Kanzashi

Evening~

I woke up at 6am on the dot
just how am I doing it?
like a built in alarm clock or something
its rather annoying
I got up at 7am and made a last minute decision to 
go for a run, man did I sweat
very sweaty afterwards 

My morning, I watched my brother pack for his week
holiday in Greece which he goes on tomorrow
I put some songs on my ipod
and I cant remember what else I did 

the afternoon, adam didnt go to his interview
decided against the crappy job that is was
so i went to see him, but before i did i went and had ago on
my brother's BMX
man its hard and i physically dont have the strength for a lot he can do on it
when he first started doing it i told him his muscles had improved and more defined
i can bloody see why now! i knew it was hard but man its hard
then I went to adam's

we sat had a brew
then we went to play crash bandicoot but i kept dying
and lost patience with the whole damn thing
so i sulked on adams bed
he shortly joined me when he kept dying as well XD
we both sucked today on that blasted game!
he cuddled me and then i felt off

these tablets are awful
i feel sick a lot, i have a banging headache, i cant think straight
and im shattered all the damn time
im hating them
and they havent improved anything as of yet
sucks
how long do i give it? im thinking to give it to the 14th July which is when
i see the psychiatrist at least then i would have given them a good shot
but the 14th is a whole month away and then some

Not sure what im doing tomorrow fully
i know id like to change my bed, clean my room and maybe see adam
i know mum wanted to hang out but i might do that with her on friday
friday mia wants to see me as well

I took a photo of the Kanzashi I made, it's ok i guess

i had an 'episode' as well today
first time in a while and came so fast and out of no where