Evening~
I didn't sleep well again -____-
Just keep waking for no apparent reason
very annoying
I went to school today~ i walked for the first time ever
We started the morning off with english and maths
it was nice to be back and the kids had missed me
but my god none of them this morning wanted to work
it was a real effort for them for some reason so motivating them was proving futile
I thought 'jeez is it gonna be like this all day!?' i seriously hoped not
Assembly came and a lady priest came from our local church
she was christian. im an atheist but people's beliefs doesnt bother me - as long as theyre
not hurting anyone or pushing their faith onto others
She was going on about the church and wanting to do an activity with school
she mentioned that peregrine falcons had nested on the church last year
saying that she had dug a nail in her coffin
cus when she asked "anyone have any questions?" I was cringing in my seat when all the
questions were about the the peregrine falcons and not about god, faith, the church....
It was break so we went in to the staff room, i did some homework. The priest was in the staffroom
too, and no one said a word about the assembly, she was chatting to the head mistress anyway
and it turns out every monday afternoon shes coming in to do faith through art with year 6
great.....
Come lunch time in the staff room - the priest no longer in school
the teachers talked about it no end, i was laughing a lot at what they said XD
After lunch the kids seemed fine and were ready to work thank god
they had made little books (which I did in year 6) and when they completed today
they read them to year 1 (which I also did in year 6) memories~
The towards the end of the day the teacher was talking about Darwin and it bored me to tears
I had a lot of compliments on my outfit and nails today tho~
I left 15mins early as mum was picking me up from school and we were going
straight to the oxygen place~
We got there no hassle and i was early to
the people were lovely and you could help your self to drinks, i had a brew and a wee
signed a form or two and had to wait for 2 more people
when they came, a guy called Frank called us through
Now I knew we had to breathe through a mask
I knew I had to be in a pressured chambered
but just what happened i would never imagine
Mum was with me and was offered to be in the tank with me and 2 other woman
i told them she wasnt to come in due to her claustrophobia
So when frank called us up to the tank I sat in and mum sat with me i was like "eh?"
she said "I want to understand what you will be going through"
So frank told us the basics
the tank would be pressurized as if we were flying at 16,000ft
he would not be able to open the tank until it de-pressurized
we would be in there for 90mins
we had to breathe using the mask but we could take it off at any point to breathe 'normally'
we were to knock on the tank if we needed help there was a window to do hand signs - thumbs up for 'im ok' palm to say 'stop pressurizing a moment and thumbs down to say 'stop ive had enough'
So I got all strapped up, i was taking it in my stride heck i was nervous, i had never breathed using a mask before. i hadnt been pressurized before well not since an airplane when i was 10 years old.
Mum left the tank I had my manga book, i got the hang of breathing through a mask - i didnt enjoy it tho to be honest. And I was good to go. We got told our ears my hurt like they do when your on an airplane. fair enough. my ears used to hurt on the plane but soon adjusted.
Frank shut the door. I was with two woman and masks. All was fine until the pressurizing began
My ears started to hurt so I did what I could to relieve them but it wouldnt go away
steadily they got worse and worse..I looked at the 2 woman and they were fine? How?
why was i suffering. I read signs on the inside of the tank saying "dont suffer in silence" "tell us if you have a problem, if you dont say we dont know"
I tried to endure the pain - i have a high pain threshold
i kept telling myself "it will go, you will adjust" but it wasnt. the pain grew and grew
i questioned myself "can ears bleed?" then the pressure went to my head, my sinuses.
it got to bad that i started to feel faint i tried to get the woman to tell frank to stop
i couldnt take my hands off my ears as it was too painful
she got franks attention i was doing the who thumbs down as much as i could
He stopped the pressurizing but i was in agony
simply I WANTED OUT
He did a mime of holding your nose
i couldnt do it cus i couldnt let go of my ears i just wanted to get out
i was in so much pain, i cant remember the last time i felt so much pain
i think it would have been a more pleasant experience having my ears removed
apparently mum had looked through the glass window and said to him "shes in pain shes upset"
so eventually he asked "do you wanna come out?"
YES FREAKIN' YES THAT'S WHAT IVE BEEN TRYING TO TELL YOU MAN!!!!2
Now I had the task of waiting for the pressure to stabilize so I could get out
i felt faint from the amount of pain, i had tears down my eyes i was hot and felt like i was gonna be sick. i was soooooo grateful mum had gone with me and waited as well
i was in there 20mins no way on earth could i have survived 90mins
when i came out i told mum i needed to go out for fresh air i was hot and fainty
i had had the life sucked out of me i was shattered and distressed
the woman asked me "do you suffer with your sinuses?"
I replied "i do actually, and even more so during hayfever season"
she said "if i had known that i wouldnt have let you have gone in there as it can hurt"
well thanks for telling me now love. bit late after i put myself through that
we left, i came home, showered, sweet cup of tea and just dyed
I can not wait for bedtime
Mum would like me to return to the place
she sees it as too good to miss up
but only after i address my sinus problems - god knows what that involves
i have never experienced pain so horrific in my life
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