More energy again

Evening~~

I slept a lil better last night
I had sat and watched episode 3 of Picnic at Hanging Rock
with my parents, its set in Australia and that place looks so different yet familiar to this country but the outback looks scary man such a strange place. I have no idea where the series will go but im still watching it, I like the head mistress she kicks ass man 
If I ever became a teacher id be like her XD
Im always impressed by those who manage to command respect but have gained it through words, what they say, intellect and mannerisms not just brute force and yelling 

anyway today i woke up at 7:30am as usual for me
i didnt go for a run and felt a lil out of it
i decided id dance so by 9:30am i was in dance gear
I went though a few dances and I started Beat Generation 
hard man, did up to 30 seconds but i have a lot to improve on those 30 seconds but i know it will come with practice, im one the tricky bit next. Its insane the next bit -____-
I went for a shower 

I then started sewing fabric to make my kimono patchwork blocks
i can surely say i have made just 1 today and its much neater than my practice too
I made such a mess that expanded from my room to the landing
i was impressed with myself ^^

I made myself salad for lunch
its been so hot lately i feel ive got through no end of salad XD
it was touching 30c today and awful humidity 
sweat over the littlest of things

adam turned up from work
i say turned up as i wasnt actually sure if he was gonna come over or not
he never said!
my room was a tip (not that we spend any time in my room)
i had slacks on which were covered in Oz's fur
and my hair was messy
apart from that i was great XD
in all honesty i dont care, hes seen me in worse a state than that
but i was glad i got one patchwork finished so i showed him my mess as i like to show someone the mess i make, i usually show mum as she HATES mess
i cleared up in 5mins cus im a pro at tiding 
adam had given me one of his shirts to sleep with as i havent been sleeping i thought it was thoughtful of him so i put it on my bed for later, whilst he was in my room i showed him Beat Generation video on my laptop and he just said "good luck" XD

we had a brew and went for a hot walk
i havent been able to sit still all day
my energy seems to out of whack it goes high and low today
my pain is a lot better too 
strange 
oh and i spoke to the psychiatrist finally and told him i wasnt taking the antipsychotic medication anymore and he was fine with it and told me to still come to the appt i have with him
i dont want to lose his help

adam told me off a couple of times on the walk saying i walk too fast
but it cant be helped he was slow cus he was playing pokemon go
we had drinks when we came in then i went to his house
found it dull tho as i was only there and hour and a half and i feel he spent most of that talking to his dad about football and doing a hammering job for his dad but i kept myself busy doing yoga and eating oreos and then strawberries X3

i left for home as i had yoga with the ever lovely karen
shes crazy
like literally can tell when shes back
no one works you like she does
like bootcamp 
id had enough but got through it some how
and it was boiling in there
a room with 13 people 1 window no air con
everyone was dripping

so ive danced today, walked and done yoga
and im not tired
whereas at the start of this week i was barely getting through the day
i think the thing in my head must be waking but who knows
i can feel it tho

so ive had my leftover pasta for dinner now 2nd shower of the day

tomorrow i am going into the city centre with mum
shes got a 'list' im yet to see this list and im sure we''ll get through it
hope its not gonna be boiling tho
i dont need anything im just going to spend time with mummy