I didn't sleep well
even after going for another 20min run which i totally enjoyed
I used to run all the time before I got ill, not doing it and not suffering afterwards
has almost got me addicted to the feel of it again
So I felt I was gonna sleep last night
and around 11pm I did in fact nod off to only wake up at 12:15....
i had only been asleep a sodding hour
I was gutted to say the least
what had woke me was i was having a dream that all my pain had come flooding back
and it was agonising and everywhere. I was screaming whilst in the fetal position
so no wonder I woke up
I went and got up til 2am
I was tired for school
School was maths all morning as there was parents coming in to be taught maths by the school children, all a bit of fun and its good the do such events
came home for lunch
during lunch I had got an appointment to see the psychiatrist on 30th May, was shocked to the text message said May and not June!
I rang up a school for a visit after half term as theyre advertising for a job
brought some make up off ebay
busy lunch
and after lunch I was quite literally dropping off in class
it was like a green house in there and it was boring
so at break i went outside for a bit to wake me up which did help
the days are long and dull but im over half way done now!
I got called a teenager twice to day by students XD
I left school and went to adams house
we talked and he cuddled me a lot like i was gonna disappear or something
i find it so hard to give the affection back
i left before his parents got home otherwise id never get away
since then ive caught up with a few things on my laptop
but i think i will do yoga and dance tonight instead of running again
good night for running but i dont wanna ache too much for yoga tomorrow XD
Tomorrow is school and then yoga~
Here is the 2nd tshirt I got from Bodyline
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