Barely slept -____- anxious about work
which was making me ache and feel sick
stupid really cus honestly what is there to be anxious about!?
how does it help thinking about it at midnight!? -___________-
not impressed and did not want to get up when I woke up at 7am
but I did and got myself ready for school
first day of work this year
School wow was i bombarded with information when I got there
I was to flit between 3 classrooms, work with specific children on specific work
and yeah the list went on and I could feel myself getting sick with anxiety
but to be honest I winged it and chilled out - just about
I was working with ages 5 - 6 years so yeah I was fine
and the staff I worked with were fine but very impersonal
I wasnt introduced to any class and some staff didnt even bother to catch my name!
but meh its part of being agency - your treated like an outsider
I came home at lunch and had hot chocolate and cake for lunch
a complete win for me XD
and rested as much as physically possible as I was shattered
cant say i wanted to go back to school but in my head i was telling
myself that it would help pay for manchester if i go next month with mia
at the end of the day i was told that i would be missing half my lunch on friday
to work with child >.> great
i came home and mum made me a tea and had got Oz in his hutch so i didnt have
the horrid daily task of trying to get him from out the shed
I had rang up at lunch the psychiatrist's secretary and asked for more antidepressants
and i had been given a message to say that the prescription was ready to collect
so i dashed out with mum at 4pm and got that so thats a good job done
then i came in and did a 30 min exercise video on youtube
god i had sweat on my neck and everything!
then i did 25mins of yoga and finally sat with Oz then had dinner
that was my day
im just gonna do some doodling now then shower, Oz, bed
tomorrow is school again
and been told it will be a similar day to today but different staff
hopefully it will go ok
and hopefully i will be able to sleep cus my god my eyes sting
oh yes and Ive been given an interview as a science technician on 17th January
cant say im hopeful about getting the job as theres always someone better out there than you isnt there but im still gonna give it a good go
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