Normally in bed at this time XD
I slept quite well last night
i woke up at 7:10am
let Oz out and got a drink
then went to bed to curl up and be warm as I was cold
and the strangest thing happened
i fell asleep!! that never ever happens!
mum didnt dare wake me XD i only had an hour tho
so I still had plenty of time to get up and get ready to go out
we headed into the city centre
we went round only a few shops as mum got what she needed
i found the coolest pajamas they have sea panda on XD
and sooooo soft and stretchy - had to be brought
well cool huh
need to have a sleep over in them buggers
we headed for a new tea cafe
they had so many teas to choose from and it was all victorian styled
we had caramel cream tea which was so nice
then we shared a piece of unicorn cake which was really nice and sweet
glad i shared a piece anyway
then we went home
i went to bed
i had had enough of being in pain and feeling crappy
mum said ive looked white all day
just having an off day it would seem
i spoke to her whilst in the tea room
basically when i went to manchester with mia
i kinda realised how grown up she looks and she dresses her age
and at first it didnt bother me
until i went pub quiz the other week with those from work
and i kinda looked at my wardrobe and even tho im comfy in what i what i wear
i wondered how those around me would judge me
as i have started to realise i dress a bit young...
i dress like im 20
well thats how i feel i dress
mum says i always leave the house presentable
so im starting to wonder whether i need to address my dress situation
and whilst i dont want to look generic and like everyone else i still i want to be me
i dont want to stand out but i dont want to look like everyone else
im still me
im slowly maturing and some ways are lagging behind more than others
my illnesses had a massive affect on me maturing
and i feel ive only just noticed that i havent matured in the way i look
people say i dont look 27 anyway which is probably a good thing
but maybe i need to start dressing my age
dont wanna look weird
but this decision has had to come from me
it had to be when im ready
no one else has said anything to me its something ive noticed and want to progress
so i spent quite a while on my laptop looking at styles
and clothes on ebay
i ordered a few pieces but its hard as i noticed somethings are ether
expensive
too tidy looking for me
too cold
too much skin on show
i will get there it will be a gradual process i imagine
i didnt get any drawing done
i went on a walk with mum instead as it was such a lovely day
we were both stiff from yoga too XD
tomorrow probably dance and draw
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