had 3 hours of mummy time

 Evening

I couldn sleep well last night I was up til gone midnight but it was ok. I was just achy really. Then the alarm went off at 7:30am as Jack insisted on having an alarm for him choosing to go into work ugh

We put the stew on anyway and Jack got ready to go to work. He made me promise not to over do stuff, not to paint doors, not to garden, to wash up, if I saw mum - not to go out for long. He needed me to rest ><

I was left to it 

so I did a good 30min work out, I was dripping wet! I then enjoyed a nice hot soak in the bath~

Once I recovered I sat making Mia a birthday card. I enjoy making cards i find it very relaxing. I did a good job too, took me a while but I didnt care I just enjoyed myself

Mum came over for lunch and she stayed for 3 hours!! we just chatted, nether of us could be bothered to go out and we are going TK MAXX on friday. 

Jack came home whilst mum was still, she was leaving soon but we took her outside to inspect our garden work she was very pleased with it all ^^

it was good to catch up with her after 4 days of not seeing her. Also it made me SIT and take it easy. She said it also made her sit XD

Then Miho text me to say they found out they are having a baby girl! I am so thrilled for them. Its always the best if you can have a boy and a girl, also shes really girly so I didnt want her to miss out on doing girly things with a daughter

I sat with Jack and then we did dinner which was thai curry we put on in the slow cooker this morning, it was really good

Jack asked if he could game with Theo tonight as some war hammer game has had an update. I said it was fine as hes been working hard and its the holidays! He usually games with his brother on a weds but they cant make it tonight.

It has just been raining, Oz has decided he wants to play out now its stopped raining. Wet mud yay -____-

so I am by myself tonight which is fine

tomorrow

Jack said we can maybe paint the garage door but we shall just see how we are both feeling. I am excited tho to get rid of that horrible pealing white paint door that came with the house.

Right I shall do some digital drawing~ its coming along well.

like actual landscaping here

 Evening

I slept ok, I just woke up in the night needing a wee but refused to get up for one, then woke up at at 7am massively needing a wee so I was forced to get up >.> Jack had just got up to let Oz out

I hurt today and feel a bit unwell, all because I done too much ^^;

what a morning tho...

we decided to get on with out day

Jack helped me masking tape the porch door, then we went outside and talked garden landscaping ,I helped him get set up as he helped me get set up.

I sanded down the porch door, get it a wipe down, then began to paint the door

Then I called Jack in for a short tea break. I then went outside with him and supporting him with the garden, it looked such hard work...I held the umbrella over him to protect him from the sun, I on the other hand am quite tanned. Jo tans not burns. He was sweating, panting, red faced. Yeah....it looked hard work digging up grass, rockery, throwing huge rockery stones around and digging so much clay earth. We live in a ex-mining village our soil is 100% dark orange coloured clay. So its very heavy and hard to dig through.

When we was putting some of the earth back I went inside for a bath. I was sweating, gotta love that humidity. Then I let Jack have the bath. I then made him lunch. But my body was screaming at me and shaking. I was starving too. Like 1:30pm and I hadnt eaten!!

we ate lunch then I passed out on the bed for 90mins I needed to not feel my body for a while

then I had a brew with my tired Jack

I then finished Mia's wedding card, its finally done and I am happy with it.

I sat and then did the dinner somehow cus honestly I felt so dead and could have easily just ate toast for dinner. Jack helped but yeah I was just too tired. I havent exercised today as my body has had enough. I am just gonna sit and be quiet and do some drawing. Oz is outside investigating our work

tomorrow

Jack is gonna help me put the stew on then go into work T^T I will miss him. Mum says she will see me at some point as I havent seen her since friday! I am not sure what we will do yet. I know she is busy in the morning so in the morning I might exercise or paint some of the door or I might paint some stuff outside - a tree stump and some water pipes. I will miss my Jack tho.

I just hope we both sleep, were both tired and achy! 

the depressing thing is,the difficult garden section we are on we have only done a quarter of it...

Been into work on my holidays...

 Evening

I completely forgot to do this yesterday! Like never even thought about it

But yesterday was nothing major really. I helped out in the garden with Jack. Then for the first time ever we sat at my craft desk and did art together for an hour. And I had a good hour's sleep. It was a pretty chill day. I did do an hour of exercise ^^

I couldnt sleep tho. Just far too wired. So I was up til 1am drawing~ I slept after that and woke up at 8am

So this morning

ugh this morning

I had my 3 yearly smear test. Yup I had something inserted 'up there' it is most unpleasant. I dont know how people choose to put stuff up there for 'pleasure' as I do enjoy anything going up there. Its weird 

anyway

whilst waiting for the smear test there was children in the waiting room. Just being children, the mum doing her best to keep them in line. I was just sat there thinking

"I would hate to be a parent. I couldnt be doing with this. I would have no energy for this. I also HATE babies with a passion. I would HATE to raise a teenager" Yeah just sat thinking how much children would wreck my very existence

From there we went to work

yes work

during my summer holidays

Jack wanted to go to work to make his life easier going back

as for me, I wanted time off.

I work term time only. This means I get school holidays off however I CAN NOT take any holidays. So if I wanted to go on holiday during school time or go get married, I would not be allowed. I also can not earn over time pay. It doesnt exist for me. I can earn time in lieu. So any extra time I work outside my hours, I can have off. I need a day off work - September 16th - Mia's wedding

as MY days are only 4 hours, I just needed to work 4 hours in my own time and thats what I did today so I have earned Mia's wedding off. I only need Jack to sign off on it not the head teacher or anything so yeah I can go Mia's wedding ^^

we ended up talking to Chris for ages, we had lunch then i did display stuff and before long it had been 4 hours so we left.

I felt quite exhausted even tho I hadnt done anything majorly physical but I hadnt had any breaks apart from lunch.

we got home and I felt exhausted

We picked today to do everything cus it was suppose to rain, therefor we wouldnt be able to work on the garden or paint the garage door. Howver, did it rain? only once we were home -_____-

so that didnt work out well. Today was just a day I wanted to get done out the way, swear test and work. It wasnt that bad of a day, I have had far worse and I have achieved things 

I did dinner and some how found the energy to go on just dance for 20mins. then had a bath. I rang my mum as I havent seen her for a few days and I cant see her tomorrow ether!!

Oz, he had a paddy. He did not appreciate being locked up for 5 hours. Threw his food dish upside down, kept turning his back on me, no licks and yeah just grumping but I think hes come round. He needs to get used to it, going back to school soon! Besides some buns never get to leave their cage and I have to lock him up for 5 hours one day and I dont hear the end of it!!

Tomorrow

Jack is doing some garden work and depending on how I feel I ether help out or I paint the porch door~

Paddy over some meat

 Evening

I had a better evening routine and managed to fall asleep just fine~ I had set an alarm for 7:30am as I wanted to get up and out for food shopping. I passed mummy in the car leaving the first shop ^^

shopping was fine tho, we got back and unpacked and had a quick brew. Then I was cleaning Oz out, cleaned the bathroom, then helped Jack with the rockery outside and finally cooking my lunch time meat. All before midday. I was quite exhausted as I had literally been on the go none stop.

After lunch I went to lay down on my bed with Hammington for a hour, to come into the kitchen to find 3 meat flies on my meat....

I was fuming. Honestly I probably could have breathed fire on them. I got rid of them whilst ranting off. I threw my meat in the bin as I really didnt fancy it or wanted to spend my holiday poorly with germs. I felt like it was time wasted, money wasted, and I had eaten the smallest pieces - meaning only the big ones were left for waste T^T it was tasty too

So after that major paddy, I decided to look for a fruit loaf recipe online as I thought I would eat that for my lunches. I started making it only to realise that I never keep raisins or dried fruit in the house XD so ended up putting chocolate chips in it! God knows what its like. Whilst it was cooking I decided to go on my laptop. I ordered red hair dye! like ginger red not red red. I bought some earrings for Mia's wedding too.

After all this I noticed Jack had not left his computer chair for 4 hours. Not for a toilet or drink break. So I grabbed Mr. Hyperfixation and I told him everything he missed XD 

he was like "I literally cant leave you unsupervised can I? You've basically had a paddy over some meat, made a cake and ate cake mix for comfort food, and did some online shopping therapy"

I said "yeah basically. But I do feel better about it all now tho"

yup all this went off whilst he was upstairs gaming

I did dinner as I had the oven on from the cake so I may as well use the heat

Now I am letting my dinner go down then I think I will do some yoga. I feel like I need a stretch. Then it will be time for a bath etc. Jack told me to take it easy this afternoon. I dont think it went well...I suck at just SITTING.

I will sit and do my nails later tho

and tomorrow I dont really have much on? I did say if I feel up to it I would paint my porch door as I drew designs out for it today. 

Yes I am my own worst enemy...

tomorrow 

just maybe painting the door, thats it

Fun night in

 Evening

I didnt do my diary last night as Matt and Brandon didnt leave til almost 11pm! We had spent 4 hours+ talking and laughing, they had take away and I had korean noodles. But yes it was a great night! Me and matt are terrible XD brandon and jack sat on the sofa together just looking at the two monsters on the floor XD I laughed til I had tears, my stomach hurt, my cheeks ached, and my throat felt sore. I had been loud, hyper, immature and yeah it was great.

Once they left I thought I was gonna get a scolding from Jack because of my behaviour but no, he said he was really happy at seeing me really happy ^^

I was WIRED tho. My god. I knew I was not gonna sleep. I had a hot chocolate and sat quietly. Then we went to play pokemon in bed til 11:30pm and Jack turned his switch off and went to sleep instantly. i could no way sleep. So I was up. I text mum at 1am to say I was gonna be late getting up so I wont be around to go shopping first thing in the morning. I know her phone goes on silent after 10pm

I took extra tablets and I sleeping tablet. I went to bed at 1:30am

I woke up....10am. 10AM! jesus

Jack wondered if I was gonna wake up XD He had been up with Oz since 8am

I txt mum to say I was up but I couldnt face people today. i didnt want to go anywhere. She understood and I told her I would see her later.

As I sweated loads whilst I was being hyper last night, I did feel somewhat grim this morning. To be honest I would have showered at 11pm. i had sweated. So I decided to go on just dance for half hour til I was a sweaty mess and had a morning shower. I felt so much better for getting rid of that second layer of skin XD

After lunch I went to see mummy, I sat with truffs on my knee and she wouldnt stop licking my thumb XD so cute!

I came home and sat with Ozwald. Mum rang to say dad was doing a tip run, so we then had to gather alllll the stuff in the garage to take to the tip. But we had got it mainly together when we tidied the garage 2 weeks ago. Jack went to the tip with dad and I went on my laptop for a bit. 

I did dinner for when he got home, now I will go have a nice relaxing bath. I can not wait to smoother my face in steroid cream as my eczema is SO bad. I look like I have wrinkles but its because my skin is sore and very dry. medication sucks!

I will then do some digital work after my bath~

tomorrow

I am going food shopping in the morning, then cleaning Oz out. About it really

who night of rain, new game, 2 hours of shopping

 Evening

I couldnt sleep again last night, it was like I was wired. So I was up til midnight, took every drug I could as I just wanted sleep. I slept through the night. Jack woke me at 8:30am as I asked as I needed to get the stew on. He said he had been stressed single bunny parent with Oz and him wanting to go out the patio door into the rain and come back inside again -____- sounds like something loaf would do

So we got the stew on anyway. I then asked Jack "just what are we doing today?"

as he hadnt got any plans I decided we would go 15mins away to the next town for a lot of stuff we needed get and needed to do. So thats what we did.

I went bank to get rid of a cheque and some old notes I found

he went to entertainment store to trade in a lot of stuff, I got a new JustDance game

we went supermarket for a few bits we can only get from that store, I found a pumpkin blanket in there and also a guinea pig one!! Never have I seen guinea pig print anything on fabric! Jack was like "put it in the basket!" He understood ^^

I then drove us to the other end of the high street as we were now buying heavy items and it was raining still (rained alllll through the night)

We went into one store and I picked up home stuff - soaps etc

next store - human soap and washing soaps

wilkos - for charcoal and nail varnish

I was soooooooo done 

It had been 2 hours since we left the house! I was hungry as it was 12:40. 

We had lunch, unpacked the stuff then mummy came over around 2pm. I gave her the blanket she was THRILLED she loved it! I got a photo from her as soon as she got home of it laid  out on her bed bless her. I told her "its not for the guineas to pee on" she was like "oh no! theyre not going near it!" XD

Mummy stayed for an hour then when she left I knew I needed rest. I was exhausted. So I sat watching videos on youtube mainly about Japan, educating myself. 

I did the dinner which was good~

Then, even tho I was tired, I did some exercise. I didnt want to have another day off exercise. So I went on my new justdance4 game. I was on it 20mins. Of course out of the 40 songs I knew only 2. Yup I never know the songs! however cus it was made in 2012 - think that was when Jack was 19 years old aka in his prime and going clubbing XD he knows like all the songs on there! XD I was only gettting 4 stars instead of 5 so I replayed the first dance I went on, I wanted to challenge it again as it had mugged me off. I went from 8000 points 4 stars to 11000 points 5 stars XD I was too competitive I know ><

I went for a bath

Jack came in...."its wednesday today isnt it?" I said "yeah" thinking 'your point being?'

"I have gaming tonight at 7"......

I said "oh my god! I totally forgot!!"

So had Jack, and it was 7pm ^^;

He was a bit late but its only with his brother and his brothers friends so I am sure it was ok. I was then just left with Oz, who is enjoying coming in and out the house. I dont know what we will do when the weather changes and I cant have the patio door open anymore.....that was Jacks issue this morning. He had the door shut due to the rain but Oz was literally pressed against the door wanting to go out.

what will we do if hes pressing his nose again the door from the outside wanting to come in!? I wont be able to bare it and I will just be scooping him up and bringing him in ><;

I really should do a bit of digital work before bed. I have so much digital work to do....

tomorrow

not seeing Mum tomorrow and I have to pace myself tomorrow as in the evening we are having Brandon and Matt over for take away and a catch up. I need energy for that. I plan to exercise and bath before they come over.

actual rain

 Evening

Just as I was waiting for Jack to come out the bath so we could watch anime and stuff, my brother showed up at my craft room window on his bike and stood talking to me for 40mins I offered for him to come in or have a drink but he had his own drink and said he was too warm. It was good to see him but it very much got me all hyped up from laughing so I needed to wind down a lot before bed and it took me a while to actually sleep ><

I woke up to find Jack had got up at 7am for Oz I was up at 8am

I wasnt sure what we was doing today, my body felt very tired and heavy but I had done a lot yesterday. I did do a fair amount again this morning, I am my own worst enemy 

I patched up holes in the wall in the garage, watered the garden, looked for stuff online for mia's wedding, talked out in the garden with Jack future garden designs as to where we are going next with it, sorted out stuff for the charity bag. Ah i was tired.

we had lunch then Jack went to go meet his sisters in the city centre he never mentioned to me about me coming cus he could see I was tired -_____- 

He said before he left that I needed to rest or do some art. I said "I always feel guilty and bad doing my art like its not productive enough" he said "think about it like this, you do exercise for your physical health. Do art for your mental health, its just as important" hes right but its still not easy for me ><

he went out leaving me on the bed with Hammington, I couldnt sleep tho

so I got up and made melon bread again, I wanted another go at it.

It took over an hour as I had made a lot of mess and washing up. I couldnt bare for Jack to come home to find the kitchen a state and a load of washing up. So i hoovered up, wiped down the surfaces and washed up. I was knackered. Mum turned up just as I was putting them in the oven.

She stayed for 90min and I ate a melon bread and it was soooo good I am gonna have another later whilst theyre still fresh.

I sat talking to Jack who came home just before mum left

I decided to do some exercise before dinner, my body was tired but I still felt the need to exercise. I started and after 5 mins I could tell it wasnt happening. My body needed rest. So I stopped and went for a bath.

We did the salad and after salad I really should do some drawing ^^; 

Oz has chosen to play outside in the rain

yes RAIN!

I havent seen rain in such a long time. UK has draught and the field near my house caught on fire on sunday due to the heat! So we didnt get the thunder storms last night like the weather peeps said nor did we get a full day of rain weve just had rain here and there. But nice to see, smell and listen to rain.

I will have to dry that loaf off before I take him to bed. I can tell hes missed the rain as usually he wants to go to bed by now and instead hes chosen to go out in the rain!

tomorrow

not sure yet what we are doing, we might pop into the next town over for a few bits but depends on the weather as its suppose to hammer down.

oh and yes I got a telling off from Jack for not resting and doing far too much whilst he was out the house. He never shouts at me, he just gives me a bit of a lecture about resting and being kinder to myself ><