Gave mia her Todd canvas

 Evening~~

Last night I got a lot done and waited round for Jack who said he would finish gaming at 10pm. I got into bed at 10pm and I didnt noticed him come to bed.  I fell asleep like straight away! i was just that shattered. Jack told me in the morning he wasnt long after 10 to bed XD I was just tired obviously. 

I woke up at 7am and considered going back to sleep but I didnt want to same mistake to happen as last saturday. Instead of over sleeping and and mum knocking at my door it would be mia. So I decided to get up. I got Oz in and had breakfast with him then I scooped him up at 8am and he came with me to wake Jack up. I sat with Jack for a bit then went to clean Oz out. mia turned up just after 9am for a walk

I gave her her birthday present finally! And she LOVED it said it was the most thoughtful birthday present she had received. She was off to her parents house afterwards to she said she would show off her canvas of her past dog - todd

we went for a walk and it was nice to see her. She talked about weddings and things. I still feel no jealously or desire for marriage. I truly am happy where I am in life with Jack. I dont think if he asks me to marry him that he loves me more. Or that the reason he hasnt asked me to marry him yet is because he is unsure on the relationship. I think we are both content and if we chose to get married we will know when the time is right. Mia was asking what I would do for my wedding but it all depends on my health - how much I can handle, and money - how much we want to pay out for. Weddings are too expensive. Mia is going registry office then renting a venue for a big party. As its far cheaper and she wants to spend the money on a holiday to florida rather than spending the money on the rental of a wedding venue for a few hours. Literally she could rent a wedding venue for several hours for £5000 or go to florida for a full on 2 week holiday for the same price. Sickening 

I got home and had a cup of tea I was a bit cold as it has been like 0c today. Mum phoned so I spoke with her for a bit

We had lunch and I went to bed for an hour reluctantly but I was really tired. The cold walk had taken it out of me.

Then I cant remember what I did then but we decided to go to the next town for some bits. I was getting it out the way so I could see mum tomorrow. but she txt me later on saying shes felt so poorly and been in bed for 2hours :( my poor mummy. So I wont go see her tomorrow.

we came in and had a tea to warm us up and brought Oz in

I chose what nail art I wanted to do then went for a bath, we did dinner and had that in pyjamas which was nice. I was soooo hungry. Now I am doing my diary but I will do some drawing soon then do my nails before bed!

Tomorrow

is weekly shop and the load of cooking I usually have to do >< 

did pussycat doll dances

 Evening

I got off to sleep around 10pm, I woke up a few times cold in the night tho as it was like -2c

Oz was happy to come in and frisked us for carrot

School was ok and Jack was fine about going, he said he was going to apologise to head of science about how he went about what he said but doesnt take back what he said kinda thing. But I was glad he wasnt worried about going anyway. 

School was busy tho, how has this week been so busy? just never ended. I got to talk to julia's daughter for a bit tho which was nice. I think she looks forward to talking to me now ^^

We came home and brought Oz straight inside, originally I was gonna let him out but the fog from this morning has not budged all day! its sooooo thick. I couldnt see the playground at school. So everywhere is cold and damp and didnt want to put Oz out in that to be honest. He was happy to come in. We had a cup of tea then did an early dinner.

My mum usually sees me on a friday but she txt to say she was full of cold and didnt want me to get it. She had also done a covid test last night and this morning and shes ok. It is just a cold. But you can never be too careful these days >.> so I didnt see my mummy. But I told her that depending how she is at the weekend I might come see her.

We had dinner then jack went to wash up and have a shower as hes got gaming to attend. I was with Oz and very tempted to sleep. I was shattered

But I got up and exercised. I did a pussycat doll dance by growithjo it was good actually. I wore weights and then this song came on I used to do at zumba years ago! I had no idea what any of the songs were at zumba but obviously one was pussycat dolls. So I challenged myself and I could infact remember the choreography! I mean it is well easy but I did surprise myself! Then I did the kettle bell video so I did just over 30mins of exercise

took Oz home after I fussed him. Then cleaned the bathroom, had a lovely leisurely bath and pamper. Then doing my diary. I am gonna have a hot chocolate and be quiet then go bed. Jack can come to bed whenever. He says he finishes at 10pm but its never on time its ether finish before or after so I just do my own thing I dont wait round for him.

I am tired and ready for bed

tomorrow I am seeing mia for a dog walk at 9am. I am hoping its not freezing as its still -2c out there. I get to give her her birthday present! then I have Oz to clean out as well. Might have some time to myself!

I did a bit on my drawing last night

Jack got a telling off

 Evening

it took me a while to sleep last night, I mean we were in bed for 8:30pmm with the intention of playing on switchs but when I got into bed I was just so done. I fell asleep around 10pm. Poor Jack going to bed so early tho ><

We did covid tests this morning as it was still hard for me to breathe. Could be cold weather or the black mould who knows! But we were both fine

So this morning our living room was still trashed from Oz, so we left earlier in the hopes of getting into school early - leaving early - getting home in time to tidy up before mum comes over!

I walked into the prep room and it only felt like a couple of hours since I had last been there. Jack said "well if you think about it youve not had many waking hours away from here" tis true. Feel like I live there sometimes

School, I got plenty done

I went to my lesson which was an hour of Luke talking -____- too much information it was very hard going. It was also FREEZING in that classroom. I was so cold even with my coat on.

So I got to my office, shut the door and window, put the heating on and laid under coats for 20mins as I was just so numb. I was not feeling good

Jack came back from wherever - I had hardly seen him today - he came back and said he had just had a go at head of science in front of a biology teacher....my stomach flipped and I no longer wanted lunch. Jack has been stressed and pushed and today was a bit like breaking point.

So he was told to see head of science at the end of the day. I was tense as I was hoping Jack would keep it together and not kill him. I did not want things to be bad at work

He got back and said he had been told off - not formally. And that stuff after 2 years of asking is finally going to be changed. I think it took saying it in front of someone else for it to get done.

He got told off for having a go at him in front of another member of staff but i think he didnt like that because its made him have to actually do something whereas usually he fobs Jack off and nothing gets sorted. So I think stuff worked out ok. I am glad Jack didnt rage off at him.

we got home and had a mad clean of Oz' stuff! Mum came over and I had a tea with her and jack too a whisky up to his computer....

I had dinner with him and he had chilled out. I used my kettle bells and went to epilate before my bath, had a bath, took Oz home who has trashed the place again T^T its not being naughty hes just enjoying his toys but its making mess!

I might do a bit of my drawing tonight as I only got 2mins at it yesterday

yup a whole 24 hours and i got 2 mins to myself !

but this is it so far

tomorrow

last day of the week thank god...

messy bun

 Evening

I fell asleep so fast last night, I was shattered -_______-

I woke up at 11pm needing a wee, got into bed and slept until the alarm. That weighted blanket is amazing I love it and prepared to worship it.

We got up and I did the stew, jack changed the bed. Oz waiting in the living room for carrot XD

School was busy and I was struggling to breathe, I have no idea why. Just really bad asthma day. I was using the inhaler A LOT I was feeling dizzy as I was panting so much. It was wearing me out if I am honest! I wanted to go home and rest but I had far too much on for that. I couldnt leave Jack to all that. I got all my work done and even provided a bit of support in Luke's lesson with his bottom set class doing a practical. I was dead at the end of the day. But Lizzi came down to see us which was nice

We got home and we hoovered up where Oz plays, put a clean blanket down - still warm from the radiator and brought Oz in. The MESS he has left is untrue. He's had too much fun making mess there. Menace bunny he is at times. I did some bunny yoga for 40mins. He kept licking me. 

I had a bath and we had dinner with Oz in our pyjamas 

I might get round to a bit of drawing now. 

This is my rough doodle of what I am drawing. I am unsure how it will go yet

tomorrow

is school and see mummy after school thats about it really

actually managed some digital drawing on a monday night

 Evening

I managed a tiny bit of digital drawing last night before bed!

I did my work out again last night, had a bath and was in bed after anime for 8:50pm

I think I had fallen asleep by 9:30pm. I was shattered. I slept well too

that weighted blanket is a gods send 

This morning my intestines hurt still and once again I have a headache. Not sure whats up with me

we went to school and I had plenty to be getting on with. The day was ok on the whole but I just wasnt feeling it you know? Like just not in the mood for it all. I even went to see lizzi just to escape science talk. I had had enough of science talk and school talk. So I went to talk to lizzi for some normal convo

after school mummy had arrived early to let Ozwald out so he got to have a hop round and did toilet outside. He soon sat on his fort - his way of saying he wants to come inside >< 

mum stayed til 5:30pm I booted her out telling her I wanted to have my dinner

dinner was so easy and soooo tasty. Jack helped me too :) 

Now I might go on just dance for a bit. No more kettle bell for a day as it hurts to walk damn it!

then I will have a bath and stuff, the usual

tomorrow

its wednesday so stew morning and changing bed sheets before school! its always a rush on a wednesday but worth it. Got a few practicals as well tomorrow 

Jo was teacher technician :3

 Konbanwa~~

I slept pretty well last night apart from waking up at 11:50pm to Jack butting me - literally. he was man spreading big time. I got up for a wee and thought he would move by then. No

so I faced him and leaned my arm against him and eventually he moved. yeesh

This morning I felt ok about school, just didnt want to go! XD

we were just starting up and then at 9am we got a call from reception

"jack theres someone here to see you"??

what it was - months ago we agreed to train a science technician in microbiology. But we never wrote the date down of when this technician was coming

well today was the day! we had totally forgot that the technician was even coming ^^;

poor woman turned up and we had NOTHING sorted for her ><

whats more is that it was mircobiology so I had agreed to train her T^T

so I was on the go til midday teaching her one to one, luckily she was a nice person so it wasnt too bad and she had an idea of what stuff was - more than me when I started!

just when I thought id catch a break - julia's daughter came to have lunch

and we started talking and i ended up talking to her for the whole of her lunch

so til 1pm I had been giving out my best energy to people

leaving myself drained ><

but its fine. 

After lunch I cleared away, prepped for tomorrow, and rested with what time remained

I WAS DONE

we got home and brought Ozwald in, he was happy bun

I had easy dinner to do thank god 

just had dinner, my stomach feels off tho. Ive had a bad headache since yesterday, this morning I felt rough and now I am tired, achy, headache and stomach feels weird. Last night my intestines hurt. Today my intestines felt a bit better but I also have stomach muscles hurting a bit from kettle bells.

I want to have ago with kettle bells again today if I can

then have a bath and go bed early

i cant even keep my eyes open. I thought about skipping exercise but I will do it, somehow....

It was nice tho today being able to teach - as a technician. It shows how far I have come as a technician. At first I knew nothing now I can teach ^^ but I am still learning. It also made me grateful for my prep room and labs, when I hear about other school's set up our school looks like luxury. Our prep room and labs were designed by the previous technician team as the building is 11 years old. So they knew how they wanted it

tomorrow

school, 1 practical which is easy enough. Seeing mummy after school

Ozwald's cake

 Evening

Last night I couldnt sleep. Just could not sleep. So at 11:20pm I went to fetch Jack and he came off without me even asking, all I said was "i cant sleep" and he left theo and came to bed. I slept around midnight.

I woke up at 8am and woke Jack  up

We did our food shop, I was totally fine about shopping and I was excited to pick mummy up some flowers and we dropped them off to her on our way home. She was not expecting it and was very happy ^^

We put all the stuff away and got in for a cup of tea with us. I then spent the next 90mins in the kitchen making soup, sorting meat, sorting fish, making biscuits. It went on and on!

I was shattered after my lunch! I went to bed and got Jack to wake me up at 2pm which is when I got up and did mummy's birthday card so thats all finished now and I have all her presents too. All 100% guinea pigs XD

I didnt want to go for a walk today I just couldnt face getting cold not that it was even that bad today but I just didnt want it, Im gonna try my new kettle bell tonight instead for my exercise

I started some digital drawing but didnt get far

I ordered some bits online

had a brew with my two men at 3:45pm

we did dinner and I cooked a load of meat as well. I was on my feet for 45mins doing dinner T^T but I am hoping it helps me now do other meals this week as I am usually shattered after work and have little time. So its all to help me.

Oz is just being a loaf, he seems fine today much to my relief. I am gonna work out with him there then put him home when I go for a bath

so its not been an exciting weekend by any means but what was needed after my first week back! mia offered to go a walk today with me but I asked if we can go on saturday instead

tomorrow is school

ugh school >.> just dont wanna go! but I will be wearing some dark red leggings mummy gave to me as she said she couldnt get them on and they fit me with room to spare. I hope they stay up without me having to pull them up constantly. 

Here is Oz's cake that mummy made ^^ it was sooooooo good