Friday, 22 April 2016

How personal can it get!?

Good Evening~

not so tired today so I will do a proper diary entry XD
Yesterday was fine
I worked with both the Dept head and the headmistress!
But I never feel nervous round them as I know them
so its alright.
I spent the morning sitting with a girl whilst she sat doing an exam
then the afternoon the class were doing art dedicated the the Queen's 90th birthday
I thought Id join in and I drew a dog against the Union Jack
the kids were amazed some just sat and watched me
I let a girl take home the image and she was thrilled :)

This morning I finished a book I was reading
kinda weird and dark i wasnt bothered about buying the next one
thats for sure, so Ive started another book~

I had a lazy morning of reading and playing on my 3DS
had my lunch and went to bed. sod the world!
When I got up I went for a short walk with mum
did some sewing, I wasnt sure what TO sew but then I remembered I had
collected a lot of labels so I decided to sew them together
and add another row to this random piece ive been making

its full of labels, fabric and ribbons that have writing on them
when I collect a load I stitch them together and then sew them
to the over all patch, its gotten quite big actually
god knows what i'll eventually do with it tho!

Mum baked a cake for Millie~ her first birthday
so I got to decorate it

It tastes yummy ^^

I had a doctors appointment about my blood test results, my daily stomach ache
my blood test was fine and didnt need repeating ^^
and as for my stomach ache *sigh* the reason I never went in the first place is
cus I knew he'd blame it on IBS so what did he say today? hmm wonder what it
was he fobbed me off with this time..ahh yes it was IBS
he says that cus its convenient and easy. he such a time waster
he gave me a diet to try, im yet to look at it. but maybe i will start it over the weekend
gonna do it for 2 weeks and if it makes no difference (which im guessing it wont) i shall go back.
I asked for some tablets to give me a period as its been a while since i had one
which is normal for me, but I just didnt want it to get me and ruin my day on the convention next weekend. So I asked him and he said
"now im gonna ask you, is there any chance your pregnant?"
I said "no"
doctor "how can you be sure?"
me "cus ive never, you know, taken part in that kinda thing"
doctor "your still a virgin?"
me "yes" - felt like saying 'and what of it bub!'
doctor "have you thought about dating? there are guys out there"
now i found that a lil insulting. I know exactly what hes thinking here
he's is thinking 'she has a sad life and just focuses on her health. 
if she had a relationship she
wouldnt be so focused on her health' that is exactly his thoughts i can read him like a book.
how does he know ive not had relationships? how does know i even want a guy? 
had he not thought i could be lesbian? (not that I am!!!!)
that guy is full of rudeness
so I said "i have been close with guys but Ive never taken it further"
doctor "fair enough, how come you havent had sex before?"
WHAT!!!!? how personal is that!!!?
so I said "because I havent had a boyfriend and im not into one-night-stands"
doctor "theres other ways to have sex than o-"
I interrupted "yes I know" 
so eventually I got what I needed but yeesh i wish hadnt bothered!!!!
I hate that guy >.> whats it to him
ive been ill, im re-building my life and a boyfriend hasnt been on the agenda is all
i could never see the point getting someone involved in my life when i had 
just myself to think of and get better i felt i wouldnt be giving them
my full attention, it wouldnt be fair on them
i wouldnt turn guys away now. but once people get to know they'd run for the hills XD

tonight Im gonna do some dance practice~
i uploaded a dance today actually~
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TOHM0CivBQs

Tomorrow is the weekend~
not sure what im doing tho, no doubt be a sado like usual and be by myself
maybe I am in need of a relationship?

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