Made it through some how

Otsukararesama deshita

I didnt sleep well
just couldnt sleep and my leg was throbbing in bed
i got up for work and felt stupidly dizzy like my brain cant keep up with my
eyes movements
but still i thought it would pass

got to work some how
driving dizzy is no fun
got to work and felt terrible
like literally felt like i was gonna pass out
people said i looked awful

jack said on several occassions to go home
but i didnt want to give in
its my 3rd week i cant have a sick day so soon
so i kept going
having hot and cold sweats all sodding day even now
so i had my lab coat on and off
i slept through lunch
i didnt eat anything as i felt sick
jack said i was being stubborn but eventually gave me encouragement to keep going

i got through the day
god knows how
i felt like death 
a few times i thought i was actually gonna faint
i got my work done
i hurt my knee just with all the carrying and pushing i had to do today

jack was needy
gave me a few hugs today
clearly missing me
and said this week we need to spend some actual time together
its nice feeling needed i guess
he was like "we need to go on an actual date this week"
i said "does staying in playing games count?"
he said "no"
i said "sleeping in?"
he said "i do love sleeping in"
he was so late out of bed today he didnt have time to do lunch so had to buy lunch as he pressed snooze 8 times...
i told him if i was there i would have got his sorry butt outta bed

i had my last hypnotherapy session straight after work
i could not be arsed but i attended
its alll done now
she said i should sleep tonight anyway
and to return should i need anymore help

i came home had dinner and my second shower of the day cus my god i had not stopped sweating all day, no one else was sweating but me. jack felt my forehead and said i was burning up
i hope so much i am feeling fine tomorrow
i dont want to be sick
but maybe thats why i wasnt myself for the whole weekend :/

i keep getting told to take better care of myself...