Been 'monning'

 Evening

We were playing Pokemon in bed together for a while last night XD It was good actually. We call it 'monning' together. Or just chant Mon Mon Mon XD

I woke up at 6am after a horrible nightmare and in waking up I woke Jack up who says he was half awakw anyway. It was awful. I was then drenched in sweat like I had just got out the bath and hopped into bed. So drenched. I somehow got back off to sleep til 8am. I woke up after dreaming my cake plate had been taken away from me!!! I was so disappointed XD

The inhaler ramped up my anxiety before shopping this morning

but shopping was nice and easy we were very fast as we didnt need much and even had a smaller trolley! We got back and I had fruit loaf and tea and then I cleaned the bathroom which was quite exhausting then I cooked meat for my lunches and for a couple of meals, it makes it easier when all you have to do is reheat some meat! 

We had lunch then I rested on the bed for 45min, I didnt fall asleep as I was just aching far too much it was awful. Didnt know what to do with myself but its just because I have been unable to exercise for a couple of days now. I did manage 15 mins of stretching/yoga and felt a bit better for it. I wasnt sure what to do with myself tho as I felt tired. So me Jack and Oz sat in the lounge together playing pokemon, Oz just loafed but he was happy XD at 3pm I was flagging. Its always the same point of the day where I start to feel unwell. I sat with a brew

then we sat and shaved Ozwald's tummy as unfortunately he had gotten into a bit of a mess again today and we needed to sort him out and trim his fur back so he can clean himself properly. He did sooo well! and we got a good amount of fur and matts out of him. Hes now sulking in the garden. I suppose it is semi-revenge for him savaging the plants >.> Jack is off out to do a bit of gardening whilst I am cooking the dinner. Its just fish and chips and we found a random salmon fillet pair with a seasoning already done today it was a bit more money but Jack said get it as it will save me a job of seasoning the fish. He was right. I am struggling for energy now but luckily everything can just be put in the oven and forgotten about. 

After dinner I will have a nice bath and do a face pack and face sheet~

I brought a new lip stick to try for school tomorrow - praying to every god it doesnt effect my contact dermatitis on my lips >< but I want to try! I also brought a clear mascara for school to try, I thought today I would look for my eye lash curler. Found it, not used it for 3 years at least and had it for almost 10 years, I cleaned it up to only realise the rubber on the curler bit has perished! but its only a Boots curler and years old so I can not buy replacement rubbers for it >.> so I have ordered myself a curler I have wanted for YEARS a Shiseido, theyre expensive but you can always buy replacement rubbers for them and they are used by make up professionals all the time so they must be good?

I have asked Jack if I can have a house plant in the bedroom and he has agreed so I will try get hold of one soon. Its called 'mother in law's tongue' its suppose to purify the air and promote sleep! I have 2 mini cacti in the bedroom but I want an actual house plant!

tomorrow is school

I will try my new lip stick and it might help me look well

dont think I have too much going off at school. However, my Jack is in school but he will be doing a first air course from 9 til 2:30 so I will not see him and will have to hold the fort myself. i hope I dont have to do too much running around -______-

its a UTI

 Evening

I didnt do my diary yesterday as I was poorly

So yesterday I had the task of during a urine sample....its much easier for guys - you dont end up peeing on your hand>.> 

Mum kindly took said urine sample to the doctors at 9am and at 9:15am I had a txt message from the doctors "you do have a UTI a prescription has been sent to the pharmacy for you" Angie is amazing. and how fast was that!? so I rang my mum and she said she would go and collect my prescription for me. A whole 6 tablets XD kid you not, 6 pills! 3 days twice daily. 

I had such a rough morning tho, I not only felt unwell, but upon leaving the house - I had to go toilet. And I could not get off the toilet. I made us so late...I was dying on the toilet there was nothing I could do. We started work at 8am but didnt leave the house til 7:50am.....

when we got to work, Jack said "you really shouldnt have come Jo you look so unwell"

yeah I felt it. But luckily I didnt have shed loads on so I was able to sit and work at my desk most of the morning otherwise I think I would have passed out

My mum came over for lunch then she gardened for a good hour whilst I went to bed as I was like death. At this point it really was hurting me to pee.....

Jack didnt have gaming and I thought we were gonna have a nice evening together and play pokemon shield and sword but....

my dad found us some more rockery stones so Jack went with him to pick those up. Also when it came to playing on pokemon finally, my stomach decided it needed yet MORE quality time on the toilet. Not that anything came of it (think my bowels were literally empty) but all it did was make me do more painful wees! I was seriously hating life by this point and felt terrible. I was too tired and drained to want to start pokemon. I crawled into a ball on the bed and killed demons on Disgaea4

I couldnt sleep tho. I did not know what to do with myself. My body hurt more than normal, my stomach was in horrendous pain and I had a banging headache on the pillow

I was up til 2am feeling like I would welcome death

This morning I didnt feel good but I was determined to get out

we popped out to the range and I got my art supplied ^^ we popped into a cheap supermarket on our way home and at this point I was so done in.

we got home and had a brew 

I cleaned Oz out and that was more exhausting than usual.

It wasnt hurting to wee as bad which was nice tho

After lunch I went to bed for 90mins I got up but didnt know what to do with myself as my head hurt too much to do art, I couldnt exercise but I am no good at allowing myself rest even if my infection riddled body needs it! I felt fat and stressed out

Jack suggested we have a brew and start pokemon. But playing games at 2:30pm!? I cant just waste time so freely like this can I!? I felt so guilty. We played pokemon and had Oz in

I made biscuits and did dinner but that took it out of me.

I am gonna have to accept the fact I can no exercise in this state. I have eaten chocolate and biscuits. I do hate myself and my body right now. Not a lot I can do about all that right now.

I will go for a bath very soon and then we will probably watch anime and play pokemon in bed.

I am hoping I feel better tomorrow

tomorrow is food shop and bathroom clean, also last day of these anti biotics

Water Infection??

 Evening

I had stomach ache in bed again last night but what is new! So I had to get up as I needed pain killers by this point. Jack got up with me and we were back in bed for 11pm. I slept through after that dreaming of wrestling with dog and play fighting, It was good. Jack said I was tossing in my sleep a lot and even through Hammington on top of him at one point ><

I got up and did a 2 litre wee it was slow and long -____-

I didnt want to go school I just felt rough. I felt more achy and tired and I didnt even work out yesterday!

School was ok I guess

But everytime I went for a wee, Id stand up once I was done and felt like I could pee again. It was odd. 

Then at 11:30am when I went for a wee it felt a bit burny. At this point I did wonder if I was ok.

I wondered what could be up. I was going home at 11:50am and having lunch with mum and I would speak with her.

But what if I needed to go doctors?

what day was it that they close at lunch?

what if I need to be examined down there?

will mum tell me off that I didnt ring her and waited to talk when I got home?

my thoughts spiralled and at 11:40am I rang her

she said "it sounds like a water infection, does it itch down there?"

I said "no it doesnt itch at all"

she said "well at least its not thrush then!"

I havent had a water infection for like 15years, I have never had thrush ether (told it is painful AF)

mum said she would go doctors whilst I would be driving home as they were shutting for the afternoon very shortly, she would pick me up a sample bottle - of course thats how you check! why did I think I had to drop my drawers!? XD 

so I told Jack how stuff was and I went home

I got home and mum brought me loo roll (id asked for the other day) and a sample bottle. To anyone looking at this scene - it looked like I had a problem XD

we had lunch together

but basically what I gotta do is pee in a bottle, mum will collect it and take it doctors. I would do it myself but I need to start work before doctors even opens! so poor mum is on pee patrol -____- gotta love ya mums! 

I said "I did feel a bit rotten this morning and Jack said I looked pale and I have a headache"

she said "yeah you can be really poorly with a water infection you know"

can you??? I had no idea. I just thought it hurt when you peed!! 

So mum left

I worked on Jack's canvas and then around 3pm I started to flag

I started to feel crappy

My head pounded, I was shivering and hot, I ached more and felt tired. So my afternoon was crappy. Not to mention off stomach. Doesnt hurt any worse when I wee tho which is lucky

Jack was home late but it didnt matter as I wasnt fit to exercise anyway.

I fell asleep after dinner for 40mins >< by accident! 

I had a hot bath

My dad might pop round with some stones for the garden he is off to go view. He didnt tell us he was going so we couldnt go!!

tomorrow

its school - if I am well enough!

Pokemon Narrative

 Evening

I couldnt sleep last night, I had tummy ache of course I did. Then i was aching and Jack was snoring a bit so I got up ti 11:30pm but even then it took me while to get to sleep after I went to bed. I woke up at 6am after watching someone get stabbed with a sword a metre away from me. Yeah god knows what I was dreaming of. So I gently woke my Jack~

I think another reason why I didnt sleep was that I had just confessed my sins to Jack in bed, that I have been weening myself off my pain killers and dropping 1 a week. I am taking 3 a day now not 8! He was disappointed I had kept it from him and he worries about me. I wanted to surprise him and tell him I have completely come off them but yeah...

I got the stew on which was a gravy stew - not done one in months as I went off it but Jack has been missing them.

We got to school and school wasnt too bad. I was having a play with copper sulphate I was seeing what I could throw in it to see if it would coat it in copper. Been ages since ive had a play with science! I saw Lizi too and I put a display up so not a bad day. I was tired tho, needed sleep

I got home and had to sit on the toilet as I had stomach pains, I ate lunch then returned to the bathroom >.> not fair having stomach ache before AND after food. Jeez. I ate dinner with Oz and left him in the living room as I went for an hour's sleep. He had been asleep on plush pad -____- such a lazy bun

I then did a bit of painting. All I have left to do is the text!! But I think I know what I want to do for my next painting. I got my digital art work done yesterday and uploaded it today

I want to do other pieces like this but I might do something for my cousin's birthday first. Not sure.

I did a bit of a work out. Wednesday is a more easy day for my work outs - I usually do yoga but I wasnt in the mood for yoga. So I followed 2 videos on grow with jo, which were for sore muscles and stretches so I did that for 30mins. 

I broke my flower vase outside taking the flowers to the wheely bin. Yup smashed all over the floor. Watched it in slow motion. I am not too disappointed as it was old and came with the house XD I have been meaning to buy a new vase and this has just made me actually do it. So I will keep an eye out. I didnt want to spend money on a vase as I didnt NEED it you know?

Jack came home, I made biscuits and did the dinner and it tasted really good. When I checked on it at lunch it looked insipid and I wasnt looking forward to it but with 5 more hours of cooking it was actually good and Jack enjoyed it ^^

I will go for a bath soon, then maybe start my next drawing

tomorrow

school then coming home to have lunch with mummy

Made better Tteokbokki

 Evening

I slept pretty well last night, I was dead to the world! Didnt wanna get up tho as it meant school. I didnt get stomach ache after breakfast luckily.

The whole hour that Oz was in this morning I didnt get to see him as he spent the whole time doing toilet on his blanket, that rabbit is obsessed. Toilet obsessed.....

School was ok, wasnt stressful but plenty to do, couldnt wait to finish. 4 hours is ENOUGH

I came home to find mummy here with Oz in her hands

we had lunch and a catch up then she left. I had to die on the toilet from lunch tho >.>

I struggled to get motivated with my afternoon as I was a bit tired but didnt want to sleep. I had a look for jobs. I did a tiny bit of painting then I fell asleep for 45mins

I started dinner and prepped the stew so I could get dinner on when Jack came in we had Tteokbokki and I had it with noodles instead of rice cakes as I discovered I did not like rice cakes and I enjoyed it much more this time and I made enough for Jack to take for lunch tomorrow. He was happy about that and really enjoyed his dinner. 

I am gonna do a work out for 20mins then have a bath and do some drawing as I am so close to finishing a picture! I should get it done really. I have plans for other pictures too.

tomorrow is school

not seeing mummy tho as she is busy but that is fine it just means I will get on with my own stuff quicker 

had a good pamper this weekend~

 Evening

yesterday was a write off. It was a bad health day. I felt like death

really did not feel well and wasnt up to anything. I managed food shop and that was it. I did pretty much nothing all day it was a total waste of a day. I didnt exercise as I literally couldnt. I did give myself a bit of a pamper. I did face pack, face sheet, bleach eyebrows, dyed eyelashes.

I was up til gone midnight last night as my stomach just wasnt happy. My stomach is having so many issues as of late. Think its my inhaler as it says it can do that it is still making me a bit shaky and giving my palpitations.

I woke up at 8am and found Jack and Oz in the lounge together. I was dreaming about being a vampire. Think its cus of playing Disgaea - the main character is a vampire. Oh speaking of my switch I won on ebay last night for £28.37 brand new Pokemon Shield. I have got sword but I need something to play after Disgaea and I fancy playing that. I chose pokemon from the pokedex today for my party and gave the list to Jack for him to catch/hatch for me XD

I didnt do a great deal this morning just had a rough morning really. Boy was I pale....

I think the whole stomach isnt helping how I feel

I cooked my meat for the week. We had lunch then I did a 10min work out before mum came over to dye my hair ^^ it was good to see her and now my hair looks much better just did it the usual blondy brown to freshen it up. You cant really tell but it makes it shiny and bouncy. 

I did a 10min weight work out, some drawing, made biscuits, did the dinner. I had omelette, sausage and beans and I did my Jack a full English X3 He loved it, very much his kinda meal that.

I have a shower and done my exercise, which feels weird doing all that in the afternoon! 

So I guess I can just sit and do art til anime? Oz is just loafing. I might need to go water the garden as Jack put plants in and it hasnt rained this weekend despite what it forecast. Weather peeps know nothing as per usual.

tomorrow

school

ugh

its been so nice having that extra day off~~

mum says she will come have lunch with me

my hair wouldnt have been washed since 2pm so I am hoping it doesnt look like a greasy chip but I could always wash my fringe in the morning and tie my hair up. See how it is

then I might actually get some painting done as I havent been able to do any cus Jack is round the house. I would like to replace some current art work up in my hallway but I havent got any ideas as of yet for it. Mum put the cacti canvas up this weekend in her kitchen ^^

I cant remember if I ever uploaded photos of Jack's sisters bunnies but here is skyla and thumper

up from 2:55am

 Evening

Its only 4:40pm but I wanna get this outta the way

I played on my switch til 9:30pm but I was so tired. I didnt know when Jack came to bed

Last night I woke up at 2:55am as my stomach was not happy. I sat on the toilet but nothing happened - just pain. I was then sat in a ball on the sofa with the hot bag on my stomach listening to explosions happening in my intestines. God knows what was going off in there. My own WW3 I think. It was not pleasant. But because I was up for so long, I got hungry and had pain killers too, before I knew it I was no longer able to sleep - I did try going back to bed but I was just too awake by this point. So I got up and did some drawing. Got Oz in at 7am and woke Jack up at 8am. He said he went to bed at midnight.

This morning I cleaned my Oz out, cleaned his poos from the lounge, inside and out the garage. Jesus Oz theyre sodding everywhere >.> 

At 9:45am we went for a walk down the river. Which lead to a little forest trail too. It was soooooo quiet you could hear everything! It was really nice and enough of a walk without making me feel shattered.

We came back and had a cup of tea. Then we went outside with ozwald, I kept Jack company whilst he sorted a few bits in the garden. Oz was so interested!

We did lunch and had it with Oz, then I died with stomach pains. I laid on the bed with my hot bag and actually fell asleep an hour. I woke up and decided what nail art I wanna do tonight, I cleaned the bathroom and made biscuits. 

Going to start dinner soon~ Think Jack might garden a bit after dinner. It got really warm today but its cooling down now. 

Im gonna do my nails tonight and do a hair pack. 

Tomorrow

is weekly shop and bit of food prep and a work out. Think thats about all I gotta do. I have been for a walk today so Im not gonna work out. Body needs a bit of a rest. I am also quite tired now!!! Need actual sleep. I have no idea whats going off with my stomach lately tho.