I didn't sleep til gone 1am
mind was going 100mph
I have no say or control on my mind lately
Mum woke me up at 7am and I could not be arsed with my day
but I got on with it as you do
My morning was fine really just maths and english which both bore me
especially sitting one to one its dull
I like to be moving around
I went home for lunch i had left over BBQ meat and a yogurt
then had stomach ache typically
I arrived back at school just as the kids were getting back into class!
I was working with the head teacher he was teaching but i didnt feel shy or
intimidated cus ive gone past the stage of caring really XD
My afternoon was a lil better as there were colouring crayons involved
there was assembly and then play so for 40mins i had nothing to do
so i gave myself jobs to do as i couldnt sit in the staffroom twiddling my thumbs
id be bored outta my wits
End of the day came and i was happy id finished my day
I got home and sat with Oz for a lil while but its so warm i didnt wanna make him warm
I designed nails for this weekend coming
here are this weeks~
My mind is so busy but my body is tired so im trying to give myself jobs to do
I made myself salad for dinner
whilst i was eating my mother had done the washing up...i was peeved as its now MY job
i told her cus i wanted her to know how much it annoyed me and that i dont appreciate her babying me by doing it. shes gotta learn. tough love and all that.
Now im sat in my room wondering what to do with myself as its not even 6pm yet
and im already losing focus with it all
i cant see the good work ive done today all i see is what could i be using my time for now
its really difficult
Ive made an appt with Nigel for acupuncture on friday straight after school
as i think i want to try him for some help to calm my mentalness down
tomorrow school again
i should be then going out with adam and his work mates but im not going
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