Evening~~
I felt off again when I went to bed so took me til 12pm to sleep
but slept pretty well from that point on
My morning dancing went well I finished Twice TT
just got Juice=Juice Sexy Sexy to finish
so i danced for half hour then went into the shower
I was ages in the bathroom but had the house to myself
so it wasnt bothering anyone
so I went through and did my hair dye
PINK BROWN was the colour
it came out a red colour but i got on with it
and whilst that happily sat in my hair i bleached my eye brows
then i did a face pack whilst having another go with the epilator
i hardly felt it but that could be the pain killers XD
then i went and washed off
god the amount of colouring that was washed out was quite surprising
i came out the shower and i could see in my wet hair that there was a colour
so i proceeded to dry my hair and this was the outcome...
it looks florescent orange...
was not impressed! ive wrecked my hair!!!
thank god it comes out in 7 days thats all i can say
i rang mum to say she might be shocked when she comes home
then i recorded a dance i kept forgetting to record
mum came home saw my hair and said its a bit of a shock
yeah not happy
pink brown my arse
i gotta walk into work like this tomorrow!
my dad hasnt even noticed shows how much attention he pays to me
dont think hes spoke to me last 2 days
hes only spoken to me today to ask if im working tomorrow
its work work work work work with him
such a dull individual
i had lunch with mum
then i fell asleep for like 2 hours
so not taking my medication tomorrow im not falling asleep at work!
then i got up and finished the canvas and thats all up the wall now
looks ok its something different to look at anyway
sat with Oz with a brew he was like falling asleep on me
he hasnt been out much today cus its nothing but rained
My brother came home and opened his cards and presents
he LOVED the guinea pig toy i brought for him
i knew he would and ive been dying to show it him too
he liked his water coloured guinea pig card too ^^
i like making him happy
we got ready for yoga
yoga was alright it wasnt too hard work actually
i just felt a bit sick and dizzy half way through but i put that down to medication
i didnt give in tho
but my god my hips hurt doing yoga jesus like arthritis
i came back and warmed up the leftovers for me and mum
and now im gonna go in the shower (again) and use a pink conditioner
just to see if that will help my hair along any?...
Jack texted to say a pub in town we all went to a few weeks back
is doing a pokemon quiz on tuesday
my god id be so up for that!!! so i believe we're meeting at 6pm and attending that
that will be amazing i text tara to tell her
tomorrow i have work
should be ok as long as i dont get teased for my hair or my relationship with jack ><
we shall see
depending on the weather and how i feel i might go for a run after school
or at least dance anyway
Evening~
So last night I went out to the pub with Tara and James
it was good fun and the guy who does the quiz kindly reserved us a table
we showed off our disney pieces for the photo so we could get extra points
we had a few rounds and did quite well
apart from the round where you had know voice actors!
the answers i got right i ended up getting the right quickest in the room
so that was satisfying, i have good reactions
Jamese was making fun of me so we were bickering all evening
He said I was spacing out a lot but i think thats the medication
cus my god am i in my own world lately!
we finished at 9:30pm and came 3rd
we won a bottle of wine which i let tara and james have as its
of no use to me, wine is horrid!
I came home, got ready for bed and sat with the tens machine on
it took me til 12:30 to get to sleep
but apart from that the night wasnt too horrendous
whilst i was out with tara and james, friends from work went out to a pudding place
and had cookie dough :/ i was a bit sad i missed it but i enjoyed myself
and said id like to join everyone next time
in the morning i took my medication
and felt sick again
its like the first hour you feel sick then it kinda passes
i did an hour's worth of dancing
i was so sweaty! even my stomach was sweaty! hows that possible!?
i did finish OnePixcel - we go now
i love it so much ive just got to perfect it now
got to move onto finishing Juice=Juice sexy sexy and Twice TT
might finish another tonight or tomorrow
i had a shower and then cleaned out the pets
then i started sewing the canvas and I have managed to get it all sewn
ive got to sew details on then i can attach it to the canvas and its done
hasnt taken me long
i got my £3 top in the post but i hated the design on the front and luckily I was
able to unpick it so thats gone and ive replaced it with ribbons
i sat with Ozwald who was just being a little devil
got him to look forward to tonight
i did save him from a cat earlier today bless him
think thats been my day cus i spent a couple of hours in and out of sleep
the afternoons have been crashing down on me since i started these painkillers
mum says i look rough
i dont think i should take em if i have work thats for sure
i hope they help me sleep tonight
oh we watched a comedy the other night called Warren it was quite good
been a while since ive seen a decentish comedy
tomorrow i think im gonna exercise in the morning
then dye my hair, dye my eye brows, use the epilator so yeah im spending some time in the bathroom when everyone goes out XD then ill probably finish the canvas, wish my brother a happy birthday too as i cant wait for him to open his present! and then we have yoga
Evening~
So last night I took one of my new stronger pain killers
thinking id be fine
man i was wrong
i felt like throwing up I felt dizzy and really tired
did lessen my pain and make me want to sleep
luckily i was in bed whilst i felt this way so i was able to just nod off
and i did sleep pretty well again
I didnt wake til 8am ether
I took the pain killers again in the morning and almost nodded off
but i motivated myself and did 20 mins of yoga
followed by a good run, i did really well ^^ and i enjoyed it too
i came back and showered
then mum came home so i sat and had a brew with her then we went
to go get a canvas as i have an idea what i want to do for a canvas
then we went food shopping
we came in and she kindly made me a salad
then after i ate it i totally fell asleep
honestly just went in the sofa
im not enjoying new medication
i do not want to be zombiefied all the time
i got up and sorted through fabrics, ironed them and began cutting
then mum made me a cup of tea and cut me a piece of nutella cake
so i sat and had that then continued with cutting out the fabric
i have it all cut out now
i sat and drew a picture for my thoughts book
drew a wolf i will photograph it in better light tomorrow
then i had dinner and got ready for pub quiz
disney pub quiz with tara and james
everyone from work is going to the pub quiz in the city
were its a harry potter quiz im sad im missing going out with them
but i suck at harry potter so i wouldnt be of much help anyway
but its good to socialise with them
then again ive not seen them all since me and jack were going out
so ive probably missed a good grilling XD
im gonna have a quick sit with Oz before i go just in case im too late to have
him out when i get home
tomorrow not sure what i will do as of yet
depends how i feel i guess
here is the other figure i got in the post
its Maki from LoveLive!
i love her pearly tights
shes on the opposite side to Kotori
she was wrapped in japanese magazine which i found most interesting so i took photos of my favourite graphics on it
got to take another pain killer tonight >.>
Evening
I slept reasonably well for the 3rd night
still not sleeping all the way through but beggers cant be choosers
I got up and I went doctors i had an appointment at 9am
the 3rd appointment of the day
by 9:25am i still hadnt been seen....he totally sucks as a doctor
whats more he completely had no interest or care in what i had to say
it was like he was right - end of
he gave me two choices - both of which i wasnt happy with
ether up my nerve numbing pain killer
or up my antidepressant
i didnt want anymore medication so to hear him upping it i was not happy
i wanted actual help not more medication
he then said ive got to have a blood test....
yeah Jo was not happy this morning
i have got to have a test to see if theres inflammation in my joints
i came away wanting to scream and burn the place down
i got home and danced it out my system
quite enjoying the dances im learning currently
then i showered
sat with a brew
then got ready for work
it would be the first time ive worked since me and Jack started going out
i wasnt worried
i got to school and all seemed fine really
we talked like normal
my hours consisted of washing up
just shed loads of washing up...dull but gotta be done
at least i have company whilst im doing it
Jack told me he ended up telling everyone at work about us ><
i only saw alan today and he didnt say a thing about our relationship
not sure the same can be said when i see more people as the week goes on
but jack has asked them to go easy on me XD
he went and viewed a property to rent after school
hes set on moving out which will be good
we talked about stuff and i casually said "im just waiting for your patience to wear thin"
he said "any other girl id be taking that as 'shes had enough and wants to break up' whereas with you you literally mean it" XD
we talked about pokemon and i was surprised we like the same pokemon in our parties, out of all the 100s there are to choose from we like the same
good minds think a like it seems
but he said he was relieved that work wasnt awkward between us now
it felt like nothing had changed, well thats how i felt anyway
so thats all good :) i walked all over him before he asked me out anyway XD
i did some yoga when i was home cus i needed to stretch out from washing up
i got my hair dye in the post and a figure
here's my new figure
kotori from Lovelive got her for £6.50 as no one bidded! she looks a bit alice in wonderlandy i think im waiting for another figure then im done
i had leftover pasta for dinner i made yesterday
and then mum had made nutella cake! well good ^^
after dinner me and my brother went out
just shops and then he was kind enough to take me to pick up my new stronger pain killers
so i can start them tonight
they should - acording to the doctor - help me with my sleep
we shall see
tomorrow
not 100% certain what i will do tomorrow
id like to maybe do a run
then in the evening im going to a disney pub quiz with tara and james!
should be good ^^
and you get extra points if you wear something disney so im wearing my only disney item of clothing, a mickey mouse jumper
tonight i will sit with the tens machine and listen to music which is what ive been doing past few nights it has been settling me, makes me be still
Evening~
I ordered a few more clothes last night :3
that brings the clothes order up to 9 items so far
I had another night of sleeping reasonably well
I did't wake til 7:50am ether
it was soooo foggy this morning you could even see the moisture swirling in the air
I went and saw mia and rob
she made me a cup of tea and we had a catch up
it was good to see her
and i told her about me and jack
she went red and giddy which i thought was a cute reaction but i didnt say anything
so she quizzed me a lil and then rob joined in XD
but on the whole the interrogation wasnt as bad as i thought it was going to be
i left a couple of hours later as mia was trying to get me to bake her a cake to take to work
i draw the line at baking a cake i will never taste
i came home and made myself a salad and ate outside it was sunny
so i just sat by myself and i could see millie could smell my salad as she was squeaking
but no sound obviously, just too cute for words tho
i laid on my bed for an hour i ached and i felt so cold
dont know why i suddenly ran so cold
so i just rested really
then at 3pm i decided it was too sunny outside to waste the day indoors
so i went for an hours walk by myself just listening to Onepixcel really
it was nice as i went out in just a jumper no jacket or coat!
i came back and had a shower then a brew
i made dinner for everyone mum helped a bit
and thats been my day really
i ordered 2 bits of make up
so thats 9 clothing items, 2 make up and i think 3 figures to come
yep post man is gonna be fed up of me this month XD
tomorrow i have doctors at 9am im going about my pain and how its stopping me from sleeping
god knows what can be done there tho but i can try
then i will no doubt exercise as ill be home alone
then i will have work and be interesting to see how Jack treats me at work
im not worried about it and its only 3 hours tomorrow so should be fine
heres a hoodie i got new in the post for £6 last week
this is just the design i think its Link from Zelda
Evening~
I slept quite well considering how much i slept during
the day yesterday
so i was impressed with myself
i didnt go to bed til 10:45pm tho usually im in bed for 9pm
but couldnt sleep so did yoga and sat with tens machine on
I woke up at 8am as well which is late for me
I went out to the shops with mum this morning
and i picked up a skirt, a dress top and a jumper
it was worth going and mum got a fair bit too ^^
I came back and cleaned the pets out
molly gave me a right ear full just cus i was getting her out of the hay nest she'd mess
i tell you she can dish the abuse out XD
i sat drawing and working on the picture I said Id draw for Jack
i had a bit of base for this but changed bits and added my own spin on it
i just needed a bit of guidance with the horse
i sent him the outline and he was impressed ^^
i will continue with it another time
i did some dancing as i was home alone
so i set to work learning 3 new dances
juice=juice - sexy sexy
twice - TT
Onepixcel - we go now
love em~
i had a shower and rang Ed as he'd called me twice
i told him about jack and he was winding me up with this and that
annoys me how he knows how to annoy me and wasnt there to beat to a pulp XD
but he was happy for me :)
i made myself dinner
then sat looking at clothes and ordered the odd thing
i really dont pay much for my clothes
i then decided to have a clear out of my wardrobe
i didnt go mental but i did fill a bin liner full.....
i was well over due a sort it soon became apparent ><
i have a drawing i need to do for my book
but whether i do it tonight depends on what time i have left
tomorrow im seeing mia in the morning
gonna get such a grilling from her when she finds out i have a boyfriend...
guess its best to get it over with and not to put it off any longer XD
not sure what i will do for rest of day
Konbanwa~
Normally in bed at this time XD
I slept quite well last night
i woke up at 7:10am
let Oz out and got a drink
then went to bed to curl up and be warm as I was cold
and the strangest thing happened
i fell asleep!! that never ever happens!
mum didnt dare wake me XD i only had an hour tho
so I still had plenty of time to get up and get ready to go out
we headed into the city centre
we went round only a few shops as mum got what she needed
i found the coolest pajamas they have sea panda on XD
and sooooo soft and stretchy - had to be brought
well cool huh
need to have a sleep over in them buggers
we headed for a new tea cafe
they had so many teas to choose from and it was all victorian styled
we had caramel cream tea which was so nice
then we shared a piece of unicorn cake which was really nice and sweet
glad i shared a piece anyway
then we went home
i went to bed
i had had enough of being in pain and feeling crappy
mum said ive looked white all day
just having an off day it would seem
i spoke to her whilst in the tea room
basically when i went to manchester with mia
i kinda realised how grown up she looks and she dresses her age
and at first it didnt bother me
until i went pub quiz the other week with those from work
and i kinda looked at my wardrobe and even tho im comfy in what i what i wear
i wondered how those around me would judge me
as i have started to realise i dress a bit young...
i dress like im 20
well thats how i feel i dress
mum says i always leave the house presentable
so im starting to wonder whether i need to address my dress situation
and whilst i dont want to look generic and like everyone else i still i want to be me
i dont want to stand out but i dont want to look like everyone else
im still me
im slowly maturing and some ways are lagging behind more than others
my illnesses had a massive affect on me maturing
and i feel ive only just noticed that i havent matured in the way i look
people say i dont look 27 anyway which is probably a good thing
but maybe i need to start dressing my age
dont wanna look weird
but this decision has had to come from me
it had to be when im ready
no one else has said anything to me its something ive noticed and want to progress
so i spent quite a while on my laptop looking at styles
and clothes on ebay
i ordered a few pieces but its hard as i noticed somethings are ether
expensive
too tidy looking for me
too cold
too much skin on show
i will get there it will be a gradual process i imagine
i didnt get any drawing done
i went on a walk with mum instead as it was such a lovely day
we were both stiff from yoga too XD
tomorrow probably dance and draw
Evening
Im so damn tired its just not even fair anymore
i couldnt sleep last night think i was up til 2am
just in my own personal hell of pain laying in bed
kept waking up
when i woke up at 7:15am i practically jumped out of bed not wanting to spend
another bloody minute in it
like torture at times
i got ready to see Jack today
we were set to do mini golf
we met and did a few errands he had to do first
then we lined up for mini golf
it was busy as its school holidays
and my punishment for jack was to carry my bag for the remainder of the day
his for me was to reign in my energy and be more ladylike XD not happening
so as we went round it soon became apparent that i was gonna win this
i was doing quite well
but in the end the score was pretty close
i still won
so he held my bag
and its nice that he plays along with my games instead of having a hissy fit and backing out like a lot of men would, i do have a lot of fun with him
we said we'd eat so we looked for somewhere
and in the end went in a pub and shared a pizza
it was really good too
then seeing as it was such a lovely day we decided to go get ice cream
i had peanut butter chocolate chip it was good
we ate outside too and sat talking in the sun til we had to part ways
im getting more used to him slowly
i can just about hold his hand but still makes me nervous
not seeing him now til monday ><
he waited at my bus stop with me which is always nice of him
the only thing i brought was some hand cream as my hands are sore
but i brought that before i met up with him
i came home
and literally crashed on the sofa
mum brought me Oz and a brew i was very grateful
then we went yoga
which was bloody hard as all i wanted to do was sleep
sleep my days away
and i know i dont sleep on a yoga night
so i just want to kill myself tonight
my thoughts keep wondering down dark places tonight
but i think its fatigue and pain
hopefully wont slash wrists in the night
tomorrow think me and mum are going city centre
swear ive been there loads this week XD but dont mind
we havent done it in a while and said we'd check out a new tea room
here are too figures i brought~ (already had Chino the blue girl)
Evening~~
I took a sleeping tablet last night
i was so tired that i felt it could be worth a go
i did get off to sleep about 9:30pm
I woke up at 4am i think to literally turn over then i fell back to sleep
had a dream i had a job of putting monsters on a train
random
I woke up at 8:15 am
so all in all pretty damn good
still came with the gross taste in my mouth tho
so Ive had that all day, that and ive felt pretty out of it all day
like drowsy all day, very subdued anyway
I still got up and did half hour of dancing, somehow
i enjoyed it as it got me moving but my god my joints clicked
shows i stayed still all night
i had a shower then went on my laptop for a lil while
I sat and did some painting but it totally 100% sucked and did not
come out how i intended so it went straight in the bin!
need another idea for a canvas now
I did a doodle for my thought book, the idea came to me yesterday
at least that came out kinda alright
its the book im only allowed to spend 30mins on a drawing
i fell asleep for a lot of the afternoon
i was cold so thats why i originally crawled in my bed
to be warm and read and just fell asleep i think i was so drowsy it was gonna happen
but i couldnt be bothered to get up
i got up and started planning out Jack's nerd picture but i wasnt in the total
right frame of mind to do it
i made the decision that tomorrow me and jack will hopefully go crazy golf in the city centre
ive done it before and he says hes not great at golf but nether am i
so i asked him if he wanted to play punishment game
and he said i like being cruel and adding pressure XD
if i can make him squirm i will
so by 8pm tonight we have to announce our punishments
i think mine will be that i will make him carry my bag for the rest of the day
im gonna take a purple girly one just in case i win
god knows what he will make me do tho
kinda nervous to find out as i do want to sleep tonight and not just worry all night XD
we're meeting up at 11am and leaving a 4pm as he's seeing his nerd friends
and ive got yoga to attend
so at least i have something going on tomorrow
as for tonight i might do some dancing and sort out stuff for tomorrow
Evening
Hardly slept
i am truly shattered
honestly just so damn tired
when will this end!!!
its been months since Ive slept through the night
I got up at 7:15am
did my morning routine and then had a shower
and got ready to see Jack
I got into the city centre pretty early so I went in a few shops
and its just as well cus he was a lil late but i wasnt arsed as i people watch
We walked up to the kitty cafe and was told it was fully booked
but had a half hour slot for £6 each and i kinda just thought i wasnt that arsed
so we walked round to find a suitable cafe to sit in
and he showed me his nerdery book and we made a character
that i wrote down so i can hopefully draw it
its gonna take some drawing as well cus theyres a sodding horse to contend with
we stayed there and shared a slice of cake which was good
then we walked down to the bowling alley
we booked a lane for 3pm and until then we played pool
the table was totally wrecked but it was free
i lost all 3 games but not bothered
bowling on the other hand i thrashed him at
it was 65 points to 106!! i did really well ^^
we set each other 'punishments' if we lost
mine was that i got to make him wear my massive unicorn necklace i had one
his was i had to hold his hand
just him saying that made me nervous
and i was determined to win
after the game i didnt make him wear my necklace outside i felt too cruel doing that
we walked to a pub and sat in there with a hot chocolate
and he put the necklace on
we talked and decided that i could just about hold his hand
it was nerve wracking for some reason
and my cheeks felt hot i felt so nervous
never felt stuff like this before
we sat like that for a while i was a bit quiet as i felt so damn tired
he asked if i was ok and i was i was just done in
and i dont think hes ever seen me so tired XD
usually im always hyper beans round him
i told him one day he'd see me worn out
he walked me to my bus stop and waited with me
i got home and had dinner
im so tired now
literally cant even be bothered to do my diary
i might take a sleeping tablet tonight cus im hoping it will knock me out
i got my tens machine out last night to help with pain
been years since i used it
guess it helped a bit
next time i see jack will be thursday as im busy friday and hes busy saturday
not sure what we're doing as of yet
tomorrow id like to start my painting
2 figures came today so ive placed them in my room but might have a switch round yet
its looking different tho my room is
Evening~~
Didn't sleep
woke up at 1am feeling like i was gonna be sick
i think i ached that much i just felt sick so i got up
and had a sickness tablet and cereals to take the taste away
i was back in bed for 2am
still didnt sleep great and had an awful dream about orphan children being squished under heavy machinery it was like a warehouse that too orphans to basically kill them, they fed them hay and just made them into a pulp, some believed they would get some went mad, i could fly (somehow XD) and was trying to find a way in to try and save some but couldnt get in anywhere
woke up after i watched just too much blood
my subconscious is a frightening thing considering i dont watch horror stuff
i felt so damn tired this morning
mentally and physically
but still i got on with my day
i sorted bits out in my room and it is looking tidier
i mean it was tidy it just had a lot of stuff on display
took posters down and new ones up
made my brother a bday card
drew out a canvas
did dancing til i was dripping in sweat
washed my car
sat with my ozwald
i also told mum and me and jack now its finally sunk in
i was struggling to find the right moment as i was nervous about telling her for some reason
i think cus it meant revealing how i really felt and meant i had to talk about my other self
she was dead happy for me and hugged me and everything
yeah she thinks someone might take care of me and ill be free from her hands XD
nah she was good and happy for me ^^
she seems to think jack sounds nice ><
just got mia to tell -____- yeah thats gonna be 50 questions right there and then XD
i put some music on my ipod ive been meaning to do for a while now
got too many dances i want to learn! thats my trouble now ><
gonna just do a bit dance rehearsal tonight then sit with oz
and hopefully, my god hopefully sleep
im getting so tired i just cant think
and i dont wanna look like death when i see jack tomorrow
tomorrow
going kitty cafe with jack ^^
then were gonna look at this game book he's got so i can help design him a character so i can draw it for him :)
suppose to be seeing mia but not heard from her
here is a face oil i brought for £7 from korea
i wasnt sure how id get on with a face oil but im hooked!
ive used it for a few days now and im so shocked at how well it absorbs and how soft my skin is the next day! i love it! and they do different ones this one is vitamin C for dry skin as my skin this time of year is dry. but ive got mum into it and shes ordered her own but anti wrinkle one which im gonna try just to see if it feels the same but its great stuff ^^ better than creams anyway
Evening~~
God I hardly slept
I fell asleep really quite quickly last night
but woke up at 11:45pm to the sound of mum's car alarm going off :S
bit weird
then woke up at 12:30, 1:45, 2:30 and stayed awake til 5:30am
dont think i really slept that well from 5:30am
so I was tired when I woke up at 7:30
and I'll tell you what was keeping me up
thinking of jack! how frustrating is that!?
honestly what good does thinking about stuff do during the night -____-
did my head in
could not tune off
all sorts of questions were mulling through my mind
how long will it last? when I will tell people? will he regret it? how long before i get used to him?
just stuff which i guess boils down to insecurities on my part ><
so i was suppose to go over to tara's today for...
WAFFLE DAY!
a day we've wanted to do since before christmas
but because of one thing or another we've had to cancel it
but today it finally happened. when tara finally got round to texting me anyway
i went over around 11am
she had got Blue over - her family's staffie
never met him before
he's 9 years old and totally mentally
like if he was a human he'd be easily diagnosed with ADHD
he just mad and full of energy despite being on a 90min walk in the morning and tara telling me that this was him 'good' crazy
so we sat talking for a bit
she couldnt believe jack had asked me out
to be honest nether can i
we went to make the waffles
i had two
one with white chocolate + chocolate spread
the other white chocolate + peanut butter
first one was best
and i didnt go too hyper on sugar
then we attempted to play on her wii but blue kept getting in the way and you cant lock him out of rooms as he goes crazy
we sat in the living room with james and i had a real long play fight with blue
first with toys then just with my bare hands
i have quite a lot of red teeth marks on my hands XD doesnt hurt
and im not scared in the slightest of dogs
so yeah i was practically rolling on the floor with him and tara and james watching our fight, blue was growling so much XD but kept coming back for more!
they liked how i could play with him as they said some friends find him scary
then we walked him back to tara's mum's house
were i met her younger brother who i believe is 22
i could see the resemblance but they didnt look too much alike and he was pleasant
reminded me of my brother to be honest
and they get on well
so after we dropped blue off there we walked back to tara's and had the bunnies out
they covered me in fur -___-
we sat and talked and i finally told her about my split personality as i kept forgetting to tell her!
she was fine with it and didnt bother her
i dont know why last year i worried so much about my mental health and what others would think of me to be honest. everyone has been accepting of it
it hasnt scared anyone off anyway
then i went home at 5:15pm
got in and took my make up off and put stuff away and had dinner
jack text to ask about my day
i told him i ate my weight in waffles and had a fight with a staffie
he replied
"im reading that as: you went on a sugar high and attacked a dog"
i burst out laughing, the guy knows me XD
turns out he didnt sleep great ether cus he was too happy he says
i like how hes happy and im just nervous, scared and insecure
life is unfair >.>
not his fault or anything its just my mentalness
tonight im gonna do some yoga or dancing or something
shower and sit with Ozwald
might try the epliator tonight
i feel like having a go
dealing with the pain
tomorrow just gonna entertain myself really
got sorting of bedroom to do and creative stuff and my car wants a wash
here is the LAST Noragami manga i ordered
the last of a series
so thats another series of manga completed i collect
im gonna read em when i can~
