I'm Officially a STUDENT again!!

Good Evening Minna-san~

This morning was so hard to get up!! Not like me at all

im such a morning person but I couldnt get up and I pulled such

a face at mum when she woke me. I moaned at her "oh I dont wanna get upppppp"

So she left me for 15minutes then woke me again. I couldnt believe I had

fallen back to sleep!! How can I fall back to sleep so fast then and I cant do

it in the middle of the night!? >.>

So I got motivated and left the house at 9am

I got there with 5minutes to spare ^^

We were called through and followed a member of staff to room 108

There was 16 of us in total, apparently more was suppose to show up

all woman - no surprise there - and there was about 3 of us in our 20's at a guess

but I did look like the runt -__- where ever I go im always the runt huh

We sat and did some paper work for the enrollment process

I had to show my DBS check, driving license, qualifications and say how I was paying for the course.

As I was one of the few people paying for the course out my own money - not through a loan

I went downstairs to go sort it out. I saw a couple of members of staff from when I sat my exam

so I was chatting with them which was nice :)

Then I went to the reception to get an ID card, little did they know that I already had one

from the other campus. But another cant hurt right ;)

I could see the lanyard in a basket, there was 1 PINK ONE LEFT!

damn it I wanted that pink one, or it was blue or purple.

But with 2 people already before me, I couldnt take the risk so I did what any other child

would do at this point...I pointed "THERE'S A PINK ONE!"

The 2 ladies before me smiled at me like I was some kinda werido

the guy doing the ID cards smiles and asks the lady being served

"would you like a pink lanyard?" 

I said "ahhh thats just mean" and pouted XD

Very kindly both ladies left the pink lanyard to me ^^ my childish antics worked XD

I dont care, its the little things in life that make me happy and i entertained 3 people

so yeah i dont mind what people think of me

I went back to the classroom and we were given a few booklets

we need for the course and told we start Tuesday 9:30 - 12:00

which is good because I dont like going into school on a tuesday cus they have P.E.

and its dull sitting there whilst theyre playing around

I made my way towards home but stopped off at the florist and brought

mum a bunch of flowers which I hand picked ^^

I brought them to say 'thanks for looking after me when I was poorly last week' kinda thing

So I got home, put pets outside and did the flowers. Had lunch and recorded a dance.

In the afternoon I went for a short walk with mum

then I went doctors by myself. he was running late by 30 minutes

i dont know why I bother attended there on time cus theyre always late :/

I was so nervous as I didnt know what to say about my mental health.

So as I sat down infront of him and he asked "what can I do for you?"

I just said "ether up my current anti-depressiants or change me to another"

and thats what he did, he increased my dose...

he never asked 'whats up?' 'would you like to see someone?' 'what thoughts you been having?'

'Have you tried to harm yourself?' NOTHING

now how unprofessional is that. for all he knew i could have tried to commit suicide and he

wouldnt have known. i dont think he takes mental health seriously.

disgusting really. but saved me the trouble of explaining myself

on the way out i saw a notice about support for mental health so i jotted the number down

just in case. in this world if you need help you have to get it yourself.

So thats my day

it feels good to finally be getting somewhere :)

Tomorrow Im having a crafting day~