Evening~~
I didn't sleep well
mum woke me by screaming in her sleep again -____- she only did that the other night!
that was at midnight and i got up for a wee
then I woke up at 5am and have been awake since
so Im tired
and did not want to go to school
School was hard work as per usual
its such a demanding job and I hate it
just doing everything there
its so political as well so much paper work and stuff to learn
agency work was so much easier i have to say
and it is tempting to return to agency work
but im trying to last til christmas
its just effecting my health
I asked if i could make a phone call at 9:15am to make an appointment
with the psychiatrist and when they answered im sure the woman told me
i could be looking at March time!! i thought 'is she for real!?'
ether way i couldnt get through to the psychiatrist and i asked if he could ring me
but he never did
lunch i sat in the staff room then did some yoga
it was indoor sodding play so the kids were hyper
i had the job of doing a bit of exercise with the whole class then reading them a story
went fine and i finished as the teacher returned
but kids were ready for a run around
i was late doing my groups as my watch seems to be going slow
but group work seemed to go fine
i was rushing round at the end of the day
and then someone said "you staying for the asthma meeting?"
i said "didnt realise there was one"
so i had to stay then for this meeting about a child i dont know and about his asthma it went on for an hour and i dont know now how to work an inhaler!
so id hate for him to have an attack on me
but i went to grab my phone cus i thought in case the psychiatrist rings me but id missed a call and it was from the psychologist he's back at work now
so as soon as i was done with the meeting i ran him up and im seeing him tuesday
even tho i was 45mins late finishing i wasnt too peeved as i have to stay an hour this week anyway to earn the inset day off so im taking it off that time
not getting anymore time from me thats for sure
luckily i did well with traffic coming home
i got home and had a brew before dinner and got my school stuff done
so i dont need to think about school again til tomorrow
still wont stop me waking up early and thinking about it no doubt
dont know how much longer i can do this for
hate it
dont know whats worse, hardly working or working at this school
ive got a telephone appointment tomorrow for the weekend job but its during school hours so ive had to email them to change that
might go for a walk tonight feel i need to get out and do something for me
tomorrow is another crappy school day
hopefully we will do P.E. this week tho as we didnt do it last week
im leaving school early too as I have a chiropractor appointment
so im leaving school 15-20mins early
thank god
ive counted how many school days i have before i finish for xmas its
13!!! just 13 more days to go!
here is a pot i ordered for mia for birthday/christmas
but because i forgot i ordered it i'll probably give her next year as ive brought her plenty already! Its a plant pot and you put a cactus in it to look like the 'bulb'
i need something to treat myself with i think
i have nothing to spend money on tho
feels pointless earning it in such a crap way
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