Strict with myself now

Konbanwa~

this morning I woke to my mum shouting
"Spider!!!! Spider!! can someone come!? can someone come get it!?"
yeah she hates them big style XD

I have been doing sewing this morning
I have almost finished a whole patch of those leftover scraps I was using
but what I will do with them I have no idea
I dont know what to make with them :/
I did some dancing too

Today I weighed myself and was disgusted in myself
and have put myself on a strict diet til now til the convention >.>
Its not because I think "my god im so fat" i know thats not the reality
but its mentally, i struggle mentally i guess it must be a bit how
anorexic suffers must feel, as i get my head having a go at me each and every day
for what i have eaten, how much and how much i weigh
so when the scales arent kind to me the worse and more frequent such thoughts become
and since coming off anti-depressiants it has made my mental state....hard i guess
I decided to do some more exercise too so i will make sure to get sweaty
in dance practice and to walk everyday, i went for a walk today

anyway I finished a book last night and brought the next one
im super addicted! something I thought id never say about reading XD

I had work which went well kids enjoyed it
and got all the work done even if some of them are spoilt little brats >.>

I have been trying to print off a tax return form and got stressed out
big time with it as i dont get any help not that i asked for it
i have no understanding of tax what so ever
so i got a bit upset

but i have yoga in half hour that will relax me~

See what tomorrow brings~
I took a photo of a poppy in the garden