Still not eating

 Evening

I  didn't sleep well due to tending to tiffin in the night
but I got up at 8am 
I washed my hair and got stuff ready for my hair cut and to meet with adam
i had my hair cut and felt so much better as i could see again!!!
I got home, got changed, slapped some make-up on and went out to meet adam

i went to pull up to wear I THOUGHT the cafe was...yeah I was wrong
but I asked my mum and brother and they thought it was there also!!
so i txt him to say i was gonna be late due to stupidity 
i rang mum and got her to google where it was and i knew straight away XD
stupid me
and yeah i dont have internet on my phone >< 

we sat and talked 
he treated me to hot chocolate and cake
the cake was an orange Florentine first time ive ever had one and it was so nice
so moist and refreshing and the hot chocolate was really good also
you could see it all being made in front of you
i like independent cafes i never go to chain places

by 1pm i knew i was pushing my luck with the metre on my car
also i needed to get back to feed tiffin 
i felt awful leaving him but adam understood i wasnt leaving cus of him it was
cus i had to get back for my prince~
i said id meet up with him again soon
he walked me to my car, i told him he didnt need to as i knew where my car was XD
then he gave me 2 hugs ^^
he treats me well
i have yet to tell him about my illnesses and my nervous breakdown and losing 2 years of my memory but i cant bring myself to talk about it right now

got home and fed tiffs some banana i had brought for him
i let him play outside he didnt do much but i think he liked being out in the sun :)

I went to bed for some much needed sleep
after i got up and fed tiffs
mum dyed my hair ^^ So my hair is all fixed for my birthday
speaking of my birthday
I was suppose to be going out tomorrow to a vintage fair with mia then out to lunch
but i need to be with tiffin so I am staying at home
I havent even invited my friends over as Im not in the mood to be happy smiley 
i just want to be with tiffin and nurse him to health
my birthday doesnt matter. his life matters

so tonight i will be getting up again for his midnight feedings
gosh it sounds like i have baby!
I have no idea how mother's do it honestly
hats off to them cus its not easy it really isnt
put me off being a parent i can tell you that!

see how my prince is tomorrow
fingers crossed he is ok and no worse!
Tiffin's update

I syringe fed him at 12am and then again at 3am
the 3am feeding was mashed cucumber and i was really surprised to see
him voluntarily taking it! So that was a good sign

I got up at 8am and fed him
he hadnt eaten or drank or produced poos
so I've been mincing different foods down and alternating that with the
recovery food as that stuff constantly cant be nice and i like to think
real fruit and veg has some good vitamins for him

He managed to run round the garden when I went to get him in
which i was impressed at actually he even scaled the steps!
He chest sounds better today and i havent seen him do that awful coughing/sneezing
fit he has been doing over the weeks
so with any luck the anti-biotics are helping

its his stomach that is the greater focus i feel
he just wont eat or drink
the vets said that rabbits have this tenancy to just give up basically
but I dont want to give up yet
he was just the same last month

I plan on syringe feeding him through the night again tonight
as I believe it helps and i feel awful knowing he would go the whole night without food

He didn't go to the vets today as all they would do for him is give him fluids
and syringe feed him which is what i am doing and i feel he would rather be here
than get stressed at the vets
we rang them and kept them updated, they said to come in if he plummets and see how
he is in the morning and to let them know

tomorrow we've said that if he's the same as today that we will continue the treatment
but if he looks like he's gone backwards we may consider putting him to sleep...
Im hoping that wont be the case i just dont want to see him suffer you know?
and im not sure that if he is really bad about hospitalizing him, as would i just be prolonging
a losing battle? its so difficult to know
i like to believe im doing the right thing for him

so today he hasnt eaten or drank independently and hasnt produced poos
not producing poos is a worrying sign
all that comes out his bottom is like water
im sorry to be grim
but i guess if he's only getting mushed food and water then nothing is gonna form
he needs to hurry up and eat!! it is like the vets said they just give up
he would be so much better if he ate he really would
last month when we went through all this it took a week before we saw some
positive signs of recovery
and so far we're on day 3

anyway see how he is tomorrow