Kitty Felting

Konbanwa~~

I woke up through the night and then been awake since 6am
good job i went to bed at 9pm
sick of these early mornings theyre making the days so damn long
these hot days are long as it is never mind putting in extra hours
i got up at 7 anyway

I did some japanese this morning
feel like i want to go back to basics as some stuff hasnt stuck 
then I was looking at Kanzashi and how i wanted to have ago making one
ive two hair clips of  it but fancied having a go myself
so went out to the shops i could feel everywhere heating up
think it reached 31c today
mental
but i guess this is the first proper summer we've had in years 

I managed to buy some ribbon but the shop didnt sell ribbon wide enough
for what i needed it for but i decided id have ago with the widest they sell
i got home and began
yeah doesnt quite work the same when its not as wide /:
so i went on ebay to look at the right width ribbon but it wasnt cheap
and it probably works out the same price as actually buying a finished
kanzashi hair clip 
so not sure what i will do there 

i had some lunch even tho i still felt like tossing my breakfast up
sick of feeling sick!
then adam said to come over at 1:15pm
not sure what we'd do but to see him anyway
and seeing as i had the rest of the day to kill i decided id go see him

i managed to see mum just before i left as she'd been into the city centre
with my dad for clothes for him, mum had kindly brought me a new pair of pajamas too
i was grateful as theyre dusky pink and with stars on and in the sales! 
and good quality too as im sick of buying cheap pajamas that dont last

i got to adams and i sat talking a bit to his parents 
but adam wasnt joining in as usual and his dad had the cycling on
and i wasnt in the mood for that crap so i left the room and adam came and made
me a brew i said to drink them upstairs were we went to play Crash Bandicoot
i laughed so hard as adam must have died 25 times trying to do this jump
and on his last life i said "can i try?" i did it first time XD
oh yeah im that amazing 
i laughed at him 

i painted his mum's nails i did whales on them which were quite
successful actually and then adam suggested going out for a drink
so i reluctantly agreed to go walk out in the heat
i had pineapple juice, he offered me cake but i didnt want cake
i couldnt be doing with the after math of me eating some cake - mentally

we walked back to his house
and i was annoying him best i could until in the end he told me to go upstairs
i went cus i knew or hoped id get a bit of a play fight
and we did have a bit of one but without getting stupidly hot
i kinda stopped tho half way as something dawned on me
one point adam smacked my butt i said
"hands off man"
he said "no"
I said "hands off, your trespassing" 
he said "im not trespassing, i own your butt"
i said "no its my butt"
he said "nope its mine cus you're mine forever and ever."
and this is the bit what got me
"cus you always say no one else would, everyone else would run a mile"
and that sentence is in fact one of 'my' sentences i say
about myself
having heard it said by someone else hit home a bit for some reason
it didnt hurt exactly it was more like a worry and how much truth is in that sentence
without adam would i truly have no prospect with any other man?
and im not talking about my looks as i wouldnt want any man to like me solely on looks
its more i have my mental issues and my excellent power in repelling men
if someone else got to know my issues would they truly leave?
it just suddenly gave me a lot to think about
adam asked what i was thinking about, i replied "nothing"

after a cuddle i decided to leave
came home and its still hot
my brother has got a girl over
not been introduced but not arsed

tomorrow not sure what im doing as of yet
think its gonna be 25c tomorrow so maybe getting a lil break from
the full on heat

this is the needle felting i did yesterday

made a kitty, my needle felting needs practice!