Slightly better day

Evening~

look who 'got through' another day

i slept better as i was in bed for 9pm but i didnt fall asleep right away
and i woke up at 11pm coughing
but soon fell asleep and woke up at 6:50am to the sound of dad getting up
my body must be hyper aware of listening out to my dad getting up
not wanting to miss my wake up call
so i got ready for school, didnt want to go but i said to myself
i wasnt gonna cry anymore
not this week anyway!

School was hectic as im still getting used to me pee-taking time table
im back to back with no breaks
so i had class then at 9am group work which i watched TA do
then class then at 11am i was suppose to go group work but id forgotten
as a 1000 other stuff happens in that stuff
all the staff say how crazy it is and how tired they are
it was lunch time and i went as soon as it was my lunch time
god only knows why we have to serve them food as every single day so far
ive seen the dinner staff stand around chatting! literally!
it really does make me question why it is we have to do it when clearly they have time
and only work for an hour

after lunch i was with the other class then break but during break I group work
which i watched the TA do again
im making the most of it as ive been told next week that im solo
i was suppose to have a further 2 other groups - solo this afternoon
but due to us being a TA down i was forced to take over a class
so i had half the class to myself in the craft room which went fine actually
and then i had the class to myself for 5 mins as we  waited for a teacher to come back
i managed fine
I was told to get down and play with children twice today by two members of staff
this annoyed me - internally - as first time i was shadowing a autistic child who rushes everywhere so the idea of getting up and down all the time is not gonna happen as im not wearing myself at 9:30 in the morning like that, secondly was they all had break time i didnt get break time i had group time so i was just having a moment ON A CHAIR observing the whole class 
i deserve that much it wasnt like i was on it for even 5 mins
some people
sod off
i went to log out for 4pm as theyre not getting any more out of me 
before i left i saw the head TA and she asked if i had a better i day i replied yes, couldnt be arsed to talk to her cus all i see in her eyes is regret, regret she chose me and i get the feeling she doesnt like me much or doesnt know what to make of me yet
i said "yesterday was just like crisis day"
she said "some times we have to reach rock bottom to get back up again"
i said "oh thats a regular occurrence in my life"
she looked horrified at me
i said "but its usually behind closed doors and not at school"
she did not impressed
but cant say im arsed
she doesnt know me or know what i have going off 
and i signed out and went home

had a brew and cereal as i have been doing lately
then got ready for school for tomorrow
then got ready for yoga
yoga was good, hard work but good karen worked us 
then home for dinner, shower, Oz bed
pattern to my life lately

tomorrow last day of school for the week thank bloody god
its also children in need day
so gotta wear spots for school
i only have one item of clothing with spots on would you believe
and thats blue leggings with white spots on
so gonna wear them and a jumper
then im doing yellow eye shadow, bear ear hair clips, and streaks in my hair
done
after school may see mia
my god i may socialise! D: forgotten how to do it

two days of no japanese
but at least i exercised today

 here is Ed's christmas card