My Pumpkin Plushie!

Konbanwa~

Last night, it was just shocking
I was so very tired yesterday and the time to climb
into bed wasnt coming round quick enough
but when i finally got into bed i couldnt sleep
had i gone past the stage of being tired? it was like being jet lagged
so i layed there hours on end, just in pain and tired
i almost got up but i refused to give in
so eventually i got 3 hours sleep...woohoo...>.>
mum woke me up at 8am as I had karen's at 9am
i did not want to get up, i felt really annoyed

So I got to Karen's, i decided to have reflex, to boost my energy up
problem with reflex is that you tend to feel rubbish before you feel better for it
she looked at my feet, and she sighed straight away
i said "they look that good do they?"
she said "I can see youve feeling low arent you"
i said yeah, and on a better a day - a day ive slept - i would have talked a bit
about my problems with her, but i wasnt in the mood i couldnt function
and i could i feel that i was sensitive so i didnt want to cry in front of her

came home and had a cup of tea 
and put the pets outside which they enjoyed
tiffin was a bit grouchy today tho XD

I photographed my pumpkin
and I also took a halloweeny photo of millie and alice
which i will upload on halloween :D

I fell asleep i was exhausted
then when i woke i decided that i needed to go
for a walk, i couldnt be bothered and mum offered to come
but i told her not to, i wasnt in the mood to talk
so i went and had 30min walk
came home and drew a bit more
and altered photos

i doubt i'll get a dance done tomorrow
ive learned one just about but im just not in the mood right now
but i could be different tomorrow
i can feel my depression gripping me
i hate admitting i have depression, but it is real, and it there
and every so often i fall into it
and i can tell over the last week ive been falling into it
i'll be fine soon i know it

anyway heres my pumpkin plushie
im so proud of it
i cant stop looking at it ^^