I'm so tired, emotionally drained and just not myself
which I suppose is how tiffin is also feeling
After yesterday feeling a bit more positive about his situation
today he doesn't seem as good.
He had managed to eat a bit in the night
He had drank. He had produced poos so his stomach IS working
and it looked quite positive this morning.
I felt he would be fine to stay home instead of another day hospitalized.
We had a vets appt at 9am
There was a lady waiting with us who had 2 ginger piggies ^^ so sweet~
The vet saw tiffin and said that he would like for tiffin to try stay at home
so I was relieved
We were given 2 medications to feed to his + his syringe food
I got home and let tiffin go out into the garden, the first time in days
I thought he'd enjoy that and I hoped he would eat plants and grass
but he ran straight to his hutch.
and thats where he stayed...
Me and mum have been giving him his meds, syringe fed him heck we even mashed banana down just to try and syringe feed that into his mouth because today he seems to have gone backwards.
but we can't work out why he refuses to eat.
There is no issue, I just don't understand it at all
and looking at him today he just looked like
he'd given up. All he wanted to do was crawl into a ball and go to sleep.
I could understand that if he was elderly but he's so young and normally so happy.
The vet had told us that he would like to see tiffin on monday
but to bring him in sooner if we had concerns
I told mum today that I think he needs to go to the vets tomorrow because he isnt right
and it is heart breaking to see him so broken and poorly
and it goes through your mind "am i doing the right thing?"
I want to keep going with his treatment as theres no issue
its basically like when we have a stomach bug and we go off food and liquids and stay in bed for a few days then we try bits of food and before you know it your eating full meals again
im waiting for him to just bounce back.
I really thought he'd be good today
Im not happy
Im quite depressed with it all
I havent left the house
I havent done much all day i feel very much in a daze
I havent eaten a lot cus i dont want it
food is a huge chore right now
and my depression thoughts are quite loud too
tomorrow i will ring up the vets for an appt
they open at 10am I tried to ring today but they were already shut ><
I hope he is ok through the night
I cant bare knowing he is unwell by himself at night
i just want to keep him with me but he doesnt like my affection right now
he prefers mum -_____- which makes me feel like crap!
Come on tiffin dont give up
I need you so much
I will just be a shell of the person I am if i lose you like this
right im off before i start crying once again
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