Evening~~
I was up til 1am just aching and wanting to die
had enough
i read manga tho
I want to get through my series of Nura rise of the yokai
I havent read it all the way through
I woke up at 6am and drifted back to sleep til 8am
my sleep way disrupted through the night as i was bloody freezing
This morning I found it hard to motivate myself
I went to go see Oz to say "we've been together a whole year!"
but sadly he wanted nothing to do with me -___-
all day ive tried to see him and all day hes blanked me...
getting blanked by my rabbit on a special day sucks
he's with me now tho hes by my feet XD
I wasn't able to take a photo of the pair of us cus i couldnt even stroke him
let alone pick him up!!
I will get him tomorrow i hope!
anyway here is photos of my lovely little boy throughout this last year with him
He is very dear to me and to me and my family we feel we've had him much
longer than just a year
he has settled in so well, quickly and perfectly
its been such a pleasure to have him in my life
i would say his only "bad" quality to him is that he is very very untidy!
but thats nothing compared to his many good qualities
hes loving, he loves the pigs, gentle, has no aggression, playful, likes treats, not fussy with food
hes so lovely and i am very lucky to have him
i hope we have many more years together!
I didnt do much all sodding day
ive been in a bit of a daze really
I was suppose to see adam today as i do every single saturday
he didnt text me last night
and i just felt a bit unwanted, which is rather needy of me i will admit
today i txt him saying i wasnt coming over and he was like "oh ok then"
dont think he was expecting me not to come over
although he had not invited me as of that point
mum found me reading a manga book on my bed
and asked when i was seeing adam i told her i wasnt
she was very surprised and instantly asked what was up
i told her i just felt like i was in my own world and could be doing with seeing everyone
she said it was fair enough but i could instantly see the worry in her eyes
she was worrying about my mental deposition
i told her i was fine and that me and adam hadnt fallen out or anything
adam rang me up but he wasnt that talkative
it took a while for me to get the conversation to flow
just whats up with him? im finding it all very confusing
and when i next see him am i to go back into how everything was
we have had 6 whole days apart which isnt a lot but it feels like 2 weeks
and in that time ive done a lot of thinking prehaps too much thinking
and i dont know where his head is in with all this
i feel i have questions to ask but like i say i could be looking too much into this
he could be totally fine and just been resting what with feeling poorly
it just doesnt feel like hes wanted me much this week and thats strange for him
but it could just be because he was sick. who knows but i do feel a bit muddled with it all
im hoping things will all be alright when we actually meet up
which i said i would see him tomorrow
i just dont feel like im the right frame of mind somehow
after lunch i told myself i wouldnt sleep
even tho my body was heavy and i couldnt think straight
mum said they were going out but she didnt want to leave me
i told her i was fine
i had got paint out and dances up on my laptop to do and what did i go and do
i fell asleep
yup for 90mins
and in that time my parents had been out and come home again and i didnt hear a damn thing
but if it was during the night i guarantee you i would have heard them before they'd even pulled up the drive! its so unfair how i sleep heavy during the day than night
i was annoyed with myself to say the least
as i got nothing done
the girls had to be inside today as it has rained all day
but its bank holiday and its expected sleet for tomorrow and monday!
lovely!
i did manage a 15min walk with mum just for a bit of fresh air
i went through 2 dances which is the most dancing ive done all week
just not feeling it for dancing at the moment
im gonna do some easter nails tonight!
i hope i sleep
tomorrow i am seeing adam i will i will go
gotta do this
but i decided seeing as its easter and we have our residential easter bunny i would
surprise adam and his family by taking Ozwald up before we are invited up
well heck adam has no idea im gonna bring Oz up tomorrow
id like to sleep over as monday is mine and adam's 1st anniversary and it would
be nice if we could wake up together ^^
Evening~
me and mum talked about yoga yesterday
there was a woman in the class who we'd never seen before
and i personally hope to never see again
I get some people breathe deeply i do
but what she was doing was more than deep breathing
she was having some sort of erotic experience!
i swear some of the noises she made should have been X rated!
it was not normal
she was weird
i said to mum "i bet shes a swinger" XD
sick
anyway last night I couldnt sleep
what a shock that is!
I played pokemon in bed aching til 11:30pm
went downstairs and at 1am I came back to bed at 1:30am
I was up for some pain relief and by 3am I was back in bed
I read a manga book, i played pokemon, I read, i coloured busy busy in the night XD
I was woken by the sound of dad ranting about work to mum at 7am
so thats 4 hours sleep
great! at least it 4 hours straight sleep
We did the girls int eh morning then I went food shopping with mum
came back and did some painting
I decided to sit outside with my girls and Oz as well it would seem
he likes to come in the run as well
the girls all behaved anyway then i took maisy out whilst i ate dinner
went to bed after dinner just felt dizzy from being tired
Mum woke me as i'd had 2 hours sleep
woops
i had a brew and went for a walk by myself and got rained on
just hasnt stopped raining since 4pm
i could have told anyone it would rain today and get it right
and you know how i know this?
i dont need any fancy weather computers
i just know its bank holiday weekend
and it ALWAYS rains on bank holiday!
true british fact
since then i showered
and i played pokemon watching john bishop
needed some comedy to laugh at and it does me good to sit
i find it hard to sit and relax!
we had the girls inside for a play as well
which went better than it ever has before
but alice soon kicked off once the food had gone -____-
Since then Ive had dinner and just been with Oz
he's happy bunbun
tomorrow can you believe I would have had him a whole year!!
our 1st anniversary!! It feels much longer tho I have to say
I will take a photo tomorrow i hope
I havent spoken to adam much this week
I last saw him on monday
and i know he's been poorly
but I feel he's been a bit off with me
I could just be reading too much into nothing as woman can do
but usually he's more talkative by txt
last night he said I could sleep over tonight
but today he was like "i forgot to ask my parents"
id he wanted me to stay he'd stay "oh i will just ask my parents"
i could tell he didnt want me over so im not gonna make anything of it
or ask if i can stay cus i aint looking like the needy one
and if he doesnt show much enthusiasm about seeing me tomorrow
then sod it i aint gonna go over as im no ones lap dog just waiting
for when they want me, when it suits
but like i said i could be reading too much into it
I cant remember if i uploaded the picture of the wedding card i made
Evening~
My sleeping went out the window again last night
I ended up getting up at 1am my spine really ached
seriously, spine ache?
so I got up and sorted myself out and played pokemon til 3am
My team is growlithe, pichu, pigeotto, haunter
looking like a solid team just I like to train them up quite high
I went to bed and woke up through out the night then at 7am
but didnt get up til 8am
It was freezing this morning we had such a harsh frost
its been chilly all day
I went back to bed after breakfast
then got up at 12
I moved the run outside onto the other lawn so it was neutral territory
then put a selective toys out like tubes
I first put Maisy in the run
followed by Millie the pair of them didnt notice one another
then I went to put Alice - the dark horse - in the run
but i was stopped as Oz decided he wanted in on the action
I swear he thinks hes a guinea pig sometimes
so he hopped round and when he bumped into a pig he sniffed them then ran off
like he didnt know how to react XD
alice went in the run
so I now have 4 pets in 1 run
Oz soon leaves so Im down to the 3 I did want in the run
the girls are doing well so far
im freezing my ass off
they continue eating the grass
millie and maisy find one another and maisy talks (millie cant)
millie in the end just puts her head down and continues to eat the grass
seeing maisy as no threat shes not arsed, maisy went trotting off
maisy and alice find one another, alice cant help but hiss once but it ends there
maisy talks a lot but no one got hackles up or went for one another
it went well actually for 25 mins until i got far too cold and took maisy away
i have found its a lot easier outside as theres room, no smells, grass to eat
food is an amazing distraction to them XD
I hope it stops raining so I can have another go tomorrow
after lunch I did a lil painting not much
not as much as I wanted to do
I fell asleep as i felt like crap
i woke up to find my mum had dyed my brother's hair
this is twice hes dyed it hes red now well redder than last time
i would like to go blond this year i think
if i go lighter maybe i wont look as pale!
I looked at make up as theres a few sales going on
i brought a lip balm (hate lip stick!)
i brought a sugar scrub which i love and this is strawberry flavoured!!
then I brought an eye shadow set, I know i shouldnt as ive got loads
but it was £8 down from £35!!! i havent heard of the brand but upon looking
did i find out it wasnt a cheap brand i got the last one
and its got nutrients in it which considering how dry and sore my eyes are from
being tired and rubbing them, that i would love to give it a try
its pinks and browns :D
this came in the post today
2 hair bobbles i brought online
for my Rika Jougasaki cosplay it was the closest i could find to her hair bobbles
and im impressed with em
tomorrow not sure what im doing
painting hopefully instead of wasting the day sleeping
i doubt i will sleep tonight having a cold and 2 sleeps
yoga was good today we had our usual supply as karen is having an operation :(
i havent been yoga in 2 weeks but i wasnt stiff as i do it so regularly by myself ^^
Konbanwa~~
I had a great time at mia's last night
I originally told my mum Id be home around 9ish
it wasnt until I checked the time did I realise it was 9:50pm!!
woops XD
we were talking about all sorts
mainly me if im honest
we got on to the subject of how our relationship used to be before I got sick
how fast paced, hyper active, cut throat,highly strung and aggressive my behaviour was.
in a way I know im a better person for becoming sick
even tho that is incredibly hard for me to admit
when i first got sick i considered my life over and ruined
but now i can see how ive come out of it all
and we said how our relationship is stronger and healthier now than it ever has been
I got home at 10:15pm and got my Oz out
I swear he seemed to know he was out late as he was really giddy it was cute
he was hungry as he hadnt ate in a few hours
i have no idea why he wont take himself home for food when he is capable
as we have seen him do it!
so i took him home for food
I went to bed at 11pm
woke up at 12:10pm
seriously!?
one stinking hour's sleep
ridiculous and a pee take
and worst of all i had to get up there was no getting round that i had to get up
pinks was eating XD
i did 15 mins of yoga but i was exhausted mentally and physically
i sat and played pokemon, had cereal, had hot chocolate
and 2am i went back to bed
didnt wake til 10am! so i slept for like 8 hours straight!
mum didnt bother waking me which i was grateful for as it let me sleep
I had a cool dream of being a werewolf and in my human form
i could even ride a broom stick
such a cool dream i didnt want to wake out of i was loving it
and when i did wake i found my blanket half on the floor and 3 toys on the floor
usually everything is how i leave it so i must have been moving in my sleep as a wolf XD
it was so great to get up this morning and my eyes to feel just about normal instead of sore and trying to stay open which is how they are 95% of my life
I got dressed and went for a 45min walk with mum
came home and ate my lunch/breakfast then continued with a bit of drawing
i told mum id like a two canvases a rectangle one and a square one and does she fancy coming shops with me for them
TK MAXX has canvases but its very hit and miss what they have
I could not believe my luck that they had what I wanted
it was perfect and I got them both for a total of £5
£30 worth of canvases for £5!!!
amazing quality also
I got home and I started painting the background white
and then drew/traced a design
its all drawn it just needs painting now
im doing a battle scene from pokemon crystal!
playing on it last night i was leveling up my growlithe and my egg hatched
it was Pichu!! training that up! I was lucky to get a pichu ^^
tonight i might do some more digital drawing
not 100% sure really id like to draw last nights dream but maybe a lil tricky
theres a program on tv at 10pm called "are you autistic?"
mum said we should watch it and said "im sure your dad is autistic, but you (me) i have no idea wha you are" -_____- thank you mother
might try and watch it with em XD
tomorrow not sure what im doing as of yet
not sure if i have yoga or anything really
might start painting!
here is my Pikachu make-up for mondays pub quiz!
Afternoon~~
Last night
me and adam got to the pub 10 mins before tara
we all ate and I had macaroni cheese i havent had it in over a decade!
we sat and talked
no one else had dressed up so when the quiz master came round to see us
he instantly gave us points
we were 75 points up before we'd even started!
we went round the corner to get good seats for the quiz
first round was harry potter, safe to say i didnt know any really
well not quick enough anyway!
next round - video games
here we go!
I got quite a lot right it was like me and Jamese against one another who was
quickest to put the answer
we were leading through both the first and second round
i didnt think we'd win i was just happy that i knew some answers!
last round - general knowledge - ugh
actually i did know some and we got a lot of points and ended up winning
yes we actually won!!!
we won £30 worth of food voucher!
tara and james have been many more times than us and highest theyve done is 2nd prize
mine and adams 2nd pub quiz and we win!! well happy!
I dropped adam off and came home
I had a crappy night
i cant even be bothered to write about it
as im getting sick and very tired of it all, having to get up in the night
i was so shattered in the night that i couldnt read or play DS or do yoga
i was dead but still had to get out my bed!!
This morning i have been on patrol in my own room
I have hoovered, changed my bed, washed blankets, washed toys, polished
i have got a fresh room
i kept smelling parts of my room and i wasnt happy with that
i take after my mum being a clean freak XD
I went to Karen's at 1pm
I havent seen karen in ages!!!!
it was good to have a massage and to catch up with everything
i feel so much better
came home showered and had a brew
since then i have been drawing
thinking of drawing a lil picture to go in adam's card
but only have a week to get it finished!
wow a week and we would have been going out a year!
i havent seen him today
tomorrow not sure what im doing
tonight im seeing mia and giving her her curtains ive made shorter
my nails this week~
Evening
I didnt get to sleep til 5am woooooo
go me -______-
I was shattered, played a fair bit of pokemon crystal
mum woke me with the birthday girl at 9am
so I'd had 4 hours sleep
I went back to bed after breakfast
When I got up I showered and I went shops with mum
she wanted some make-up that was it really
I came home and I took a pretty birthday photo of Alice~
Cant believe she's 3!!!
totaly and utterly in her own wonderland
she hasnt got a clue whats happening round her 99% of the time
but we love her shes currently our biggest piggie too
Im just about to get ready for pub quiz
which involves a bit ok pokemoning myself XD
I will take photos if it turns out any good!
setting off at 5:15pm which is an hour from now
picking adam up and were going to meet tara and james!
were having food out too should be fun again
its hurts like hell to sit for 4 hours tho
im such a fidget butt tho even in front of my friends
not sleeping at adams
he is still poorly so his coughing is gonna keep me up
so im gonna just stay awake til ive wound down enough which could
be anywhere in the AM hours
as i wont get home til near 11pm
joy
its worth it tho
tomorrow hopefully swimming, karen for massage and then mia
busy busy!
Konbanwa~~
I didn't sleep well
I was up a lot during the night
but I didnt have to leave my bed I was just awake in bed
I read and stuff to try make myself tired
but I had a cruddy night I was tired and the clocks went forward today
so we lost an hour in the day
I ended up not stopping this morning anyway
Adam looked a bit better anyway
I collected him at 10:45am
we went into the city centre
we shopped round and I picked up most stuff I wanted/needed
I picked up lighter hair dyes, but im always conscious of buying 'blond' hair dye
as i never like that cheap fake blond some girls lust after
i just want lighter hair but they dont seem to do light gingery/reddy colours
i can give em a go theyre wash out anyway
I went to pick up an E.L.F highlighter for my face and it was the size of a £2 coin
£5 they wanted
forget it. I know that was probably tight of me but I felt it was steep for how much I got
and it was only highlighter, I have 2 highlighters so its not a must have
I picked up this top I saw in H&M last time i went town
So cute isnt it! has kitties and food on it! my brother liked it X3
we went forbidden planet and I noticed they had vol21 of Natsume's book of friends
I was convinced I have up to vol20 because that is what wikipedia had said
was the final volume of natsume so what was vol21 doing there? /:
I rang my mother
my dad answer "what do you want?"
"could I have mum please?"
"i dont know where she is" then i heard him yelling 'your daughter is on the phone she wont talk to me'
mum came on and I said "its not something he could help with"
turns out I did have til vol20 so I picked up vol21 and Noragami and Alice as in forbideen planet its always 3 for 2 on manga so makes sense to pick up 3 its cheaper
I want pandora hearts but they volumes i need are never in stock
we had lunch i had beans on toast
we went to two GAME shops as the first we went into didnt have Okami on XBOX one in stock then second GAME had okami in but it was the last copy!! Adam brought it for me ^^
I havent played Okami in years, I brought it on a whim when it first came out on playstation 2
and it have been my favourite game of all time I love it
we came back to my house and sat outside with the pets with a brew
Oz was happy boy and the girls really went at that grass XD
we went to adam's house and had a brew
then i went upstairs, almost fell asleep waiting for okami to download
then i played it for 50mins
i could have stayed there all night if need be
I was invited to dinner but I didnt stay as adam was looking rough and I need him
good for tomorrow as its pub quiz
tomorrow not sure what im doing during the day
but its pub quiz at night!!! dressing up a bit pikachu themed!
Evening~
I fell asleep around 11:30pm and woke up at 1am
seriously in need of pain killers
I had spent the evening rolling around in pain
I wasnt prepared to go through the night doing that
not on my friday night
so I took a mixture of pain killers
I went back to bed at 3am I had been playing pokemon
and started Zelda too
I woke up at 8am and I felt rough
but I think that was due to the amount of pain killers I had consumed
all well
I was suppose to be going city centre with adam
I did feel crappy but I would have dragged my corpse there
im good at dragging my corpse you see
I txted him and I could tell her was easy ether way
he was feeling rough from his cold and sore throat
I went to collect him at 11am and we went to a town
and we walked round the charity shops then went for lunch
i had totally left my purse in the bag i take to the city centre usually
ugh what a total idiot!!
so he paid for my lunch
then we went to his house
i fell asleep at the end of his bed cus i was aching and tired and tired of aching
didnt know what he fell asleep as well! we werent cuddled up or anything
we'd been playing pokemon and both just went
i could tell he wasnt feeling good
i did his mums nails and left
i was offered dinner but i didnt want to drain adam any more
i know when im shattered i just want people to leave
i came home and began working on mia's curtains
cutting them on my kitchen floor
i started stitching and my parents said they were going for a walk so i went with em
saves me going later, seeing as i went for a half hour walk by myself
at 8:45pm last night
I came back and finished the curtains i will drop them off tomorrow on the way to adams
i made myself some dinner, a salad and watched an episode of Kara no Kyokai whilst
eating it, to say how gruesome and bloody it is it didnt put me off XD
just gonna be with my Ozwald and stuff tonight
i hope I sleep god I hope I sleep
tomorrow we are going city centre
shops dont open til 11am so im going for adam at 10:30am
should be an alright day hopefully
he said he wants to go to a buffet for lunch but i said its pointless whilst
he has a cold and cant taste much it would be a waste
thats all really
Evening~
I took a sleeping tablet
yup I certainly did
I went over to Mia's house and had a real good time
I laughed so much my face hurt
She gave me curtains to make smaller
we said we'd try go to a convention this year
and that we'd meet up next week
I came home and knew at 9:30pm I was not gonna sleep considering
i had just walked in from laughing and had Oz to sit with and to wind down
so I dosed myself up
I only woke up once!
mum said this morning I had more colour in my face
simply from sleeping pretty well
Me and mum popped to the shops in the morning
I got 2 nail varnishes and some paint nothing special
then we had lunch
she went out so i danced but my dad came in and so i went for a shower
adam had rung whilst he was I was in the shower so I called him back
he basically didnt have his shift tonight he'd finished work at 2:30pm
instead of 11pm. He had no money. No house keys.
what an idiot!
his parents had taken a day trip to derbyshire which is different for them
as theyre both usually at work on a friday
so I would have certainly took my house keys and money just in case they couldnt
pick me up that night. but it didnt seem to register with adam
he sounded awful he said he was full of cold and had a sore throat
so no wonder he didnt think, his head is full of cotton wool
so I told him give me a few mins i will come get him
i spent 2 mins drying my dripping hair (i called him straight from the shower)
and set off. I picked him up and brought him to my house
so i collected his butt
at 3:30pm his parents said theyre come home (i reckon they came home for him)
so I told him i was going nigels at 4:15 could he wait and he did
but he didnt look so good
he never ever gets friday nights off and the day he does and hes sick!
hes got tomorrow off too which im glad about as it means he can rest
i said id go into the city centre tomorrow
he insists on coming
i might drop him off home instead of spending all day with him
do his mum's nails on sunday
my nails this week
nigel's was alright not too painful
i told him he gave me bruises last week XD
i was honestly quite hyper when i got to his house
no sugar binge was needed it would seem
i was just like on a high
and i said to adam which nigel then said to me later
'do you think you'd always be like that if it wasnt for all the problems with your health you have?'
any honestly, yeah i do
ive always been bouncy bubbly and very active
never one for keeping still and always running around
so maybe if i wasnt sick id just be a woman with ADHD XD
i came home and i ache quite nicely now
so i can say so long to sleep tonight
ugh
dont know what to do with myself as when ive had this treatment
i ache so i move around a lot anyway but also nigel says i have to not sit for long periods of time
so im like a fidget butt but dont know what to do with myself
suck sucks
anyway tomorrow is a city visit
its gonna be a lil chilly and rainy
so im wearing tracksuit and hoodie and cat ears of course X3
Evening
Last night when I just finished my diary I recall I wrote that
I felt quite sick, as soon as I finished my diary I ran to the toilet
where just loads of water came out my mouth it was gross and I shouted for
my brother to get mum and i really thought i was gonna be sick after all these years
she came with water, a fan and cold flannel
good old mum shes a saviour
even tho i was shaking and sweating i didnt vomit
my god i was grateful and it did pass but that whole thing that lasted 10 minutes
drained me for the rest of the night
just what the hell was that all about!? im never that nauseous
so grateful i wasnt sick
my brother asking my mum "has she drank something? is she on new medication? is she pregnant?"
right ok thanks for that
1st I dont drink, 2nd I am on new medication as of 4 weeks ago, thirdly id die if i was pregnant!
I managed to stay in my bed the whole night
woo but was waking up feeling off and cold
i woke up from 6am and i felt sickly but nothing like last night
i went school not wanting to go as its so dull its like watching paint dry
and im in a really uncomfortable seat
i dont get to move round the classroom im just stuck in a seat for hours on end
i came home at lunch and moaned at mum
when i came home from school i was so tired and exhausted that i cried
and said to mum i didnt want to go back to school
she said i was feeling negative cus i was feeling so knackered
but i was stressed with it all
with the decision on whether to go back or not
at 4:40pm i rang the agency and told them i wasnt going back to school
that i felt poorly theyre always a bit arsy about it but i felt like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders dramatically i can always tell when i enjoy school, can just get the day done or simply its not happening and im not going back
i got in contact with adam and mia and im seeing them tomorrow
i felt so crap about myself i felt i needed to go "sod the world" and enjoy myself
I had Oz in my room he was happy bunny as i didnt get to sit with him last night
he kept trying to wee on the sofa and this morning i saw him before work
im gonna see him tonight too i like making him happy hes cute when hes happy
i sat later on doing the 1st anniversary card for adam
here is it semifinished
i have completed it since and i will photograph it
i uploaded a dance too
ive been watching live videos as they boost my spirits up a lot
they truly do
live videos are far better than music videos
todays choice was Yuki Kajiura including Kalafina and FictionJunction
amazing voices id love to be able to have a voice like Yuki-sans
i have no idea what i sound like singing as i dont sing i never do
just never think to do it XD
tomorrow seeing adam then mia~
not gonna go yoga i need some R&R
mum said "youve only worked 2 days" but i cant tell you how crap i feel inside lately
Konbawan~~
I went to bed at 9:30pm
I woke up near midnight with a massive muscle spasm
in my calf i woke up almost screaming i havent known pain
in a muscle spasm like it, yes muscle spasms hurt but this
felt like the muscle had literally twisted inside out
i seemed to conk out and woke up at 3am
i did try to sleep but i ended up getting up at 3:45am
i went to bed 4:30am and just dosed til when i got up at 7am
man i was tired but i knew id get the day finished
I got up and ready for school
i said hello to Ozwald who gave me licks
i set off for school and was shocked at how many sodding road works were around
turns out the sudden snow we had over the weekend has burst a few pipes under the road
great i love more traffic lights to sit at in the morning
school was alright
i was just doing my usual really at the school
so year 4 for me
it was a lil slow at times but its a lot easier on my body than working
in the youngest class and i got 70mins for lunch!
thats bloody unheard of! i came home for lunch which helps break the day up
i finished school with no issues and they were happy with my work as usual
i got home and sat with a tea and my girls to help unwind
i fell asleep which i wasnt best pleased about as its gonna make it
hard to sleep tonight
i have struggled to eat last two days
food seems really hard to get down me
i got all of my dinner ate but i feel like im gonna bring it up
i havent been sick since i was 15 i intend to keep it that way!
think its just working
it takes a massive toll on my body and i think because im not sleeping
and stuff its just made it all the worse
i need to work otherwise i wont have any money or a life
i refuse to be a kept woman which is what mum suggests for my future to be
not sure what to do tonight
i went to round Oz in but hes sat on that bloody paint bucket behind his hutch
and practically rolled his eyes at me
so sod him
i know i will cave and ask mum to round him in >.>
tomorrow i have got school all day again~
Evening~~
I went to bed at midnight
I had tried to wind down and did my nails also
At 1:30am I had to get up for pain killers -____-
just get old doing this all the time
I didnt stay up for long i was too tired
to tired for DS and yoga
so I went to bed and kept waking up
woke up at 7am to the sound of dad getting up and i thought
'i aint getting up yet damn it'
so I got up at 8am
luckily the snow was thawing very quickly even tho it was just 2c
I was tempted to go back to sleep this morning
i was so tired and my eyes stung big style
I did a few jobs round the house that needed to be done
mum came home for lunch and i had lunch with her
when she left i put pinks outside and sat with maisy outside on my knee
she was having a hair cut!
the sheer amount of fur my god! she was really good tho almost like she knew what
i was doing for her
its grown too long and too thick shes struggling to maintain it
guineas dont wash great anyway XD
i put her outside
she needs a bath next
I went into my room and danced
i recorded 4 dances!
which will be uploaded weds fri sat sun this week
i seriously had a lot to catch up on and i didnt even get all the ones ive finished recorded!
i was sweaty sweat sweaty
got a phone call from the agency im needed in a local school i was going to this thursday and friday but all this week full time
yeesh thats gonna take its toll but i will do it!
i went for a shower
i sat and had a brew outside with Oz
it was cold but the fresh air was nice
theres only so much central heating you can take after a while
I then sat at my desk doing the card for adam
i got really quite far with it actually so i was pleased with myself on that
i have 13 days left to finish it which im sure it will get finished in time
wow only 13 more days and we would have been going out a whole year
not one argument or fall out
strange relationship XD i do find it amusing that everyone seems to think adam has his hands full taking me on tho
since then just made myself salad for dinner
not hungry really
ive been like it past few days but still shovel food down me to keep my body going
but could quite easily go without food
so tomorrow it's a full day of school!
i could be anywhere and everywhere in the school they said which is perfect for me
just hope i wont be too shattered
got this skirt in the post i thought it was more orange than that
but i still like it its high quality and only £6!
