Tuesday, 28 July 2015

I know what i'm doing damn it

Konbanwa~

Ah I slept so bad last night >~< even tho i was mega tired and drained
I had the most incredible nightmare of my life
the kind that if you were a child would make you cry and
wake your parents up, i honestly thought i had had a stroke or
something in my sleep or even died for that matter
i couldnt escape it and it felt like nothing i have ever experienced before
everything was so so dark and spinny then i was in a huge pit like a volcano
holding onto a chain with creatures breathing fire around me
i just remember trying to hit this clock face with the chain by swinging
and as soon as i hit it i woke up with a start, panting my mouth was dry
my heart was pounding i was covered in sweat
it was just terrible i cant describe just how trapped i felt in darkness and bitter memories

anyway so i had to begin my day at 7:00am yes someone up there hates me
i literally shoved tiffin outside, got changed, had breakfast and set off 7:40am
I got to the place i was meant to meet Seth with time to spare and saw him
arrive so i was glad he wasnt waiting for me!
i have been in the car today for agesssss
but Seth is good company never short for something to say anyway

got to the school and we decided to teach in one big group of 45 children
purely because i hadnt done the ending experiment and i needed to
know how to do it safely 
but it means letter Seth take the wheel and somehow im always assistant 
but i get on with it i dont actually mind because i help in my own way
i dont just stand there like a lemon haha altho i do feel that way at times
i clean up, help kids and give/take equipment and keep the room flowing
i went to fetch some water from the staff room and a woman was in there
who was running this children's club we were entertaining
woman "is this your first day?"
i looked at her like HUH?
woman "you dont seem to be doing any presenting yourself"
i just said "oh its Seth hes a control freak he just likes
to present and im happy learning off him and assisting"
and just laughed it off you know
but she took it dead seriously asking questions like
"can you actually present? what else do you do?"
i kinda felt like saying KEEP YOUR NOSE OUT!!
just leave me alone will ya me and Seth work as a team. end of

so we had a break and i went out to play with the kids ^^
I came in and Seth called me over for a quiet word
Seth "Jo im gonna get you to do some presenting. I think
they think stereotypically that im the guy who presents
and your just my glamorous assistant"
i was so annoyed by this, not because i had to present
but because WHAT THE HELL'S IT GOTTA DO WITH THEM!!
So i got nervous stupidly, i just dont like presenting infront of my seniors
as i feel like im just gonna criticized i mean im probably not but its how i feel
and he gave me the worst damn thing in the world to present!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
did he do it on purpose to spite me!?
these stupid drinking straws, cut them in the right way and they make a noise
when you blow threw them, only trouble is I CAN NEVER GET IT TO WORK FOR ME!!!
AGGGHHHHHH!!! the frustration!!! 
so i showed everyone and told them it takes practice
half the class could do it and then by the end of the day they all could do it
i got through the day i just laugh through it and enjoy myself

after a long journey home i was glad to be home
i have just sat round reading, uploaded my photos on facebook
i plan on sorting them out properly tomorrow then going to upload
them onto my blog~
i have work tomorrow 12:00 - 5:30pm 
gonna be a hard slog!
in the mean time look at my baby millie
who im sure grew in the few days i was away from home

she was due a growth spurt 
soon she wont fit in that hay ball of hers XD

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