Ice Flag

Evening~

I ached man in bed
took 3 types of pain killers to numb my pain
i did fall asleep around 11pm so wasnt too bad
it was yoga that made me ache
karen worked us hard
but she did the dragon dance with us which was good as its like tai chi
and its movements you learn in a sequence so its like a dance to me ^^

I woke up at 7:45am
felt sad about not running
i want to run, badly
its crushed me in a way as i feel its another thing my body or illnesses
have taken from me, and over the years they have both taken A LOT from me
running has been added to the list

I rang up the chiropractic clinic my parents use and have used for over 10 years now
im going on thursday to go see if anything can be done to help my joints
didnt like the feel of even my shoulders knocking in and out of place during yoga
sick of it

got ready to go city centre with mum
i was numb to the world today, in my own bubble as it were
its like drowning and you get so far under you just give up and let yourself drown
im not happy and havent been happy for a long time
i do feel like giving up
no aspect of my life is giving me happiness or if it is i dont feel it
like i said, numb

so we got into the city around 10;30am
mum got the bits she needed
i brought a jumper in the sale for £7 and a iridescent t-shirt for £6
never worn a t-shirt like it, its see through but shimmers i liked it
and said id wear it on holiday as you can see everything
i have a bralette i can wear under it 

we  came home for lunch i didnt want food but ate anyway
it keeps raining today like random scattered showers very annoying as girls havent been out and i was gonna go for a walk

i did some sewing 
i eventually got the border on took a while but got there
made the straps for it to hang off as well
so now it needs a good iron, attaching to the backing blanket then quilting and done~
looking good~ 
quilting will be difficult tho i know it will

i sat and had a brew sat with Oz on the sofa whilst drinking it
he looked shattered XD
eventually i laid along side him reading my kindle
didnt realise he fell asleep whilst i was stroking him!!
bless him! never had a rabbit fall asleep whilst touching them!
so sweet he is lazy

i did a little bit of drawing, digitally
need to photograph yesterdays pen drawing

looked at dances i want to do
want something else to learn for some reason XD
so ive picked Predianna Let Me Alone
did it a few years back but i like the dance and want to try again
knowing i can do better these days~ 

tomorrow i would be doing my 11th park run with adams parents in a wood
the whole thing is a kick in teeth 
be weird not going
i will find another way to entertain myself

tonight i might start that dance
in my room, havent danced in my room for such a long time
might read manga too!!!
might do japanese too ive been currently cermenting in my katakana and hiragana
just about nailed them
i can read them no trouble but remembering to write them and their strokes
is something i need to cerment in

this came in the post today

flag that basically says 'ice' kinda like the japanese version of a sign saying 'shaved ice' or 'ice cream' what i make out anyway, just see it on anime all the time 
saw one on ebay for £2.80 and wanted it
not sure what i'll do with it yet but i will think of something