >< not ease sat in my coat for an hour with the windows open and its been minus like all day. ah covid times -_____-

I didnt come home with my jack. He went straight to the city centre as hes going harveys. It feld weird not coming home with him but I was fine~

I got in and had a cup of tea with mummy and Oz

had my dinner with Oz

did my yoga with Oz

fussed Oz

yeah Jack is easily replaced XD

I also got a fair amount of jobs done - ones that Jack usually does. So he wouldnt have to do them when he gets home. If he gets home

he kept saying "i dont plan on coming home late"

i said "youre meeting at harveys at 6pm. You have to order, wait for food, eat food, catch the bus to the city, catch the bus home, walk home" yeah he is not coming home before 9pm.

I told him not to stress tho, enjoy himself. Hes had a crap first week back and I want him to see his friends and enjoy himself.

After I put Oz to bed I had a bath, doing my diary. Then im gonna have hot chocolate and go bed~

its 8:55pm and Jack just txt to say hes on the bus into the city. so he will be here around 10ish at a guess. and hes got to have a shower yet!

I said to him, if i dont sleep well then I am working from home tomorrow! he ruins my night, I ruin his day XD

so tomorrow is the end of our first week at school, thank good

I havent got a busy day. Just 1 practical and its for 9 children so not too bad at all.

but on a much better note

IT'S OZ'S 5TH BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my little boy <3 <3 <3

I have his pressie ready but might give it to him after school

slept through the night, a better day, home alone tomorrow

 Evening~~

We went to bed and I didnt feel like playing on pokemon so I just crawled up in bed, I drifted off sometime after 11pm. But I slept through the night which is a result!!! I was still tired in the morning as Id like more sleep that at T^T

we got up and I did my thai stew, jack changed the bed. Oz loafed in the lounge 

We werent greeted by rotting meat today which was a better start

I had a mad dash as soon as I got in tho as I had practicals to shift out

Nothing hard, but all takes time

I went to see Lizzi around lunch time, kinda just wanted to be in art and talk. I was in the mood to talk to people. Usually I am drained and want to save my energy but I just needed to be away from science....

I had lunch and my afternoon was a slower pace. My last 45mins went to reading my book, got another chapter done :) 

We came home and had a cup of tea, well I had a cup of tea - jack has rum....school has turned my jack to drink >< bless him. Hes been stressed out.

I then went on just dance for 25mins 

Had a bath then made biscuits whilst Jack was in the bath. Then we had dinner which was nice actually and now I am doing my diary whilst Jack clears up and does his lunch too

He had a txt from his friends asking if he wanted to go Harvey's tomorrow at 6pm for takeaway. I encouraged him to go but told him I wont be attending. As i will be too tired for that, no time for anything else i.e. Oz and exercise. So hes going straight to the city centre after school to go round a few shops then going Harveys then he will come home. He asked if I would be ok. I will be totally fine. Less stressed this way. Sad but true. If it was the weekend id do it but I cant cope with a mid week social event. I have zero energy for that.

Later we will play pokemon in bed and watch anime

really enjoying our two current anime's 

toradora

bungo stray dogs

tomorrow is school

mummy should be seeing me after school ^^

First day back, greeted with rotting meat

 Evening

could I sleep last night? could I bob

been sleeping great, and I go back to school and sleep flies right out the window

I just couldnt switch off. In the end I had to get up with Jack cus I was just aching, I had been there too long. So we got up at 11pm for half hour. But even then it was gone midnight when I got off to sleep T^T Life is cruel. I got up at 5am for a wee then slept til my alarm.

I felt ok about going school tho. I mean of course I didnt want to attend, but I wasnt anxious in the slightest. Really weird. All my anxiety must have gone to my brother who was starting his new job today. I hope he got on ok, I wished him the best!

School was boring first thing as it was a whole staff meeting but on teams, I was just txting

Then around 9am we went to do our own work

however, Julia rang down to us. She said

"there was blood outside the freezer so I opened it up and the smell....the freezer has tripped out"

so the freezer which houses 10 frozen Ox hearts and 10 rats, had tripped out at some point over the holidays....meaning the meat was left to go bad. It had defrosted and leaked out pints of blood everywhere. I did not want to be in the room. The smell was overwhelming. Especially first thing in the morning.

Lizzie came across, her art room faces Julia's room. She said her fridge had tripped out and shes been cleaning mould out her fridge it stinks. I showed her our own hell

She offered to help but we got to do it and just somehow got on with it

I hadnt got any gloves up there to wear and was in a very nice outfit - jack's sisters skirt with matching leg warmers, my new beige trainers, and a gothic shirt. I was no prepared to be cleaning up ox blood. So I grabbed a mop and was constantly mopping the floor so the blood wouldnt spread or make their shoes gross. Jack was handling the meat and putting in the bin, Julia was washing down the drawers. It was horrendous

after that task I told the teachers to not ask for anything til we had had a cup of tea

SOD OFF!!!

the day was just hard, just everything was effort

I was quite down, as it was only 2pm and I was THIS tired. Already, this early into term and the week and I was this tired. so it starts again. The burn out starts. Its so depressing. I literally live to work. Work a stressful, poorly paid, thankless job. We did contemplate job hunting on the way home....

Jack went to the shops and brought potatoes as i need them for practicals 

but one in the packet had an arse crack! honestly had a huge crack and two cheeks!!!

so i grabbed it and showed one biologist and she sniggered

then I burst in Luke's room, blurted "look Luke this potato has an arse crack!"

he was trying to keep a straight face, I did not realise he was in an online meeting.....

I legged it outta there XD

I went to show another biologist the potato and she laughed, then I told her about what I did with Luke and she burst out laughing ><; I like making people laugh

My immaturity had gotten the better of me there tho XD

I came back and Jack was like "you still showing people that potato?! leave that and go and do some work!" XD

we came home and saw mummy for tea. well me and her had tea

jack had whisky...jack was stressed and even had tension headache....poor jack

he had been stressed by the many teachers today ><

mum helped me do Oz's claws, Jack watched as he will be helping next time!

Mum left and I did the dinner but also prepped stew for the morning

we had dinner with Oz, and then I tried doing 2 10min Choly Ting videos. Well Oz was all over me!! I cant work with him grooming me like that XD

After my work out I popped him home and had a bath then did my diary

tomorrow is stew morning, and work

going to watch anime and go bed.

I am done.

Strawberry Bunny hoodie

 Evening

we were up til 11:30pm, I was so tired but was making the most of my last late night

I woke up at 2:30am for a wee then slept til 8am

We decided to go for a morning walk but as it was cold it was really setting my asthma off

so not fair, im not gonna not go for a walk jsut cus its cold and I have asthma

but I had to use the inhaler 7 times >.> makes you feel unfit when youre panting for breath

we got back at 10:30am and I went straight to mums for a bit and cut truffs fur, talked to my dad, wished my brother all the best of luck with his new job tomorrow

came home at 12:20pm for my lunch

but I was so exhausted and cold, I helped Jack outside on the ladders as he was fixing a loose house brick, i came in and crawled into bed I was so cold. My hands and feet were like ice. Jack read next to me

his mum and step dad came over at 3 and stayed til 5:30pm

we talked about all sorts, Oz enjoyed the extra attention. His mum gave Jack a delayed christmas present which was a selection box and she gave me a bag of unwanted clothes from his 16 year old sister

then we did dinner

after dinner I checked out these clothes and OMG

I was in heaven!! theyre so cute, punky, cosplay

It was like christmas. And theyre new!! I didnt know they were new I thought they were hand me downs. I should have given her some money. So I got 3 skirts, 2 of which came with matching leg warmers, then a vest sleeveless jumper. I m gonna wear a skirt and leg warmers tomorrow ^^

I went for a bath once i had taken Oz home~

and now its 8:20 and Jack is in the bath now

I have had zero time to myself today

yay my last day and not a moment to my self T^T but all well -_____- guess ill wait for the weekend....

tomorrow is the first day back of school and first school day of 2022. Kids are being made to wear masks indoors now for the first 3 weeks. But Nigel said his country are just giving kids an extra week off after christmas. which is a sensible thing to do. but hey this is england, when do we take the pandemic sensibly?? we're expecting a lot of people probably wont be at school. Tomorrow the kids come in for a covid test, wednesday kids come in as normal. So tomorrow shouldnt be too bad and we dont start til 8:30am and hopefully finish early too!

so here is my hoodie that I spent my christmas holiday making! I am pleased with it. Its made from 2 blankets and I think I improve each time I make a jacket. Its all self taught anyway

Science Club Poster

 Evening~~

I couldnt sleep last night, I was just restless really. 

I ended up making the draw string bag for mum. From start to finish took me just under 2 hours ^^ and even after I went to play pokemon in bed I still couldnt settle. So I got up and was painting my nails til 11pm which is when I asked Jack to took me in for two reasons

1. my nails were wet and that weighted blanket NEEDS both hands

2. Jack asked me to get him to took me in, he insisted.

So I went to get him and he said he would be there in a minute, so I waited, and waited, 10mins later I went to go get him. He got carried away T^T so I guilted him XD

I was awake til 1am just thinking about one thing and another. I finally slept and woke up at 8am. I was sure to wake Jack up. As I needed him functioning for shopping

Shopping was DEAD. Like no one in there! it was bliss. I was also experiencing zero anxiety

maybe its a combo of the shop being dead and me sleeping. You can cope so much better when youre not drained off life.

We got home and brought Oz in for morning carrot and had a cup of tea then we set about making soup, biscuits, cooking meat. The usual sunday routine. 

we sat down for lunch and my soup was good ^^

after lunch I went to lay down but mum told me dad was going to cut the trees and bushes behind my house so I jumped out of bed. Not that he came over he just went straight into it. I did keep checking in with him to see if he wanted a drink or anything but think he was quite happy being destructive and making a mess which is what he does best!

I went on ebay and brought a few hair accessories - checkered. and checkered earrings.

really into checkerboard at the moment. Dont like white and black checkered board tho, reminds me of racing too much.

Then I worked on my science work I had do - as I didnt work much on my last working from home day I did. I wanted to get the science club poster done. I needed to make a template so we can use it year after year. So i worked on that, took breaks and things but got it done 10mins before I dished dinner up, as I was doing it whilst dinner was cooking!

Jack was impressed with it ^^

then we had dinner which was good :) 

now just doing my diary with Oz, I am gonna do some just dance soon :)

actually I am gonna do my eye lashes. I need to dye them before school :) 

so yeah I  have things to do. Jack is on his computer but says he will be with me tonight

tomorrow

both our mothers want to see us! so im not sure when thats all happening.

need to get ready for school. and not sure what else. do what we like I suppose